After Everyone Died (The Survivor Journals Book 1)

by Sean Little

  “A bunch of people are just immune to the super virus. They survive. That’s the only explanation I can give at the moment.”

  She uncurled in the bed, grimacing from pain as she did, and looked at the ceiling. “How many people did you lose?”

  “All of them. What kind of question is that?”

  “I meant how many people close to you. Family.”

  “My parents. My girlfriend and her family. My friends at school. I was going to be a senior in high school before the Flu hit. Grade Twelve, I guess you say in Canada. How about you?”

  There was a long silence. She eventually held up her left hand and showed me a ring. “My husband, Richard. My son. My daughter. My parents. My best friend. I watched all of them die.”

  “That’s horrible,” I said. I couldn’t imagine losing a child. As if to let me know that I could, Rowdy gave little bark. In his sleep, he was chasing something. His back legs moved slightly as he ran in his dream.

  “Why me? Why us?” she said. “It makes no sense. Who am I? Why did I survive? Who are you, and why did you survive?”

  I said nothing. There was nothing to say to that. I had no answers, either. “Tell me about your kids,” I said. It was the only thing I could think to say. Maybe she was desperate to talk about them.

  “They are dead. They were wonderful, but now they are dead. They are dead and I am alive. What more can I say about them?”

  “What were their names?”

  Meri paused. She licked her lips and hesitated. Saying the names aloud was painful to her. “Henri and Lily.”

  “How old were they?”

  “Henri was seven. Lilly was only two. She was the first to die. Henri went quickly after. My husband lasted another day after Henri.” Meri said it all without emotion. She could have been reading the list of ingredients from a cereal box. “Then I was alone. I wanted to kill myself.”

  “Why didn’t you?”

  She waved a hand in a careless circle. Her fingers made a gun and she mimed shooting herself in the side of the head. “Maybe I did. Maybe we both did. Maybe this is what happens to people who kill themselves. Is anything real anymore?”

  I couldn’t answer that either, so instead I blurted, “I was going to kill myself, but a tornado stopped me.” I hadn’t felt that stupid since I crotch-punched myself swatting a mosquito the previous summer.

  Meri actually stopped staring at the ceiling in order to roll her head forward and goggle at my idiocy. She laughed aloud, one short, quick laugh. “How did a tornado stop you from killing yourself?”

  I had to tell her the story of the gun and the tornado that destroyed my old neighborhood. When I finished, she said, “That sounds unbelievable.”

  “It is truth,” I said. “Honest. When you get better, I can show you my old neighborhood.”

  “If I get better,” she said. “I died when my children died, and I died again when Richard died. Recovering from their deaths was hard enough. And then I died again after that. I don’t know that I have the strength to recover anymore. Perhaps it’s time for me to finally die.” Meri curled into a ball again, rolling herself to face away from me. There was a long, tenuous silence. I wanted her to speak more, but I didn’t know if she would, or if she wanted to.

  “What was his name?” I asked. “The man who held you prisoner?”

  Meri held up an arm. “My wrists?”

  “Looks like handcuffs to me.”

  “He will come looking for me,” she said. “He is...crazy. A beast.”

  “What happened?”

  “I am tired now,” Meri said. She shrugged her covers up to her shoulders. “I feel awful. I am hot and then cold, and then hot again. My stomach hurts.”

  I tried to redirect her. “If he’s coming to find you, I could use all the information I can get so I can protect you.”

  “You are a boy. He will kill you without thinking.”

  “I hope it won’t come to that,” I said. I looked at the pistol next to me. I hadn’t even successfully shot a deer. Other than a cow at point-blank range, I was not a gunman of any sort.

  Meri didn’t speak. I think she was trying to feign sleep. I walked to the bed and stood at her feet. “Meri, if this guy is coming for you, the more prepared I am, the better the chance both of us have. I can tell he handcuffed you, kept you against your will. I bet he shot you, too. Probably when you escaped, right? What happened?”

  She did not move, but her voice was small under the blankets. “You are not like him, you know. Thank you for that.”

  “Then tell me,” I said. “Please.”

  Meri rolled to her back and sighed. “Get me an ice pack for my forehead again, and I will try to tell you.”

  I did as she asked. I popped the cold pack and shook it to distribute. I put it on her forehead and she sighed again. Her eyes closed for a long moment. She looked horrible. Her skin looked gray and clammy. Her eyes had deep circles under them.

  “I was in Thunder Bay when the Flu struck. I lived with my husband and children. My husband drove a truck. I had a job at a flower shop. I took my son to hockey practice. Pretty typical blue-collar Canadian life, really. When everyone died and I didn’t, I spent the summer just staring at the walls of my house. I had nothing better to do. I pissed in the backyard because we had no running water. I went for walks through my boarded-up, shuttered town. I was waiting to die, you know?”

  “I felt the same way for a little while.”

  She nodded. “When summer started to turn to fall, I realized that I couldn’t live in Thunder Bay without heat. I hadn’t done anything to prepare for the winter. My house didn’t even have a wood-burning stove. I needed to move south. So, I used a gas siphon to fill up my car’s tank and I drove south. I made it just outside of Duluth, Minnesota when I passed another living person, a man. He was cutting wood alongside a highway. I was so overjoyed to see someone else that I didn’t think. I slammed on the brakes and stopped my car. I jumped out and ran to him. I was going to ask him to go south with me.”

  “I assume this is the man who handcuffed you?”

  “He told me his name was David or something like that, but that I was to call him Adam from that moment on. And he said he was going to call me Eve. He said that God sent me to him, and that God gave him the Earth as his new paradise. He said that he and I were to repopulate the Earth, as God had commanded him.”

  I know that I said something stupid at that point, well, not said, but more of an exhalation of something stupid. Something like “Hoo, boy” or equally dumb. I honestly felt terrible for her at that moment. It was my great fear, that I’d find someone else alive and they’d be insane or irrational. I’m all for believing in God if that floats your boat, but to take it a step further and see a mutated virus as a plague that was meant to kill all mankind so that you could be the one to repopulate the planet, that was a leap of logic that I hoped to avoid. Meri didn’t hear my stupidity, or at least chose to ignore it.

  She continued her story, “I tried to run away right there, but before I could restart my car, this madman was in my window. He hit me in the face and dragged me from my car. I tried to fight him, but he was tough, large. He was also one of those guys who believed in the apocalypse long before the Flu. He had a compound, a fully-stocked compound, with guns and ammunition, with food and supplies. He dragged me there in his truck, handcuffed me to bed, and basically became my jailer, my provider, and my rapist for the course of the winter. He would make me read the Bible to him while he cleaned his guns at night. I tried to escape, but if he caught me trying to peel one handcuff off my wrist, he would put on a second one and stretch my arms apart. Once winter hit, he knew that I could go nowhere. To leave would be to freeze to death, so he gave me more free reign during that the cold months, but every night I was handcuffed to the bed again. He would rape me and claim that he was trying to make babies for the Lord.”

  “You’re lucky you didn’t get pregnant.”

  “Lucky?” She look
ed at me through narrowed eyes.

  “I mean,” I stammered stupidly for a second, insensitive dolt that I am. “I just meant…you know. I’m sorry. I’m an idiot.”

  “It wasn’t luck,” said Meri. She pointed to a spot on her arm where some raised bumps showed. “Jadelle,” she said. “I think it was called Norplant in America. It’s a long-term birth control. I had this implanted a few months before the Flu started.” She heaved a sigh and wiped a tear from the corner of her eye. “The rape I could deal with. I don’t know what I would have done if I had to deal with carrying that man’s child. Or worse, trying to raise a child near that man.”

  “Was he abusive, I mean besides the rape and kidnapping?”

  “Not at first. I think he really thought he was a servant of God. When he first kept me, the handcuffs and the nightly rape was as bad as it got. Thankfully, the rape never lasted long. He would do what he wanted, finish quickly, and then read the Bible. As the winter progressed though, he began to get angry as the weeks progressed without me getting pregnant. I was very glad he never inspected my arm. I doubt he had any idea that I was on birth control. Anyhow, as the winter progressed, he would start drinking in the late afternoons. He would scream at me, curse me. He would slap me, but never to the point where it could really hurt me. He would go on long, elaborate rants about how I was to be a vessel for his son, the new son of God. He believed that we were chosen for a reason. I endured months of this stupidity. I wanted to scream back at him, I wanted to tell him that a real God never would have taken my children from me while I held them in my arms. I wanted to tell him that a kind and loving God would have put me on a path to avoid that man. I wanted to tell him that given the abundant evidence of death around us, the odds of there being a God were about the same as me ever loving him as he commanded to me that I must.” She winced and blew a breath through clenched teeth.

  I gave her some water to sip along with some valium for the pain. “How did you get away?”

  Meri took the pill and water gratefully. She licked her lips. “Just like how anyone gets away; he made one mistake. We carried on in our routine for months. Spring came, and I still wasn’t pregnant. He was drinking more and more. He would leave and raid liquor stores and homes in the area and bring back huge boxes of booze. He was drinking heavily one night and passed out while he was trying to rape me. He fell asleep on the bed next to me. He usually slept in his own bed in a different room. His pants were still around his knees, so I reached into the pocket and found the key to the handcuffs. I handcuffed him to the bed and proceeded to try to gather clothes and food to make an escape.”

  She paused and rubbed her eyes. “I should have just shot him. I don’t know why I didn’t. There were guns all over the place. I could have easily put a bullet in his head.”

  “It’s not easy to kill,” I said.

  “Have you killed?”

  “I put a cow out of its misery,” I said.

  “I should have put that man out of his misery,” said Meri. “Instead, I ran. I loaded supplies into his truck. I got food and water. I got blankets and a tent. He was overloaded with supplies; he wouldn’t need them. It took me too long to do everything. Somehow, before I was done, he awoke. I heard him screaming and cursing. I had only handcuffed one of his hands, so he could still move too much. I should have done more.” She paused, shaking her head slowly. “I should have killed him.”

  She spoke with a vigor that she hadn’t mustered, by then, as if the memory of the panic was fueling her. “Instead, he started jerking the bed around, trying to smash it. I had thrown the key far into the woods, so I knew he wouldn’t get free immediately, but if he broke the bedstead apart, he would be free. Even if he was dragging the head of the bed with him, he could still hurt me. I ran into his shed and got that handgun I had last night. He had three vehicles: a car and two pickup trucks. I shot the tires of the car and one of the trucks and jumped into the other truck. It didn’t want to start, but I stomped on the gas pedal and screamed at it until it did.

  “Adam came out of his house with a small rifle in his hands. He was red-faced and screaming like a wounded bear. He yelled that I was his property and he raised the gun. I slammed the truck into drive and hit the gas so hard that I sprayed rocks and dirt for a few seconds as the truck tried to get traction. He fired once. From the height he had on his porch, the bullet shattered the passenger window and hit me in the side. I fired back at him as I left, emptying the gun. The truck sped out of his driveway. The last image of him I have was him taking shots at the truck as I drove away, his pants still around his knees, and part of a metal bed frame dangling from his wrist.”

  Meri slouched back down in bed. She looked exhausted, as if the mere act of telling me that story had been as taxing as a marathon. Beads of sweat perched on her forehead. “I only tell you this because I think I’m dying. I think you’ll be dying too, once he shows up. He is crazy. I do not know how long it will take him to get one of his cars in working order. I do not know how long it will take him to come looking for me, but mark my words: he is coming.”

  JOURNAL ENTRY FIFTEEN

  -Haste-

  Meri rolled over in bed and slept after that. She lapsed into sleep quickly, almost immediately beginning the slow, rhythmic breathing of deep slumber. Meanwhile, I went into full-on panic mode. I didn’t show it, of course. It would have done me no good to start hopping around the library annex like a bad sit-com caricature, but I still felt my head, heart, and stomach go into worry-overdrive.

  I knew that I would need to finish my preparations and get far away from southern Wisconsin. A zealot like the guy she described would most likely come after his prize, and I had put more than enough information about my location all over Wisconsin, southern Minnesota, and northeastern Iowa. If Meri found me, then David/Adam could probably find me just as easily. I needed to get on the road.

  I looked at the dog who was still sleeping by the fire. He slept most of the day now. I knew he wouldn’t last much longer, but I had hoped to let him pass in Wisconsin. Now, I knew I would have to take him with me, or put him down before I left. I didn’t have the heart to do that.

  What did I still need to do? I looked over the lists I’d scribbled on half-sheets of paper. I ran through mental checklists in my head. How fast should we leave? The RV was comfortable. There was the large bed in the back--Meri could have that--and there was the bed in the compartment over the driver and passenger seat--that was storage right now, but I could move some stuff and that could be my bed. I thought about going back and getting a Class A motorhome, one of those punishing tour bus models. I thought about the gas and batteries that it would take to keep that thing going and I decided against it. The queen-sized bed in the back of the Greyhawk would be comfortable enough for Meri until we got far enough south to settle down until she completely healed. I would just have to remember that she was back there, and I would just have to avoid making sharp turns or hitting large bumps too hard. There would be some unavoidable minor discomfort, but she would just have to grit her teeth and adjust to it.

  There was still a lot of daylight left, so I thought I would begin my preparations. I went out and reorganized the Greyhawk to support two passengers and an elderly dog. I would put Rowdy’s bed right behind the driver’s seat so he could rest comfortably. I knew he would want to ride shotgun, as he always had, but I didn’t know if he would be able to stay awake for the long-distance hauls we would have to do. I found more storage space for the clothes and medicines and other odds and ends that I’d been storing in the overhead bunk, and I got rid of some of the less necessary items. I could always scavenge for more when I got to wherever I was going to end up being.

  I felt the need to gather more weapons, too. The thought of being pursued by a geared-up doomsday prepper was not an appealing one. It reminded me of playing World of Warcraft online. I’d be a level 36 character, roam into a new zone, and some level 85 douchebag with no life would drop out of the sky on his f
ancy mount, the kind you can only get if you grind battlegrounds for six months straight, and one-hit me into oblivion. If it came down to having to stand ground against some northwoods assclown with a private arsenal, I wanted better weapons. There was no police to help me, no restraining orders. It was survival.

  I went back to Cabela’s and got a semi-auto rifle and a pile of ammo, but then I had a bright idea: there was a U.S. Army Reserve base not too far from Sun Prairie. I could go there and get some real hardware, I thought. They had to have some sort of weapons on base. I kicked myself for not having thought of that before.

  I drove out to Madison’s East side and turned down the country lanes that would take me to the Reserve buildings, a trio of low, newer-construction, tan buildings, each unassuming, and pulled into the parking lot of the Army Reserve Center. There was a building for the Navy and the Marines, too. The Air Force had one closer to Truax Field. Behind the Army Reserve Center, there were a half-dozen APCs and couple of Humvees, all desert-camo. There were a few cars in the parking lot that were sitting on flat tires and covered with a layer of time and dust. I expected to find skeletons inside the center.

  The locks on the exterior of the building were no more difficult to drill out and get through than the ones on any other building. Given what the base might possess, I thought it a little strange. It took me only a few minutes’ worth of drilling and finagling to get myself through the doors.

  The smell of cleaner was still present in the air. There was a faint scent of death too, but it was overridden by the generic chemical smell of floor wax mingling with the scent of stale air. The building was spartan in design and decor, as I expected it to be. There were some pictures on the walls of different units, and some Army recruiting posters. There was an American flag on the wall, as well as an Army flag. There was a central desk and some offices behind it. A hallway diverted to either side of the entry. I could see some classrooms or meeting rooms down each. At the end of the one on the left, I could see a sign for the motor pool and supply, so I headed down that corridor with my trust battery-powered drill.