Psyche

by Louis Couperus

  SPEECH FOR PSYCHE IN THE GOLDEN BOOK OF APULEIUS

  All night, and as the wind lieth among

  The cypress trees, he lay,

  Nor held me save as air that brusheth by one

  Close, and as the petals of flowers in falling

  Waver and seem not drawn to earth, so he

  Seemed over me to hover light as leaves

  And closer me than air,

  And music flowing through me seemed to open

  Mine eyes upon new colours.

  O winds, what wind can match the weight of him!

  EZRA POUND

  Contents

  Title Page

  Epigraph

  PSYCHE

  I

  II

  III

  IV

  V

  VI

  VII

  VIII

  IX

  X

  XI

  XII

  XIII

  XIV

  XV

  XVI

  XVII

  XVIII

  XIX

  XX

  XXI

  XXII

  XXIII

  XXIV

  XXV

  XXVI

  XXVII

  CUPID AND PSYCHE

  I

  II

  III

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  PSYCHE

  I

  GIGANTICALLY MASSIVE, with three hundred towers, on the summit of a rocky mountain, rose the king’s castle high into the clouds.

  But the summit was broad, and flat as a plateau, and the castle spread far out, for miles and miles, with ramparts and walls and pinnacles.

  And everywhere rose up the towers, lost in the clouds, and the castle was like a city, built upon a lofty rock of basalt. Round the castle and far away lay the valleys of the kingdom, receding into the horizon, one after the other, and ever and ever.

  Ever changing was the horizon: now pink, then silver; now blue, then golden; now grey, then white and misty, and gradually fading away. In clear weather there loomed behind the horizon always another horizon. They circled one another endlessly; they were lost in the dissolving mists, and suddenly their silhouette became more sharply defined.

  An expanse of variegated clouds stretched away at times over the lofty towers, but below rushed a torrent, which fell like a cataract into a fathomless abyss, that made one dizzy to look at.

  So it seemed as if the castle rose up to the highest stars and went down to the central nave of the earth.

  Along the battlements, higher than a man, Psyche often wandered, wandered round the castle from tower to tower, from wall to wall, with a dreamy smile on her face, then she looked up and stretched out her hands to the stars, or gazed below at the dashing water, with all the colours of the rainbow, till her head grew dizzy, and she drew back and placed her little hands before her eyes. And long she would sit in the corner of an embrasure, her eyes looking far away, a smile on her face, her knees drawn up and her arms entwining them, and her tiny wings spread out against the mossy stone-work, like a butterfly that sat motionless.

  And she gazed at the horizon, and however much she gazed, she always saw more.

  Close by were the green valleys, dotted with grazing sheep, soft meadows with fat cattle, waving acornfields, canals covered with ships, and the cottage roofs of a village. Farther away were lines of woods, hill-tops, mountain-ridges, or a mass of angular, rough-hewn basalt.

  Still farther off, misty towers with minarets and domes, cupolas and spires, smoking chimneys, and the outline of a broad river. Beyond, the horizon became milk-white, or like an opal, but not a line more was there, only tint, the reflection of the last glow of the sun, as if lakes were mirrored there; islands rose, low, in the air, aerial paradises, watery streaks of blue sea, oceans of ether and light quivering nothingness! …

  And Psyche gazed and mused … She was the third princess, the youngest daughter of the old king, monarch of the Kingdom of the Past … She was always very lonely. Her sisters seldom saw her, her father only for a moment in the evening, before she went to bed; and when she had the chance she fled from the mumbling old nurse, and wandered along the battlements and dreamed, with her eyes far away, gazing at the vast kingdom, beyond which was nothingness …

  Oh, how she longed to go farther than the castle, to the meadows, the woods, the towns—to go to the shining lakes, the opal islands, the oceans of ether, and then to that far, far-off nothingness, that quivered so, like a pale, pale light! … Would she ever be able to pass out of the gates?—Oh, how she longed to wander, to seek, to fly! … To fly, oh! To fly, to fly as the sparrows, the doves, the eagles!

  And she flapped her weak, little wings.

  On her tender shoulders there were two wings, like those of a very large butterfly, transparent membranes, covered with crimson and soft, yellow dust, streaked with azure and pink, where they were joined to her back. And on each wing glowed two eyes, like those on a peacock’s tail, but more beautiful in colour and glistening like jewels, fine sapphires and emeralds on velvet, and the velvet eye set four times in the glittering texture of the wings.

  Her wings she flapped, but with them she could not fly.

  That, that was her great grief—that, that made her think, what were they for, those wings on her shoulders? And she shook them and flapped them but could not rise above the ground; her delicate form did not ascend into the air, her naked foot remained firm on the ground, and only her thin, fine veil, that trailed a little round her snow-white limbs, was slightly raised by the gentle fluttering of her wings.

  II

  TO FLY! OH, to FLY!

  She was so fond of birds. How she envied them! She enticed them with crumbs of bread, with grains of corn, and once she had rescued a dove from an eagle. The dove she had hidden under her veil, pressed close to her bosom, and the eagle she had courageously driven off with her hand, when in his flight he overshadowed her with his broad wings, calling out to him to go away and leave her dove unhurt.

  Oh, to seek! To seek!

  For she was so fond of flowers, and gladly in the woods and meadows, or farther away still, would she have sought for those that were unknown. But she cultivated them within the walls, on the rocky ground, and she had made herself a garden; the buds opened when she looked at them, the stems grew when she stroked them, and when she kissed a faded flower it became as fresh again as ever.

  To wander, oh, to wander!

  Then she wandered along the battlements, down the steps, over the courtyards and the ramparts, but at the gates stood the guards, rough and bearded and clad in mail, with loud-sounding horns round their shoulders.

  Then she could go no farther and wandered back into the vaults and crypts, where sacred spiders wove their webs; and then, if she became frightened, she hurried away, farther, farther, farther, along endless galleries, between rows of motionless knights in armour, till she came again to her nurse, who sat ever at her spinning-wheel.

  Oh! To glide through the air!

  To glide in a steady wind, to the farthest horizon, to the milk-white and opal region, which she saw in her dreams, to the uttermost parts of the earth!

  To glide to the seas, and the islands, which yonder, so far, far away and so unsubstantial, changed every moment, as if a breeze could alter their form, their tint; so unfirm, that no foot could tread them, but only a winged being like herself, a bird, a fairy, could gently hover over them, to see all that beautiful landscape, to enjoy that atmosphere, that dream of Paradise

  Oh! To fly, to seek, to wander, to soar! …

  And for hours together she sat dreaming in an embrasure, and her wings spread out, like a little but
terfly that sat motionless.

  III

  EMERALDA, that was the name of the eldest sister. Surpassingly beautiful was Emeralda, dazzling fair as no woman in the kingdom, no princess in other kingdoms. Exceedingly tall she was, and majestic in stature; erect she walked, stately and proudly; she was very proud, for after the death of the king she was to reign on the throne of the Kingdom of the Past. Jealous of all the power which would be hers, she rejected all the princes who sued for her hand. She never spoke but to command, and only to her father did she bow. She always wore heavy brocade, silver or gold, studded with jewels. And long mantles of rustling silk, fringed with broad ermine; a diadem of the finest jewels always glittered on her red golden hair and her eyes also were jewels, two magnificent green emeralds, in which a black carbuncle was the pupil; and people whispered secretly that her heart was cut out of one single, gigantic ruby.

  Oh, Psyche was so afraid of her!

  When Psyche wandered through the castle and suddenly saw Emeralda coming, preceded by pages, torches, shield-bearers, and maids-in-waiting, who bore her train, and a score of halberdiers, then she was struck with fear, and hastily concealed herself behind a door, a curtain, no matter where, and then Emeralda rustled by with a great noise of satin and gold and all the trampling of her retinue, and Psyche’s heart beat loudly like a clock: tick! tick! tick! tick! till she thought she would faint …

  Then she shut her eyes so as not to see the cold, proud look of Emeralda’s green emeralds, which pierced through the curtains, and saw Psyche well enough, though she pretended not to see her. And when Emeralda was gone, then Psyche fled upstairs, high up onto the battlements, fetched a deep breath, pressed her hands to her bosom, and long afterwards her little wings trembled from fear. Astra, that was the name of the second princess. She wore a living star upon her head; she was very wise and learned; she knew much more than all the philosophers and learned men in the kingdom, who came to her for counsel.

  She lived in the highest tower of the castle, and sometimes, along the bars of her window, she saw clouds pass by, like spirits of the mist. She never left the tower. She sat, surrounded by rolls of parchment, gigantic globes, which she turned with a pressure of her finger; and after hours of contemplation she described, with great compasses, on a slab of black marble, circle after circle, or reckoned out long sums, with numbers so great that no one could pronounce them.

  Sometimes she sat surrounded by the sages of the land, and the king himself came and listened to his daughter, as in a low, firm voice she explained things. But because she possessed all the wisdom of the earth, she despised all the world, and she had had constructed on the terrace of her tower a telescope, miles long, through which she could look to every part of the illimitable firmament. And when the sages were gone, and she was alone, then she went onto the terrace and peered through the giant telescope, which she turned to all the points of the compass. Through the diamond lenses, cut without facets, she saw new stars, unknown to men, and gave them names. Through the diamond lenses she saw sun systems, spirals of fire, shrivel up through the illimitableness of the universe … But she kept gazing, for behind those sun systems, she knew, were other spheres, other heavens, and there farther still, inimitably far, was the Mystic Rose, which she could never see …

  Sometimes, when Psyche wandered round the castle, she knocked nervously, inquisitively at Astra’s door, who graciously allowed her to enter. When Astra stood before the board and reckoned out long sums, Psyche looked very earnestly at her sister’s star, which glistened on her head, in her coal-black hair. Or she went on to the terrace and peeped through the telescope, but she saw nothing but very bright light, which made her eyes ache …

  IV

  IN THE EVENING, before she went to sleep, Psyche sought the king.

  A good hundred years old he was, his beard hung down to his girdle, and generally he sat reading the historical scrolls of the kingdom, which his ministers brought him every day.

  But in the evening Psyche climbed on to his knees and nestled in his beard, or sat at his feet in the folds of his tabard, and the scroll fell to the ground, and crumpled up, and the withered hand of the mighty monarch stroked the head of his third child, the princess with the little wings.

  “Father, dear,” asked Psyche once; “why have I wings, and cannot fly?”

  “You need not fly, child; you are much safer with me than if you were a little bird in the air.”

  “But why then have I wings?”

  “I don’t quite know, my child …”

  “Why have I wings, and Astra a living star upon her head, and Emeralda eyes of jewels?”

  “Because you are princesses; they are different from other girls.”

  “And why, dear father,” whispered Psyche, secretly, “has Emeralda a heart of ruby? …”

  “No, child, that she has not. She has, it is true, eyes of emerald, because she is a princess—as Astra has a star and you two pretty wings—but she has a human heart.”

  “No, father, dear, she has a heart of stone.”

  “But who says so, my child?”

  “The nurse does, father, her own pages, the guards at the gates, and the wise men who come to Astra.”

  The king was very sad. He and his daughter looked deep into each other’s eyes, and embraced each other, for the king was sad, because of what he saw in the future, and Psyche was frightened: she always trembled when she thought of Emeralda.

  “Little Psyche,” said her old father, “will you now promise me something?”

  “Yes, father, dear.”

  “Will you always stay with me, little Psyche? You are safe here, are you not? And the world is so great, the world is so wicked. The world is full of temptation and mystery. Winged horses soar through the air; gigantic sphinxes lurk in the deserts; devilish fauns roam through the forests … In the world, tears are shed, which form brooks, and in the world people give away their noblest right for the lowest pleasure … Stay with me, Psyche, never wander too far away, for under our castle glows the Netherworld! … And life is like a princess, a cruel princess with a heart of stone …”

  Of precious stone, like Emeralda, thought Psyche to herself. Who rides in triumph with her victorious chariot over the tenderest and dearest, and presses them stone-dead into the deepest furrows of the earth …

  “Oh, Psyche, little Psyche, promise me always to stay here in this high and safe castle; always to stay with your father!”

  She did not understand him.

  His eyes, very large and animated, looked over her into space, with inexpressible sadness. Then she longed to console him, and threw her white arms around his neck; she hid herself, as it were, in his beard, and she whispered playfully:

  “I will always stay with you, father dear …”

  Then he pressed her to his heart, and thought that he would soon die …

  V

  PSYCHE WAS OFTEN very lonely, but yet she had much: she had the flowers, the birds; she had the butterflies, which thought that she was a bigger sister; she had the lizards, with which she played, and which, like little emeralds, she held against her veil; she had the swans in the deep castle moats, which followed when she walked on the ramparts; she had the clouds, which came floating from distant islands and paradises beyond; she had the wind, which sang her ballads; the rain, which fell down wet upon her and covered her wings with pearls. She would gladly have played with the pages in the halls, have laughed with the shield-bearers in the armoury, have listened to the martial tales of the bearded halberdiers at the gates, but she was a princess and knew she could not do that, and she always walked past them with great dignity, maidenly modest in her fine, thin veil, which left her tender limbs half exposed. That was the noble Nakedness, which was her privilege as a princess, a privilege given her at her cradle, together with her wings by the Fairy of Births, as to Emeralda was given the Jewel and to Astra the Star. For never might Psyche wear Jewel or Star, and never might Emeralda or Astra go naked. Each prin
cess had her own privilege, her birthright. Adorable was Psyche as, unconscious of her maidenly tender purity, she was seen with her crimson glittering wings, naked in the folds of her veil, walking past the armour-bearers and soldiers, who presented their swords or halberds as the princess, nymph-white, stepped past them.

  Psyche was often very lonely, for her nurse was old and mumbled over her spinning-wheel; playmates Psyche had not, because she was a princess, and she would not get court-ladies till she was older and more dignified. But with the birds and the clouds and the wind Psyche could speak and laugh, and she was seldom dull, although she sometimes wished she were no longer Princess of Nakedness with the wings, but one of those very ordinary peasant-girls whom she had seen milking the cows, or plucking the thick bunches of grapes in the vineyard at harvest-time, whilst the grape-pressers, handsome brown lads with sturdy arms, encircled the girls and danced.

  But Psyche wandered along the ramparts; she looked at the clouds and spoke with the wind, and she asked the wind to give flight to her wings, so that she could fly far off to the opal landscapes that kept shifting and changing. But the wind rushed away with a flapping noise of wings that Psyche envied, and her own wings flapped a little, but in vain.

  Psyche looked at the clouds. They floated along so stately in all kinds of forms—in the forms of sheep, swans, horses—and the form never remained: the seeming forms, thick-white in the blue ether, were constantly changing. Now she saw three swans which were drawing a boat, in which stood three women, who guided the swans; then she saw the women become a tower, the swans a dragon, and from far, far away came a knight, sitting on a winged horse. But now slowly the scene changed into a flock of little silver-fleeced, downy sheep, which were browsing far off in the sunshine as in a golden meadow. The knight disappeared, but the horse glided nearer and flew on his wings, high over the castle, towards the sheep.