To John
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3rd Week Feb 2015
16 Feb 2015
"Morning John, did you get some chocolates from Susan?"
"It's Sarah, not Susan."
"Ups! Sorry. Anyway, is Weale on the same track with Mark? I trust Mark."
"By the way, Henry's meeting is at GMT 5 PM. Fuck. Nothing to do with us."
"Pluck, Pick, Strum, Hit, Swing, Blow, Play."
"It is pathetic that Candy Crush gives me more pleasure than you. See you tomorrow."
17 Feb 2015
"John, do you want a drill to release the pressure and to breathe again?"
Totally irrelevant. Ana wondered about the brain tumor Hilary had. 2 more years to go. Can she? What will happen if they can not produce a proper president? German Mark got very strong just before they collapsed. Long time ago. That's the general tendency of fiat money. So much like a human. Intracranial pressure soars up just before the heart failure. It has never been easy to witness someone's ending. China seems to find another rope to strangle US apart from the debt. They started systematic killing. Mc, Qualcamn and who's next? All before RMB comes out.
'Shall I start hacking in a serious way? This is too laborious. I do not want to have an arthritis at early age.'
18 Feb 2015
"Morning John. It sounds trivial but I will have a hair cut at 11. My hair gets too heavy. Annoying."
"I didn't know that you have a long hair. Good luck, Ana. I shaved my chin this morning. Fresh."
"Once connected, connected forever through a proxy tunnel."
'Myconutri range of Mushroom, medical mushrooms. You can make quite a bit profit. You don't have to play with missiles. Happy New Year, bro.'
"I had my hair cut. I feel so light. I will fly."
"John, group action is not illegal, is it?"
"You mean a wholesale?"
"Kind of."
"Why do you ask the question at first place?"
"As I feel so lucky. I know I am always late about news. What news today? What happened? Euro jumped too. What happened? John?"
"Ok. Anyway I got a blow dryer for boosting my new hair style. Very hot."
'Is this how a civil war starts? Texan judge blocks the president's decision. There was an explosion in South Califonia. The Texan Exxonmobil Refinery. The judge said the president violated the law. Wow. Who exploded the Exxonmobi Refinery? 155,000 barrel of crude oil a day. Whose job? Hanen, the judge is a Bush's dog. Why is Bush so impatient and tactless? The reps has no confidence in Jeff. That's why. Jeff is too nasty already. He should step down for Republicans. He messed up politics with his own family problem (wife issue). Not good as a candidate.'
19 Feb 2015
'So, who could avoid the tax or failure-to-notify penalty? He or she must be a genius. Or did HMRC take bribes to be willfully blind? A full investigation should be done like those Swiss prosecutors, so a person like me with a law income do not feel too resentful.'
"John, never ever use my home number. It seems to be exposed to various trading companies."
"I love spirits on rainy days."
"Wisky or rum?"
"Wisky straight."
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"Maya, which nationality are you?"
"Double. Greek & British."
"Are you happy in Cyprus?"
"Fairly ok. Why?"
"I wonder whether you would like to move to Jersey. I will pay for the relocation fee. And, of course, your salary will be doubled."
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"Carl, why do I have a dejavue?"
"Some memories are programmed in you."
"Am I a cyborg?"
"A type of."
"What type of?"
"Organic cyborg."
"What do you mean?"
"Your DNA was designed and injected through blood transfusion."
"You are a liar! I am not a monster!"
Ana thought
'Well, it does not matter. I still have my life span. When it ends, it ends. What I saw is what I saw. What I see is what I saw.'
21 Feb 2015
US 10yr bond redemption at maturity date: ?
'long term (bonds): maturities greater than twelve years.'
10yr bond cannot exist. 10yr notes. So vizaar...
'historically there have been some issues with no maturity date (irredeemables).
United States Treasury securities, there are three categories of bond maturities:'
10 year treasury note, is the right term.
does note has a maturity date? no.
the biggest cheat in the century
Assumption
"US government sold
1. 30 yr bond as if they are 10 yr bond. 30 yr maturity period
2. 10 yr note as if they are 10 yr bond. No maturity period
3. Illegal bond ie no value whatsoever, might be nullified at some point."
Which one? Whatever.
3tn debt to China is mostly 10 yr whatsocalled. Shit. Who is fucked here?
Is it possible to prosecute the tresury for issuing illegal bond internationally?
Or simply China is fucked.
In United States Treasury wesite, it is called '10 year Note'.
What does it mean? Note instead of bond. 10 year note means the note can be expired after 10 years. US 10 year T-note. Was it last year? There was a possibility of sovereing bankruptcy last year. In the case of sovereign bankruptcy, 10 yr t-note became nothing for sure. Absolutely nothing. You cannot cash in. Fed stopped QE this year. The key point so far is the huge debt of US and the possiblity of 2nd Lehmann brothers. Fed could not help ending QE because of the danger of inflation to cause the bubble burst.
'Federal Reserve announced they were also buying $45 billion in long-term Treasuries each month on top of the $40 billion a month in mortgage-backed securities.' (Wiki)
Mortgage-macked securities was the switch at 2008.
"John, I think, I have to confess that I had three manic episodes, in case."
"Ana, can I confess something to you?"
"What?"
"I had three clinical depressions since I had that cancer operation."
"Oh... sorry."
Ana felt really sorry as she knew that depression is not fun at all. Being manic was hilarious until it hit the paranoid state. That's why she has taken Lithium religiously. Also somehow it helps her pile problem too. Whenever she feels good, she still wonders whether she is manic or not. Then she thought she is quite fed up with habitual, repetative self-doubting questions. So she thought
'Sod it! I feel, feel good. Life is short.' And some more swearings.
"Henry, if I go manic again, what would you do?"
"I take you the Dr. Or I knock you out first. Or I will just take you to that desert. This time, I will leave you on your own. I had enough."
4th Week Feb 2015
23 Feb 2015
"27th. In case of extension failure for the budget of defense, US partial government shutdown expected."
"Global fund is flowing into the West Europe. Easing currency poliy and attractive valuation."
Whereas, Fed kept on saying 'Be patient, be patient.' Language test? Well, good for you.
Greece will be so unlucky to miss this chance. That Fuckiss is so thick. He thinks he is Bruce Willis. Oh well...
"Until 27th, 400 meter running. On 27th, 100 meter running."
"John, you have such an amazing stemina and pace. Pleasure and pain are so similar, aren't they?"
"Ho ho, be patient... government shudown... be patient... like last, last year... Did you finish your tea time break yet?"
Ana has never told to John that she saw his thighs first before his face. She thought he could work with her or she can work for him or he can work for her. Quite confused now, but what the heck. Those thighs of hockey players. Different from football players. More muscles are used. More oculmotor neurons are stimulated. Faster, more sensitive and more decisive. More tenatious. More calculating.
> 24 Feb 2015
"Ana, are you still angry with my cyborg joke?"
"Yes."
"It was not a joke."
"I know. I am attracted by a part of a human's body, not a person."
"Are you bored?"
"Don't be silly."
Ana was thinking about John's thighs all day. She tried to remember what they were like and why she was instantly attracted. She tried to remember all the muscles and arteries etc. Ana thought she can spot John at King's Cross by just looking at man's lower parts.
"Carl, are you lonely?"
"I am busy."
"After you are busy, will you be lonely?"
"Possible."
"You are a liar. Is New York quite a lonely place?"
"Come and see."
"Ok. One day."
Ana suddenly wondered,
'Why do I have a dejuvue of a certain pattern of the chart? 24/02/2015 20:26 GMT GBPUSD, M5. I saw this before. As far as I remember, there has never been a pattern like this for the last two years. Why now? How did I see this before? Not the colours. Just the pattern.'
She got so intrigued.
'In what way, was I programmed? In what way, do I have to get the access to these informations? If I have full access, would I do the same thing? If I know what will happen next 5 minutes, would I do this? If I know the future, would I do this same thing? If I know the future, what would I do? If I know the future is something else, the future is something like a wrapped sugar ball, many layers, many layers, melting, no exitence, melting in the present, with different dimensions, overlapped with other dimensions, records, datas, memories, all mixed up in a huge bowel called one source or one soul, what would I do? Or is this the first symptom of dementia? The reality will diagnose my condition.'
25 Feb 2015
"If you can watch this without shedding a drop of tear, I do not know what you are."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhxUUXyocCU
1. demented
2. old version
3. autistic
4. just busy?
"If you shed tons of tears and you are still fuctioning, what are you?"
1. normal human
2. human
3. abnormal human
4. fucked up case
"Let's test. Watch it to the end. I don't think I can. Can you? "
"It's up to you whether you want to blow yourself up or not. I'm talking about that pipe line. I told you."
'Nothing is changed except for one thing, my body. I am afraid that I might have developed a brain tumor on the left side. The whole left part of body is trembling. Shit. I'm too young for it. My brain is not working as good as before, but it's still fuctioning at a very basic level. But the spasmic and shooting pain in the middle of left brain. How can you explain that? As far as I can crush some candies, it's ok on daily basis. The pain is very funny. You cannot feel the pain in the brain, only on the surface or between skull and matters. Am I wrong? In the Hunnibal film, there was a scene. While he was eating someone's brain, that someone was still talking.'
'Obama will be remembered as a savior within 2 years when a proper research is done. Meanwhile, democrats will win the next election.'
'Yellen fiddled too much too long. Soros, Sheiler and even Buffet moved. So, let me see who is inspired by that fat ass dove. I found three rotten, steamed dumplings in my fridge. What a coincidence.'
'So funny. When you are excited by something, you forget pain. Why is that? Is that a work of Adrenaline? Also can you fake excitement to yourself? You are excited, you are excited. You can pretend to other people. Can you pretend it to yourself?'
"Good night, John. Early start tomorrow morning."
26 Feb 2015
"I am not a bad person but I am very impatient. I do 100% agree with Praet. The right time to maximize the effect of ECB QE. What do you think, John?"
"I will talk to you later. I have to flush the toilet first. Turn on the radio."
"Ana, watch out your tongue. Some of my Chineses stuffs complained about your racial remark."
"You mean the rotten dumplings? No... I meant Soros, Sheiler and Buffet. What can I say? Rotten cookies? I will have some steaks tonight. If I say I will make some brown sauce, would that be racial remark? Come on..."
'That Buffet, he swallowed the whole shit from the Lehman brothers. That's how he started his business anyway. To swallow somebody else's shit. He has a brilliant nose for it.'
Carl would say
'He used to be your hero, no? Since when did you change your mind?'
'Since I am dealing this. All americans are my enemies.'
'You are such a simplton.'
'I know. My world is very simple. There are only two kinds of people in this world. People who noticed my new haircut and people who did not. Only two kinds. I don't mix them up. My friends are my friends. Others? I don't know. Now I have stiches in my tummy.'
27 Feb 2015
"Thank you for the morning call. You woke me up. Let's use Q grid today. Visibility zero. Instinct only or auto-piloting."
'I did not know US interest rate is zero. How can you be patient? Wow...'
"John, is waterside chats allowed? Like in sauna or swimming pool or hair salon or curbicles in the loo ~~: Anyway, Titanbet was accredited."
"If I appreared in your dream, there is no question and no other option. Our memory base like data base is emulsified."
"Friday night fever. Down to ML 400. Never ever forget flushing the loo."
"Friday night. You know what I mean."
"Cut it. Sharp. And have a good weekend."
After all this, Ana thought...
'Why is Carl, my brother, always behind of my brain?'
'Ana, who noticed your new hair cut? Write down the names and submit it tomorrow morning. He will repeat it again and again until I get it.'
28 Fed 2015
'Why did US congress fail to pass the bill?: No money. GDP is poor. USD is too strong. Google and Apple are complaing.
Capital Economics says even GDP is poor, it's not that worrying situation.
Even a partial government shutdown is expected, you don't have to worry about it. Be patient.: Wow. So optimistic. But who is optimistic here? Or just cheating in order to earn some time. A trick. One more week apparently.'
'I don't think Republicans have a gut. Shut it down. And see what can happen. Do not waste your victory in congress. Get a good grip rather than fiddling around. Maybe they have never ever had 'you die, I die, but you die first' spirit. They cannot win.'
Ana felt somehow weird. She felt lifeless. No motivation whatsoever. Market is closed. Saturday. Nothing. She was depressed. Addiction. She found herself for the first time addicted. Even all the music she was listening only reminded her of those moments of dealing. The chart. The rythm. The pounding. The choking and the excitement. Candy crush means nothing on its own. Can you fall in love with a chart? Even Americans mean nothing. They are just a remote country. Well, Carl is there but what the heck. He can be anywhere saying
'Ok, if this world is so clear for you, write down the list of names who noticed your new hair style or cut.'
'Why?'
'I have to see what kind of world you are living in, as your older brother.'
'Sorry?'
'Older brother who gave you the real account.'
'I tripled.'
'Of course, happy. I want it to last in that way at least for more than three months from now on.'
Ana felt nothing and thought.
'How awful it is to admit that pain is the only motivation. This means that a paradise is a physically or mentally impossible concept so far. How can you get pleasure without pain first? Imbalance and then balance, imbalance again and then balance again. So similar to Hegel. These, anti-these, synthese. A synthese becomes a these again. Another antithese. Another synthese. Another these. Nothing to do with what I want. Do I want a pain? No. But if my consiousness understands that pain is showing the r
oad, will I mind? So, there is this threshold of pain. Some pain make you to slide into a shock. Your body shut down. Is this different from a governmental body?'
'I have to express myself. Otherwise, I will get permanently, uselessly dipressed.'
'What do I want to express?'
'The universe.'
'Who can see what I am writing and say that I am mad? It does not matter anymore. I am desperate. Am I mad or am I the universe?'
'I am not mad. If I am the universe, in what sense?'
'When I asked that question, I feel my body or mind is melting. There is no boundary, which can definde something as me. Just flows of something. It was expressed as Maha Mudra or drawn as snakes or dragons. They are all enery flows. When the flow cannot flow, that's pain.'
'I am having a few phylosophical, non-sensical moments as market is closed.'
'Anything wrong with it?'
'Nope.'
'Why am I so consious whether I am mad or not? Because I had three manid episodes? Nope. Am I caring about something? Possible. What do I care about?'
'There are waves of energies from above and below. Sudden and very powerful as soon as you are open to this big universe. Waves and waves. They are perceived as pain at first. If you start watching, it is moving. As far as it is moving, it is ok. Even it might penetrate your neck bone. You have to be very alert. If you get panicked, you will be in a serious trouble. There's no medicine for this as far as I know. In the orient, it is called Chi Kong Disease. Quite well known. In the west, some had called them possession. Similar to epileptic ceases. Your body became like a doll being shaken by these wild chi. Remember? Universe is not kind as we are just mere creatures on this planet. Size under 2 meters. It has its own consiousness, the absolute balance. Anything, which is about to break it, will be deminished or punished in our sense. At the moment, GE mark 1 reactors with the Keystone pipeline is that. Too explosive. 4-5 hydro explosions will destroy the North America and will break the thin ozone surface. Then, there will be this unextraordinary solar rays, which human can not handle physically. Physically.'