by Lauren Wood
We made it inside, but I didn’t let her get that far before I started to kiss her again. I wanted to make sure that she didn’t change her mind again. I don’t know if I was going to be able to handle that, so I made sure that her mind wasn’t working at all. If she was too hot and horny, she wouldn’t be able to think of why this was such a bad idea.
Her lips were red and willing, pressing against mine and opening up for my tongue. She tasted just as good as I remembered and I started to unbutton her shirt. I wanted it off of her so that I could get my hands on her before I exploded.
“Come on Chris. I never knew you to be so impatient.”
“Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for this?”
She shrugged and told me that I hadn’t been in town that long. It was true, but I’d been fantasizing about Molly back in my arms since I left for New York. Those images were almost enough several times to make me go back. I almost did, but something had told me that my chances with her were long gone.
Now I was starting to see that things didn’t have to be that way. We could be together again and maybe it could be like before. This time though, I already knew it was doomed and I was going to make the best out of the situation. If I only had a little bit of time with her, I was going to make sure that I made it the best time that I could. I wanted to remember everything about her. Every line, every curve and every sound that came out of her mouth. She had always been quite loud and I was ready for it again.
I got her shirt off and I was starting to take her bra off when she suggested that we go into the bedroom. There were windows all along the living room and I had a feeling that she just wanted to make sure that we had privacy. I didn’t care either way, but I would have done it in the bathroom, if she had suggested it. I just wanted Molly. I didn’t care how or why. I just wanted her.
“Come on then Molly. You’ve made me wait long enough.”
“It hasn’t been that long.”
“It’s been eight long years.”
She agreed and let me pull her up the stairs. It had been long enough. A day without her felt like a lifetime.
Chapter 16
Molly
I’d never seen him like this before and it was hard to ignore the buzz that he had going on. He was always the aggressor, had been before, but this time he was rushing like I was going to vanish into thin air. He was the one that was good at that.
I started to think about it on the way up to the bedroom and I worried that my heart wasn’t going to take it again. I was thinking about how it felt to be without him and I knew that even if I walked away now, I was going to miss him terribly. The sex was going to be the memories that I was able to hold onto.
“What’s wrong? You haven’t changed your mind, have you?”
I told him that hadn’t. I was just missing him and he had a sad smile on his face. He had missed me too and I believed him when he said it. How could he not when we had been inseparable for so long? It was impossible to not think about my younger years and not think of him. He was in most of my fondest memories and I hoped that I was in some of his.
“No, I still want you Chris. I don’t think I could stop wanting you if I tried, and trust me when I say that I’ve tried.”
“Well I hate to say it, but I am glad. I was sure that you were going to be married off and have a few kids by now. It’s what we had talked about when we were together before.”
I didn’t want to think about any of that now. I was half naked and he was looking at me with lust. The last thing I wanted to do was talk about any of this. Tonight I just wanted to feel and forget all of the reasons why this was such a bad idea.
“Do you want to fuck me Chris, or do you want to talk me to death?”
He grinned and his eyes darkened in a way that made me smile. It was hard for me not to get a little bit of a shiver that went over my spine as he moved towards me. Maybe I had said too much. I might have pushed him over the edge. He always had liked it when I talked dirty. He said I was too innocent to say such things, but his reaction was the same every time. He liked it and it made me want to do it even more.
I got to the bed and started to back onto it. Our eyes never left each other and I got to the pillows and started to pull my skirt down. I wanted him to watch me and he froze in place and did just that.
When everything was off of me, I beckoned to him with my finger and waited as he hastily took his own clothes off. It was funny how fast he was moving now. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him go this fast, but the laughter died on my lips as he started to come towards me on the bed. He knew what he was doing, how I was reacting and I could see that he liked the control he had on me. I was pinned, not by his body, but by his eyes and his expression. This man. I’d been his since the first time we’d met and I don’t think that even after all of this time, nothing has changed. I still want him just as bad as before and he still had just as much control over me as he had had before. Nothing changed and all of this time between us had changed nothing either. He was a trap, a spell that I wondered if I would ever get away from.
“Your body feels just like it did before Molly, nothing has changed.”
I could have answered with something like, it had, but I wasn’t allowed to think. He was naked on top of me and my legs moved wider apart so that he could settle in between them. It felt just like before and the old memories flooded back and added to the pleasure felt from just the feel of his hardness rubbing against my stomach and moving lower. The same anticipation that I had before was there and I tried to hold it together. Chris had always brought me to the state of hysteria and I felt like I was ready to go back.
“You feel the same too.”
He smiled and started to press into me. It was the same thickness that had stretched me wide open before, but this time it had been so long since I had been with anyone that it felt like it was stretching even more. I whimpered against him, but it did no good. It only added to feed into him and I heard him hiss between his teeth.
“Fuck Molly.”
I giggled a little and asked him what before he slammed the rest of the way in and I wasn’t finding it funny anymore. I’d forgotten so many things and the feeling that came over me when he was inside of me was one of them. I must have did it so that I wouldn’t drive myself crazy. It felt amazing and I closed my eyes to the pleasure and closeness that I felt with him again. It was always so much more than physical with Chris.
Everything about it brought back old times, even the way he felt with my arms around his neck. I was holding on and it was the same shoulders that I’d held onto before. I clenched the cock inside of me and heard him groan. “Don’t or this isn’t going to last very long.”
“It’s okay. I came earlier. It still feels good. This is enough if you can’t hang.”
He growled at me and started to move inside of me quickly and I squeezed my eyes shut. It was good to know that I could still goad him on into doing what I wanted.
“You don’t remember very well Molly.”
Chapter 17
Chris
Her words had sent my mind into overdrive and the last thing I was going to do was end this with a solo ending. She should have known better, but there was a part of her that was teasing me. After a few strokes, she wasn’t smiling anymore. Her lips were pursed and I bent down to kiss her as I drove in over and over again.
She felt good, too good and I did have to concentrate on not losing it right then and there. I wanted to hear her scream out my name as she had before. I wasn’t going to rest until she was begging me to stop. Only then would I give her a break.
The dirty words started to stream out of her mouth as she got close. She wanted me to fuck her harder and faster and I was only too happy to oblige her. I wanted to be inside of her as deeply as I could and when she called me name out for the first time, I did have to stop for a moment to keep it together. She just felt so damn good and Molly knew what her words did to me. It was always clear what she wanted a
nd after the third orgasm in a row, she started to push onto my chest. She was reaching her limit and I couldn’t have been happier, because I had long since reached mine.
I exploded inside of her as she clenched me over and over again for the third time. Every time she came, she suffocated my length inside of her and this time I didn’t have to bite the side of my cheek to hold off on coming. The release that was so long awaited was worth every second. I felt drained as I slid out of her and heard the whimpering sounds from her lips.
“Damn you feel good Molly. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this damn good before.”
Molly didn’t say anything and I looked over at her and she looked like she was going to pass out. She had a smiled fixed to her face and her eyes stared off a little bit. I don’t know what she was thinking, but I knew that it was along the same lines that I was thinking. How the hell had I given her up?
“You always felt good Chris. You’re right, nothing has changed.”
“I don’t know. I don’t remember you coming so quick or being that tight.”
Molly didn’t answer; she just turned her head a little bit with that silly smile on her face. I pulled her in and against my chest and kissed the top of her head. It was perfect, just like it had always been and once again I was questioning every decision I’d ever made that took me further away from Molly. What had I been thinking?
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We dozed off like we didn’t have a care in the world and when I woke up with her lying across my chest a little while later, something inside of me snapped a little. Molly had always been the one. When I heard other men talk about the one, I knew that for me, it was Molly. She’d always been the one and she was the only one that I had ever considered going the next step with. I’d been with some pretty girls and some women that were even beyond my league, but it was Molly that I thought about almost every night before I went to bed.
Now that she was here and I was with her, it felt like this is the way that should always be. It was hard for me to think of life without her and I felt like I’d just gotten her back.
But there was something between us and it didn’t seem to get any better. She wanted to stay here in Alaska and though I missed certain aspects of it, I knew that my life was in the city. How could I just walk away from everything, the business and all of the perks that came with it? I was used to the city life and there were still times even now that I was looking for my favorite coffee house and I knew that it wasn’t there. Molly’s restaurant was one of the only ones around and it was like that for most things. There was very little selection. In New York, there was plenty of variety, but that didn’t seem to matter because the one thing that I wanted truly, I couldn’t have.
It was all too complicated and I lay like that for some time, not sure what to do. I wanted everything to change and for us to be together, but it was impossible now as it was then. Now I was older and I could see futility a little quicker than before.
Molly started to move next to me.
“Are you up?”
“Yeah.”
“What time is it?”
I hadn’t even thought about the time. I hadn’t even been tired but I’d go to sleep with her next to me. There was a feeling of complete relaxation that had come over me after we were done.
“I don’t know. Not too late, it’s still light outside.”
She giggled and I loved the way it sounded. “This wouldn’t be the first time that we spent all day in bed.”
“All day?”
Molly got up and moved over the top of me, straddling my thighs with the most devilish look that I’d ever seen. She was up to something and it was only when she grabbed my rod and slid down on top of it that I even realized that I was hard. How could I be anything else with her right next to me?
As she started to move slowly on top of me, her head back and her eyes closed, I could no longer think. It was going to be just this moment that was going to fill my mind for now.
Chapter 18
Molly
The morning came and I squinted to the light coming in from the window and I closed them again to give them a rest. When I opened my eyes back up, I was better able to tolerate the light and I was able to focus on what was going on around me and who was next to me. Chris’ body heat was making me hot and he still had an arm over my hip.
I didn’t want to wake him up because I wasn’t ready for another round with him. If he caught me up and in the bed naked, I knew that it was going to push us back into each other. I don’t know if I could say no to him in those circumstances and didn’t want to find out. I needed a shower and something to drink. I felt like I’d been rode hard and put up dirty and dehydrated. Chris was wrong though, I remembered this part well.
Somehow I made it to the shower without waking him up and I turned the water on after I closed the door. I needed a moment to think. When I was around Chris, it was the last thing that I did and now I needed to think more than ever. It was already almost half way through his time here and with only today and four more days to go, I didn’t know if I was going to be able to convince him to stay.
It was the thought of him leaving that made me sad. Last night and yesterday had been amazing, but it was going to end and soon and that was hard to deal with. I didn’t want it to end. I wanted it to keep going, for him to stay here and for us to have the family that we’d talked about so many times before. It felt like it was all a waste now. There was nothing that I could do to change his mind and the more I tried to think of a way, the more I realized there was no use. He was going to go back and I was going to be left with all of these feelings. It wasn’t regret that I felt, but it was something akin to it because I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to get the feeling back. I’d spent a long time trying to find a man like him and I hadn’t found one yet.
The water was getting cold when I’d stewed enough and I started to come out. Chris came in and didn’t even knock. We’d seen all of each other so many times that it didn’t seem to be a problem. With Chris, I’d never had much to hide.
“You’re done?”
I nodded that I was. “There is a little hot water left, but if you wait a minute it will be filled back up. Takes no time at all.”
He looked disappointed and I asked him what was wrong.
“I was trying to catch you in here. I miss our early morning showers.”
There he was going down memory lane again. I needed to get off that path and back into reality, so I dodged his grope and made my way to the towel rack to cover up. I couldn’t think when he was looking at me like that. I was going mushy brained again and I had to combat it with some distance and some clothes.
“Where are you going?”
“Out of here before you give me that look again and we don’t get anything done. I still need to get the trim hung.”
I could have cared less about it, though it would be a nice reminder when he left of his stay here. I figured that if I got him working, we would both be able to think a little straighter, which may or may not be a good thing. I knew that it was for the best to get back to work, no matter how badly I wanted to spend all day in the shower and in bed with him. It was tempting, but at the end of the day I had other things that I needed to do and if I only had him for a few more days, I might as well get the trim done at the very least.
Getting dressed, I went into the room that was scattered with cut wood and started to get everything ready to hang them. I kept looking for Chris, but he didn’t emerge until a half an hour later with wet hair and a smile on his face.
“Gosh, we needed that. I can’t believe how good that felt.”
I don’t know if he was talking about what we had just done before going to sleep or if he was talking about the shower. Either way, I wasn’t ready to have a discussion. I was ready to work and I was grateful that he came up next to me and started to grab the first piece to hang.
We worked quietly for some time together and it brought me back. We’d worked togeth
er before and it wasn’t long before the room was done and we were sitting back, admiring our work.
“You know, I never get this in the city.”
“What?”
“The feeling of accomplishment. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I love having a good day and making some money and negotiating a good deal, but I can’t sit back and look at it.”
“You could look at the numbers on your bank account.”
“Yes, and I do.” He chuckled like he had actually done it before. “But it is just not the same. There is something different about seeing what you have done in front of you. I missed this.”
“Well since you got done so quickly, I was thinking that maybe we can do a few more chores before you go back? You can have that feeling again.”
“Good. There are other feelings I would like to have again before I go.”
I sighed. I liked the way he was back to light-hearted and teasing, but he was still talking about leaving and I still wanted him to stay.
Chapter 19
Chris
Something was different about Molly the next day. I woke up with a feeling of need and desire and she woke up with something else. She was not as light hearted as she usually was or had been and I knew that it was because of the pending date that I was going to have to be leaving. It was on my mind as well, but I didn’t want it to ruin what time I had left with her. She had instead backed off, way off and I was worried that we would spend the rest of our time together worrying about what could have been. I didn’t want that to happen and I tried several times to pull her out of it.
