A Bookworm for Christmas (Gay Romance)

by Trina Solet

  "It's only fair after that amazing food you made. I can't cook much so I want to contribute what I can."

  "You mean other than groping?" Gavin asked.

  Miles had an excuse, sort of. "I couldn't help it. It's so rare that I get you all to myself with no threat of interruptions. It was really nice of Bruce to do this."

  "I'm sure we'll get to repay him the next time he has a hot date. According to him, he still owes me. He's always saying that he has Marvin all thanks to me," Gavin said.

  "Why thanks to you?" Miles asked as he dried the frying pan.

  "He decided to adopt right when I did," Gavin said.

  "Copycat," Miles said.

  "Bruce was afraid that the whole thing would fall through somewhere between filling out forms, lawyers, and all the red tape. So I was his canary in a coalmine. I was worried too, but once I took the steps, Bruce could do it too and Marvin got himself a pretty great dad."

  "That worked out well for everyone," Miles said. He was happy for all of them.

  "I envy Bruce though. He has a mom and a sister who dote on Marvin. I wish I had more of a family for Benji to join," Gavin said as they finished up in the kitchen and went to sit in the living room.

  "You're more than enough. Trust me, with family it's quality over quantity," Miles told him, taking a seat so they faced each other on the couch. "What is the deal with your family? You never talk about them."

  "I don't really have a family any more. When I came out, the man I thought was my father told me I wasn't his son. He meant it literally. My mom had a one night stand and that's how I was conceived. Mom was already pregnant when she got married. Nick agreed to raise me as his son, but that all went out the window when he found out I was gay. My mom died six years ago. After that, I didn't have a family any more. Until I got Benji," Gavin said and looked at one of the many photos of his son.

  "As families go, Benji is pretty great all by himself," Miles said. He put an arm around Gavin's shoulders as they both looked at a picture of Benji hugging a balloon that said happy birthday.

  "Yes, he is incredible. I wish my mom had gotten to meet him," Gavin said, his voice tinged with pain. "We had kind of a strained relationship, her loyalties divided between me and Nick. When I confronted my mom and asked her why she lied about Nick being my dad, she said, 'I didn't think it was a lie. He said he would be your dad.' I guess he forgot to mention that he had a few conditions, 'I'll be his dad as long as he doesn't turn out to be gay one day.'"

  "Sorry. That's terrible." Miles' own parents didn't go that far.

  "He disowned me, and I tell myself that I can disown him right back. Make it so he's now just Nick to me, not my dad, not anyone's. But I can't take back every time over years of growing up when I called him Dad without a single doubt in my mind that that's who he was and always would be," Gavin said sadly and Miles took him in his arms. Gavin sighed against him. "I think that's why I had so much trouble with relationships, even when it came to trusting you. This insidious fear was always creeping up on me – that things weren't as they seemed. That I would give my heart to someone and then be discarded, abandoned, told 'You are nothing to me.'"

  "I'll never do that," Miles promised him and buried his face in his neck.

  Gavin rubbed his back and murmured thank you into Miles hair. His hand moved up to the back of Miles head, fingers threading through his hair. Miles tilted his head back and looked into yearning blue eyes that mirrored his own desire perfectly.

  Leaning in for a kiss Miles brushed his lips over Gavin's softly like an invitation for him to dive in. Gavin took him up on it. His hand firmly on the back of Miles neck, Gavin kissed him deep so that he felt it down to his toes.

  Miles hooked his arms around him holding on as hard as he could, too hard even but Gavin didn't seem to mind. He returned Miles tight embrace matching his intensity as they kissed. When they pulled apart, Gavin took Miles hands in his and stood up.

  Keeping hold of his hands, Gavin pulled him up to his feet, ready to lead him to his bedroom. Miles couldn't wait though. He threw his arms around him and kissed him with abandon, ready to be taken right there. Gavin didn't go along with that. Maybe he didn't like the hard floor.

  Kissing the whole time, he enticed Miles to his bedroom by backing out of the living room. Miles stayed right with him as they bumped into things since neither one of them could steer while kissing and groping each other.

  Going through his bedroom door, Gavin kicked the door closed just before Miles tackled him into it. Grunting low in his ear and grinding against him, Miles was insatiable. He wanted Gavin right now, anywhere he could get him.

  "Slow down," Gavin told him breathlessly.

  "I want you too much to slow down," Miles growled.

  "What if I promise you that we have time?" Gavin said.

  Finally Miles stopped rubbing up against him and bit his lower lip. "I like the sound of that."

  Stepping against him, Gavin pushed him backwards toward the bed. His mouth was on Miles' until he had him where he wanted him. Then Gavin pushed him down on the bed and started undressing him before he could even catch his breath. Miles was gasping and cursing as he kicked away his jeans and boxers all while trying to get Gavin naked too.

  He managed it somehow and then just stared at him, overcome. Long limbs, tight muscles and those blue eyes full of lust – there wasn't a more beautiful sight. Gavin didn't let him enjoy the simple pleasure of gazing at him in admiration. Not that Miles could ever get enough.

  Gavin got on top of him and let him feel the full weight of his body only for a moment then moved down letting his body slide over Miles'. His lips traveled down from Miles' mouth, over his throat to his chest. The whole time, Gavin's hands caressed and skimmed up and down Miles body, teasing him, stoking his need for more.

  Gavin's lips found his nipple and Miles felt warm breath heating sensitive skin. Taking each of Miles' nipples between his teeth in turn then teasing them with his tongue, Gavin made him shiver and arch his back, dying to give himself to him. But that wasn't happening yet so Miles had to satisfy himself by groping Gavin. Raking his hands down his back, Miles dug his fingers into his perfect, tight ass while begging, "Gavin, please."

  Miles' voice was raw with unbearable need for Gavin, but he wasn't moved by his pleading. Gavin continued to torture his flesh. From one nipple to the other, his licks and kisses ranged all over Miles' chest and then down. Gavin lapped at the head of his cock while his hand stroked the shaft lightly. The whole time Miles whimpered and cursed, demanding to be fucked.

  With Gavin touching him everywhere, Miles was breaking into a million pieces, dying for it and Gavin was damn sadist for not letting him have it. Finally he gave Miles a soft kiss on the lips. While hovering over him, Gavin whispered, "Ready?"

  Miles glared at him and in response Gavin smiled confidently down at him. He knew he had Miles right where he wanted him – well past ready, aching for him, beyond desperate. Gavin leaned across Miles to reach for the condoms and lube on the bedside table and got groped for his trouble.

  Miles parted his legs and Gavin kneeled between them. Raising one of Miles' legs up and out of the way, Gavin settled his foot on his shoulder. He pressed a kiss to Miles ankle and then slid his fingertips over his calf and up his inner thigh.

  Between his own moans, Miles heard him uncap the lube and started breathing hard. He knew now what Gavin's cock felt like inside him. Just the thought of it made him crazy with the need to have Gavin inside him again.

  First he took his fingers inside him and gasped. Arousal was roiling through him, driving him wild while Gavin primed him for what was to come. Lying there, staring up appreciatively at Gavin's cock, Miles didn't want to come yet.

  Watching Gavin roll on a condom, he put his arms up to anchor himself on the headboard. As Gavin got into position, Miles felt his hands on his ass then the pressure of his cock. The experience of being opened up by that cock was like nothing else. Gavin was taking him a
nd joining with him, and it made Miles want to cry and laugh and give his soul to this man.

  The slow push ended with Gavin deep inside him and Miles panting his name and biting his shoulder. Gavin rose above him and pumped in and out to the sound of Miles' moans. He slowed his thrusts. With a heavy, possessive grip, his hands went to Miles' shoulders then moved over his arms, sliding down until he held both of Miles' hands in his. Entwining their fingers, Gavin pushed his hands up. Now their hands were linked together above Miles' head, and Gavin was kissing him and fucking him slowly.

  After what seemed like forever, the delicious torture left Miles a quivering mess and Gavin switched gears. Taking Miles' legs off his shoulder, he took hold of his ankles. Now he was pounding him and Miles cursed in gratitude. With Miles urging him on, Gavin's relentless thrusts filled him with unbearable pleasure.

  Hardly slowing down, Gavin shifted positions again. Letting Miles anchor his legs against his shoulders, Gavin moved his fingertips down his body. He timed the first stroke of Miles' cock with a deep, hard thrust inside him. And still somehow Miles didn't come, but damn he was close.

  The circle of Gavin's long fingers tightening around his shaft then moved up and down in an urgent rhythm to match the hammering he was giving Miles. Arching up for more, Miles was lost to the searing pleasure that flooded his senses. Gavin was close too. They moved together, coming together hard, moaning loud and long.

  Afterward, Miles was so high from that fuck, he thought he would never come down. Gavin's kiss brought him back to reality. "You were incredible," Gavin said but the words should have come from Miles' own lips. If only he could speak. He was still breathless and dazed as Gavin covered him up and settled next to him in bed.

  Blinking at the ceiling Miles turned to find Gavin gazing at him with a soft smile on his lips. Miles turned over to rest halfway on top of Gavin, with an arm and a leg thrown over him. "You're so good to me," he mumbled into his chest while Gavin stroked his hair. Soon he was drifting off feeling sore, happy and perfectly fulfilled.

  Chapter 19

  As soon as Gavin opened his eyes with Miles snoring next to him, memories started washing over him – Miles under him, calling his name, thrusting up for more, his eyes blazing with passion. He was like some lurid dream of an incredible lover, except he was right beside him sleeping peacefully in this bed. Somehow even a whole night spent with Miles snoring next to him was more like some unimaginable bliss than anything real. But there he was.

  Gavin reached for his phone and ended up disturbing Miles, who stopped snoring and made a complaining noise. "Sorry," Gavin whispered and kissed his temple lightly, hoping to let him sleep a little longer.

  As he checked his phone, Gavin found no new messages from Bruce. That's all he cared about right now. Everything else could wait. Waking up only a little and snuggling closer, Miles threw an arm over him and gave him a quick, sleepy kiss.

  It seemed like Miles was ready to go back to sleep with his arm over Gavin's chest. Gavin wasn't having it. He kissed Miles gently and felt him come alive against him. With Miles slowly coming awake, Gavin put his arm around him to draw him closer.

  Miles shifted too, pressing his hard-on into Gavin's hip. Miles' fingers tickled his side with a light caress, traced along his ribcage then circled his navel in a teasing dance as his hand made its way to his cock. Brushing his lips over Gavin's shoulder then his throat, Miles took hold of Gavin's arm and pushed it down, putting his hand closer to his hard cock.

  "You're nice to wake up next to," Miles mumbled sleepily.

  "You're only saying that because I have my hand on your cock," Gavin said as he leaned over him.

  "It's one of the reasons," Miles said and opened his bright eyes to look up at him.

  He smiled then suddenly he pushed Gavin down so that he was lying on top of him. Face to face with him, Miles came in for a deep, long kiss. Gavin's hands slipped down his back to his ass. Ending the kiss with a moan, Miles said his name urgently and Gavin shuddered. His voice sexy and raw, his lips brushing over Gavin's earlobe, Miles whispered, "I have to have you."

  With Miles hard cock pressing into him, Gavin couldn't make any kind of pretest. He couldn't even think the word no.

  "We have to make it quick," Gavin said and Miles rewarded him with a soft kiss. Feeling Miles' tongue slide against his own, Gavin kissed him harder.

  "I'll give you a two for one deal," Miles said as he took Gavin's cock in his hand. With his other hand, he did the same to his own. Watching Miles hands working their cocks with the same smooth, gentle motion, Gavin was mesmerized. He was dying to flip him over, push him down and suck him off for all he was worth. Wrapping his lips around his cock would have to wait. Miles had his own plan.

  He got closer, right up against him so their cocks aligned. Miles gave him a thorough kiss then he got to work. He took hold of both their cocks and stroked them together.

  "You have time for this?" he asked now that his hand was busy on Gavin's cock, making only one answer possible.

  Gavin gave him a curt "Yes" between gritted teeth followed by a hungry kiss.

  He moaned as Miles squeezed gently then moved his hand up and down their cocks with more urgency and pressure. They were kissing with abandon as Gavin let his hands roam Miles' body. Miles' long fingers couldn't close around both of their cocks. Thrusting his hips, Miles made them rub together and through his cupped fist.

  In no time, Miles had them both satisfied. "I love making you come," he said as they cleaned each other up.

  "Same here," Gavin said. "If it was up to me, I would never let you leave this bed." He wanted to say more but first he had to kiss Miles. And then he got worried about time. "We better get moving so I can pick up Benji."

  Miles smiled as soon as his name was mentioned. "You know it's amazing how much I love that kid considering how often he's cock blocking me," Miles said and swung his legs over the edge of the bed.

  Raising his arms over his head, Miles stretched and Gavin watched him with a smile, admiring the play of muscles and the perfect curve of his ass. He placed his hands flat on his back then moved them over his sides to clasp in the middle of his chest. Leaning with his ear pressed between his shoulder blades, he wanted to hear Miles' heart. After listening for a while to the strong, steady beat, he turned his head and placed a kiss on Miles' warm skin.

  "Let me get cleaned up properly so you can pick up that kid of yours," Miles told him and turned to give his a stern look and a quick kiss before he stood up next to the bed.

  "Since when are you the responsible one?" Gavin asked him and got out of bed as well.

  For a moment Miles leaned his face on his shoulder and Gavin barely heard his mumbled response. He felt it in the movement of his lips against his shoulder and the heat of his breath. As he watched him go into the bathroom, Gavin replayed his words in his head.

  Miles had told him, "It's because of you. I want to be good and do everything right so you'll love me."

  Gavin almost grabbed his arm to stop him and tell him he already did. He had been on the verge of saying it so many times but always held back. Going into the kitchen to start the coffee for Miles and tea for himself, Gavin wondered what he was waiting for.

  A little later, Miles showed up dressed, his hair damp from the quick shower he took. With bleary eyes, he blinked at the coffeemaker, which had fresh coffee in it.

  "I love you so much," Miles said with heartfelt sincerity.

  Gavin was halfway to saying it back when he realized Miles wasn't speaking to him. "I take it you're talking to the coffee."

  "I might have some love left over for whoever made it," Miles told him as he nudged Gavin and poured himself a cup.

  "Is that all it takes?" Gavin asked while Miles had his first sip of coffee and let out a low moan of appreciation.

  "That and what you did to me last night. I'm easy," Miles told him with a smile and a seductive look in his eyes. "I think that might have been the best night's sleep I eve
r had."

  "The snoring was wonderful," Gavin said as the toaster popped up two slices.

  "Was it that bad?" Miles asked.

  "Oh, no. It was like the singing of the angels," Gavin told him as he buttered the first slice of toast and handed it to him.

  "Well, if I wasn't sound asleep, I would probably have something sarcastic to say about your snoring too," Miles shot back and bit into his toast with undue violence. "I have to go get ready to go to work now, or you would hear more from me about how wonderful and terrible you are." He finished off his toast and the hot coffee too quickly for Gavin's liking. A goodbye kiss at the front door and he was off.

  As soon as he closed the door after him, Gavin texted Miles. "Next time I'll make you a proper breakfast."

  "Don't make me come back over there, tackle you to the floor and make you late to pick up Benji," Miles threatened in his reply.

  Gavin was almost ready to dare him to do it. It was so hard to let him go though he knew they would see each other soon, maybe that same day if Miles dropped by after work. As he was turning off the coffee maker, something new caught his eye. Taking the shopping list off the fridge, Gavin smiled at the word coffee written in giant letters that filled all the remaining space on the list. He didn't know when he did it, but Miles had made his mark.

  As Gavin walked Benji from school, the little guy couldn't wait to get to the bookstore so he could show him what he did that day. Running ahead of him into the store, Benji headed for the little kids' table. Meredith was in the back, packing up some orders and she yelled out hello to them. She was almost ready to load the boxes in her car and Gavin helped her with that while Benji took off his puffy jacket, cap and mittens.

  "I made something in kindergarten," Benji told him after Gavin was done and Meredith had gone to the post office.

  After unzipping his book bag, Benji came over to show him what he made. He held up two ornaments, one red one green, with the words Dad and Benjamin written on them in gold and green sparkly letters.