by Jenna Chase
Smiling like a madman he climbed up between my legs until he was face to face with me. I could feel my cheeks burning red and my chest heaved as he bent down and kissed me. I could taste myself in his mouth.
“Good?” he asked with a single raised eyebrow.
“You don’t even know,” I said covering my face with my hand. I couldn’t believe I could still feel embarrassed with him but somehow I did.
“Don’t hide from me,” he said pulling my hand away. I wanna see your beautiful face. I wanna see how happy you are right now and now that I did that to you.
“Ok,” I said keeping my eyes closed. If I couldn’t cover my face, then I wasn’t going to look at him.
“I want you to look at me,” he said catching onto my plan.
Shit.
I slowly opened one eye and then the other. He was looking at me in a way he never had before. There was something emotional and deep in the way that he gazed back into my eyes. Something had changed in him. He continued to look at me and I could tell he was thinking something he wasn’t saying.
“Tell me,” I said.
“It’s nothing,” he countered.
“Don’t tell me it’s nothing,” I said softly. “I want to know what you’re thinking, what you’re feeling right now.”
He paused for a moment considering how to express his thoughts. “I love you so much,” he said as he leaned down and laid his head across my chest. I know you have to leave to go back to school soon and it makes me sad. I want to be with you forever, but I know you’re smart and that you value your education. I feel selfish for wanting to keep you and yet I can’t stop myself. I want to taste every inch of your body and to feel myself inside of you every day. I want to see you grow as you learn all of the ranch work and I want to see your work with Cheeseburger. If you go…if you go all of that will be interrupted, my life is going to feel empty without you,” he sighed.
I stroked my fingertips down his back while I considered everything he had said. “You know I won’t be gone for long, it’s my last year.”
“Any time is too long,” he was heavily.
“I know. I don’t want to go either, but I have to finish school. I’ve worked so hard, and I love you, and I want to be with you too but I also have to do this for the rest of my future. I can’t quit now. You understand that don’t you?”
“Of course I do, but that doesn’t make it easy and I think about it all the time.”
“Just lay here with me, be here with me right now. We’ll cross the other bridges when we come to them. For now, I am here with you and there’s nowhere else on earth I would rather be. Now come up here and kiss me and let me feel you inside of me.”
He lifted his head and pushed his hips down deeper between my legs. I could feel his hardness and with a quick wiggle I had everything I wanted.
“Show me how much you love me,” I begged as I pressed my hips upward.
I know I had told him to be in the moment, but as we made love, my own mind drifted to thoughts of school and leaving, and the whole encounter felt bittersweet like a premature good bye.
Country Billionaire 4
I turned around and glanced back into our bedroom, a small box cupped in my hands. There were other larger boxes stacked off to the side of the room waiting to be carried out, but there were plenty of other signs that pointed out that I was still one of the inhabitants of this comfortable space – the space that Shane and I had spent so much time in together. Time spent laughing, and sharing, …and touching. Those times spent together were the best in my life, and then I found myself forced to head back to college.
I had considered not returning, not finishing up and staying with Shane forever. I loved being on the ranch with him and he would always have more than enough money to support the two of us, but I didn’t want that burden to fall on him. I wanted to feel accomplished myself, to feel that I could contribute more to our relationship than solely relying on him. Certainly I helped on the ranch but that was his dream and I knew I needed to pursue mine as well.
Looking into the room I could feel every memory of every touch swirling around me in a mix of excitement and agony. I didn’t want to leave. I wanted to crawl right back into that bed and pull him to me like I had so many times before. I wanted us to be lying together, our bodies warmed by one another, our chests heaving from exertion, and our minds free from all worry as we laid together completely spent. But that couldn’t happen right now.
Right now I was having to load my things and head to school. Right now I was having to face the crippling depression of leading a life away from Shane, away from everything we’d been building together. Certainly there could be holiday visits and plenty of phone calls but I knew it wouldn’t be the same as holding his warm body against my own. Now I would be sleeping in a twin bed in a dorm room with a bunch of loud and immature Freshmen.
I could stay off campus for my last year but I’d chosen not to take on the extra expense. Shane had tried to insist:
“Let me pay for it,” he’d pleaded. “I don’t want you to be burdened by the other students and their drunken parties. I want you to be comfortable and to have your space and privacy.”
“I’ve lived in the dorms for the last three years. I think I can survive one more,” I’d said to him with a smile.
Shane had stepped forward and wrapped his arms around my waist. “I don’t care what you’ve done before. I care what you’re doing now,” he said leaning down to whisper the words seductively in my ear. His lips trailing down my ear to my neck.
“You’re not going to win like that,” I said teasingly pushing him away. “I’m going to stay in the dorms like I always have, and you’re going to live with my decision.”
He’d grinned and stepped back knowing I wasn’t going to be swayed. He may not have liked it but he knows I’m a strong woman and won’t do what he wants simply because he wants me to. So now here I was, packing up my boxes and leaving. With the threat of college dorms looming I almost wished I’d let him win. A private apartment would have been nice.
Pushing my thoughts and my worries to the back of my head I took in the room for what I figured would be the last time for a long while. The way the sun shone in through the window to drape a shadow across the bed. The mirror on the wall reflecting the rest of the room. The smell of Shane in the air. I exhaled and turned on my heel to leave the room.
“Where do you think you’re going?” a familiar voice asked as his hand snaked through my hair and around my neck. I jumped and dropped the small box I’d been holding. I started to bend to pick it up but he stopped me. “We’ll get that in a moment,” he said as he pushed the box to the side with the toe of his boot. Stepping forward he held me steady as he pressed his body to mine. “Right now I have other business to take care of,” he said as he moved his hand to fist my hair. He yanked it backwards roughly and brought his teeth to my neck. I couldn’t stop myself as I groaned under his attentions. My neck was my weakness and he knew it. He never played fair.
“We don’t have time...,” I gasped but he didn’t listen. Using his strong body, he pushed me back the five foot or so to the bed and then he laid me down.
“Let me worship you once last time before you go,” he said lifting my shirt, his mouth falling to my soft stomach.
“Worship me?”
“That’s the only way I know how to appreciate your body,” he said as he worked his way up my chest and then back down to the top of my jeans. He unbuttoned them and then unzipped them slowly before leaning back to pull them down off of my legs exposing my skimpy pink lace panties. “These are my favorite,” he said biting the lace with his teeth and then dragging them down my legs.
Clothing removed, he spread my legs and nibbled up my thighs until he was exactly where he wanted to be. He ran us tongue up the length of my wetness slowly. My entire body shivered as he tasted me and then dove in. If this is what he meant by worship me then I was more than willing to let him pray.
“Wait,” I breathed when I knew I wouldn’t be able to stop myself if he didn’t pull away soon.
Instead of listening he wrapped his hands around the top of my thighs and pulled me down harder onto his face. My legs spread wide, I arched my back and ground myself against his face. I never asked where he’d gained this particular skill but I’d never had anything like it. The way he worked his tongue could have me cumming in a matter of a few minutes, but even after he finished he liked to continue, to taste all of me – before and after. I always had to call him back up where he would kiss me deeply allowing me to taste and smell myself on his mouth and his face. It was a closeness that I loved and in this moment, as he worshipped me, I knew it was yet another sign that we were meant to be.
“Don’t stop,” I found myself gasping. I could feel myself edging closer and closer. His tongue drove deep inside of me and then pulled out again to flick my clit again. “Mmm…yes,” I cried out. The vibration of his moan against my body had me gripping both of his hands. He wrapped his hands around mine and held my arms tight as I moved against his face. Moments later I felt the warm rush through my entire body. I clamped my thighs shut around his face and moaned loudly as my entire body pulsated and shook.
Before I’d finished he had lifted himself, pushed down his jeans and climbed over top of me, his hips falling between my thighs as he drove himself into me. He wasn’t calculated or careful or tender, he was animalistic and hungry. I could tell he simply needed to feel himself inside of me that last time and as his mouth fell to my neck, and he sucked harder and harder to leave me with a bruise, I knew that he was claiming me as his. He wanted to leave his mark so that everyone at my school would know that I had already been spoken for, that I wasn’t available or free to anyone else. I was his and his alone.
I delighted in the pressure of his mouth against my neck and his tongue leaving their mark on me. It turned me on to think of him marking me and I couldn’t wait to wear the purple-bruised badge. I reached down and gripped his firm ass in my hands as I lifted my hips and begged him to give me everything. I knew we should be careful but in that moment I wanted it all. My mind flickered a slight hesitation that I quickly brushed aside. I’d been admittedly bad about my birth control lately and I knew that was asking for trouble, but my logical side assured me that just once surely wouldn’t result in anything. As quickly as the thought arrived it vanished again and I pushed him onto his back.
I mounted him feeling him penetrate me deeper as I pressed a hand to his chest and rode him. He fingertips wrapped around my hips and helped to lift and lower me as he bucked his own hips to match my movements. I had to fight the urge to close my eyes. I wanted to see him when he came. I wanted to see the look on his face as he gave me his love.
It didn’t take long before he was moaning and crying out that he was going to cum.
“Oh god. I’m going to cum. Do you want me to fill you?”
“Yes!” I cried out as I rode him faster. “Cum for me.”
My words put him over the edge and seconds later his entire body convulsed and his fingertips dug hard into the soft skin of my hip.
“Give it to me,” I begged as I moved along his length a few more times, until he’d given me all he had to give.
“Holy shit…” he finally breathed when he was finished and pulled me down to lie on his chest. He stroked my back and my hair as his chest heaved beneath me. I just smiled and enjoyed the feel of him for what was going to be the last time for a long time. Too long. “I don’t want you to go,” he said after several minutes. A sadness had creeped into his voice and it broke my heart.
“I know,” I said in a whisper. “I don’t want to either…but…”
“But you have to. I know. Its ok. I just want you to know that if it were up to me I’d keep you here forever.” He lightly kissed my forehead and wrapped his arms around me in a tight embrace.
“I’ve never doubted it,” I said as I glanced at the clock on the wall. 2:00, we had to get going. “We have to get up.”
“Just one more minute.” He squeezed his arms around me tighter and held me like he’d never get to hold me again. After a minute he let go like he’d promised and allowed me to climb away. I stood at the edge of the bed and took in his naked body. Not just a quick glimpse, but a serious look that would be emblazoned on my mind for the next few months. I imagined myself taking him in like he was a fine work of art, every inch to be analyzed and appreciated. I didn’t want to forget any of him. The freckle on his left hip, the small scar on the inside of his right thigh.
My eyes traveled back to his face. I looked deep into his eyes as he looked back into mine and I felt like I was going to break down into a sobbing heap on the floor.
“It’s going to be ok,” he said sensing my sadness and worry. Reaching out he took my hand and squeezed it. “I love you and you love me and this is just temporary.” Swinging his legs over the edge of the bed, he stood and pulled up his jeans. Leaning forward he kissed my cheek lightly. “I’m always here for you whenever you’re ready to return, in a week or at the end of the year. I am always here.”
“Thank you.” I placed my hands on either side of his face and pulled him to me. I kissed him deeply and tried to remind myself that nothing was going to change between us just because I was going to be gone for a little while. School was something I needed to finish for myself, to know that I could do it.
“Come on, let’s get the rest of your stuff loaded,” he said as he walked across the room and grabbed one of the boxes from the pile.
I sighed and went back to the small box I’d left on the floor before we’d been sidetracked. I hefted it and followed after him to the truck where we’d already loaded most of the things I would need for school.
“You don’t have to take me,” I said following him back into the house for the last few boxes.
“I’m taking you because I want to. I need those last few hours with you or I don’t think I can make it through our time apart,” he said with a smile.
“Oh you…,” I said with a red blush rising to my cheeks. “You’re so good to me.”
“I don’t know how to be any other way.” He smiled and grabbed the first of the last two boxes. I leaned and grabbed the other and together we walked back to the truck. This was it, the last of my school things. I was really on my way back to my old life. The life before Shane.
The drive took a few hours. When I’d first gone to school I had decided to stay in state so that the costs wouldn’t bury me. School is expensive enough without added extra out of state or international school costs. Plus, our state has great schools and I didn’t need anything Ivy league or ultra-fancy. All I wanted was my degree and just about any school was good enough for that. It also didn’t hurt that Laurissa had decided on the same school. We’d been friends all through high school and the thought of going to different schools had tormented me when we were coming up on our high school graduation. Together we had jumped for joy when we realized we’d both been accepted to the same school. We had high fived and squealed about being “friends forever”.
Shane and I held hands in the cab as he drove. Every now and then he would squeeze my hand tightly. It was like receiving the hug he couldn’t reach across to give me. After about an hour had passed I couldn’t take it any longer and I scooted across the bench seat so that he could put his arm around me. I knew it wasn’t as safe for driving but I couldn’t help it, I needed to be closer to him.
“IT’s going to be ok,” he said as he stroked my shoulder with his hand.
“I know. I’m just really going to miss you and the ranch…and Cheeseburger,” I said with a light laugh. “Silly horse.”
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�ll miss you too. Damn horse always listened to you better than me. It’s going to be tough getting him to mind without you around.”
“I think you’ll manage. You’re the one that’s the horse whisperer after all. I’m just the help.”
“Well, you were supposed to just be the help. We see how that turned out.”
“Hey, that was all you. I never had a chance. I just came in for an interview and you were like a vulture. I just wanted a job but you had different plans within five minutes of meeting.”
“How was I supposed to know this smoking hot, sexy woman was going to suddenly show up at my ranch? It’s all your fault.”
“Uh huh, whatever you gotta tell yourself. You and your five second interview in the car on the way to go have burgers. Had you done that with other women?”
He turned his head and glanced at me quickly before turning back to the road. “Never. Only with you. I knew I needed to know you better the second I saw you.”
“Aww, that’s really sweet,” I said clutching his chest. “How am I ever going to live without you?”
“School is important to you. You can do it. It’s not long and we’ll have phone calls and weekend visits. It’s going to be ok.”
“I know. I’m just going to miss our life.”
“You’ll be back soon,” he said as he lightly kissed my forehead.
We drove the rest of the way in near silence. There were brief comments here and there about little shops we saw on the drive or about the traffic and other cars, but mostly we stayed in our own heads. Each of us was having to work through the emotions our separation was bringing up. I kept having to fight back the tears that were threatening to overcome me and I know Shane was working through his own difficult feelings. It was a hard day for both of us.
