Silent Distraction (Sign of Love Series Book 2)

by Tonya Clark

  Cameron stands there with his hands on his hips. “I have no idea what you want me to say!”

  Want him to say? Really? He really had no clue, did he?

  “Cameron, you need to go, there is obviously nothing we are going to figure out tonight. I will tell you this, though, I can’t keep being the person you push away. We are together, we are supposed to lean on each other. I understand not everything is going to be smooth, but right now your mood is all over the chart and I seem to be the one you take everything out on. I’ve tried to understand, be here for you when you are hurting, but I can’t just be here when you are happy and take the crap when you’re pissed. I understand you are disappointed about tonight, but you left me sitting in the car, Cameron. You didn’t say a word. You got out, went into the house and shut the damn door, only to finally wake up to the fact I wasn’t there an hour later. To top it off, you come here and blame me for all of this. I think that hurts the most.”

  The anger and fear I saw earlier in his eyes are now gone. Nothing. I see no emotion in his eyes right now. He isn’t saying anything, he isn’t doing anything, he’s just standing there. He is great at being quiet.

  For the second time tonight, he turns and leaves me alone without a word. He is walking away from me again. I watch as he turns and walks out of the house, this time he doesn’t shut the door. He leaves it open so that I can watch him walk to his truck and get in, driving away without a look back. It is like a scene from one of those sappy girl movies.

  Slamming my door, I walk over and grab my phone, quickly typing out a text to Cameron.

  Jayden: Thank you for proving me right.

  Throwing it back on the couch, I don’t want to know if he responds or not. I am going to bed, although I am pretty sure I won’t be getting much sleep tonight.

  Chapter 19

  Cameron

  Jayden: Thank you for proving me right.

  I had heard my phone go off right after I pulled away from Jayden’s house, but I ignored it until I got home. Proving her right? I guess I did. I left without saying a word. She did tell me to go though. I’m still trying to get over the fear and worry I felt earlier when she wouldn’t answer me. I wasn’t used to all this “talk to me” stuff. I didn’t want to talk earlier. I was pissed the guy wasn’t found. He was so close, he wasn’t impossible to capture. The bastard got away, though. The man who killed my parents was there and I let him get away.

  How do you talk to someone when the last thing you want to do is talk? What pissed me off more was when I noticed Jayden had left. She thinks it took me an hour to realize she was gone. It didn’t! I realized it right away. I actually watched her pull out of the driveway. I realized I just walked in and she wasn’t with me. When I opened the door and saw her staring down the street, I grabbed my keys and tried to go after her, but she had a head start on me and I lost her. I had never been to her house, so I didn’t even know which direction she would have gone. I immediately texted Travis and asked where she lived. His first question back was if everything was all right. I assured him it was. Told him we had a little fight, she left, and I wanted to make things right. I didn’t want to alert either him or Charliee that I couldn’t find her, and she wasn’t answering my texts or calls. He sent me her address. After texting and calling her with no response, my anger started turning into fear. I was worried something had happened to her on the way home and we had no idea where she was.

  When she opened her door, I wanted to shake her. All she did was tell me how I was closing down on her again. All I wanted to do was yell at her for scaring the hell out of me. I almost pull back out of my driveway once again and go back, but that wasn’t going to do any good tonight, we were both in moods and it would only end up with things being said we didn’t mean. Now that I know she is safe at home, we need to both take the night to breathe. I’ll call her tomorrow and maybe we will both calm down enough to talk.

  Walking into the house, I see Jacob and Tyler sitting at the dining room table eating.

  “Did you find her?” Jacob signs as I pass him and head into the kitchen.

  I nod and continue through the door, I need a beer. I don’t want to talk to him or anyone right now. When I turn from the fridge, Jacob is standing behind me.

  “Everything okay?”

  Again, I nod as I take a long drink of my beer.

  “You guys fighting?”

  I’m starting to think I may have liked it when he didn’t want to know anything about my relationship with Jayden. Ever since he went back to school, the old Jacob seems to be resurfacing. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy about that, I have my little brother back, but right now I want to be left alone.

  “Jacob, I’m tired. I’m heading upstairs and to bed.”

  “What happened tonight?” He isn’t letting this go.

  I don’t want to tell him about the guy tonight at the fair. I don’t want to tell my brother that I was that close to the man responsible for turning his world upside down and he got away.

  “Nothing major, just a misunderstanding. It will be fine.”

  He stands there staring at me. I can tell he isn’t buying it. I really don’t want to see disappointment in someone else’s eyes tonight.

  “I’m not a child, Cameron.”

  No, he isn’t, but I let him down. “It has nothing to do with you being a child. It’s between Jayden and me,” I sign.

  Again, he just stands there for a moment staring at me. “If you don’t wake up to all of it pretty soon, you are going to lose her.”

  I didn’t have time to respond, he turned and walked out. Since when did he care if Jayden walked away from me or not?

  If this is the kind of crap relationships are about, I’m not real sure they are for me. Why can’t Jayden just understand I’m not ready to talk about it? I’m not wired the way she wants me to be. Grabbing my phone from my pocket, I open the message screen to her name and again read her text.

  Jayden: Thank you for proving me right.

  Right about what? Having a relationship or the way I acted? Here is one problem I have though. If I don’t open right up to Jayden and spill my feelings or thoughts, she automatically goes to me putting up a wall and shutting her out. Just having her next to me calms me down. We don’t have to talk, I just like knowing she is there. It shouldn’t have to always be about talking.

  Maybe trying to work on a relationship at a time when my world is spinning on super speed isn’t the best idea. It’s Jayden though. Even now with wondering if this will work, I can’t imagine not being able to call her or touch her. The minute I see her, all I want is her in my arms. That woman does something to me. She has ever since she stumbled into the principal’s office. It’s not just her looks that draw me to her, it’s the challenging look in her eyes, she doesn’t back down. She’s strong and won’t take my crap. She has put me in my spot a few different times. She doesn’t show weakness very often but there is an insecurity in her that pops out through her eyes. It makes you want to wrap your arms around her and let her know everything is good.

  I want to text something back, but I can’t figure out what. Everything I start to text, I delete. I’m just going to wait until the morning. I’ll call her or drive over, see if she wants to grab breakfast and talk.

  Sleep never happens. I look over at the clock and it reads six-thirty. I can’t lay here any longer. The whole night I thought I should have texted back last night and not waited. I almost texted her a few times through the night but didn’t want to wake her. Now all I want to do is call her, but it is early. I can’t wait any longer, we need to talk and not over the phone.

  I grab a quick shower and am out of the house. On the way to Jayden’s, I stop and grab a couple of coffees and breakfast sandwiches. I would rather talk in private rather than in a restaurant with a lot of people around us. By the time I pull into her driveway, it is eight. Just as I am opening my door, my phone rings, it is Steve. I want to ignore the
call, but we are at the finish line of the track down there in Texas. If it is something important, I shouldn’t make it wait.

  “Hey, Steve, what’s up?”

  “Cameron, just making sure everything is good for Monday. You are all set to be here, right?”

  Steve worries too much. He has already called me a least once a day this week to make sure I will be there, it makes me chuckle a little.

  “Yes, Steve, everything is good to go. I will actually be flying in Saturday. Since I have you on the phone, are you and your wife free for dinner Saturday night? I would like to take you guys out as a thank you, plus I have a couple of things I would like to discuss with you.”

  “Sure, not a problem. Wait, is everything all right?”

  “Steve, I swear, man, you worry too much.” I am laughing.

  “It’s not worry, it’s being prepared.”

  “No, it’s worry, Steve. Everything is fine.”

  I look up at Jayden’s house. “Steve, if that’s all, I have to go. Can I call you a little later to clear up any details?”

  “Sure, I’ll talk to you later.”

  Hanging up with Steve, I grab the bag with the food and pick up both coffees, take a deep breath and head up to the front door. I knock a couple of times and no one answers. Should I call and see if she is even home? Her car is here, but that doesn’t mean she is here.

  Knocking one more time, I step back in surprise when the door flies open. I am met with Jayden, still looking half asleep, glaring at me, wearing a pair of short cotton shorts and a tank top, no bra underneath and her nipples are perked up. It takes everything I have in me not to drop everything I am holding, grab her up in my arms and carry her back to bed, waking her up in a much more fulfilling way.

  “Good morning.” I smile down at her.

  She glares back, then quickly turns away from me, trying to shut the door behind her, but I stick my foot in the way. She doesn’t stop so I follow her in and shut the door behind me. I’m starting to believe she is still pissed about last night.

  “I brought breakfast.” I hold the bag and coffee out to her.

  Jayden turns around, arms crossed over her chest. “What do you want, Cameron?”

  At least she is talking to me. “I thought maybe we could talk this morning over breakfast.”

  “So, since you are ready, now we can talk?”

  Her arms are flailing around as she talks, bringing my attention back to that damn tank top and how little it is hiding. “Could you please go and put on a robe or t-shirt, something? That tank top is doing nothing but distracting me right now.

  She looks down at her shirt and when she looks back up, she is smiling, and not angelically either. Her hands go onto her waist, which thrusts her chest out more.

  “What do you want to talk about, Cameron, since we seem to be on your time schedule?”

  “What the hell does that mean?” On my schedule? Screw the tank top, we need to clear some stuff up.

  “Cameron, I tried talking to you last night. You left without saying a word. However, now you seem to want to talk, so talk.”

  “Jayden, look, last night I had a lot going through my head. I was trying to sort it all out, including the fact that I let the bastard get away who killed my parents.”

  “Cameron, you weren’t the only one who was going after the guy last night, there were a lot of people who wanted that man caught. My problem last night was you were shutting me out.” She crosses her arms over her chest, you can see her temper cooling.

  “I wasn’t ready to talk. Not just to you, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I needed to sort things out in my own head first. Just because I’m not talking, it doesn’t mean I don’t need you or that I am shutting you out. I needed you last night, trust me. Just sitting next to you or holding your hand calms me down, helps me think clear.”

  For a moment she stands there, neither of us saying a word. After a while, she goes and sits down on the couch, grabbing coffee out of my hand on the way. I sit down next to her, setting the bag with the food in it on the table in front of the couch.

  “Cameron, you left me sitting in the car. Walked into the house and shut the door. You never even looked back, you shut me out. There was nothing in your actions last night that said to me ‘please stay, I need you with me.’”

  “I know and I’m sorry. I actually realized what I had done pretty quickly. When I went back out, you were pulling away down the street. I ran inside, grabbed my keys to follow you but by the time I got into the truck, you were nowhere in sight. It didn’t take me an hour to notice you weren’t there, I promise. It did take me about an hour to find out where you lived though.”

  I wait as she stares down at the cup of coffee in her hands.

  “Jay, look at me.”

  Her eyes come up, a small smile on her lips. What’s that all about?

  “I’m sorry. You are right. I shouldn’t have walked away from you, but you need to relax a little. I’m not used to all of this relationship openness stuff. I can’t even tell you when the last time was that I had a steady girlfriend where I had to worry what was going on between us. I don’t talk openly. I deal with it inside my head.”

  “Cameron, I’m sorry, too. I know all of this is a lot to deal with. You have a lot going on. I remember overhearing my mom one night, honestly, I don’t even remember who she was talking to. Anyway, she said my father never talked to her. She thought if he had, she wouldn’t have been so surprised by all of his actions or maybe he wouldn’t have found someone else to talk to.”

  “You can’t keep comparing our relationship to your parents’. For one, I’m not your father. You need to figure out me and how I deal with stuff. We need to have our own relationship, not one based on what happened to your parents or mine.”

  She rolled her eyes. “I’m trying but if you aren’t talking to me then how am I supposed to know?”

  “All right, I’m hearing you. We need to work together a little more. You need to quit being so fast to compare what we have with what happened with your parents. I need to learn to communicate more.”

  “I liked it when you called me Jay.”

  I didn’t even realize that I did, I think to myself.

  “It’s much better than when you call me Ms. Edwards.”

  “I kind of like the Ms. Edwards. Every time I call you by your last name, you get a spark in your eyes. Almost like a challenge. You become feisty and I like that.”

  “You like feisty, do you?” She is laughing at me.

  “On you I do, it’s one of the things that attracted me to you that first day. Are we good?”

  She leans over and lightly kisses me. “We are good. Which I’m happy about. When we fight, I don’t sleep. It’s exhausting.”

  “How about I take you back to bed, tire you out a little more and then hold you while you take a nap? I’ll probably even join you on sleeping. I didn’t sleep much last night either.”

  “Why didn’t you get sleep last night?”

  There is that insecurity look she gets in her eyes every once in a while. That side of her she doesn’t like to show. It is the tough Jayden she likes to make sure people see.

  “Jay, trust me, I didn’t leave here last night feeling good. I know there are things I did wrong. I hated that you were mad at me. I almost called you a couple of times throughout the night. My parents had a rule with each other. Never go to bed mad. No matter how long it takes to talk it out, you do it before going to sleep. I know why now. You’re either up all night fixing it or up all night worrying about it. Might as well fix it.”

  Jayden puts her coffee down on the table and scoots over to me. “I hate to say that I’m glad you were as miserable as I was last night. I would have much rather been tired because we did this instead.”

  She grabs the back of my neck and brings my lips down to hers. Her tongue darts in to find mine. I can feel her nipples harden against my chest through th
at very thin tank top.

  “Jay, if you don’t stop, I’m stripping you right here and taking you now.”

  She stands up and I am getting ready to stand up with her to follow her to her room when she quickly pulls her tank top off and lets her small shorts fall to the floor.

  “You see, here we can do this anywhere, no one will walk in on us.” She smiles down at me, then leans over, grabbing my t-shirt and pulling it over my head.

  “Being here will definitely have its advantages.” I stand up and remove my boots and remaining clothes as quickly as I can.

  Once I am naked, Jayden pushes me back down onto the couch, climbing onto my lap straddling me.

  “Just to let you know for the future, I have a spa in the backyard we can use as well.”

  She lifts her hips and guides herself over my hardness, taking me deep inside of her. Those teasing nipples are now directly in front of my face. I can finally do what I’ve been wanting to do since she opened the door. Sucking one deep into my mouth, I twirl my tongue around the hard peak.

  Jayden moans, her hands in my hair, pushing my face into her chest as she grinds down onto me. My hands on her hips, I lift her up and pull her back down. She is so tight around me that I already feel like I’m going to lose myself inside of her.

  Jayden quickens the pace. “Cameron,” I hear her whisper as she guides me deep inside of her.

  She is close, I can feel her tightening around me more and more with each time that she slides me into her, a little deeper each time. Her movements have become faster and faster. I’m not going to be able to hold back much longer.

  I bring one hand away from her hips to another breast. I find the nipple and roll it between my finger and thumb.

  “Jay, come on, babe, I’m about to lose all control. I need you with me.”

  I pinch her nipple, suck hard on the other and thrust my hips up. Jayden loses all control. Her body shakes around mine, with each contraction she pulls me deeper and deeper inside of her. Finally, I lose myself inside of her, bringing her breast deeper into my mouth. Jayden calls out my name, tightening her arms and legs around me.