Lovefool (complete 1st part of Lovefool trilogy)

by Amalia Angellinni

#67 PIANO THEME

  After a while, Julian carefully pulled her away and stood up.

  -It is time for you to eat something, otherwise you won’t get better.

  She stood up as well and followed him into the kitchen. She felt still strong and powerful. As always, he took everything from the fridge what he had. This time he stood near the dishwasher and watched her eating.

  -You’re cheaper to keep than a sparrow. – Julian joked about her little portion of food. She laughed shyly.

  Julian made her a cup of tea and a great smell filled the kitchen. It was a mixture of herbs and it was as well a memory of meadows in the summer. Mia drunk it slowly and looked at him every now and then.

  -If you like we can go out for a walk later. I guess fresh air will bring you up. – He suggested.

  -That’s a great idea. – Mia admitted.

  She missed being outside. During all the time she was here, she was in the house. She felt like home here. It was strange, because she never felt she had a home and now she was quite sure, she used to have a home before, it was a familiar feeling. Nevertheless, even the greatest house is still a cage and she needed to go outside. She was already excited about it.

  She breathed slowly and tried to look as strong as it was possible. If she mentioned with only one word that she wasn't feeling well, they wouldn't leave this place. However, she felt great and wanted so much to see the trees and the grass and to feel the wind on her face. She needed to enjoy the fresh air and the silence around his house.

  After she finished her meal, Julian brought her another sweater and a jacket. Both clothes were of a sporty style and much too big for her.

  -I think it is warm enough outside, and I just need a sweater. – Mia said.

  -You have not been outside yet, how are you now?

  -It’s already May and it is usually warm in May. I don’t think I need so many layers.

  -As you wish. Are you sure, you want to go out?

  -Yes, I am sure. – She said quickly. Maybe even too quickly.

  -I wanted to ask whether you feel good enough to go out. – He corrected himself and looked carefully at her.

  He knew she wasn't well, but he didn't want her to be disappointed right now. His light was partially an illusion and he wasn’t able to estimate how much it really help her healing and how much it just made her think she was healed. His light was treacherous, even to him.

  She already enjoyed the thought of a walk and he was with her, so he could help her anytime she needed it.

  -My therapy is a non-proven experiment and I don’t know how long you will feel good.

  Julian opened the door and a fresh wind came into the room and played with their hair. Mia breathed in and out slowly and deeply three times and only then, she stepped forward. He followed her.

  -Are you not going to lock your door? –She asked after they managed a couple of steps forward.

  He smiled. She really had no idea about it.

  -Mia, we’re all alone here. There are no people around. The next house is kilometres away. Believe me; nobody will manage to come here.

  She wasn't happy with his answer. She wasn't unhappy, either. Her feelings and thoughts were not obvious to him. Mia was going towards the trees and if he wouldn't know that she was hurt and that she was so weak, he would think she was really fine. She had energy in her eyes again; she had the same energy in her posture. She was self-confident and walked with grace. It was very fascinating to watch her.

  They came to the woods and there was a small path between trees. It was like a tunnel through wild roses, shrubs and young and very old trees. This was a wild wood with many post-glacial hills and peat lands. They were walking and she was very surprised by the beauty of this place. Although there were some hills, Justin didn't think they would go climbing. Mia was stronger than he thought, but she wasn't strong enough to climb a mountain. The green colour of the plants had this typical hue of the first spring green.

  -What are you thinking about? – Julian asked quietly.

  -I can feel that we’re at a place where you have not seen people for many years. It’s glorious.

  Mia was really surprised. She felt a new power in the air, she felt the dampness in the air, and this dampness was beautiful. It smelled like trees and wildness. Because the path already ended, Julian followed her. Mia made some steps forward and when she saw a tiny grassland, she ran there and only when she reached the middle, she stopped.

  -Everything’s fine? – He asked with sorrow in his voice.

  -Yes, everything’s fine. –Mia answered and looked to the sky.

  Above the trees, you could see a very blue sky and a part of the sun. Mia smiled brightly and in her eyes was happiness. Her childish innocence was so rarely to be found in other people. She was just admiring the wild nature. She spread her arms and started slowly to spin around. Julian stood next to her and watched her with joy. He was glad to see her so happy.

  -You have to turn yourself around, too. –she said cheerfully and didn't stop to move. –Spread you arms, Julian, spread them and spin around!

  He did what she asked and a second later, they both rotated between trees like little children on a play ground. They were laughing, smiling, and spinning around.

  It was quite warm and she took off the sport jacket. She threw it in the grass. Now, she was wearing only her shirt and his t-shirt. In his sport pants, she looked like a stylish hip-hop girl, going to a dance training.

  Mia savoured every moment, as if it was the last one. She felt alive. She felt happy. Then she fell down on the grass. Within one second, he laid next to her. She was out of breath and tried to catch her breath. Mia wasn't simply happy. She was endlessly happy, as never before. She looked at him with joy spreading from her whole body and she smiled the whole time.

  He smiled back every now and then and couldn't believe it was real. He was sure she was the only human being in the world, which he wanted to see every day, every night, always. He wanted to spend more time with her and he wanted to share her joys and her troubles. Something crushed down inside of him. It was like a block of Arctic ice breaking and getting thinner, melting and rupturing. If he had a human heart, he would say, his heart started to feel real emotions. Now he knew, she was the one and only and he could never ever leave her alone. Julian didn't expect such a change inside of him. He was shocked, but on the other hand, he felt it was his fate from the very beginning. He had seen her in his dream. He met her and he knew she was very important to him. Now he knew he loved her. He knew he has been loving her from the moment he dreamt about her, and now, it became clear and doubtless. Up to now, he had been watching everything through a wall of glass. Now, this wall was tumbling down and he began to see the world with different eyes. Everything became clearer and more intense to him, her smell, the beating of her heart, her joy. It was awesome! Everything around was more colourful and the green colour of spring was more intense as well.

  He slowed down the time to look around and to absorb this new quality of his existence. Then he saw a rising surprise in her eyes. He didn't know what caused this shock and changed the time back to human rhythm.

  -Julian, you’re shining... – She said.

  He didn't see any fear in her eyes. She was simply amazed by what she saw. He didn't understand, but in her eyes, he could see his body was flashing with the sapphire-like colour. Mia’s surprise and admiration were immeasurably huge. She was like one of the cartoon heroes who see something unexpected: great big eyes and mouth wide open.

  Julian was ashamed. He didn't want to share this secret with her, too, because he wanted to protect her. Otherwise, he would already tell her the truth. Now, he felt helpless and didn't know what to do. Her safety was his priority and as long she didn't know everything, she could still have a chance to be safe. On the other hand, she had already seen so much of him that it was already in question whether she had any chance. These thoughts were running around in his he
ad since she noticed his special skills. It was all his fault and now he was carrying a double responsibility for her. In addition, now he was the one who gave her one more reason to ask questions.

  Mia was just lying there on the grass and watched him carefully. However, she didn't ask anything. She was just watching him. He pulled himself together coming back to his normal condition and it took a minute. He couldn't understand it. It wasn't normal. He had never started to shine like now, just like that, without any reason. It only happened when he was young and still a trainee, but there were no people around. Was it a sign? It would be easy for him to allow her to ask him questions, but it would be very difficult for her to ask anything that wouldn't be connected with what he was. He already showed some part of himself and couldn't take it back. He knew that she would never guess what he was, because there was no definition of what he was - at least not in any human language.

  However, Julian was far away from a rational way of thinking. He felt so great when she was around, it was impossible to describe. She was like the air to breathe for every person in the world, she was like food that kept every human being alive, she was like the piece of luck, which made him one. She was so beautiful and so desirable. To see her lying here in the grass, enjoying nature and everything around made him suddenly feel very romantic.

  He couldn't resist his instinct. He wanted to touch her to feel that she was real. He turned to her and looked deep into her eyes and smiled shyly like he never did before. He was overwhelmed by her presence. He stroked her hair and she didn't move. She waited for him to go on. Julian caressed her arm and got to her hand. Then he took her hand in front of his face and kissed her fingers slowly and carefully - like a gentleman does when he meets a lady. Her skin was sensitive and smelled very desirable. Julian tried to be careful when he pulled her towards him into his arm. She didn't resist. He had her so near at his chest that he felt her breathe on his skin. He almost felt her heart beating on his chest.

  He stroked her hair with a trembling hand again, still looking into her eyes. Mia laid next to him with her mouth open. She didn't smile, but she was very glad to be at his side. Her lips trembled, her body quivered. Julian stroked her cheek very gently. She followed his moves and tried to hide in his hand. He came closer to her face. Mia closed her eyes. Julian kissed her nose, her forehead, and her lids. Her skin was soft and nice to feel for his trembling lips. He kissed her right cheek, then the left one.

  Her heart almost flew out of her chest.

  Julian neared his lips to her lips, but he didn't kiss her yet. He was waiting. He felt her so close and enjoyed this moment. The time passed by slower and it almost took an eternity until his lips softly touched hers. She responded to his kiss, very gently, and very slowly. He pulled her even closer and she still didn't resist. He was strong and warm, but somehow delicate too. His lips were tender and soft. His touch was determined and purposefully. He was strong. His muscles were not strained, but she felt them well when he was fondling her.

  They kissed for a while and the happiness of their souls was visible in the air. Mia could barely breathe, because his kisses confused her. In her head was only happiness and joy, which made her feel like she was in heaven. She was already there. She was endlessly happy. Julian kissed her cheeks and nose once more so she could take a breath. Then he pulled her to his chest and held her in his arms as if he would never ever leave her again. It was a sign for her that he didn't intend to leave her. They laid here, in the woods, forgotten by the world and by humans and they forgot about the world as well.

  The grass and the woods smelled great, but her smell was the best. It was unique and attractive. It was flowery, but carried something with it, which implied her strength. Her skin was unique and her hair was so gentle that he could caress it all the time. He smelled deeply at her hair and then he kissed her again.

  All she had to do right now was to remember to keep breathing. Otherwise, she would stay on cloud number nine forever and her body wouldn't be able to catch up. She could feel her happiness in every cell of her body, and with every beat of her heart it was transported through her whole body. Mia felt this pleasant trembling with all of her mind. She was so in love, as if she was jumping from Salto Angel waterfall into a lake of love. And she didn't crush down. She survived and was swimming in this love lake like never before.

  He kissed her over and over like he would never want to stop. She didn't oppose. In contrary – she kissed him back as well. She even encouraged herself to stroke his hair, neck and his face. He was visibly pleased by her touch.