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by Carol Ann Duffy


  To My Wife at Midnight

  I

  Are you to say goodnight

  And turn away under

  The blanket of your delight?

  Are you to let me go

  Alone to sleep beside you

  Into the drifting snow?

  Where we each reach,

  Sleeping alone together,

  Nobody can touch.

  Is the cat’s window open?

  Shall I turn into your back?

  And what is to happen?

  What is to happen to us

  And what is to happen to each

  Of us asleep in our places?

  II

  I mean us both going

  Into sleep at our ages

  To sleep and get our fairing.

  They have all gone home.

  Night beasts are coming out.

  The black wood of Madron

  Is just waking up.

  I hear the rain outside

  To help me to go to sleep.

  Nessie, dont let my soul

  Skip and miss a beat

  And cause me to fall.

  III

  Are you asleep I say

  Into the back of your neck

  For you not to hear me.

  Are you asleep? I hear

  Your heart under the pillow

  Saying my dear my dear

  My dear for all it’s worth.

  Where is the dun’s moor

  Which began your breath?

  IV

  Ness, to tell you the truth

  I am drifting away

  Down to fish for the saithe.

  Is the cat’s window open?

  The weather is on my shoulder

  And I am drifting down

  Into O can you hear me

  Among your Dunsmuir Clan?

  Are you coming out to play?

  V

  Did I behave badly

  On the field at Culloden?

  I lie sore-wounded now

  By all activities, and

  The terrible acts of my time

  Are only a distant sound.

  With responsibility

  I am drifting off

  Breathing regularly

  Into my younger days

  To play the games of Greenock

  Beside the sugar-house quays.

  VI

  Nessie Dunsmuir, I say

  Wheesht wheesht to myself

  To help me now to go

  Under into somewhere

  In the redcoat rain.

  Buckle me for the war.

  Are you to say goodnight

  And kiss me and fasten

  My drowsy armour tight?

  My dear camp-follower,

  Hap the blanket round me

  And tuck in a flower.

  Maybe from my sleep

  In the stoure at Culloden

  I’ll see you here asleep

  In your lonely place.

  W. S. GRAHAM

  Greenock at Night I Find You

  I

  As for you loud Greenock long ropeworking

  Hide and seeking rivetting town of my child

  Hood, I know we think of us often mostly

  At night. Have you ever desired me back

  Into the set-in bed at the top of the land

  In One Hope Street? I am myself lying

  Half-asleep hearing the rivetting yards

  And smelling the bone-works with no home

  Work done for Cartsburn School in the morning.

  At night. And here I am descending and

  The welding lights in the shipyards flower blue

  Under my hopeless eyelids as I lie

  Sleeping conditioned to hide from happy.

  II

  So what did I do? I walked from Hope Street

  Down Lyndoch Street between the night’s words

  To Cartsburn Street and got to the Cartsburn Vaults

  With half an hour to go. See, I am back.

  III

  See, I am back. My father turned and I saw

  He had the stick he cut in Sheelhill Glen.

  Brigit was there and Hugh and double-breasted

  Sam and Malcolm Mooney and Alastair Graham.

  They all were there in the Cartsburn Vaults shining

  To meet me but I was only remembered.

  W. S. GRAHAM

  Loch Thom

  I

  Just for the sake of recovering

  I walked backward from fifty-six

  Quick years of age wanting to see,

  And managed not to trip or stumble

  To find Loch Thorn and turned round

  To see the stretch of my childhood

  Before me. Here is the loch. The same

  Long-beaked cry curls across

  T he heather-edges of the water held

  Between the hills a boyhood’s walk

  Up from Greenock. It is the morning.

  And I am here with my mammy’s

  Bramble jam scones in my pocket.

  The Firth is miles and I have come

  Back to find Loch Thom maybe

  In this light does not recognise me.

  This is a lonely freshwater loch.

  No farms on the edge. Only

  Heather grouse-moor stretching

  Down to Greenock and One Hope

  Street or stretching away across

  Into the blue moors of Ayrshire.

  II

  And almost I am back again

  Wading the heather down to the edge

  To sit. The minnows go by in shoals

  Like iron-filings in the shallows.

  My mother is dead. My father is dead

  And all the trout I used to know

  Leaping from their sad rings are dead.

  III

  I drop my crumbs into the shallow

  Weed for the minnows and pinheads.

  You see that I will have to rise

  And turn round and get back where

  My running age will slow for a moment

  To let me on. It is a colder

  Stretch of water than I remember.

  The curlew’s cry travelling still

  Kills me fairly. In front of me

  The grouse flurry and settle. GOBACK

  GOBACK GOBACK FAREWELL LOCH THOM.

  W. S. GRAHAM

  Feeding Ducks

  One duck stood on my toes.

  The others made watery rushes after bread

  Thrown by my momentary hand; instead,

  She stood duck-still and got far more than those.

  An invisible drone boomed by

  With a beetle in it; the ne®ighbour’s yearning bull

  Bugled across five fields. And an evening full

  Of other evenings quietly began to die.

  And my everlasting hand

  Dropped on my hypocrite duck her grace of bread.

  And I thought, ‘The first to be fattened, the first to be dead’,

  Till my gestures enlarged, wide over the darkening land.

  NORMAN MACCAIG

  Toad

  Stop looking like a purse. How could a purse

  squeeze under the rickety door and sit,

  full of satisfaction, in a man’s house?

  You clamber towards me on your four corners –

  right hand, left foot, left hand, right foot.

  I love you for being a toad,

  for crawling like a Japanese wrestler,

  and for not being frightened.

  I put you in my purse hand, not shutting it,

  and set you down outside directly under

  every star.

  A jewel in your head? Toad,

  you’ve put one in mine,

  a tiny radiance in a dark place.

  NORMAN MACCAIG

  Deceptions?

  To hear a dripping water tap in a house

  That has no tap in it, in the dead of night.
r />   To hear footsteps come naturally to the door

  And stop there forever. In bed in an empty room

  To hear a voice on the pillow say Hello.

  A wheatstalk dances lasciviously in the fire.

  My hand drags its plough across this white field.

  My head from a sort of radiance watches a chair

  Continually completing its meaning. A picture

  Tries to plunge from its nail to the centre of the earth.

  Immense tides wash through everything. My knuckles

  Are tiny whirlpools in it. I stream sideways.

  The room’s roots are straining. Sounds of the fire

  Unmuffle themselves from black coal, are a theatre.

  My foot rocks because my heart says so.

  How could things stop? And three plump cheers for distance …

  To shake a hand and be left with it. To see

  Sight cramming itself into an eye and wheat

  A harrow of fire: and all a correspondence

  Shielding the truth and giving birth to it.

  NORMAN MACCAIG

  The Bright Field

  I have seen the sun break through

  to illuminate a small field

  for a while, and gone my way

  and forgotten it. But that was the pearl

  of great price, the one field that had

  the treasure in it. I realise now

  that I must give all that I have

  to possess it. Life is not hurrying

  on to a receding future, nor hankering after

  an imagined past. It is the turning

  aside like Moses to the miracle

  of the lit bush, to a brightness

  that seemed as transitory as your youth

  once, but is the eternity that awaits you.

  R. S. THOMAS

  The Moon in Lleyn

  The last quarter of the moon

  of Jesus gives way

  to the dark; the serpent

  digests the egg. Here

  on my knees in this stone

  church, that is full only

  of the silent congregation

  of shadows and the sea’s

  sound, it is easy to believe

  Yeats was right. Just as though

  choirs had not sung, shells

  have swallowed them; the tide laps

  at the Bible; the bell fetches

  no people to the brittle miracle

  of the bread. The sand is waiting

  for the running back of the grains

  in the wall into its blond

  glass. Religion is over, and

  what will emerge from the body

  of the new moon, no one

  can say.

  But a voice sounds

  in my ear: Why so fast,

  mortal? These very seas

  are baptised. The parish

  has a saint’s name time cannot

  unfrock. In cities that

  have outgrown their promise people

  are becoming pilgrims

  again, if not to this place,

  then to the recreation of it

  in their own spirits. You must remain

  kneeling. Even as this moon

  making its way through the earth’s

  cumbersome shadow, prayer, too,

  has its phases.

  R. S. THOMAS

  Zero

  What time is it?

  Is it the hour when the servant

  of Pharaoh’s daughter went down

  and found the abandoned baby

  in the bulrushes? The hour

  when Dido woke and knew Aeneas

  gone from her? When Caesar

  looked at the entrails and took

  their signal for the crossing

  of the dividing river?

  Is it

  that time when Aneirin

  fetched the poem out of his side

  and laid it upon the year’s altar

  for the appeasement of envious

  gods?

  It is no time

  at all. The shadow falls

  on the bright land and men

  launder their minds in it, as

  they have done century by

  century to prepare themselves for the crass deed.

  R. S. THOMAS

  The Elm Decline

  The crags crash to the tarn; slow–

  motion corrosion of scree.

  From scooped corries,

  bare as slag,

  black sykes ooze

  through quarries of broken boulders.

  The sump of the tarn

  slumps into its mosses – bog

  asphodel, sundew, sedges –

  a perpetual

  sour October

  yellowing the moor.

  Seven

  thousand years ago

  trees grew

  high as this tarn. The pikes

  were stacks and skerries

  spiking the green,

  the tidal surge

  of oak, birch, elm,

  ebbing to ochre

  and the wrackwood of backend.

  Then

  round the year Three

  Thousand BC,

  the proportion of elm pollen

  preserved in peat

  declined from twenty

  per cent to four.

  Stone axes,

  chipped clean from the crag-face,

  ripped the hide off the fells.

  Spade and plough

  scriated the bared flesh,

  skewered down to the bone.

  The rake flaked into fragments

  and kettlehole tarns

  were shovelled chock-full

  of a rubble of rotting rocks.

  Today

  electric landslips

  crack the rock;

  drills tunnel it;

  valleys go under the tap.

  Dynamited runnels

  channel a poisoned rain,

  and the fractured ledges

  are scoured and emery’d

  by wind-to-wind rubbings

  of nuclear dust.

  Soon

  the pikes, the old

  bottlestops of lava,

  will stand scraped bare,

  nothing but air round stone

  and stone in air,

  ground-down stumps

  of a skeleton jaw –

  Until

  under the scree,

  under the riddled rake,

  beside the outflow of the reedless lake,

  no human eye remains to see

  a landscape man

  helped nature make.

  NORMAN NICHOLSON

  Eden Rock

  They are waiting for me somewhere beyond Eden Rock:

  My father, twenty-five, in the same suit

  Of Genuine Irish Tweed, his terrier Jack

  Still two years old and trembling at his feet.

  My mother, twenty-three, in a sprigged dress

  Drawn at the waist, ribbon in her straw hat,

  Has spread the stiff white cloth over the grass.

  Her hair, the colour of wheat, takes on the light.

  She pours tea from a Thermos, the milk straight

  From an old H.P. sauce bottle, a screw

  Of paper for a cork; slowly sets out

  The same three plates, the tin cups painted blue.

  The sky whitens as if lit by three suns.

  My mother shades her eyes and looks my way

  Over the drifted stream. My father spins

  A stone along the water. Leisurely,

  They beckon to me from the other bank.

  I hear them call, ‘See where the stream-path is!

  Crossing is not as hard as you might think.’

  I had not thought that it would be like this.

  CHARLES CAUSLEY

  The Green Man’s Last Will and Testament

  In a ragged spinney (sc
heduled

  For prompt development as a bijou housing estate)

  I saw the green daemon of England’s wood

  As he wrote his testament. The grey goose

  Had given him one of her quills for a pen;

  The robin’s breast was a crimson seal;

  The long yellow centipede held a candle.

  He seemed like a hollow oak-trunk, smothered with ivy:

  At his feet or roots clustered the witnesses,

  Like hectic toadstools, or pallid as broom-rape:

  Wood-elves – goodfellows, hobs and lobs,

  Black Anis, the child-devouring hag,

  From her cave in the Dane Hills, saucer-eyed

  Phantom dogs, Black Shuck and Barghest, with the cruel nymphs

  Of the northern streams, Peg Powler of the Tees

  And Jenny Greenteeth of the Ribble,

  Sisters of Bellisama, the very fair one.

  ‘I am sick, I must die,’ he said. ‘Poisoned like Lord Randal

  From hedges and ditches. My ditches run with pollution,

  My hedgerows are gone, and the hedgerow singers.

  The rooks, disconsolate, have lost their rookery:

  The elms are all dead of the Dutch pox.

  No longer the nightjar churns in the twilit glade,

  Nor the owl, like a white phantom, silent-feathered

  Glides to the barn. The red-beaked chough,

 

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