The Daisy Chain, or Aspirations

by Шарлотта Мэри Йондж

  Ethel had a shrewd guess. She remembered his having, in the flush of joy at Margaret's engagement, rather prematurely caused a seal to be cut with a daisy, and "Pearl of the meadow" as the motto; and his having said that he should keep it as a wedding present. She could understand that he was willing to part with it without remark.

  Flora met Meta in her sitting-room, on the morning of the day, which rose somewhat sadly upon the young girl, as she thought of past affection and new responsibilities. If the fondness of a sister could have compensated for what she had lost, Meta received it in no scanty measure from Flora, who begged to call George, because he would be pleased to see the display of gifts.

  His own was the only costly one--almost all the rest were homemade treasures of the greater price, because the skill and fondness of the maker were evident in their construction; and Meta took home the kindness as it was meant, and felt the affection that would not let her feel herself lonely. She only wished to go and thank them all at once.

  "Do then," said Flora. "If Lord Cosham will spare you, and your business should be over in time, you could drive in, and try to bring papa home with you."

  "Oh, thank you, Flora. That is a kind treat, in case the morning should be very awful!"

  Margaret Agatha Rivers signed her documents, listened to explanations, and was complimented by her uncle on not thinking it necessary to be senseless on money matters, like her cousin, Agatha Langdale.

  Still she looked a little oppressed, as she locked up the tokens of her wealth, and the sunshine of her face did not beam out again till she arrived at Stoneborough, and was dispensing her pretty thanks to the few she found at home.

  "Ethel out and Norman? His seal is only too pretty--"

  "They are all helping Dr. Spencer at Cocksmoor."

  "What a pity! But it is so very kind of him to treat me as a daisy. In some ways I like his present for that the best of all," said Meta.

  "I will tell him so," said Mary.

  "Yes, no," said Meta. "I am not pretending to be anything half so nice."

  Mary and Blanche fell upon her for calling herself anything but the nicest flower in the world; and she contended that she was nothing better than a parrot-tulip, stuck up in a parterre; and just as the discussion was becoming a game at romps, Dr. May came in, and the children shouted to him to say whether his humming-bird were a daisy or a tulip.

  "That is as she comports herself," he said playfully.

  "Which means that you don't think her quite done for," said Meta.

  "Not quite," said the doctor, with a droll intonation; "but I have not seen what this morning may have done to her."

  "Come and see, then," said Meta. "Flora told me to bring you home-- and it is my birthday, you know. Never mind waiting to tell Ethel. Margaret will let her know that I'll keep you out of mischief."

  As usual, Dr. May could not withstand her, and she carried him off in triumph in her pony carriage.

  "Then you don't give me up yet?" was the first thing she said, as they were off the stones.

  "What have you been doing to make me?" said he.

  "Doing or not doing--one or the other," she said. "But indeed I wanted to have you to myself. I am in a great puzzle!"

  "Sir Henry! I hope she won't consult me!" thought Dr. May, as he answered, "Well, my dear."

  "I fear it is a lasting puzzle," she said. "What shall I do with all this money?"

  "Keep it in the bank, or buy railway shares!" said Dr. May. looking arch.

  "Thank you. That's a question for my cousins in the city. I want you to answer me as no one else can do. I want to know what is my duty now that I have my means in my own hands?"

  "There is need enough around--"

  "I do not mean only giving a little here and there, but I want you to hear a few of my thoughts. Flora and George are kindness itself-- but, you see, I have no duties. They are obliged to live a gay sort of life--it is their position; but I cannot make out whether it is mine. I don't see that I am like those girls who have to go out as a matter of obedience."

  Dr. May considered, but could only say, "You are very young."

  "Too young to be independent," sighed Meta. "I must grow old enough to be trusted alone, and in the meantime--"

  "Probably an answer will be found," said the doctor. You and your means will find their--their vocation."

  "Marriage," said Meta, calmly speaking the word that he had avoided. "I think not."

  "Why--" he began.

  "I do not think good men like heiresses."

  He became strongly interested in a corn-field, and she resumed,

  "Perhaps I should only do harm. It may be my duty to wait. All I wish to know is, whether it is?"

  "I see you are not like girls who know their duty, and are restless, because it is not the duty they like."

  "Oh! I like everything. It is my liking it so much that makes me afraid."

  "Even going to Ryde?"

  "Don't I like the sailing? and seeing Harry too? I don't feel as if that were waste, because I can sometimes spare poor Flora a little. We could not let her go alone."

  "You need never fear to be without a mission of comfort," said Dr. May. "Your 'spirit full of glee' was given you for something. Your presence is far more to my poor Flora than you or she guess."

  "I never meant to leave her now," said Meta earnestly. "I only wished to be clear whether I ought to seek for my work."

  "It will seek you, when the time comes."

  "And meantime I must do what comes to hand, and take it as humiliation that it is not in the more obviously blessed tasks! A call might come, as Cocksmoor did to Ethel. But oh! my money! Ought it to be laid up for myself?"

  "For your call, when it comes," said Dr. May, smiling; then gravely, "There are but too many calls for the interest. The principal is your trust, till the time comes."

  Meta smiled, and was pleased to think that her first-fruits would be offered to-morrow.

  CHAPTER XXII.

  "Oh, dear!" sighed Etheldred, as she fastened her white muslin, "I'm afraid it is my nature to hate my neighbour."

  "My dear Ethel, what is coming next?" said Margaret.

  "I like my neighbour at home, and whom I have to work for, very much," said Ethel, "but oh! my neighbour that I have to be civil to!"

  "Poor old King! I am afraid your day will be spoiled with all your toils as lady of the house. I wish I could help you."

  "Let me have my grumble out, and you will!" said Ethel.

  "Indeed I am sorry you have this bustle, and so many to entertain, when I know you would rather have the peaceful feelings belonging to the day undisturbed. I should like to shelter you up here."

  "It is very ungrateful of me," said Ethel, "when Dr. Spencer works so hard for us, not to be willing to grant anything to him."

  "And--but then I have none of the trouble of it--I can't help liking the notion of sending out the Church to the island whence the Church came home to us."

  "Yes--" said Ethel, "if we could do it without holding forth!"

  "Come, Ethel, it is much better than the bazaar--it is no field for vanity."

  "Certainly not," said Ethel. "What a mess every one will make! Oh, if I could but stay away, like Harry! There will be Dr. Hoxton being sonorous and prosy, and Mr. Lake will stammer, and that will be nothing to the misery of our own people's work. George will flounder, and look at Flora, and she will sit with her eyes on the ground, and Dr. Spencer will come out of his proper self, and be complimentary to people who deserve it no more!-- And Norman! I wish I could run away!"

  "Richard says we do not guess how well Norman speaks."

  "Richard thinks Norman can do anything he can't do himself! It is all chance--he may do very well, if he gets into his 'funny state', but he always suffers for that, and he will certainly put one into an agony at the outset. I wish Dr. Spencer would have let him alone! And then there will be that Sir Henry, whom I can't abide! Oh, I wish I were more charitable, like Miss Bracy and Mary,
who will think all so beautiful!"

  "So will you, when you come home," said Margaret.

  "If I could only be talking to Cherry, and Dame Hall! I think the school children enter into it very nicely, Margaret. Did I tell you how nicely Ellen Reid answered about the hymn, 'From Greenland's icy mountains'? She did not seem to have made it a mere geographical lesson, like Fanny Grigg--"

  Ethel's misanthropy was happily conducted off via the Cocksmoor children, and any lingering remains were dissipated by her amusement at Dr. Spencer's ecstasy on seeing Dr. May assume his red robe of office, to go to the minster in state, with the Town Council. He walked round and round his friend, called him Nicholas Randall redivivus, quoted Dogberry, and affronted Gertrude, who had a dim idea that he was making game of papa.

  Ethel was one of those to whom representation was such a penance, that a festival, necessitating hospitality to guests of her own rank, was burden enough seriously to disturb the repose of thankfulness for the attainment of her object, and to render difficult the recueillement which she needed for the praise and prayer that she felt due from her, and which seemed to oppress her heart, by a sense of inadequacy of her partial expression. It was well for her that the day began with the calm service in the minster, where it was her own fault if cares haunted her, and she could confess the sin of her irritated sensations, and wishes to have all her own way, and then, as ever, be led aright into thanksgiving for the unlooked-for crowning of her labours.

  The archdeacon's sermon amplified what Margaret had that morning expressed, so as to carry on her sense of appropriateness in the offerings of the day being bestowed on distant lands.

  But the ordeal was yet to come, and though blaming herself, she was anything but comfortable, as the world repaired to the Town Hall, the room where the same faces so often met for such diverse purposes--now an orrery displayed by a conceited lecturer, now a ball, now a magistrates' meeting, a concert or a poultry show, where rival Hamburg and Dorking uplifted their voices in the places of Mario and Grisi, all beneath the benignant portrait of Nicholas Randall, ruffed, robed, square-toed, his endowment of the scholarship in his hand, and a chequered pavement at his feet.

  Who knows not an S. P. G. meeting? --the gaiety of the serious, and the first public spectacle to the young, who, like Blanche and Aubrey, gaze with admiration at the rows of bonnets, and with awe at the black coats on the platform, while the relations of the said black coats suffer, like Ethel, from nervous dread of the public speaking of their best friends.

  Her expectations were realised by the archdeacon's speech, which went round in a circle, as if he could not find his way out of it. Lord Cosham was fluent, but a great many words went to very small substance; and no wonder, thought Ethel, when all they had to propose and second was the obvious fact that missions were very good things.

  Dr. Hoxton pompously, Sir Henry Walkinghame creditably, assisted the ladies and gentlemen to resolve that the S. P. G. wanted help; Mr. Lake made a stammering, and Mr. Rivers, with his good-natured face, hearty manner, and good voice, came in well after him with a straightforward, speech, so brief, that Ethel gave Flora credit for the best she had yet heard.

  Mr. Wilmot said something which the sharpest ears in the front row might, perhaps, have heard, and which resulted in Dr. Spencer standing up. Ethel hardly would have known who was speaking had her eyes been shut. His voice was so different, when raised and pitched, so as to show its power and sweetness; the fine polish of his manner was redoubled, and every sentence had the most graceful turn. It was like listening to a well-written book, so smooth and so fluent, and yet so earnest--his pictures of Indian life so beautiful, and his strong affection for the converts he described now and then making his eyes fill, and his voice falter, as if losing the thread of his studied composition--a true and dignified work of art, that made Dr. May whisper to Flora, "You see what he can do. They would have given anything to have had him for a lecturer."

  With half a sigh, Ethel saw Norman rise, and step forward. He began, with eyes fixed on the ground, and in a low modest tone, to speak of the islands that Harry had visited; but gradually the poetic nature, inherent in him, gained the mastery; and though his language was strikingly simple, in contrast with Dr. Spencer's ornate periods, and free from all trace of "the lamp," it rose in beauty and fervour at every sentence. The feelings that had decided his lot gave energy to his discourse, and repressed as they had been by reserve and diffidence, now flowed forth, and gave earnestness to natural gifts of eloquence of the highest order. After his quiet, unobtrusive beginning, there was the more wonder to find how he seemed to raise up the audience with him, in breathless attention, as to a strain of sweet music, carrying them without thought of the scene, or of the speaker, to the lovely isles, and the inhabitants of noble promise, but withering for lack of knowledge; and finally closing his speech, when they were wrought up to the highest pitch, by an appeal that touched them all home; "for well did he know," said he, "that the universal brotherhood was drawn closest in circles nearer home, that beneath the shadow of their own old minster, gladness and mourning floated alike for all; and that all those who had shared in the welcome to one, given back as it were from the grave, would own the same debt of gratitude to the hospitable islanders."

  He ceased. His father wiped his spectacles, and almost audibly murmured, "Bless him!" Ethel, who had sat like one enchanted, forgetting who spoke, forgetting all save the islanders, half turned, and met Richard's smiling eyes, and his whisper, "I told you so."

  The impress of a man of true genius and power had been made throughout the whole assembly; the archdeacon put Norman out of countenance by the thanks of the meeting for his admirable speech, and all the world, except the Oxford men, were in a state of as much surprise as pleasure.

  "Splendid speaker, Norman May, if he would oftener put himself out," Harvey Anderson commented. "Pity he has so many of the good doctor's prejudices!"

  "Well, to be sure!" quoth Mrs. Ledwich. "I knew Mr. Norman was very clever, but I declare I never thought of such as this! I will try my poor utmost for those interesting natives."

  "That youth has first-rate talents," said Lord Cosham. "Do you know what he is designed for? I should like to bring him forward."

  "Ah!" said Dr. Hoxton. "The year I sent off May and Anderson was the proudest year of my life!"

  "Upon my word!" declared Mrs. Elwood. "That Dr. Spencer is as good as a book, but Mr. Norman-- I say, father, we will go without the new clock, but we'll send somewhat to they men that built up the church, and has no minister."

  "A good move that," said Dr. Spencer. "Worth at least twenty pounds. That boy has the temperament of an orator, if the morbid were but a grain less."

  "Oh, Margaret," exclaimed Blanche. "Dr. Spencer made the finest speech you ever heard, only it was rather tiresome; and Norman made everybody cry--and Mary worse than all!"

  "There is no speaking of it. One should live such things, not talk over them," said Meta Rivers.

  Margaret received the reports of the select few, who visited her upstairs, where she was kept quiet, and only heard the hum of the swarm, whom Dr. May, in vehement hospitality, had brought home to luncheon, to Ethel's great dread, lest there should not be enough for them to eat.

  Margaret pitied her sisters, but heard that all was going well; that Flora was taking care of the elders, and Harry and Mary were making the younger fry very merry at the table on the lawn. Dr. May had to start early to see a sick gardener at Drydale before coming on to Cocksmoor, and came up to give his daughter a few minutes.

  "We get on famously," he said. "Ethel does well when she is in for it, like Norman. I had no notion what was in the lad. They are perfectly amazed with his speech. It seems hard to give such as he is up to those outlandish places; but there, his speech should have taught me better--one's best--and, now and then, he seems my best."

  "One comfort is," said Margaret, smiling, you would miss Ethel more."

  "Gallant old King! I am glad she
has had her wish. Good-bye, my Margaret, we will think of you. I wish--"

  "I am very happy," was Margaret's gentle reassurance. "The dear little Daisy looks just as her godfather imagined her;" and happy was her face when her father quitted her.

  Margaret's next visitor was Meta, who came to reclaim her bonnet, and, with a merry smile, to leave word that she was walking on to Cocksmoor. Margaret remonstrated on the heat.

  "Let me alone," said she, making her pretty wilful gesture. "Ethel and Mary ought to have a lift, and I have had no walking to-day."

  "My dear, you don't know how far it is. You can't go alone."

  "I am lying in wait for Miss Bracy, or something innocent," said Meta. "In good time--here comes Tom."

  Tom entered, declaring that he had come to escape from the clack downstairs.

  "I'll promise not to clack if you will be so kind as to take care of me to Cocksmoor," said Meta.

  "Do you intend to walk?"

  "If you will let me be your companion."

  "I shall be most happy," said Tom, colouring with gratification, such as he might not have felt, had he known that he was chosen for his innocence.

  He took a passing glimpse at his neck-tie, screwed up the nap of his glossy hat to the perfection of its central point, armed himself with a knowing little stick, and hurried his fair companion out by the back door, as much afraid of losing the glory of being her sole protector as she was of falling in with an escort of as much consequence, in other eyes, as was Mr. Thomas in his own.

  She knew him less than any of the rest, and her first amusement was keeping silence to punish him for complaining of clack; but he explained that he did not mean quiet, sensible conversation--he only referred to those foolish women's raptures over the gabble they had been hearing at the Town Hall.