The Palliser Novels

by Anthony Trollope

  But my lover has solid attractions, and allures me on by a description of the fat cattle which he sends to market. He is a man of substance, and should I ever become Mrs Cheesacre, I have reason to think that I shall not be left in want. We went up to his place on a visit the other day. Oileymead is the name of my future home; — not so pretty as Nethercoats, is it? And we had such a time there! We reached the place at ten and left it at four, and he managed to give us three meals. I’m sure we had before our eyes at different times every bit of china, delf, glass, and plate in the establishment. He made us go into the cellar, and told us how much wine he had got there, and how much beer. “It’s all paid for, Mrs Greenow, every bottle of it,” he said, turning round to my aunt, with a pathetic earnestness, for which I had hardly given him credit. “Everything in this house is my own; it’s all paid for. I don’t call anything a man’s own till it’s paid for. Now that jacket that Bellfield swells about with on the sands at Yarmouth, — that’s not his own, — and it’s not like to be either.” And then he winked his eye as though bidding my aunt to think of that before she encouraged such a lover as Bellfield. He took us into every bedroom, and disclosed to us all the glories of his upper chambers. It would have done you good to see him lifting the counterpanes, and bidding my aunt feel the texture of the blankets! And then to see her turn round to me and say: — “Kate, it’s simply the best-furnished house I ever went over in my life!” — “It does seem very comfortable,” said I. “Comfortable!” said he. “Yes, I don’t think there’s anybody can say that Oileymead isn’t comfortable.” I did so think of you and Nethercoats. The attractions are the same; — only in the one place you would have a god for your keeper, and in the other a brute. For myself, if ever I’m to have a keeper at all, I shall prefer a man. But when we got to the farmyard his eloquence reached the highest pitch. “Mrs Greenow,” said he, “look at that,” and he pointed to heaps of manure raised like the streets of a little city. “Look at that!” “There’s a great deal,” said my aunt. “I believe you,” said he. “I’ve more muck upon this place here than any farmer in Norfolk, gentle or simple; I don’t care who the other is.” Only fancy, Alice; it may all be mine; the blankets, the wine, the muck, and the rest of it. So my aunt assured me when we got home that evening. When I remarked that the wealth had been exhibited to her and not to me, she did not affect to deny it, but treated that as a matter of no moment. “He wants a wife, my dear,” she said, “and you may pick him up to-morrow by putting out your hand.” When I remarked that his mind seemed to be intent on low things, and specially named the muck, she only laughed at me. “Money’s never dirty,” she said, “nor yet what makes money.” She talks of taking lodgings in Norwich for the winter, saying that in her widowed state she will be as well there as anywhere else, and she wants me to stay with her up to Christmas. Indeed she first proposed the Norwich plan on the ground that it might be useful to me, — with a view to Mr Cheesacre, of course; but I fancy that she is unwilling to tear herself away from Captain Bellfield. At any rate to Norwich she will go, and I have promised not to leave her before the second week in November. With all her absurdities I like her. Her faults are terrible faults, but she has not the fault of hiding them by falsehood. She is never stupid, and she is very good-natured. She would have allowed me to equip myself from head to foot at her expense, if I would have accepted her liberality, and absolutely offered to give me my trousseau if I would marry Mr Cheesacre.

  I live in the hope that you will come down to the old place at Christmas. I won’t offend you more than I can help. At any rate he won’t be there. And if I don’t see you there, where am I to see you? If I were you I would certainly not go to Cheltenham. You are never happy there.

  Do you ever dream of the river at Basle? I do; — so often.

  Most affectionately yours,

  Kate Vavasor.

  Alice had almost lost the sensation created by the former portion of Kate’s letter by the fun of the latter, before she had quite made that sensation her own. The picture of the Cambridgeshire Eden would have displeased her had she dwelt upon it, and the allusion to the cream and toast would have had the very opposite effect to that which Kate had intended. Perhaps Kate had felt this, and had therefore merged it all in her stories about Mr Cheesacre. “I will go to Cheltenham,” she said to herself. “He has recommended it. I shall never be his wife; — but, till we have parted altogether, I will show him that I think well of his advice.” That same afternoon she told her father that she would go to Lady Macleod’s at Cheltenham before the end of the month. She was, in truth, prompted to this by a resolution, of which she was herself hardly conscious, that she would not at this period of her life be in any way guided by her cousin. Having made up her mind about Mr Grey, it was right that she should let her cousin know her purpose; but she would never be driven to confess to herself that Kate had influenced her in the matter. She would go to Cheltenham. Lady Macleod would no doubt vex her by hourly solicitations that the match might be renewed; but, if she knew herself, she had strength to withstand Lady Macleod.

  She received one letter from Mr Grey before the time came for her departure, and she answered it, telling him of her intention; — telling him also that she now felt herself bound to explain to her father her present position. “I tell you this,” she said, “in consequence of what you said to me on the matter. My father will know it to-morrow, and on the following morning I shall start for Cheltenham. I have heard from Lady Macleod and she expects me.”

  On the following morning she did tell her father, standing by him as he sat at his breakfast. “What!” said he, putting down his tea-cup and looking up into her face; “What! not marry John Grey!”

  “No, papa; I know how strange you must think it.”

  “And you say that there has been no quarrel.”

  “No; — there has been no quarrel. By degrees I have learned to feel that I should not make him happy as his wife.”

  “It’s d––––d nonsense,” said Mr Vavasor. Now such an expression as this from him, addressed to his daughter, showed that he was very deeply moved.

  “Oh, papa! don’t talk to me in that way.”

  “But it is. I never heard such trash in my life. If he comes to me I shall tell him so. Not make him happy! Why can’t you make him happy?”

  “We are not suited to each other.”

  “But what’s the matter with him? He’s a gentleman.”

  “Yes; he’s a gentleman.”

  “And a man of honour, and with good means, and with all that knowledge and reading which you profess to like. Look here, Alice; I am not going to interfere, nor shall I attempt to make you marry anyone. You are your own mistress as far as that is concerned. But I do hope, for your sake and for mine, — I do hope that there is nothing again between you and your cousin.”

  “There is nothing, papa.”

  “I did not like your going abroad with him, though I didn’t choose to interrupt your plan by saying so. But if there were anything of that kind going on, I should be bound to tell you that your cousin’s position at present is not a good one. Men do not speak well of him.”

  “There is nothing between us, papa; but if there were, men speaking ill of him would not deter me.”

  “And men speaking well of Mr Grey will not do the other thing. I know very well that women can be obstinate.”

  “I haven’t come to this resolution without thinking much about it, papa.”

  “I suppose not. Well; — I can’t say anything more. You are your own mistress, and your fortune is in your own keeping. I can’t make you marry John Grey. I think you very foolish, and if he comes to me I shall tell him so. You are going down to Cheltenham, are you?”

  “Yes, papa; I have promised Lady Macleod.”

  “Very well. I’d sooner it should be you than me; that’s all I can say.” Then he took up his newspaper, thereby showing that he had nothing further to say on the matter, and Alice left him alone.

  The wh
ole thing was so vexatious that even Mr Vavasor was disturbed by it. As it was not term time he had no signing to do in Chancery Lane, and could not, therefore, bury his unhappiness in his daily labour, — or rather in his labour that was by no means daily. So he sat at home till four o’clock, expressing to himself in various phrases his wonder that “any man alive should ever rear a daughter.” And when he got to his club the waiters found him quite unmanageable about his dinner, which he ate alone, rejecting all proposition of companionship. But later in the evening he regained his composure over a glass of whiskey-toddy and a cigar. “She’s got her own money,” he said to himself, “and what does it matter? I don’t suppose she’ll marry her cousin. I don’t think she’s fool enough for that. And after all she’ll probably make it up again with John Grey.” And in this way he determined that he might let this annoyance run off him, and that he need not as a father take the trouble of any interference.

  But while he was at his club there came a visitor to Queen Anne Street, and that visitor was the dangerous cousin of whom, according to his uncle’s testimony, men at present did not speak well. Alice had not seen him since they had parted on the day of their arrival in London, — nor, indeed, had heard of his whereabouts. In the consternation of her mind at this step which she was taking, — a step which she had taught herself to regard as essentially her duty before it was taken, but which seemed to herself to be false and treacherous the moment she had taken it, — she had become aware that she had been wrong to travel with her cousin. She felt sure, — she thought that she was sure, — that her doing so had in nowise affected her dealings with Mr Grey. She was very certain, — she thought that she was certain, — that she would have rejected him just the same had she never gone to Switzerland. But every one would say of her that her journey to Switzerland with such companions had produced that result. It had been unlucky and she was sorry for it, and she now wished to avoid all communication with her cousin till this affair should be altogether over. She was especially unwilling to see him; but she had not felt it necessary to give any special injunctions as to his admittance; and now, before she had time to think of it, — on the eve of her departure for Cheltenham, — he was in the room with her, just as the dusk of the October evening was coming on. She was sitting away from the fire, almost behind the window-curtains, thinking of John Grey and very unhappy in her thoughts, when George Vavasor was announced. It will of course be understood that Vavasor had at this time received his sister’s letter. He had received it, and had had time to consider the matter since the Sunday morning on which we saw him in his own rooms in Cecil Street. “She can turn it all into capital to-morrow, if she pleases,” he had said to himself when thinking of her income. But he had also reminded himself that her grandfather would probably enable him to settle an income out of the property upon Alice, in the event of their being married. And then he had also felt that he could have no greater triumph than “walking atop of John Grey,” as he called it. His return for the Chelsea Districts would hardly be sweeter to him than that.

  “You must have thought I had vanished out of the world,” said George, coming up to her with his extended hand.

  Alice was confused, and hardly knew how to address him. “Somebody told me that you were shooting,” she said after a pause.

  “So I was, but my shooting is not like the shooting of your great Nimrods, — men who are hunters upon the earth. Two days among the grouse and two more among the partridges are about the extent of it. Capel Court is the preserve in which I am usually to be found.”

  Alice knew nothing of Capel Court, and said, “Oh, indeed.”

  “Have you heard from Kate?” George asked.

  “Yes, once or twice; she is still at Yarmouth with Aunt Greenow.”

  “And is going to Norwich, as she says. Kate seems to have made a league with Aunt Greenow. I, who don’t pretend to be very disinterested in money matters, think that she is quite right. No doubt Aunt Greenow may marry again, but friends with forty thousand pounds are always agreeable.”

  “I don’t believe that Kate thinks much of that,” said Alice.

  “Not so much as she ought, I dare say. Poor Kate is not a rich woman, or, I fear, likely to become one. She doesn’t seem to dream of getting married, and her own fortune is less than a hundred a year.”

  “Girls who never dream of getting married are just those who make the best marriages at last,” said Alice.

  “Perhaps so, but I wish I was easier about Kate. She is the best sister a man ever had.”

  “Indeed she is.”

  “And I have done nothing for her as yet. I did think, while I was in that wine business, that I could have done anything I pleased for her. But my grandfather’s obstinacy put me out of that; and now I’m beginning the world again, — that is, comparatively. I wonder whether you think I’m wrong in trying to get into Parliament?”

  “No; quite right. I admire you for it. It is just what I would do in your place. You are unmarried, and have a right to run the risk.”

  “I am so glad to hear you speak like that,” said he. He had now managed to take up that friendly, confidential, almost affectionate tone of talking which he had so often used when abroad with her, and which he had failed to assume when first entering the room.

  “I have always thought so.”

  “But you have never said it.”

  “Haven’t I? I thought I had.”

  “Not heartily like that. I know that people abuse me; — my own people, my grandfather, and probably your father, — saying that I am reckless and the rest of it. I do risk everything for my object; but I do not know that any one can blame me, — unless it be Kate. To whom else do I owe anything?”

  “Kate does not blame you.”

  “No; she sympathizes with me; she, and she only, unless it be you.” Then he paused for an answer, but she made him none. “She is brave enough to give me her hearty sympathy. But perhaps for that very reason I ought to be the more chary in endangering the only support that she is like to have. What is ninety pounds a year for the maintenance of a single lady?”

  “I hope that Kate will always live with me,” said Alice; “that is, as soon as she has lost her home at Vavasor Hall.”

  He had been very crafty and had laid a trap for her. He had laid a trap for her, and she had fallen into it. She had determined not to be induced to talk of herself; but he had brought the thing round so cunningly that the words were out of her mouth before she remembered whither they would lead her. She did remember this as she was speaking them, but then it was too late.

  “What; — at Nethercoats?” said he. “Neither she nor I doubt your love, but few men would like such an intruder as that into their household, and of all men Mr Grey, whose nature is retiring, would like it the least.”

  “I was not thinking of Nethercoats,” said Alice.

  “Ah, no; that is it, you see. Kate says so often to me that when you are married she will be alone in the world.”

  “I don’t think she will ever find that I shall separate myself from her.”

  “No; not by any will of your own. Poor Kate! You cannot be surprised that she should think of your marriage with dread. How much of her life has been made up of her companionship with you; — and all the best of it too! You ought not to be angry with her for regarding your withdrawal into Cambridgeshire with dismay.”

  Alice could not act the lie which now seemed to be incumbent on her. She could not let him talk of Nethercoats as though it were to be her future home. She made the struggle, and she found that she could not do it. She was unable to find the words which should tell no lie to the ear, and which should yet deceive him. “Kate may still live with me,” she said slowly. “Everything is over between me and Mr Grey.”

  “Alice! — is that true?”

  “Yes, George; it is true. If you will allow me to say so, I would rather not talk about it; — not just at present.”

  “And does Kate know it?”

  “
Yes, Kate knows it.”

  “And my uncle?”

  “Yes, papa knows it also.”

  “Alice, how can I help speaking of it? How can I not tell you that I am rejoiced that you are saved from a thraldom which I have long felt sure would break your heart?”

  “Pray do not talk of it further.”

  “Well; if I am forbidden I shall of course obey. But I own it is hard to me. How can I not congratulate you?” To this she answered nothing, but beat with her foot upon the floor as though she were impatient of his words. “Yes, Alice, I understand. You are angry with me,” he continued. “And yet you have no right to be surprised that when you tell me this I should think of all that passed between us in Switzerland. Surely the cousin who was with you then has a right to say what he thinks of this change in your life; at any rate he may do so, if as in this case he approves altogether of what you are doing.”

  “I am glad of your approval, George; but pray let that be an end to it.”

  After that the two sat silent for a minute or two. She was waiting for him to go, but she could not bid him leave the house. She was angry with herself, in that she had allowed herself to tell him of her altered plans, and she was angry with him because he would not understand that she ought to be spared all conversation on the subject. So she sat looking through the window at the row of gaslights as they were being lit, and he remained in his chair with his elbow on the table and his head resting on his hand.

  “Do you remember asking me whether I ever shivered,” he said at last; ” — whether I ever thought of things that made me shiver? Don’t you remember; on the bridge at Basle?”

  “Yes; I remember.”

  “Well, Alice; — one cause for my shivering is over. I won’t say more than that now. Shall you remain long at Cheltenham?”

  “Just a month.”

  “And then you come back here?”

  “I suppose so. Papa and I will probably go down to Vavasor Hall before Christmas. How much before I cannot say.”