Destroyed (Rockstar Romance) (Lost in Oblivion Book 3)

by Taryn Elliott

  Margo’s fingers gripped the long column of her neck and her chest heaved.

  Was she wet?

  Would he find that silky rich come between her thighs, soaking her panties?

  Was it from watching him with this girl? Or was it a memory of that long ago night?

  Melissa panted against his neck as she held onto him while his fingers circled the plump lips of her pussy and teased her clit until her cries echoed down the hall.

  As one girl fell apart in his arms, the one he’d always wanted finally stumbled back. She disappeared around the corner and he concentrated on getting his partner off.

  The ability to lose himself in her scent and touch was gone.

  She smelled of hairspray and roses.

  Innocent mewling at his ear as she shuddered in his arms.

  He slipped his hand from her panties to curl it around her hip and let her sag against him. She kissed down his chest and into his open shirt.

  The lower she went, the more his cock stirred.

  She wrapped her fingers around him through his leathers. But he caught her chin before she could slide down the line of his belly to his buckle.

  He drew her mouth up to his. “Not tonight, baby.”

  “Are you sure?” Melissa looked up at him with her eager blue eyes.

  “I liked making you feel good.”

  “I’ve never come with a stranger like that.” Her lashes lowered and her smile was hesitant. “I couldn’t.”

  “Obviously you could.”

  “Only with you.”

  He heard the worship and eased back. “Ah, no, darlin’. It’s just the moment. The stage and the excitement.” He brushed a kiss over her forehead. “I got a little carried away.”

  “You could have whatever you wanted tonight.”

  Simon shut his eyes against that thought.

  No. No, he couldn’t have whatever he wanted tonight. Who he really wanted had just walked away.

  Again.

  This time, he’d chased her away.

  How many nights had he lost himself inside an eager woman? Now more than ever, he should take Melissa up on the offer.

  But he couldn’t. Not with that look on her face.

  This wasn’t a woman who knew the score. She was a girl with stars in her eyes.

  “I have to get back to the band. Do my thing for the cameras.”

  “Oh.” She nodded. “I understand.” She curled her fingers into his hair and reached up on her toes for his mouth.

  Because he didn’t want to crush her, he kissed her. But he didn’t allow her to deepen it again. He forced his lips to curve into a smile as he nudged her gently away.

  He walked her down the hall and urged her into the crowd with a wave. He could see that she wanted to say more, to keep him engaged, but he needed a minute.

  Simon ducked into the bathroom and took care of business then washed his hands, washed her scent and her feel off his fingers. He couldn’t have that imbalance clogging up his already fucked-up head.

  Margo’s heated stare and a strange woman’s scent on him at the same time was too fucked up for him just then. He cupped the clean water into his hands and over his face, into his hair and let the droplets slip down his neck and into his shirt.

  “What the fuck are you doing?”

  Nick stood in the doorway. “Talking to yourself?”

  Simon swiped his hand over his neck. “I’m in here hiding.”

  “Have you been in here the whole time? I’ve been looking for you.”

  “Nah. Just washing up a little.”

  “Some young thing on your cock?”

  Simon grinned in spite of himself. “Not quite.”

  “Losing your touch?”

  “Like that could happen.”

  Nick laughed. “Whiskey dick?”

  “Number two reason I usually drink vodka.”

  “Because you’re an uncouth bastard. Only girls drink the clear booze.”

  “You keep telling yourself that.”

  “I will, with the eighty-year-old bourbon I have stashed in my bar.”

  “Now that I could get behind.”

  “Nope. Not for the likes of you.” Nick came over to the sink that Simon stood at and slapped his arm. “I’m here to collect you for a photo op.”

  “Eh, fuck.”

  “I had the same sentiment, but Lila beckons and I answer.”

  “Ain’t that the truth,” Simon muttered.

  “What was that?”

  “Nothing.”

  “Got something to say?” Nick crossed his arms over his chest.

  “Nothing worth mentioning,” Simon said with a waggle of his brows.

  “Then you ready to blow this joint?”

  “Picture op then beer pong?” Simon asked hopefully.

  “Hell yes.”

  Helluva better alternative than schmoozing with a room full of people. Once the show was over, he wasn’t interested. Either a babe to fall under or over, or his bed as a solo project.

  Didn’t matter which happened as far as he was concerned.

  But tonight he’d go with a belly full of beer and insults. It was a helluva lot easier.

  * * *

  Margo escaped the party with her dignity in tatters and her body on fire. Sleep had been elusive—not shocking—since she was so wound up she couldn’t even think, let alone settle.

  She sighed as her phone buzzed. With one eye open, she read her sister’s text.

  Had a blast.

  Behave in L.A., but don’t behave too well.

  Margo rolled onto her back and dropped her phone to her chest. The fact that her sister had texted Margo an hour before her alarm was supposed to go off meant Juliet had far more fun than she had last night.

  She stared at the ceiling of her room, counting the bands of shadow from the balcony that she hadn’t had time to look at, let alone stand out on.

  And because that was much more appealing than brooding in her very big, very empty luxury bed, she slipped out and across the room to the sliding door. Lemon-tinged skies peeked from the crowding spears of steel and glass that made up Times Square.

  She opened the door and let the cool morning air in. The rattan couch on the small patio was inviting. She swiped the throw blanket off the bottom of the bed and wrapped it around her shoulders. The sights and sounds of the city had never really stopped, but this was a different version of New York City.

  This was the business of the city. Commuters coming in to work the shops and the corporate buildings that constantly crept into the tourist areas because they were all running out of space.

  Everyone wanted a piece of New York.

  Except her.

  She’d been happy in Boston. She’d made sojourns into the city for her career—working in the studios, both small and large, that littered the boroughs—but she’d never wanted to stay. Never felt part of it.

  She liked the history and winding streets of Boston. Liked being in the know about the small eateries, hidden diners, and the off-color shops that wound around the tourist traps. She knew New York City had the same places, but she’d never been tempted to find them.

  But she did like to listen to the city sounds. That was one thing she always looked forward to. She curled onto the couch and tugged the pillow under her cheek. She’d just enjoy that anonymity for a little while before she was herded onto Donovan Lewis’s private plane.

  She almost wished she hadn’t been invited into the inner circle. Even coach was preferable to spending hours on a plane with Simon. The early hour meant that maybe he’d spend the entire ride in a vodka-induced sleep.

  It was easier than facing him.

  Not after what she’d seen. What she’d watched with fascination and longing. The sounds lived inside her head and had followed her into the restless night.

  Abandon.

  Lust.

  Pleasure.

  God, so much pleasure.

  She could have gotten past that. Could
have turned away and given them their privacy.

  Are you sure?

  She squeezed her eyes tighter against the vivid memory behind her eyelids.

  Maybe.

  Maybe she’d have been able to turn away.

  But not after he’d met her gaze. Not when he’d made sure she could see exactly what he was doing and where his hands had been.

  Not when he’d given that young woman a thigh-shuddering orgasm while his eyes were on Margo.

  She tucked her knees up against her middle until she was a ball. Then she could ignore the way her body flared to life again. As if he was standing in front of her and not a memory.

  God, she didn’t need that back in her head.

  As if it had left.

  She covered her face with her hands and was about to roll off the couch and return to her room when she heard the giggle.

  “I swear this kid is going to be a pro soccer player.”

  “Did you get any sleep last night?”

  “Kinda hard when you were snoring to beat the band.”

  “I was not.”

  “God, right there. I gotta tell you, big guy, if you didn’t have those magic hands, I’d have killed you in your sleep.”

  Margo heard the deep chuckle. “You love my big hands for more than lower back massages.”

  “Those hands are why I’m the size of the state of Texas.”

  “Nah, you’re beautiful. I always liked basketball. Now my wife is carrying around one.”

  “Try beach ball.”

  “Perfect beach ball. My beach ball.”

  Margo gripped her small pillow. She didn’t want to stand up and interrupt Deacon and Harper’s sweet dialogue, but it was hard to hear it. She’d never had that.

  The baby thing she’d pass on—no aliens coming out of her body, thank you—but the rest...

  Margo couldn’t even imagine a man talking to her like that. Simple adoration lingering in his tone, indulgent pacification of a pregnant wife’s distress, and most of all, closeness.

  Relationships were hard when she was in practice mode all the time. The Boston Philharmonic didn’t have a huge season so she was constantly on call for studio work. She could have taught, but she didn’t have the temperament for it.

  So instead of looking for someone to spend her life with, she was usually trying to beat out the other violinists in the orchestra, as well as the ones in her field.

  The orchestra was often used for scores, but they didn’t need all the chairs filled like they did for a concert. It was specific to what the movie music director needed or what the producers and studio needed for album work.

  None of it was guaranteed, and the entire business was contingent on a résumé that was constantly out of date. And her own reticence to put herself out there.

  These were the only moments where she wished for something more, when she heard the soft murmurings of a male voice and the answering flirty byplay of a woman.

  She didn’t even know how to flirt back with a man like that. For God’s sake, Juliet had gotten all the flirty genes and doubled down with them at some cosmic blackjack table.

  The only men Margo had been involved with had been hand-picked by her mother and father for social functions. She’d had the rare hookup in college, but music had been her focus for as long as she could remember.

  And where had that gotten her?

  Replaced in the one job she’d been tailor-made for.

  She pressed her fingertips against her eyes. No. Now wasn’t the time to think about that. It was time to go in and get ready to go.

  To forget about how unsettled her future was. She had some time to figure out what she was supposed to do. Her parents were in Europe for their annual trip and weren’t focused on her career.

  She peeked over the half wall to the next balcony and caught Deacon drawing Harper back into their room. The way he drew her close even with her rather large belly in the way made Margo look away.

  That was a man that wanted to put his hands on his wife no matter what.

  She’d never really wanted that before. Saying goodbye was a fact of her life. Small projects didn’t allow her to stay in one spot, until the season started. Then it was too much togetherness, too much competition.

  Too much hate.

  Some of her contemporaries flitted in and out of beds, but she hadn’t wanted a part of that. When the undercutting was as prevalent as the talent, it took the desire away as far as she was concerned.

  But seeing these people who honestly loved each other under the snark and the music was different. She wasn’t sure she liked how it made her feel.

  Jazz and Gray, Harper and Deacon—both of them married and pregnant. It seemed incongruous to the lifestyle, but they made it work.

  Everything about them as a band shouldn’t work.

  Maybe that was why she got sucked in every single time she lifted her bow to play with them. Some magic fairy dust that only existed when she was in their sphere.

  And now she was being fanciful. So not like her.

  Maybe the fairy dust was more like PCP, she mused she rushed through a shower and plaited her hair in a travel braid. She glanced around the room and made sure the last of her sister’s left-behinds were packed as well.

  A knock on her door had her snapping out her bag and sliding her violin case down the double barrel handle.

  “Shuttle for the trip to the airport in five!”

  The voice was familiar, but it wasn’t one of the band or Lila. Maybe one of her assistants.

  She opened the door to find Gray and Jazz racing down the hall, her sparkly purple hard-sided case to Gray’s jet black with red racing stripe.

  “Hey! Preggo handicap.”

  “You only want a handicap when it suits you,” Gray answered and double backed to take her case and steal a kiss. “Hold the elevator,” he called down the hall.

  Nick slapped a hand over the sensor. “C’mon, my favorite duck.”

  Jazz stopped in the middle of the hall. “Carry me.”

  Simon came out his door and stopped in front of her. “Piggy back for Miss Piggy.”

  “I should smack you for that, but I want the ride.”

  Gray stood at the elevator. “That’s truly pathetic, Mrs. Duffy.”

  “It’s a long corridor,” Jazz said and draped her arms over Simon’s shoulders.

  “Must be desperate times if you’re willing to ride on Simon,” Gray said and crossed his arms.

  “Well, my husband doesn’t love me enough to carry me,” Jazz said with a pout.

  Margo tried not to smile at their antics, but they were like a bunch of puppies tumbling around and on each other.

  Lila opened her door and sagged against the jamb. She had on a large pair of amber sunglasses. “It’s too early for them to be so loud.”

  Margo walked with her down the hallway. “I assumed they would all be dragging their way to the airport.”

  “Jazz and Harper catnap like no one’s business. They’ll be out before we get off the runway. Simon probably hasn’t gone to bed yet and Gray and Nick will end up at the back of the plane with guitars and headphones or playing a video game.”

  “And Deacon?”

  “Deacon will herd them in and herd them out, watching over them the whole time.”

  “So, you liken Deacon to a border collie?”

  Lila gave a tight smile. “If the hair fits.”

  Margo nodded. “Interesting group.”

  “They grow on you. Mostly against your will, but they grow on you nonetheless.”

  “Well, thanks for letting me on the plane with you guys. It’s better than flying coach.”

  “I’ll remind you of that when Nick and Gray are arguing over lyrics and Jazz is tapping on every surface because she can’t sit still unless she’s unconscious.”

  “Or making a baby,” Margo said under her breath.

  Lila laughed. “Or making a baby. They are bunnies, but thankfully our social media que
en is usually too busy with interviews and research or reading baby books to bounce off the walls quite as much as she once did.”

  “How are you guys going to work the tour?”

  Lila waved to them at the end in the elevator to go ahead. The car was full.

  Simon stood in the middle of the car, his fingers wrapped around his suitcase handle in front of his crotch. His eyebrow winged up as the doors closed.

  Margo swallowed down nerves and the irrational need to drag him out of the elevator and toss him off the building. He knew what he did to any woman. That cocksure attitude was as attractive as it was annoying.

  “We’re splitting the tour into two legs as we usually do. The first will be abbreviated, of course. Their timing could be better—the ticket sales are amazing and the record is getting way more downloads than we thought it would. Hell, Rise got four stars from Rolling Stone.”

  She rarely agreed with Rolling Stone magazine’s critics, but Margo had to concede this one. Considering the album was in her ears every time she stuck headphones in, it was a fair assessment.

  “And you couldn’t get someone to fill in?”

  Lila stopped and turned to her. “Have you met these people? If I dared to give them that as an option, I might get stoned.”

  “Business is business.”

  Lila slid her shades down her nose. “It’s nice to hear that from another person in this crazy group, but it just shows that you’re on the outside like me. No one could replace Jazz. Not even if Stuart Copeland said he’d sit in.”

  “I suppose that’s true.” Margo reached for the elevator button set into the Art Deco plate. “That would be a sight, though.”

  “That it would.”

  They waited in companionable silence as the elevator made its way back up to them.

  “I got the idea you were enjoying yourself on stage last night.”

  Margo curled her fingers around her handle. “I did, yes.”

  “A much different dynamic than the philharmonic.”

  “It is.” Margo resisted the urge to fidget.

  “You’re off for the summer?”

  “The season is over,” Margo answered vaguely.

  The doors opened. “So it is.” Lila walked into the elevator and didn’t say another word on the ride down.