by E. M. Leya
"You ready to go?" Everest came to his side.
"Yeah, Tevon's going to wonder what happened." Randy looked up at the sunset, realizing how late it was.
"I'll be in touch with you both as soon as I know anything. Until then keep an eye out. I don't want any of you hurt and we don't know what Father has planned." Heath sighed.
Randy nodded, then waved at his brothers as he made his way into the water, Everest right behind him.
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
Tevon finished putting the towels they'd bought in the cupboard as he tried not to worry about Randy. He forced himself not to go out with Everest to search for him. Randy needed time alone, and he understood that. It was the not knowing what the doctor said that was hard. How bad were things? It was obvious that whatever the doctor found, it probably couldn't be repaired. That only caused Tevon's guilt to grow as he wondered if it was something he did, or if he could have done something different to prevent it.
With everything they'd bought put away, he went to the living room and flipped on the TV. He relaxed back on the couch, trying to focus on some comedy, but his mind kept drifting back to Randy. He'd thought about calling Dr. Brisk back, but that would be invading Randy's privacy, so he'd gone the afternoon imagining every possible issue.
It was after dark when the door to the clinic slammed shut and footsteps echoed up the stairs. A second later, Randy pushed open the door to the apartment. He looked tired and stressed as he came over to the couch and sat down.
"I'm sorry I left the way I did."
Tevon turned off the TV and tossed the remote aside. "It's okay. You needed time to deal with whatever he told you."
"Did you call him to find out?" Randy kicked off his shoes.
"No, I admit I thought about it, but it's your place to tell me." He sat back, trying to gauge Randy's mood.
"I should have talked to you before I left, but I needed to think, and with Everest here…" He shrugged. "I ended up telling all my brothers tonight. They caught up with me after I went for a swim."
Tevon nodded, dying to ask what the doctor told him, but wanting Randy to bring it up when he was ready. "They didn't tease you, did they?"
"No, you were right. They understood." Randy turned to face Tevon. "Doctor Brisk said there was nothing he could find physically wrong with me. He thinks somehow I'm doing this to myself. A mental block of some kind, but that makes no sense."
Tevon sat silent for a minute, taking in the news, relieved that it wasn't anything physical. He hadn't messed up the surgery. However, that didn't mean he didn't cause Randy's condition. "This is all my fault."
"How? I told you, the surgery was perfect. He didn't find anything." Randy reached for his hand.
"No, this is my fault. Don't you see, if I hadn't warned you that there might be problems you wouldn't have got it in your mind that there would be. I put the idea in your head, your mind just decided to take it the rest of the way. This is all my fault, Rand. I caused this." Tevon pulled his hand back, hating himself for mentioning the issue to Randy at all.
"That's it." Randy's eyes went wide. "That is what triggered it."
"I'm sorry," Tevon said.
"No. I don't blame you. I spent all afternoon wondering how my mind could cause this. I was sure the doctor was wrong, but what you say makes sense. I was so worried that it wouldn't work that I caused it not to."
"But if I hadn't mentioned it before we knew—"
"I'm glad you told me. It was better to be prepared than to go on thinking that everything was going to be okay, even if it caused this. I would have hated you if you knew there was a problem and you hadn't told me. Now we just have to figure out how to fix this." Randy stood and paced the room. "Dr. Brisk suggested I go see someone, but I can't go in and talk about my life to some human. How do I get over this, Tev? What do I do to make it go away?"
"Knowing and admitting to yourself that you're the one causing it is the first step. Hopefully, one day soon, you'll just feel it working. I'm afraid if we try to force it, we will only make it worse." Tevon reached for Randy, wrapping him in his arms and kissing his neck. "There is no pill you can take for this. Only time will heal you. We'll keep trying. Maybe the more we make love, the more we try to stimulate each other, it will just happen."
"So you're saying the cure is more sex?" Randy grinned.
"Well, if you're not doing anything to cause a reaction, then it won't react, right? It makes sense the more we try, and by try I don't mean force. I'm not going to jack you off for hours trying to force things, but simple things like this…" He traced his hand up the inside of Randy's thigh, or this, he trailed his tongue up his neck, then bit softly against his earlobe. "All of this could help.
Randy arched his neck as if offering it to Tevon. "I think this is good."
Tevon was already hard. Shifting he tried to ease the pressure against the zipper of his pants. He hated that he could get this way, while Randy still suffered. He wanted nothing more to give his lover the same pleasure he found. At least now, they knew it was possible for him to eventually get there. When Randy took Tevon's mouth in a hard kiss, there was a newfound intensity there. He gave himself to Randy, offering him whatever he wanted. "I love you."
Randy stopped, pulling back. "What did you say?"
Tevon took a deep breath, fearing he'd said something he shouldn't, but there was no point in denying it or trying to backtrack. "I love you."
Randy blinked several times, then reached out and pulled Tevon tightly against him. "I love you, too. I was so scared you couldn’t feel the same way for me. That you would see me as incomplete because of this." He gestures to his waist.
"I've told you from day one that this doesn't matter, and I mean that. It's not your cock I love, it's you." He tapped on his chest. "The man you are, the warrior inside you, the man who was willing to sacrifice his life to save another. I love you, Randy."
Randy didn't say anything, instead, he reached out and slid his hands under Tevon's shirt and lifted it over his head, then bowed his head and sucked Tevon's nipple between his teeth. With a gasp, Tevon arched into him, his body on fire at the simple touch. When Randy reached for his hand, he took it willingly allowing himself to be led down the hall to the bedroom.
"Remind me later to thank you for unpacking." Randy pulled his own shirt off, then lifted Tevon's from his body.
"I think you just did." Tevon reached for the buttons on Randy's pants and quickly loosened it. He didn't waste any time pushing them over his hips, and letting them pile around his ankles. Randy's cock lay flaccid, but it still turned him on to see his lover naked.
"In a hurry?" Randy grinned as he slid his hand inside Tevon's pants and wrapped his hand around his hard length.
"No, actually I hope to make this last as long as we can. I just like you naked." While Randy stroked him, he pushed his own pants down, and managed to kick his shoes aside before stepping from his jeans.
"You see me naked all the time." Randy nipped at his chin.
"Doesn't count, it's not like this." He caught Randy's mouth for a hard kiss, careful not to cause him to trip over the clothes piled at his feet. Tevon dropped to his knees. "Lift." He guided Randy's foot up and removed one shoe, then the other. When they finally both were naked, he stayed on his knees, turning his attention to Randy's cock.
As his breath washed over it, he cupped Randy's balls, rolling them over his fingers, praying for some sign of life. Randy's breath caught, but nothing more. Glancing up, he stared at the man he loved and then took his cock in his mouth. He licked over the soft head, and teased up and down the shaft, doing all he could to cause Randy to harden. "Think how good this will be when you're better."
"It feels damn good now, don't stop." Randy combed his fingers in Tevon's hair.
Continuing to tease his cock, he also slipped a hand between his legs, seeking the cleft between his ass cheeks. He rubbed his finger up and down the crack, pressing gently against his hole, but not enter
ing. After several minutes, he pulled his mouth off Randy, and smiled. "Turn around."
"Bossy." Randy climbed on the bed and went up on all fours.
"Not bossy, just in need." Tevon knelt behind him, kneading the round globes of his ass hard with his fingers. "You like it anyway." He spread the cheeks wide and lowered his mouth to his ass, licking over the same area his fingers had been. A soft moan from Randy caused his own cock to jerk where it pressed hard against his thigh. Pushing deep with his tongue, Randy parted for him and Tevon continued to swirl and thrust his tongue against him. When he was wet, Tevon pulled back, replacing his tongue with his fingers, sliding one, then another deep into him.
"Fuck yes." Randy groaned. "Harder. Fuck me hard, Tev."
"Like this?" Tevon pushed two fingers in and out of him, twisting and turning them as he watched Randy's muscles press around them.
"More," Randy begged as he worked his hips back and forth.
"Give me a minute. I'll give you what you need." Tevon pulled his fingers from him and quickly pressed between Randy's legs and positioned himself behind him. With a firm grip, he lifted his cock and eased the head against the wet hole. Before he even had a chance to push forward, Randy pressed back, parting and sliding his body down the hard length.
"Oh yeah." Randy lowered his forehead to the bed. "That's what I needed."
Tevon shook with need as Randy bore down on him. He was so tight that he practically sucked his cock inside and held it there. Bracing his hands on Randy's hips, he started to move, watching his cock slide in and out of his ass as he increased his speed and the force of his thrusts. Their bodies slapped together, filling the room with the sound of skin against skin. Keeping one hand on Randy's hip, he slid his other around and found Randy's cock. It was still flaccid as it rocked with each thrust. He wrapped his fist around it, allowing the motion of their bodies to stimulate it.
He wanted so badly to feel Randy grow hard. He'd give up his own pleasure to have him okay, to let him feel the pleasure between them. "I don't know how long I'll last. You're so tight." His voice broke as his cock pulsed and balls tightened.
"Don't. Let me feel you come inside me." Randy glanced over his shoulder at him. "I love you, Tev. God, how I love you."
That was it. Hearing Randy say that was all it took for the slight hold he had on his control to break. He arched forward, slamming deep, crying out as his head fell back and hot streams of cum shot from his cock. He continued to thrust, losing his rhythm as his orgasm raced over him.
It was several minutes before he was able to move or speak. When he finally could, he eased out of Randy and fell onto the bed beside him. He still struggled to catch his breath as Randy relaxed beside him, tossing his arm over his chest. "That was amazing."
Randy laughed. "It always is with us. Imagine how good it would be if I wasn't broken."
Tevon frowned, rolling to his side to look at him. "You're not broken, Rand. Don't talk like that."
Randy laughed. "I'm not upset about it anymore. I know the chance is there I'll get over this. That is enough for me. It's not something medical that is stopping me. Heath always said I was stubborn, I guess that goes deeper than we knew. I'll figure this out, Tev. I'll find a way to be enough for you."
Tevon pulled Randy close and kissed his temple. "You are enough, Rand. Without the sex, without anything else, you are enough."
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
Randy sat on the large oak desk that looked so out of place in the small office of the apartment building. A pile of file folders sat in front of him. He'd read through most, but still had several more to go. There was a larger than usual group of boys joining the clan this time. It was good to see their numbers growing. He hoped under Heath's care, the clan would prosper.
"Hey." Sage stood in the doorway. "I'm restless. You want some company?"
"Sure, I was just reading over some of the new files. I could use a break." He pushed the stack of folders aside and gestured to the chair next to the desk. "You okay?"
"Yeah, Gary's gone for the weekend to some Scuba supply convention. The house is just too quiet without him." Sage poured himself a cup of coffee from the small pot on the table beside the desk, then sat down.
"Well, why the hell didn't you go?"
"He invited me, but with Father missing, I thought it best to stay close."
"You know, he may never show up. He could hide out for the rest of his life if he wanted to. You should have gone."
"I know. I guess I still feel guilty skipping out on becoming king and leaving all the stress to Heath. I want to be around if something should happen."
"You and Heath learn anything more last night?"
Sage shook his head. "No. We discussed some new security ideas, and worked out exactly what to say in our official declaration to the other clans. Really, there is nothing to do until we find him, or he finds us."
"We'll find him first. Our numbers are larger than his." Randy relaxed back in his chair.
"So how did things go with you and Tevon? Everything okay?"
Smiling, Randy nodded. "Everything with him is perfect. Actually couldn't be better. Well, besides my little issue." He ran his hand through his thick hair. "I love him, Sage. I never thought I would find the one I wanted to spend my life with, and wouldn't you know, he's been hiding in the caves all these years and I never noticed him."
Sage grinned. "I wanted to kill you when I heard what you did with that shark, but I'm glad something good came of it for you. Tevon's a good man. He gives you what you need. He's an amazing doctor. I'm glad he will finally have a place to use all his skills. I wish I'd thought of it before."
"He's like a kid in a candy store when he starts tinkering around the new clinic. He spends all his time planning on where the new equipment will go, or organizing the stuff he already has. It's a good thing we got the apartment above or I might never get him out of there."
"You'll let us know if there is anything we can help with?"
"I will, but for now, it's a matter of getting the stuff in there. It will still be slow for him here, just like it was in the caves, but he will have the equipment and computers to work on some of his projects. He really wants to focus on our side of medicine. All our doctors are trained by humans. There hasn't been anyone who teaches them how to deal with our kind. He wants to be the one to do that."
"And what about your issue? He's okay with it?"
"Crazy, isn't it? How can he want to be with me when I can't…?" Randy sighed. "He's been so patient. He swears it's not a big deal, but it has to be, don't you think? I mean wouldn't it bother you if Gary couldn't get hard?"
"I don't know, I never thought about it. I love Gary enough that I wouldn't leave him over it, but it might change our sex life a bit."
"I worry he thinks he doesn't turn me on, but he does. I swear, Sage, it's just like it should be, the pleasure is there, I just can't get hard. I still love everything he does to me."
"Tevon is a doctor, maybe that's helped him understand. He gets the medical side of this. I don't know, but if you love him, I'm sure there are other ways you can show him."
"Fuck, look at us sitting here talking about love." Randy shook his head. "Who would have ever thought we'd have this conversation?"
Sage sipped his coffee, then met Randy's stare. "I figured it would happen to most of us sooner or later, but I have to admit, I thought you would be the last. You never showed an interest in settling down."
"I never wanted to, but that shark changed things. I guess when you face death like that you start to think about things, then when I got to know Tev, there was no way I could walk away. I'd rather be dead than not have him by my side."
"I risked everything telling Gary about us. I understand." Sage looked out the small window. "How are things here? New clan members going to be okay?"
"We've only had a few arrive, but in a month or two we should have close to fifty. One of the largest classes I've ever had. I'm leaving most the tr
aining to others. I have to face the fact that I'm not as strong as I used to be. It's kind of nice not to have all that on my shoulders anymore."
"Going to become a fat, lazy, married old man?" Sage tossed a paperclip at Randy's head.
Catching it mid-air, Randy rolled his eyes. "No more than you will, fucker."
It was good to joke around with Sage. He needed this to take his mind off his cock. He'd spent half the morning talking to himself, trying to convince his brain that there wasn't anything wrong and find a way for it to release its hold on his manhood. He wasn't about to tell anyone how it stressed him out, but there was some comfort in knowing it probably wouldn't last forever.
"Yeah, can't see any of us sitting still, no matter what. There's always something to do. Speaking of which, I'm going to head home. I promised Gary I'd get some yard work done. Nice thing about living in the ocean all those years, I never had to mow the lawn."
Randy stood and shut off his computer. "Hmm, something to consider if Tev and I decide to buy a place. I can't see him leaving the clinic though. I'll walk out with you. I'm not getting anything done here."
Sage stood by the door, waiting for him. "You two want to do dinner one night later this week once Gary's back?"
"Sure. I'll talk to Tev. He's still a bit nervous around humans. It will be good for him to know Gary better and see there are some we can trust."
They walked outside and Randy lifted his face toward the sun, enjoying its warmth, but noticing how the pollution hung heavy in the air. Living inland was going to take some getting used to. He liked the open ocean, without the clutter of buildings and traffic, not to mention the smell.
"Humans are everywhere. Tevon better get used to them. Didn't he go away to college?"
"Yeah, he hated it. From what he says, he kept to himself when he could."
"You know I see a time coming where we have to come out and tell the world about us. We can't hide like this forever. Not with technology growing like it is." Sage waved to a couple of trainers as they moved past the recreation area at the apartment where several were playing basketball.
