Just The Sex: Vol. 2

by LK Collins

Christ, he’s so sweet. I can’t ignore him any longer and text back. I’m good. Sorry about this morning.

  You home?

  Yeah.

  He doesn’t respond and ten minutes later I hear a knock on the front door. Instantly, I know it’s him. I rush around my room, trying to figure out what to do with myself. Then I hear Aubrey answer and I don’t waste another minute. The second I come into his view, they both stop speaking and he charges towards me. Placing both hands on either side of my face he says, “You said you were all right.”

  “I am,” I respond leaning into his touch.

  “No, you’re not. I can see it in your eyes and you’re wearing the same clothes as yesterday.”

  Out of the corner of my eye, I catch Aubrey slink into her room. Blinking at Bain a few times, I’m not sure how to answer him.

  “I’m fine,” I finally say.

  “Don’t lie to me. You left this morning and I haven’t been able to get a hold of you all day. I can see it.”

  Turning my back on him, I head into my bedroom and clamber onto my bed. He’s right behind me, not allowing me to turn my back on him, as I try to bury myself into my pillow. “I’m not leaving ‘til you tell me what’s going on.”

  “I…I’m sorry I stayed the night last night.”

  “Are you? Because I’m not, the only thing I’m sorry for is that I didn’t sleep with you in my arms. It didn’t matter that I slept on the couch, because you still left.”

  Rolling over, I face him and can tell that he’s dead serious. However, inside I feel like I’m betraying Nate by giving into my feelings for Bain.

  He holds me tight, letting out a big sigh. I can’t believe my actions affected him like they did. In that moment, I feel horrible for acting how I did. Nate is gone and Bain…Bain is right here with me and all I’ve been worrying about is myself, not caring what I was doing to him.

  “You’re right. I’m not sorry. I’m just scared.”

  “Don’t be scared. It’s just me, A. Nothing needs to change with us, except you trusting me a little more. You don’t need to run from me, you can run to me. Let your walls down, Arion. I promise I won’t break them.”

  Tears fill my eyes at the thought of putting myself out there. I know if I do it again and with anyone, I want it to be Bain…but can I?

  “Can we just act like all of this never happened?”

  He smirks at me and kisses the side of my mouth, still holding me tightly against him. “Are you going to let me in?” I nod my head biting my bottom lip. “Then if that’s what you need, yes. Just trust me, okay?”

  “Okay,” I whisper, now lying completely underneath of him. “Wanna tell me what’s going on with you?” I ask, knowing him well enough to see the pain in his eyes.

  He exhales loudly, resting his head on my chest and holds me tighter than ever. “Come on, Bain, if you want me to let you in, then you have to do the same.”

  “I met with the FBI today.”

  “About your sister?”

  “Uh-huh.”

  “What did they say?”

  “They don’t think she killed herself.

  “Oh my God, are you fucking serious? Why?”

  “That print they found in her car has gone missing. Someone hacked into the computer system and deleted it. They are unable to find the hard copy, as well.”

  “Fuck, Bain, how does that happen?”

  “That piece of shit detective did it, I know it. Now he’s under investigation because there have been so many red flags since the FBI took over.”

  “Jesus, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry that I wasn’t there to go through this with you.”

  “It’s okay, my mind has been a mess today, but you’re here now. I just don’t know what to think – what to believe anymore. For so long I was convinced that she didn’t do this – that she wouldn’t. I didn’t have a choice, but to believe that she did, so I came to terms with it, in a way. I mean what other choice did I have? Now, it’s like I’ve been kicked in the gut and I’m back at square one.”

  “I don’t think you can get ahead of yourself yet. Just live in this moment, right here, right now.

  “But Arion, someone could’ve killed her and still be out there. That absolutely fucking infuriates me.”

  I really don’t know what to say or how to make any of this better, so I do what I told him I would. I open up and try to relate. “When I lost Nate, I went through a long period of denial, as well. It was like my mind kept saying no way, no way, no way is he really gone. Especially because he was MIA and that gave me hope. But eventually, they recovered parts of his body. It’s not the same as Kinsey’s death, but they have their similarities. Then when the news came that they had found him…” I get choked up going back to that day. I can remember right where I was sitting, at his parents’ house when the knock on the door came. I can picture Barb as she fell to her knees and how Jeff just held her. Bain rubs my back. Jesus, I haven’t talked about these events to anyone. So I proceed because this needs to be done and I told him I’d let him in. “I knew no matter how much it hurt to hear the news, he was gone and gone for real. I had to face it. I know it’s not exactly the same as how Kinsey passed, but in a way…it is. Both of them are gone, plain and simple.” Tears stream out the sides of my eyes as I speak. “I know nothing will ever bring them back to us. We might be stuck here and in pain, but they can never be hurt again. And one thing you can take from all of this, is knowing that she didn’t make the decision to take her own life. The FBI will find who did this, that’s what they are trained to do.”

  Both of us lie in silence, neither saying a word. The contentment of listening to each other breathing is so soothing. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this calm – this safe – and this at ease.

  My shirt is moist from his tears and his breathing. I hope my words helped to ease a bit of the pain that Bain is experiencing. In the short period of time I’ve known him, I know he’s someone special and someone that’s supposed to be in my life, whatever the reason may be.

  _____

  Jeff called and said Zeus hasn’t been feeling well. My stomach is in knots from the fear that something is wrong with my baby boy. Parking in front of the familiar house, I hop out and head in, noticing that Zeus isn’t greeting me at the door or the windows.

  I see Jeff inside and he waves me in. “Hi there, kiddo,” he says wrapping me in a side hug.

  “Hey, where is he? Is he okay?”

  “He’s all right. He’s out back.”

  We both walk to the back door where Zeus is moping around the backyard, with his tail bent down and ears back. I open the screen and whistle, calling him over to me. His ears perk right up and he runs to me.

  “Hey, buddy, how are you?” I ask scratching behind his ears.

  He leans into my touch and I bring him inside.

  I take my usual seat on the floor. “Go get your ball,” I tell Zeus. He walks off and comes back with it gingerly hanging from his mouth. Then curls up next to me and I ask Jeff. “How long has he been like this?”

  “Just a few days.”

  “Has he been eating normally?”

  “Yeah, everything seems to be normal, just the fact that he’s a little sluggish.”

  “Do you think he got into anything?”

  Jeff tilts his head thinking about my question. “No, I don’t think so.”

  “Do you think I should make a vet appointment?”

  “I honestly don’t know if there is much that they could do. He seems normal aside from his attitude.”

  I exhale loudly and remember when Nate and I got this little guy. Well, he’s not so little any more, but to me he’ll always be that small, playful pup we picked out when we graduated. “You’ll feel better, bud, just give it some time,” I tell him.

  “How have you been?” Jeff asks me.

  “All right, thanks for asking.”

  “You look good, happier.”

  “I am. I’ve been focusing on taking
each day as it comes. Not having expectations for it or what the outcome will be. Also, I met a friend who’s been through a similar situation and we’ve been good support for one another.”

  I hope I’m not overstepping any boundaries by telling Jeff about Bain.

  “That’s good to hear. Did she also lose a significant other?”

  “Uhhh…It’s actually a he. And he lost his sister, but the situations are kinda the same. He went a few weeks not knowing if she was alive or not, a lot like we did.”

  He nods slowly, processing the words. I don’t want to disappoint or hurt Jeff. That’s the last thing that I want to do.

  “Arion, I want you to know that Barb and I view you as a daughter, so your happiness is very important to us. Maybe one day down the road, we could meet the guy who brings this smile to your face.”

  I smile getting off the floor and hug him. “Thank you. That really means a lot to me. His name is Bain, I think you would like him.”

  “I’m sure we would. Listen, I gotta run to an appointment. Are you gonna stay with Zeus for a bit?”

  “I wish I could, but I’m gonna go too. If you say he’s good minus his attitude, I know he’ll perk up. I’ll text you later to see how he’s doing, okay?”

  “Absolutely.”

  As I pull away from Jeff and Barb’s, I feel like I just broke the news to my father that I’m dating someone and he accepts it. I know Jeff is most certainly not my father, however, I have always looked up to him in that sense and value his opinion. Checking the clock, I notice there isn’t much time before I need to be ready to head to the basketball game with Bain. This should be a good distraction for both of us. I won tickets through my work, which never happens, and surprisingly, he seemed excited. I was worried to ask him at first and thought he would for sure say no.

  My phone rings on the drive and I answer it.

  “Hey, girl,” Aubrey says.

  “What’s up?” I ask, considering I just saw her, when she stopped by my work today.

  “I totally forgot to ask you if wanted to hit the gym with me.”

  “I totally would, but Bain and I are going to the Knicks game. I can go with you tomorrow night.”

  “Okay, that sounds good. You guys have fun tonight, I’m gonna run.”

  “Thanks, you have fun too.”

  I hang up as I park my car in front of the apartment. I make my way inside, noticing a missed text from Bain. Can I come over early and fuck you?

  I can’t help, but laugh out loud opening my front door. Do you really need to ask?

  I didn’t want to assume. I’m on my way.

  You do realize that the game starts at 7:00.

  I don’t need that long. What kind of animal do you think I am?

  Uhhh, the kind that likes to fuck and fuck a lot.

  All right, enough with the F word. Get your ass naked and ready for me.

  I agree and begin peeling off my Starbucks clothes and get into the steaming hot shower.

  The water feels blissful. I’m tempted to stay in here and make Bain come find me when he arrives. But I can’t remember if I left the door unlocked or not. So instead, I quickly wash, shave, rinse, and get out. As I cover my body in lotion, I’m startled by the figure standing in my doorway. Staring back at me with that burning look, is Bain.

  “Hi,” I whisper.

  “You need to lock your door,” he responds.

  “I left it open for you.”

  “I appreciate that, but your safety is important. Now get over here and let me taste those amazing lips.”

  -Bain-

  Listening to my order, she walks to me stark naked. Her signature Arion smirk is plastered across her face and I can’t stop myself from pressing her into the door.

  Taking her face in one of my hands, I lean in and kiss her. Jesus, her lips are like heaven. With my free hand I run it down her body, noticing how every bit of her fits so perfectly against my palm. Removing my mouth from hers, I breathe her in and look into her eyes. There’s an alluring look that’s driving me mad, mixed with her scent – it all intoxicates me. She smells so sweet, yet there’s a hint of something I can’t pinpoint.

  I kiss her again, trailing kisses down her neck and across her chest. A moan escapes her and she catches me off guard when she grabs my dick through my pants. I push myself into her, grinding against her hand like it’s her pussy. Pulling away, she fumbles with my pants and I stop her. “I will fuck you and I can’t promise that we’ll make it to the game.”

  “It’s worth the risk.”

  I chuckle at her brazenness. I should have guessed that she wouldn’t have a problem missing a basketball game in order to fuck. I can’t take my eyes off of her as I shrug my pants down, leaving them bunched at my ankles. As she steps towards me, I reach down and touch her perfect little cunt. There’s not a spot of hair on her and the moment my fingers move in between her soft folds, my cock aches for her.

  “Mhh, you’re wet. You want me to fuck you, don’t you?”

  “God, yes,” she says resting her arms around my neck. With that response, I sink inside of her tight cunt, burrowing my cock in as far as I can fit. Our bodies mold so perfectly. Her heart pulsates under my hold, my size almost filling her completely.

  I lift her up and she gasps. “Wrap your legs around me,” I order. Tonight I’m not holding back. This is who I am when it comes to sex. Lately, the pills have put me at a bit of a disadvantage. But now I’m in my zone, exactly where I need to be. I’ve dealt with nothing but pain and despair for over half a year. But when I’m with Arion, I don’t have to pretend and I let that all go. God, I love this. Pleasure surges through me. Quietly, I pound her as she hangs on to me with passion drenching from her.

  The room is silent except for her noises and our skin slapping against each other. “Is your roommate here?” I ask, stopping for only a brief moment to try and drown out some of the noise, because I need to fuck her harder.

  “No.”

  Picking up speed, I show no mercy and slam inside of her. Without Aubrey here, there’s no reason to be quiet. Arion doesn’t complain, with her back against the wall and not a thread of clothing on. She’s in her zone and by far the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen. I indulge and enjoy having her all alone.

  Thinking back, I remember wondering when our last time would be. I’m not the kind of guy who sleeps around; I just don’t. I’ve never started a relationship like this, if that’s what you could even call what we are doing – a relationship. Whatever it is, I can say without a doubt that I am one-hundred percent ready to take the next step with this girl, letting her open up to me, and building her trust.

  Her body tenses and I can tell that she’s about to let go. I keep my eyes on her. Watching the way her neck glistens with sweat, small moans roll out of her as she knots her fingers tightly into my hair.

  Our eyes stay connected ‘til that moment, ‘til pure bliss takes over and reality washes everything away. Her body shakes and trembles in my hold. “Yes, Bain, fuck me, make me come.”

  Taking my hand, I place it around the back of her neck as her words fade out into louder moans. She lets her legs drop and stands on her own. Without missing a beat, I bring her pleasure to the surface and make her come good and hard. Watching what I can do to her, makes my cock explode. My release is so intense, that pleasure shoots to the back of my head.

  But I can’t close my eyes; with Arion, I never can. Staring at her panting while I pump myself inside of her is such a goddamn turn on. With a few strands of her blonde locks down and around her face, I brush them away and slow my movements.

  “Do you have any idea how fucking hot you are?”

  Suddenly, she becomes shy. I’m not sure why, but she turns her head away from me.

  “You don’t need to flatter me, Bain; you already have me where you want me.”

  “I’m not trying to flatter you. I’m speaking the truth.”

  “Well, you’re too sweet. So are we going to this game
, or are we gonna fuck?”

  “I just fucked you,” I respond, moving in and out of her. “But I’m down for more.”

  She looks at me, whimpering a little. I can tell how much she already loves the sensation. “Do you wanna go?” she asks me.

  “I wanna do what you wanna do.”

  “Let’s go, we can fuck any time.”

  I can’t help, but laugh out loud. “Coming from the girl who doesn’t go on dates herself. I believe I just gave you an out.”

  “Whatever, Bain, it’s not an out. You know you wanna go just as much as I wanna watch all those sweaty men run around. Plus, I’ve never sat courtside. It should be fun.”

  “You didn’t tell me we were sitting courtside,” I respond and finally pull out of her.

  “I swear I did.”

  “Trust me, I would have remembered that.”

  “Even more of a reason to go, right?”

  Suddenly I feel nervous as I dress again and sit back on her bed. Being that close to the game and all, I’m bound to run into someone. “Bain, are you gonna answer me?”

  “I’m sorry, I didn’t hear you.”

  “I just said it gives us even more of a reason to go, you know with seats like that.”

  “Yeah,” I say and nod my head.

  She looks at me questioningly and then disappears into her closet. I lean back trying to control my breathing, it’s erratic – a little out of control. The worst part is I didn’t bring any pills with me tonight. I want to stop taking the stupid things. They make me a different person – I need to stop. Arion gives me the drive to do it, but in times like this, when I feel nervous, I’m not sure how to handle myself or what’s going on. I hate that I’ve become so dependent on them.

  “How does this look?” she asks, standing before me in a pair of tight, white skinny jeans, a loose, flow, gold shirt, and matching heels.

  “It looks fucking hot.”

  “Glad you approve. Let’s hit the road.”

  I swallow hard and tightly hold her hand on the way to my car. Once we are driving, it gives me something to focus on, but I know she can sense how quiet I am.