Dollenganger 05 Garden of Shadows

by V. C. Andrews

  "I think not, and neither does John Amos. We both think this is God's will," I added quickly.

  "God's will? How is this God's will? Are we to take in every waif?" he asked, gesturing at the doorway as though tens of thousands of orphans waited for entry.

  "I hardly think your father's son is a waif, Malcolm. And he is your stepbrother," I said, pressing my lips together tightly.

  "Just because she squandered a fortune, a--"

  "A fortune you invested for her and never advised her about properly," I said quickly. "Malcolm, whatever your motives were then no longer matter. We have been given an opportunity to rectify the mistakes of the past. It is we who will be squandering if we don't take up this chance to do what is right and good. You must make peace with your troubled soul, and by caring for your father's son, a promising young man now in terrible distress, you will have gone far toward doing so. Alicia is dying. We cannot turn our backs on her at this time," I said.

  He stared up at me for a long moment and then looked at the letter again.

  "What kind of a marriage did she make for herself after she left here if the man, a doctor, left nothing for Christopher?" he asked, looking down at the letter as though he could see and question Alicia through it.

  "That is beside the point. Anyway, Christopher was not her new husband's son. He is not of his blood; he is of yours. We have more reason to provide for him Malcolm," I repeated, "it is God's will."

  After a moment he nodded slowly.

  "Very well," he said, and sat back. "Send word and let it be so."

  I left him in the salon, the letter clutched in his hand, his eyes locked in a vision of the past. I did not wish to question what it was he saw. Instead, I reported the decision to John and he saw to the correspondence and made the arrangements for Christopher's arrival.

  Malcolm's only requirement was that I explain the situation to Corinne. I knew that he didn't trust himself to do so. I called her to my bedroom, something I rarely did, and sat her down to listen. She was intrigued from the moment I began. She looked up at me expectantly, her eyes burning with interest. I stood before her, my hands behind my back for a moment, phrasing my thoughts carefully before speaking.

  "As you know, your father's father remarried when he was quite along in his years and he married a woman considerably younger than he was."

  "Yes, Alicia," she said quickly, "and she slept in the Swan Room."

  "Alicia and Garland, your grandfather, had one child, a son named Christopher. I know that Mal and Joel often spoke about him." She nodded slightly. "Your father never approved of Alicia, nor did he approve of his father's marriage. When your grandfather died, your father insisted Alicia leave Foxworth Hall with her son. She did so. She returned to her home in Richmond, where she eventually remarried a man who, unfortunately, suffered a serious illness and died as well."

  "How dreadful," Corinne said.

  "Yes. Even more dreadful, perhaps, she lost all her income in the terrible stock market crash and became quite poor. Now we have learned that Alicia herself is dying of cancer. Her son is seventeen and quite brilliant. She has written to us requesting that we take Christopher in and provide him with a college education so he can become a doctor. Your father and I have agreed and Christopher will be arriving here at Foxworth shortly. He will go on to Yale, your father's alma mater, but this will be his home until he graduates and sets up a practice."

  She stared at me to be sure I had finished.

  "How wonderful," she said finally. "And generous."

  "It's God's will," I said. Corinne nodded quickly. "I expect you to act properly when he arrives. Make him feel at home. Remember that despite the fact that there are only three years between you, he is your half uncle and should be thought of in that manner."

  "It will be good to have someone in the house to talk to," she said. "I mean someone who is not an adult yet," she added quickly.

  I knew what she really meant--someone who spoke of things other than God and gloom.

  "Nevertheless, he is practically an adult. Don't distract him from his purpose." Then I smiled. "Christopher was such a wonderful boy. I'm sure he's grown into a delightful young man. I think the two of you will get along wonderfully," I kissed her on the forehead. I didn't blame her for her excitement. Foxworth Hall had become a large, empty house for her since the deaths of Mal and Joel. Christopher's arrival brought the promise of new light and life, not only for her, but for me as well. I couldn't help recalling the sweet child that he was, how polite and affectionate and thoughtful he was. Like Corinne, I was filled with happy anticipation.

  Christopher arrived on u bright summer day, and it seemed as if the sun had followed him into the house. Alicia had passed away only a month before. John Amos had gone as our emissary and had handled the funeral arrangements, and after a proper mourning period, brought Christopher back with him I could remember Christopher only as a child alongside Mal and Joel, but the moment he entered Foxworth Hall, I saw that those handsome qualities he had inherited from Garland and those beautiful qualities he had inherited from Alicia had been developed and embellished. I saw something of Mal and something of Joel in him as well, and those characteristics endeared him to me.

  He had grown into a tall, handsome man. When I saw him standing there in the sunlight, it was as if his golden hair were haloed by an aura of light. I sensed a gentle, beautiful temperament in him. He radiated an inner peace that warmed my heart.

  He stood there wide-eyed, obviously not remembering much of Foxworth Hall. From what John Amos told me, I knew he came from a four-room cottage into this huge, grand house that dazzled him. He looked at Malcolm and me with such an

  expression of gratitude that I was actually

  embarrassed. He didn't understand that half of this entire estate, indeed, half of Malcolm's businesses, rightfully belonged to him.

  Then I felt sorry for him, standing there, holding his two suitcases and gaping about. He wore shabby shoes and clothing that looked worn. I was about to direct John to take his things up to his room, when Corinne appeared on the staircase.

  She had come running down the first half and then stopped abruptly in the middle. Christopher looked up at her. She had dressed in her prettiest light blue cotton dress. Her golden hair was washed and curled so that it gleamed richly.

  I saw Christopher's eyes sparkle with surprise and interest. My heart skipped a beat. Would they sense who they were to each other? Was there something in their blood that would signal their relationship? They both had that thick, flaxen blond hair and those cerulean blue eyes and that peachesand-cream complexion. I looked at Malcolm quickly to note his reaction to his stepbrother. I saw the pleasure in his face as he read his own and Alicia's lineage in Christopher's face. He obviously approved of the young man before him.

  I hesitated no longer.

  "Christopher, welcome," I said, stepping forward to him. "It is sadness and tragedy that brings you here, but hopefully you will find happiness and joy here with us in Foxworth Hall." I wanted to embrace him, as I had when he was a child. But I stopped myself. After all, he was now a grown man, and practically a stranger to me.

  "Thank you. . . ." I could see he was struggling for a way to address me. I was, after all, in his mind, his sister-in-law. "Olivia," he finally said, and looked up at Corinne again.

  "This is Corinne, our daughter. Corinne, come down and properly greet your uncle," I said, stressing the word "uncle." She brushed back a lock of her golden hair, rested her hand on her bosom, and drifted down the staircase with a radiant smile lighting her face.

  "How do you do," Christopher said, and extended his hand. Corinne took it and then looked at me quickly. I nodded as she greeted him and quickly released her hold on his fingers. Then we all looked to Malcolm.

  "Christopher," he began, "John Amos will take your things to your room and show you where you will reside. After you are finished unpacking, I would like you down in the library, where you and I will discus
s your residence here and your college education," Malcolm said in a most formal, cool tone.

  It didn't seem to discourage Christopher, however. He smiled that gentle, beautiful, trusting smile and thanked Malcolm. Then he allowed John Amos to lead him forward and up to his room in the north wing.

  He paused at the center of the staircase as though just remembering something important, and turned back to look at Corinne, who stood there staring up at him. He smiled at her and continued on. Malcolm had already gone to the library.

  I waited a moment and then turned to Corinne.

  "Remember our discussion," I said, hiding my own nervousness behind a mask of sternness. "He is your uncle," I added, feeling the need to underline that deception strongly. "Don't forget that."

  She looked at me with the oddest expression on her face.

  "Why, of course I won't forget it. Look how much we look alike," she added in a happy voice, and hurried up the stairs after them.

  17 Christopher Garland Foxworth

  . CHRISTOPHER BROUGHT A BURST OF LIGHT INTO OUR LIVES again. Corinne, John Amos, Malcolm, and I were drawn to him like moths, to the brightness of his golden hair, to his brilliant, radiant smile.

  "Good morning, Olivia," he would say upon joining me for breakfast, "don't you look lovely this morning."

  "Don't tease and flatter an old woman," I would insist.

  "Tease and flatter?" he would say, and his blue eyes filled with the purest light, a blue light found in the freshest mountain lakes. "I meant it from the bottom of my heart." Then, with a boyish smile and a healthy appetite he would butter his blueberry pancakes and say, "Even as a little boy, Olivia, I remember you were the best cook. You always made cookies, the kind with raisins in them. You were always so kind to me."

  My heart would fill with a joy I'd forgotten could exist in this earthly life.

  With Malcolm, Christopher could discuss the most intricate of business plans. "I'm not sure investment in public railroads is going to be the thing of the future," Christopher would say. "I think it's time to look to the heavens, sir. I think aviation will be the transportation of the future."

  "You mean to tell me that the common man will go flying around this great land of ours. I find that hard to believe, young man "

  "It's already happening, sir. Why, look at how many companies are opening public stock options." And Christopher would open The Wall Street Journal and I would see their blond heads bow over the paper as they read over the stocks.

  "Why, son, I believe you might be right," Malcolm would finally agree. "You have quite a business head on you. Are you sure you want to waste it on medicine?"

  "Sir," Christopher would say, "I want to help people, like my stepfather did."

  Even John Amos was impressed with the boy's understanding of the scriptures. Far into the night they would go over passages, and discuss various interpretations. Christopher always saw the Lord as forgiving, while John insisted that He was vengeful as well.

  But it was Corinne who was most mesmerized by this beautiful young man. She sought every opportunity to be with him Only when I walked into the room and saw them sitting together on the sofa, whispering and laughing, did Corinne remember to pull away, drop Christopher's hand, and heed my warning to treat him as she would treat an uncle. But it warmed me to see these two radiant children, children who brought such joy into gloomy Foxworth Hall, and I would fix them a pot of tea and bake them cookies, always remembering to put raisins in. I thought that Christopher had interminable patience when it came to Corinne's constant questions about his past, even when she asked him things that might bring back painful memories. He seemed incapable of losing his temper. He was full of forgiveness and understanding, warmth and sympathy.

  At one dinner Corinne asked Christopher about Alicia. Malcolm was at his usual seat at the head of the table, and I was at mine at the other end. Corinne now sat directly across from Christopher, who sat in what had been Mal's seat. She had almost been late to dinner, taking so long deciding what to wear and how to fix her hair.

  It was one of our warmest evenings of the summer, but Malcolm still wore his jacket and tie, as did Christopher. Malcolm would never admit to any discomfort. He maintained a cool, relaxed appearance, almost willing his body to behave. Although Christopher was uncomfortable, he did not say a word. There was absolutely no breeze outside, so nothing passed through our opened windows. All our ventilation came from the ceiling fans.

  Corinne began by teasing Malcolm about his tightly knotted tie.

  "Why don't the two of you loosen your ties and take off your jackets," she said. "I think it would be romantic." She rolled her eyes and sighed. I had told Malcolm that she was spending too much time reading the fashion magazines and following the lives of the movie stars. More and more she behaved as if Foxworth Hall were a Hollywood set.

  "We are not performing on some stage," Malcolm retorted, recalling my complaints. I nodded in approval. "This is our dinner. I suggest you concern yourself with other matters than how the men in this house dress, Corinne."

  "Daddy can be so stuffy," she said, smiling at Christopher, undaunted. He did not smile back, knowing well how Malcolm would have reacted. I knew she was showing off for Christopher. Although there was a look of pleasure in his eyes, he maintained his decorum. "Was it stuffy for you at dinner at your house, Chris?"

  I raised my eyebrows. Chris? She caught my look of reprimand. You don't shorten the Christian names of people older than yourself, I had told her.

  "My father wanted us to dress properly for dinner," he said. "I wouldn't say he was stuffy, nor would I say your father is either," Christopher replied diplomatically. Malcolm did not show his reaction, but I knew he was pleased.

  "What about your mother? I know so little about her. She left with you shortly after I was born," Corinne asked. Whenever Alicia's name was mentioned, both Malcolm and I involuntarily stiffened. Oh, I worried so that somehow the truth would come out, that I would lose forever the love and affection of these two young people, who would never forgive us for the lie we had forced Corinne to live in. But it was for the best, I consoled myself, and there was no way they would ever guess; for indeed, who could ever guess such a deception?

  "I don't think we should be talking about Christopher's mother over dinner," I said quickly. "It can't be very pleasant for him, considering the tragedy," I added.

  Corinne blushed. "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't--"

  "It's all right. But Olivia is right," Christopher said. He quickly asked Malcolm a question about one of his mills and the subject was dropped, but the tension lingered in the air between Corinne and myself for the remainder of our meal. She hated how I had made her look cruel to Christopher, but it was the quickest way I could think of to end the topic. I was just as reluctant to discuss Alicia in front of Corinne as was Malcolm. Later I overheard Christopher assure her that she had not offended him. They were walking in the hallway toward the east patio. She did not know that I was close enough to hear their conversation.

  "My mother can be very cold at times," she told him. "She is so exasperating," she added, fluttering her eyelashes. Christopher laughed.

  "You must not judge your mother so harshly, Corinne," he told her. "What she said, she said only to protect me. She was concerned for my feelings," he added in a tone of voice that suggested a teacherstudent relationship. I thought he was doing well in his effort to keep Corinne in her place, and I was proud of him for it.

  The next morning Christopher came to me on that same east patio. I was enjoying the humid, overcast day because there was a.comfortable breeze. As he walked toward me, I saw a look of seriousness furrow his brow, though he smiled and greeted me warmly. "Good morning, Olivia, may I sit down?" I put down my needlepoint as he sat beside me. I knew he had something on his mind, and for a moment I froze in fear, so afraid he would ask me endless questions about Alicia and why she had left here. I hated lying to Christopher, it seemed so unfair; yet what would he think of me, o
f Malcolm, of Alicia, even of himself if he knew the truth?

  "You look like you have something on your mind, Christopher," I said warily. "What is it?"

  "Olivia," Christopher began, a look of sweetness crossing his face. "I want you to know how grateful I am for what you and Malcolm are doing for me. It's so wonderful here. I feel as if I've found a second home-- and so quickly after I lost my mother. And thank you for understanding that it's difficult for me to talk about her. Last night at dinner, I felt you understood me so well, and then, when I was thinking about it later, I realized why. For you've suffered a loss, perhaps even greater than mine. I know children expect their parents to die; but I can't imagine how horrible it is to lose both your sons." He reached over and took my hand.

  "I have hesitated speaking about Mal and Joel because I know how painful it is for you. But I feel that we can share that pain. Oh, I remember Mal, so serious and so adult. I remember when I was here with them, and they treated me like a brother. And really, when my mom was away all those months, you were a mother to me, and I loved you so. I never forgot that. And now I have lost my mother and you have lost your sons. But we can have each other now, can't we? I mean, isn't it as if I have found a mother and you have found another son? Can we be like that, Olivia? I always wanted brothers and sisters and used to complain to Mom about that. But whenever I asked for one, she'd look so upset, and start twisting her fingers. I don't know why, she'd never explain to me. But I feel as if I've truly found a second family. And I adore Corinne, she sure is going to be a beautiful woman! You've raised her so well--she's so sweet and charming, and really fun to be with. You know, I really don't mind at all the way she seeks me out. It's very flattering. And nothing would honor me more than to be a real brother to Corinne, and if you'll let me, to be a son to you."

  "Thank you, Christopher," I said. I felt the warmth and respect in his eyes. Oh, this young man touched me more than I could ever tell him. How strange it was, strange and odd that I'd lost my own two children but had been given Alicia's. And I vowed I would take care of them, and protect them. Even though they were almost adults, we truly were a family, the sort of family I'd dreamed of--beautiful, loving children with the world at their feet. "There is nothing I'd like more, Christopher, than for you to consider yourself my son. I'm honored, really I am."