I came to my senses and moved away, stumbling a little, but he didn’t touch me. I was mortified that I’d lost myself in the middle of an exposed area where anyone could see. I reached down and pulled up my panties. That wild person wasn’t me. I laid my forehead against the cool wall after I’d adjusted my clothing. The men in the room had come too. It was quiet in there. I could hear only murmurs. I wanted that comfort. The support of a lone lover who understood my wants and needs. Someone who could tell me what I wanted so I could give myself freely and be safe.
“It’s okay, my pretty. You’re free here. Just feel. Sex is fun as long as both people are having a good time. Do you want to stop? Just say your word and I’ll take you up front.”
I shook my head. How could he tell how uptight I was? But that wasn’t going to be me any longer. No. I might have been embarrassed, but I wanted more. The hint of wild passion was a taste I wanted to have again. I had to explore this part of myself that I’d kept hidden for too long.
“Give me your hand and let’s explore.”
I took a deep breath. One, in through my nose. Two, out through my mouth. And again. My body had stopped its quivering and I was ready. I turned and placed myself in his capable hands, both literally and figuratively—I was his.
He led me to an empty room. I supposed the voyeurism part of my exploring was over for now. He stopped just inside the door giving me a chance to look around. I really needed the breather—there was so much to take in. The room was a dark burgundy with the bed taking up much of the space. It was bigger than a king—three or four could fit on it comfortably. Draped in white sheets, it seemed out of sync with the rest of the lush room. I figured there’d be silk or at least satin sheets on the bed making it more decadent, but once Ren moved to it and started to strip it down I understood. It probably kept the cost lower with all the linens they had to go through. I couldn’t begin to imagine the cost of keeping silks and satins clean from all the sex that must be had in these rooms. In made me happy that Ren cared enough to make sure everything was perfect. He didn’t have to change the sheets. They appeared cleaned, but he went that extra step to ensure I’d be comfortable. I moved my gaze around the room. The rest was just as dark as the walls and a black dresser was situated where Ren had retrieved the sheets from. A black stand was positioned by the bed with a basket on top and I could see it was overflowing with lube and condoms.
Safety first. I’m a safety girl.
Why the movie Pretty Woman came to me I had no idea. It’s not like I’m a prostitute. I chuckled. My nerve was coming back somewhat. I rubbed my hands along my arms for warmth and turned to see Ren watching me. I bit my lip and lowered my eyes. The carpet was—lovely.
“No need to be embarrassed, we’ll take it slow. You’re in control here.”
Ren shut the door and I released a breath I didn’t know I had been holding. I felt more secure in myself knowing that we would have privacy. Maybe I liked to watch, but being completely naked where anyone could see scared the shit out of me—the public display from earlier notwithstanding.
“Now relax. It’s just you and me.”
I couldn’t look at him. Not yet. I moved away and explored the rest of the room. In the corner a cross stood big and tall. I thought it was called a St. Andrew’s cross, but I wasn’t a hundred percent sure. I wasn’t completely sure of anything, really, just that I was still turned on.
Nothing else jumped out at me. I didn’t know what I had been expecting. Chains hanging from the ceiling? Crops and whips strapped to the walls? I wandered over to the dresser and opened a couple of drawers. There definitely weren’t just sheets in there.
Wow.
I let my fingers linger over the items. The idea of being spanked had my pulse racing. One item in particular drew my eye—a dark red paddle. I ran my hands along it, finding it furry and soft. That couldn’t really hurt, right?
Ren had moved closer—to see what had captured my attention, I assumed.
“You like this one, do you?” Ren picked it up.
It wasn’t just fur—the other side was leather. Ren slapped his hand with the paddle and I jumped, my fingers going to my throat. My pulse still raced but I wanted to feel that against my skin.
Was I really going to do this? One of my biggest fantasies was to be tied down and have someone spank my ass. It was all vague in my imagination as I didn’t have any experience to draw from. Porn wasn’t to my taste—I didn’t like to watch it because it seemed so fake. I’d read things about spanking and role playing. But reading about how the burn of a good paddling might feel against my skin was something I could have only imagined in the past with no reference. I had no idea how to make the fiction into a reality. Tonight could be my time to figure out what I really wanted, what I needed to make me whole.
I turned my body into Ren’s.
“I don’t know about all this.” I waved my hand around the room and gulped, still unsure if I could go through with whatever he wanted from me. I needed him to reassure me.
“Trust me.” He gazed into my eyes steadily, not wavering for even an instant. I burned for him.
“I don’t know you,” I managed to get out.
“But you will.” He ran a hand along my side, soothing me like he would a skittish colt. “Have I done anything you’ve opposed to? You can always use your safe word. Are you ready to quit?” He continued to stroke me. He put the paddle on the dresser and used both hands to calm me down.
I didn’t want to disappoint him, because it wasn’t in my nature. I lived to please and I wanted to make the man in front of me happy. But I still didn’t know anything about him—only his name. Could I really turn myself completely over to him? I couldn’t stop thinking. That was one of my problems—my thoughts wouldn’t shut off.
Except for in the hallway.
My mind had closed down and I could only feel. He did that for me. I looked up at him in awe when I realised that this stranger had given me something that no other lover had been able to. The bliss of silence.
“N—” I tried again. “No. I want this.”
“Good girl. Why don’t you go sit on the bed.”
Ren moved to a mini fridge that I hadn’t seen before. He took out a two bottles of water and handed one to me. He was giving me time to adjust to the situation. I may not know him, but he somehow knew me.
I tugged off the cap and took a small drink. The liquid felt good going down. I used the bottle to cool my burning face.
Ren took the bottle from my hand and put it on the dresser alongside his. He held out his hands and I took them in mine and stood as he moved me away from the bed until we were in the middle of the room. Just the two of us.
I spread my legs shoulder-width apart and clasped my hands behind my back. It was the pose he’d asked me to take in the hallway. I must have pleased him because he gave a little hum and circled my body. He took my shoulders and squared them, so I was straight and tall. He ran his hands down my leg. I couldn’t see what he was doing, but he made me unlock my knees. Probably a good thing—I really didn’t want to pass out.
Ren completed his journey and faced me. His touch was strong and firm, but surprisingly tender. I wasn’t sure what I really expected.
“Do you have anything important in your pockets?” he asked.
I nodded.
“Speak to me, Elli. I want to hear you.”
“Sorry.”
“Don’t apologise. Just tell me,” he chided.
“Yes. My wallet and my cell phone.” I swallowed.
“Good.”
Ren put his hands on my hips and stroked down my legs and around to my ass. He reached into my pocket and removed my personal items. He fiddled with my phone and put them both on the dresser next to our water.
He still kept his caresses soft. He knelt in front of me and unzipped my skirt and let it pool at my feet along with my panties. I didn’t wear hose because it was too hot. He lifted first one foot, then the other, removing my str
appy sandals. It was hard to keep my balance with my hands behind my back, but I managed. I was now bare from the waist down.
I looked anywhere but directly at him. He didn’t let me get away with it for long. He buried his face in my pussy. His nose tickled and I squirmed, but he held firm. He placed a light kiss on my clit then rose to stand before me.
Every touch was gentle and sure. He took my face in his hands and looked into my eyes. I was mesmerised by his blue orbs. Ren’s face got closer and closer, his body invading my personal space. His pants were rough against my legs.
He brushed his lips against mine, but he didn’t demand anything. I opened my mouth and he pulled back.
“No. You take and I’ll give.” Ren peppered kisses over my face. I wanted to taste him, but I also wanted him to continue.
He came back to my mouth. His tongue touched my lips, but I didn’t move. My breathing picked up speed, I was so turned on.
“Open,” he whispered against my lips.
I opened my mouth a little and our breaths mingled. I was panting and we hadn’t even really done anything.
“That’s it,” he murmured and his tongue glided into my mouth all satiny smooth.
I didn’t move even though I wanted to open wider because he hadn’t given me permission to. Ren cupped my face, tilting it to get a better angle, making me moan, but I didn’t kiss back. I let him have my mouth. It was his.
He rewarded me by grabbing my ass and rubbing his cock against my pussy. Even behind the fabric, I could feel how hard he was for me. I was so hot for him and wanted to feel his length inside because I ached for what he’d described earlier—him pounding me into the bed.
The image of him deep inside me caused me to whimper, the sound slipping past my lips.
“Calm down, my pet. Control your breathing. In and out. There you go. We’re going slow so you can enjoy every sensation. Each touch and kiss I give you because I want to. That’s good. Yes. Calm.”
I stood motionless getting myself under control. Ren finally took off my top so I was completely naked before him. I wanted to cover myself, but kept my hands in place. This was his show. He took off his own shirt and stood before me in only his pants. I wasn’t sure when he’d lost his shoes, but damn, even his feet were sexy. His chest was hairy and strong-looking, not quite the six pack, but he was toned and his arms were big, but not muscle-bound. He looked good and I wanted to see the rest of him, but he kept his pants on.
“Anticipation is the best foreplay. Now get on the bed. Hands and knees.”
I gulped and hurried to do his bidding. I faced the wall and couldn’t see where he was. I didn’t know if I wanted to. Was he grabbing something from the drawer? Was it one of the whips, like I’d seen earlier? Or something else I’d ached to try, but never got up the nerve—like a butt plug or even cuffs. I’d seen those as well before the paddle caught my eye. The excitement of the unknown was something I’d never felt before in my sexual experience. I strained to hear, but no drawer opened or shut.
Ren didn’t keep me waiting for long. He ran his hand down my back and cupped my ass. He didn’t get on the bed, but stood beside it. Something soft caressed my ass. I closed my eyes, the soft sensation going through my entire body. I fell into a tranquil place I’d never been to before, but should have known it wouldn’t last. There was no warning before the tap came on my ass cheek. It wasn’t hard. Just a little swat, like he was gauging my reaction. I didn’t move but waited to see if he would do it again. I wasn’t disappointed. It felt like he had used the paddle I’d looked at earlier, but I didn’t risk turning around to check for fear he’d stop. He smacked my other cheek, making me gasp.
He alternated with first one then the other. Light taps in a rhythm that wasn’t too scary. But again, I got too comfortable and his hand got heavier. It stung and it took a minute for my brain to process what was happening.
“So, my little pet likes that. Likes to have her ass paddled red, it almost matches the fur you stroked earlier. Do you remember the soft feel?” He rubbed what I assumed was the toy against my skin, the one I’d taken such an interest in when I first walked into the room. “It’s so hot back here. How about this? Do you like this?”
The paddle came down again, not the fuzzy side, but the rough leather side he’d started with. One swat after another on my ass. It edged on painful, but not so much that I couldn’t handle it. Ren slowed his strokes, but I wanted more. I whimpered and rocked back.
Something dropped and I looked—there it was, the red and black paddle laid on the floor and Ren’s pants pooled around his ankles. When had that happened? I glanced up, his cock at eye level. He was just as turned on as I was, his thick, hard dick standing straight up. I licked my lips and wanted a taste, but his hands wandered over my ass distracting me. Hissing at the touch, I still felt very sensitive after the spanking.
“So warm. I want to feel your hot ass against my cock.”
Ren got on the bed behind me. His hard length rubbed against my stinging cheeks.
“Your ass is so hot to the touch, it’s burning me up. I want inside you. Will you let me fuck you?”
I whimpered, but didn’t respond. I was almost beyond words. Did he even have to ask? God, I wanted to be under him in the worst way. This stranger who made me feel for the first time in my life. I was alive.
“Answer me.” He swatted my ass, adding to the burn.
“Yes, please, sir, fuck me.” The words were as natural as breathing. I pushed back against him.
His breath hitched. I must have said the right thing.
“You are in such a rush. There is more to sex than rushing to completion. The journey is the best part.” Ren got off the bed. “Roll over onto your back.”
I hissed as I complied. My ass really did hurt now that the fun part was over. But the brush of the sheet against it reminded me how much I’d enjoyed the experience. I wanted him to spank me again. I didn’t know what to do with my hands or my feet. He hadn’t said.
Ren crawled up the end of the bed and pushed my legs open. If the bed was any smaller I’d be hanging off it. Good thing there was so much space. God, I must look wanton with my thighs spread so wide. I didn’t care and I wanted to stop thinking again. He didn’t touch me anywhere. His big body just hovered over me.
“You’re so beautiful.”
I turned away from his intense stare.
“No. Look at me. You don’t know how to take a compliment, do you?”
He waited for me to answer. My hands fluttered open and closed and I didn’t know what to say. Was there a right answer? Finally I spoke.
“I—no. No one’s ever—”
“You’ve been hanging out with the wrong people. You’re gorgeous. Every inch of you. Your long brown hair, the way it curls over your breast, almost hugging your nipple. And your breasts are so full and plump. Your nipples are begging for my mouth. Your round belly and nice soft hips are perfect for my body to settle into. Your long legs are strong and firm. And your eyes—I could drown in your dark brown eyes. They say so much about a person. You have so much passion and fire inside that I want to be the one to unleash it all.
“And your smell is like heaven. When my face was buried in your pussy, I just wanted to sink inside and bury my dick to the hilt. Your scent is intoxicating, and your skin is so soft, I want to lick every inch.”
Never had anyone spoken to me like Ren. He appreciated my body and made me feel like a sex goddess. I could get used to this treatment.
Ren let his arms relax and his warm chest pressed against mine. His hair rubbed against my nipples and the sensation had me moving my chest against his, but he stopped me.
“Kiss me back,” Ren demanded.
His kissed me, just as our hands entwined, bringing them together and raising them above our heads until he had me clutching a bar. He moved us up the bed so my arms were bent, but he squeezed my fingers tightly in silent command. I wouldn’t release until he told me to; I was his to command.
True to his word, Ren started with my mouth then moved his tongue to my cheek, then my ear. He gave me a little nip before going to my throat. He sucked and nibbled which made me plant my feet on the bed and raise my hips. God I wanted him inside me something fierce. He had to fuck me soon.
Ren pushed my hips back down to the bed and continued his slow exploration of the body he’d just praised.
“Please, sir… I need—” I thrashed my head against the pillow.
“Calm down or I’ll stop. I told you, no rushing and you’ll come when I let you. I’m not ready yet.” His raspy voice soothed me.
I closed my eyes and stopped racing towards the end. My entire focus was on his tongue as it weaved its way around my body. He reached my nipples and sucked each one into his mouth. He bit down and I resisted the urge to buck up into him. My head was clear of everything but sensation of his mouth covering my skin. I breathed in and out through my nose and clutched at the bar. Stillness. I was there, so turned on I could come at any minute, but he didn’t say it was time yet. His tongue continued its path. I almost laughed when it dipped into my belly button. I did moan when he reached my pussy. He lapped at my entrance, but didn’t delve inside me. He gave it no more attention than he did the rest of me. My eyes were still closed as he moved down to my legs until he reached my toes. He sucked each one into his mouth like he’d done with my nipples.
This man knew his way around a woman’s body. I thought I would die when he continued on his path back. No one had ever spent this much time lavishing such sweet attention on my body. Every nerve ending tingled. Release was right there for me to take. I hadn’t been given permission but I still didn’t want any of it to end.
I whimpered when he got to the other side of my neck. I controlled myself when he bit the tender spot where neck met shoulder. It seemed like biting had become a new kink I didn’t know I had, but when his teeth nipped down I wanted to come with a scream.
I was rewarded by his mouth against mine again.
“Kiss me.”
And I did. I put all of my gratitude into the kiss. Tears streamed down my face, but he didn’t stop. The moment was so beautiful. One I would cherish forever because that was how Ren made me feel—like a cherished princess.
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