His Love VS Her Lust

by Angie Hayes

  I couldn’t read his expression. I don’t know if the look he was giving me was one of hurt or anger.

  “You’re right Hasan. I’m going to be honest and say the only thing that drove me to do such a dumb thing was my own selfish reasoning. I’m not looking to replace you and I’m not feeling neglected. I did it that one time off of impulse, and like I said I’m so sorry baby. If I have to, I’ll keep making up for it.” I pleaded.

  “Well I’m telling you now divorce is not an option for me, but the trust I had in you has dissolved. I know we are human and people make mistakes, but you’re going to have to gain my trust back. I’ll try my best to move on from this, but if this ever happens again I won’t be responsible for what happens with us.” Hasan got up and headed towards the door to leave.

  “Wait, so you’re still sleeping in the guestroom?” I asked.

  “Just because I said I would try and move on from this doesn’t mean things are going right back to where we left off.” With that said Hasan left our bedroom.

  I was grateful and relieved that he didn’t want a divorce because neither did I. I couldn’t help but wonder if he would have known that I slept with Adam more than once, would he stay? I know I should have come clean and told him the whole truth, but there was no way I was going to let him know that my affair with Adam was still going on.

  CHAPTER 24

  MICHELLE

  “Hey boo sorry I’m late. I had to speak to a parent after school about her grown ass daughter who feels the need to keep coming to my class half-naked.” I said as I kissed Sevyn on her cheek and took a seat in the booth.

  We both agreed to meet up for drinks after work at our spot.

  “No problem. How have you been? It feels like I haven’t talked to you in ages even though it’s only been two weeks.” Sevyn said laughing.

  “Everything is the same old same old with me. Which is work, home, and Patrick.” I said grinning.

  Patrick has been spending more time at my place and he’s constantly texting and calling me throughout the day. I don’t know what brought on this sudden change in him but I loved it.

  “Wow, so y’all still tight as ever huh?” Sevyn asked in a sarcastic tone.

  I didn’t have time to get into it with her. I was here to relax and have myself a couple of margaritas.

  “So how are things with you and Hasan?” I asked changing the subject.

  “Things are moving slow. He’s still sleeping in the guestroom but at least we talk and not just text.” She said chucking.

  The waitress came and asked if we were ready to order our drinks.

  “Oh, can you give us about ten more minutes? We’re expecting another guest.” Sevyn told the waitress.

  “Who else is coming?” I asked.

  “Elaine. I invited her when I saw her in the lounge today. She wasn’t looking like herself so I asked her to meet us here to have some girl time.” Sevyn explained.

  “Ok cool.” I replied as I picked up the menu and looked at it.

  Minutes later Elaine came in and spotted us sitting in our booth.

  “Hey ladies,” Elaine greeted as she slid into the booth on Sevyn’s side.

  We both greeted her and placed our drink orders with the returning waitress.

  “So what’s been up with you?” Sevyn asked Elaine.

  “Oh boy, between dealing with this crazy school board and their new rules and home, I don’t know whether I’m coming or going.” Elaine said sounding defeated.

  “Well, I know about the new rules the school board has added because it’s wrecking everybody nerves. What’s going on at home?” Sevyn asked.

  I immediately stared at Elaine and was waiting to hear her response. She has always portrayed this perfect life, with the perfect husband, and perfect damn child. To hear that there may be trouble in paradise is the juicy gossip I wanna hear.

  “It’s Brian, he’s acting different.”

  “How?” Sevyn asked.

  “Well he’s been coming home extra late, if he even comes home at all. When we’re home together, he retreats to his office and stays there. Recently I found out that he has a second cellphone that I knew nothing about. I’ve dealt with some things over these last ten years, but I’m just about at my ropes end with it all.” Elaine said.

  Just then, the waitress came back with our drinks. We all took our first sips in silence and tried to grasp what Elaine had just told us.

  “Well, have you asked him what was going on?” I asked.

  From the sound of things, Elaine’s husband was stepping out on her ass.

  “Every time I do, he just brushes it off and makes me seem like I don’t know what I’m talking about. I’m far from being crazy and as naïve as he may think. I’ve got something for his ass and the bitch he’s been spending time with.” Elaine said as she took another swallow of her drink.

  I don’t know if it was the liquor, but I have never seen Elaine talk with so much anger. I’m used to seeing her act all uppity and prissy and shit. She was actually talking like a bad ass.

  “Look don’t jump to conclusions because you know Brian works around the clock helping people manage their money. Maybe that’s the reason for the extra phone.” Sevyn suggested.

  I know she was trying to make light of the situation, but she knew damn well what Elaine was saying sounded suspect that her husband was living foul.

  “Please, I’ve been with Brian long enough to learn his ways and routine. This isn’t the first time I’ve dealt with his sneaky ass tactics.”

  Elaine has never opened up about anything pertaining with her marriage. Now we’re finding out that everything that glitters with her ass isn’t gold.

  “Just talk to him Hun, you’ve been together for this long, no need to let anything else come in between what you worked so hard for.” Sevyn told her.

  I sat there listening and trying to determine if Sevyn was saying this because she meant it, or was she saying this to convince herself in her situation. We finally decided that we’d had enough drinks for the evening. Although we all were on the tipsy side, Sevyn and I was still sober enough to drive home safely. Elaine, on the other hand, was a light weight and couldn’t be trusted to drive herself home. I volunteered to drive her home since her place is on the way to my condo. The drive to her house was just a continuation of her ranting and raving about Brian and his foolishness.

  “Turn here and my house is the last one at the end of the block on the right.” Elaine instructed.

  I turned down her block, hoping I didn’t see that car in the driveway. I was so glad I didn’t when I pulled up in front of her house.

  “Thanks girl. I’ll have Brian take me to pick up my car in the morning.”

  “No problem and take care.” I said as I drove off.

  On my way home, my phone beeped indicating I had a voicemail. I didn’t hear my phone ring earlier so I checked it.

  Hi Ms. Stanton, this is Dr. Phillips. We have your test results. I need you to give my office a call back and schedule an appointment to come in and discuss your results.

  I hung up and called the office back hoping they weren’t close just yet. The nurse answered and scheduled me to come in the next day. Finally, I can get some answers as to why I’ve been feeling so crappy. I had a strong feeling I was about to become a mommy.

  THE BEGINNING OF THE END

  CHAPTER 25

  ADAM

  “Dog, this bitch got a fat ass!” Eddie said to me as we were sitting back and watching this stripper work for her money on stage.

  My cuz hit me up and asked me if I wanted to go with him to see some ass and have some drinks at the strip club. I didn’t have shit to do so I decided to roll with him. We had already been there for about an hour and I was feeling the patron shots. My dick stayed rock hard the whole night by looking at these bitches and getting lap dances.

  “Aye man, I keep peeping that shorty over there eyeing you hard. You should take her in the back and get a privat
e dance.” My cousin suggested.

  “Nah, I got somebody else I wanna bust this nut on.” I answered while taking another shot.

  Even though the chick was bad, the only pussy I wanted clinging around my dick was Sevyn’s. We haven’t fucked since the park, and I was overdue for some of her pussy.

  “Man, you didn’t tell me you had an old lady.” Eddie said.

  “Yeah, I got somebody who’s got my attention.” I answered coolly.

  Shit, Sevyn had more than my attention, she started having my heart. The problem is she still thinks I’m a fucking play toy. She was still only coming around when she wanted to and she would leave quickly to go back home to that nigga. She was always hollering about how we need to end this and go our separate ways, but would turn around in the same breath and say she wants some dick.

  “Man, I ain’t ever heard you turn down no pussy from a chick because you got a woman. She must be the one.”

  “Yeah, shit caught me off guard. You know how I did, fuck with them and move on to the next, but my shorty giving me a challenge and I love that shit.” I said smiling and thinking about Sevyn.

  The liquor was taking its effect on me and being around all this pussy was making me horny than a mutha’fucka! I had to have me some Sevyn tonight and didn’t give a damn how I got it. I had been texting her all night to let her know I needed to tear that pussy up, but as usual she hasn’t responded. I know later on she’ll come at me with some bullshit about that she wasn’t around her phone or that she had fell asleep. At this point I definitely wasn’t trying to hear any of that.

  “Aye man, I’m about to head on out of here.” I said to Eddie as I got up to leave.

  He was getting a lap dance from this this chocolate chick.

  “A’ight man, holler at me later.” He responded not taking his eyes off of her.

  Soon as I got in my truck, I text Sevyn one more time to see if she was gonna respond. I looked at the time and saw that it was 1:30 a.m.

  “Fuck this shit.” I said out loud to myself.

  I cranked up my truck and pulled off heading to her house. I knew I was taking a big risk by just showing up there, and I knew she was gonna be pissed. Hell, I didn’t even know if her dude was there or what not. All I knew was that I needed to see and feel her. Twenty minutes later, I pulled up on her street and parked across from her house. I didn’t know if her husband was home or not due to the garage door being down.

  I texted her again to let her know I was parked across the street and that her ass better come outside or I was coming to knock on her door. Seconds later she replied to tell me she’s coming outside. That only confirmed to me that she was ignoring my earlier messages all along. Minutes later, Sevyn came outside in her robe and darted across the street to my truck. I unlocked the door and let her in.

  “I can’t fucking believe you! Are you crazy Adam? My damn husband and child are upstairs sleeping!” Sevyn said yelling at me.

  What she was saying had no effect on me what so ever.

  “It took me to letting you know I was outside your house in order for you to respond. I had been texting you all night and telling you that I wanted some of this pussy.” I said as I slid my hand up her robe and noticed she had on just a thong.

  “We have been over this Adam. I told you that if I don’t reply to your messages or answer your calls that I’ll return them later on. Why do you always have to do this shit?” she asked but at the same time she didn’t move my hand and her pussy was wet.

  “Shut the fuck up and give me this shit.” I said as I fiercely yanked open her robe and started sucking on her breast.

  I leaned back in my seat, grabbed the back of her head, and guided her down to suck my dick. She unzipped my pants, pulled my dick out, and went to work. I lay back with my eyes closed as I pumped in and out of her mouth.

  “Fuck this shit, climb on top of this dick.” I told her.

  Sevyn slid down on my dick and I almost exploded inside of her right then and there. Between the liquor in my system and how good her pussy was feeling, I was cloud 9! My truck was rocking hard and the widows were fogged up. Sevyn was moaning so loud that I had to cover her mouth. We finally came hard together. We just sat there for a moment with me still inside of her as we tried to catch our breaths.

  “I can’t believe we just fucked outside of my house like this. I’m losing it for real!” she said as she rolled off of me and tied her robe together.

  “Sevyn when are you gonna stop playing these games and make this shit official with us?” I asked her as I fixed my pants.

  “Adam please don’t start, you know I’m not leaving my family. You knew I was married when we first started this. You knew what it was then and now. You want me to just up and leave what I worked so hard to maintain just to be with you?” she asked while looking at me as if I was crazy.

  “Yeah I knew what it was Sevyn, but shit got deep for me. Trust me, I didn’t expect to fall in love with you but I did.”

  “See this is what I’m saying. You keep talking this love shit, when you know its lust not love! I have a good time with you Adam but that’s all it is, a good time.”

  “I’m so sick and fucking tired of you telling me how I’m feeling. You throw my feelings on the back burner like they ain’t shit.” I told her.

  I was starting to get heated and was two seconds away from slapping her ass for acting like she didn’t care.

  “Adam if you feel like that, then why not be with someone who isn’t attached to somebody else? Be with someone who can give you the same love you are looking for because I can’t.” She said.

  “That’s how you feel?” I asked.

  “Yes, that’s how I feel. I mean I like you and care about you, but I’m not leaving my marriage.”

  “You won’t leave your marriage but you’d keep stepping out on it though?” I questioned her.

  She just sat there for a few minutes looking at me like she was reflecting on what I had just said.

  “Look I have to go. I’ll talk to you later.” She finally said.

  She got out of my truck and left to go back inside. I sat there a while longer and I kept thinking about everything she had just told me. Maybe this was how the women I use to deal with in the past felt. Either way, Sevyn just fucked with the wrong one. I’ve never felt like this or had my heart played with. Little did she know she was going leave her family, it just wasn’t gonna be voluntarily.

  CHAPTER 26

  HASAN

  I had just gotten off of work but I didn’t feel like going home just yet, so I headed towards our secret spot. Even though I told Sevyn we weren’t getting a divorce, which we aren’t, I still wasn’t letting her off that easy. I’ve been talking to her a little bit more, but I still haven’t moved back into our bedroom. I know it’s like the pot calling the kettle black, especially since I’m living a double life. I had this life before Sevyn even came into the picture, so in my mind I’m justified. I pulled up to my second home and saw that I wasn’t alone. I walked inside and heard the TV on in the living room.

  “Hey, I didn’t know you were going to be here.” I said as I sat my things down on the kitchen counter and walked into the living room.

  I walked over to the couch and leaned down to kiss those juicy lips. We tongue wrestled for a while, and then we finally came up from air.

  “I see somebody missed me.”

  “Of course I did.” I said as I took a seat on the couch and unloosed my tie.

  “You look tense. Is everything ok?”

  “Everything is where it needs to be.” I responded as I took the remote control and flipped through the channels.

  “I’m sure it is, but look I might be staying here for a while.”

  “Why? What’s going on?”

  “Nothing that I can’t handle, I just need to be somewhere where I don’t have to be questioned all the time so I can focus more on work.”

  “You sure you’re being here won’t cause problems at hom
e? You know we have always kept things in control. There is no need to fuck it up now just because you can’t handle shit on your end?” I said.

  One thing I have always maintained was order in my life, from my career goals to my family. I like things the way I want them, so when I found out about Sevyn’s affair that took me for a loop. I felt like the control I had at home was gone. That’s why it was so easy to tell her that we would work on us. I wanted her to fall back in place so my home could go back to what it was. She told me it was a onetime thing and that she wasn’t seeing him anymore, but in all honesty I don’t know if that’s true. We haven’t been sleeping together and I honestly haven’t been around her to see if her routine has changed.

  “Like I said everything is good.”

  “Well, if that’s the case, since you pay for half of the things in here you don’t need my permission.” I said.

  “I wasn’t asking. I was just letting you know just in case you came over and always saw me here.”

  We sat there quiet for a few more minutes watching the TV. My mind wasn’t on what was showing on the TV. My mind was on getting some of this sweet tight ass sitting next to me. I slid closer on the couch and started massaging those soft shoulders.

  “Hmm, that feels good baby, I need this.”

  “Well I need something too.” I said as I stopped massaging the shoulders, leaned back, and unbuckled my pants.

  Seconds later, I felt the heat of that warm mouth covering my dick. I grabbed a hold to the back of the head as it bobbled up and down. I felt myself getting ready to cum and I wasn’t ready to.

  “Turn around, ‘cause I want that ass from the back.” I commanded.

  I pulled my pants all the way down, reached in the drawer next to the couch, and grabbed a condom. No matter how long we have been fucking, I always strapped up. I vowed that the only person I would fuck raw was my wife. I slid my dick inside that tight hole and went to work on that ass. We were going at it and fucking hard when all of a sudden a brick came through our front window.