Lovefool (complete 1st part of Lovefool trilogy)
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#40 IRIS
-Are you here? – She asked and called him back to reality. She looked around and was a little bit confused.
He was still invisible, but the lack of concentration could cost him a lot: he could be unmasked and it wasn't what he wanted. He went some steps away from her and watched carefully to see if she noticed something. It was the latest time to show up to her.
He went quickly into the bathroom and left it in his visible form.
-Is something wrong? – He asked innocently and apparently disorientated.
-I don’t know anymore. I just thought… Oh, forget it. – She wasn't sure what she was feeling, but she could almost swear she had felt him standing next to her and she couldn't see him. It was weird, very weird.
-No, tell me, please, what you were thinking.
He was very curious about it. Finally, she was the only person so far who wasn't an open book for him to read.
-I feel strange, because I had permanently the feeling that you’re here.
-It’s my house, it’s normal that I’m here. - He joked, but secretly he thought how right she was.
-No, I mean something else. I cannot express it. - She didn't smile. She was serious. – Forget it.
He was still curious how she would explain it and how she perceived her surroundings. She was very sensitive, if she could sense so much. He was interested to what extent.
He had met people who were able to perceive his presence more than any average person was able to. Mostly artistic souls were sensitive enough to feel him. Or people perceived him like an angel or own voice within. How would you respond, if you suddenly heard a voice speaking to you? A normal human reaction was to think how sick you are, and then to think about God. Therefore, it was forbidden to talk to people while being invisible. They had made some bad experiences with such situations, but it was allowed to leave “signs”. They could leave an open book on a table and wait until someone saw the specific page, or open a window suddenly and let people think it was something unexplained. Julian preferred the old tactic: while people were sleeping, he spoke to them and they were thinking it was a dream. They dreamed very well and were inspired or motivated to act when they woke up the next morning. If you once had such a feeling after you stood up that you can manage everything or that you will develop a specific idea, then you already met one of Julian’s family members. Everyone could be affected.
It wasn't about making people do certain things, but to encourage them. Sometimes you have so many good ideas, but you don't believe you can handle it or you are not convinced about your success and you need just a small push from someone you know or you don’t know. Sometimes you don’t suppose which strength is hidden inside of you and how much you can achieve. People tend to be caught in limited minds, in their rational way of thinking instead of lingering in the space of their imagination. They walk an already pre-defined track of life without looking for what they long for and that is when they are feeling frustrated. They don't look inside themselves, they don't think about their needs and every dream they have is put aside like a fairytale. Fairytales, you read as a child, and now being an adult, you feel like a fool by reading them again.
People like principles like “Dream your life and live your dream”, but they repeat a slogan instead of realizing the idea. They don't have enough courage and enough certainty about their own needs, because they don't allow themselves to think about what they really need. While they sleep, their desires, needs and wishes come to the surface of their mind and you can catch them like a fisher angles fishes.
Julian and his family have been helping people to trust into own courage and to realise own dreams. Without this task their life wouldn't make sense. They have been living for centuries and they had plenty of time to make use of. They brought hope, courage and motivation to people. It was up to them whether they let themselves accept such help or ignore the support. The main rule was that everyone has an own will and nobody should be forced to act in a specific way. It wasn't about implementing slavery. What for? A human life was too short to have any real use for them. And it was against their own principles and own faith.