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and Kurt’s death, 362, 363
and Kurt’s teen years, 31, 32, 36, 60–61
marriage of Don and, 25
Cobain, Jim (uncle), 40
Cobain, Kenneth (great-uncle), 61
Cobain, Kimberly (sister):
birth and childhood of, 10, 13, 14–15, 18, 26
and Don, 263–64
and drinking, 99
and drug use, 238–39, 284–85, 335
and Frances, 263, 310
as gay, 238, 239
and Kurt’s death, 356, 362, 363
and Kurt’s music, 124, 163
memories of Kurt, 12, 18, 20, 54, 59, 212
physical appearance of, 14
Cobain, Kurt Donald:
alcohol use of, 48–49, 67, 78–79, 82, 99, 148, 152, 172, 177, 194, 196, 202, 264, 274, 275, 325
as anti-star, 2, 106, 114, 119, 199, 202, 256, 363
artistic ability of, 11–12, 30–31, 33–34, 42– 43, 49–50, 64, 68, 93, 127–29, 230, 242, 270, 281–82
and autobiography, 179, 271
biography of, 265–66, 269
birth and family background of, 5–8, 20–21
and Boddah, 9, 351, 363
childhood of, 8–15, 16–28, 44, 147, 203, 207, 288, 365
confrontation avoided by, 108–9, 138, 155, 238, 241, 327
control of band by, 138, 194, 240, 287, 298, 300, 318, 328
and Courtney, see Love, Courtney
daily routine of, 93–94, 120, 123–24
death of, 355, 356–65
death threats to, 262
detox sessions of, 231–32, 245, 246–47, 250, 253–56, 257, 293–94, 311–12, 324, 331, 340–43
deviant porn as interest of, 145–46
and divorce, 322, 324, 334
dolls of, 128–29, 153, 186–87, 270, 279, 281, 298
dreams of musical career, 65, 70, 78, 79–80, 99–100, 108, 119–20, 124, 160, 202
drug interventions with, 236–37, 286, 331, 332, 333–35
drug overdoses of, 1–4, 228, 247–48, 284–86, 296–97, 323, 324–26, 336–37
drug use of, 3–4, 35, 50–51, 62–63, 66, 67–68, 78–79, 135, 138, 152, 171, 172–74, 177, 183, 191, 204, 206, 208, 209–11,
Cobain, Kurt Donald 218–19, 220, 222, 224–25, 226, 228, 230–32, 233–34, 235–37, 247–50, 253– 55, 260–61, 266, 269, 270, 275, 284–86, 293–97, 302–3, 308–10, 314–15, 320– 21, 323–27, 329–39, 340–41, 347, 355, 358
escapes chosen by, 48, 53, 58, 173, 191, 245, 286, 314, 324, 327, 330, 332, 336, 343, 351–53, 354–55
exaggerations by, 37–38, 41, 51, 53, 57, 58–59, 68, 69, 70, 73, 105–6, 124, 147, 207, 228, 270, 305
and fatherhood, 229, 230–32, 246–47, 246– 47, 248–51, 253, 262, 265–66, 268–69, 270–71, 282–83, 288–89, 292–93, 301, 312, 334; see also Cobain, Frances Bean final days of, 344–55
first band of, 71
first concert attended by, 45–46, 63, 264
first public performance of, 78, 101, 195
first sexual encounters of, 48–49, 54–56, 57
first single by, 117–18, 119, 124, 125
guitars and guitar playing of, 37–38, 41, 43, 45, 53, 58, 60–61, 63, 64, 65, 78, 79– 80, 117, 136–37, 140, 163, 305
and “guns in the river” incident, 45, 147, 269
guns of, 176, 245, 247, 287, 328–29, 338–39, 345–46, 353, 354, 355
homelessness of, 39, 58–74, 183, 197, 212, 265, 269
identity problems of, 24, 26–27, 42, 101, 119, 133, 138, 160, 264
income of, 98, 142, 151–52, 174, 176, 233, 241, 244, 273–74, 298–99
jobs tried by, 61, 65, 67, 77–78, 79–80, 82, 93, 151–52
journals of, 53, 83, 93–94, 114, 120–25, 149, 159, 160, 166, 168, 169–71, 179– 80, 182, 210–11, 231, 232, 235, 253–54, 260–61, 277, 283–84, 294–95, 309, 343, 355
as Kurdt, 106, 114, 115, 117, 119, 160, 198, 202, 248, 264, 272
and lack of money, 79, 99, 130, 144–45, 157, 173, 177, 191, 198, 228
lethargy of, 36, 40, 61, 62, 79, 93, 120, 127, 157
letters written and unsent by, 105–6, 109, 115, 127, 141, 183, 197–98, 240, 266, 271–72, 312–13
marriage of, 233–34; see also Love, Courtney
musical influences on, 121–22, 123, 146, 160, 174, 176–77
musical talent of, 9, 12–13, 29, 80, 95
mythology in interviews by, 59, 131–32, 199, 240, 260, 265, 270, 283–84, 296
nightmares of, 149, 231, 281
and Nirvana, see Nirvana
on-stage persona of, 116–17, 146, 147, 163, 212, 219, 226–27, 252–53, 264, 283, 297, 304–5, 319
as outsider, 41–42, 58, 91, 101, 197, 294
and parents’ divorce, 21–23, 24, 25, 26, 27–28, 32, 58, 114, 271–72, 295–96
personality traits of, 2–3, 23–24, 30, 31, 33– 34, 35, 42, 60, 137–38, 163, 182, 193, 199–200, 217, 297, 319–23, 327, 330, 331, 365
pets of, 23, 26, 82–83, 139, 159, 191, 192, 318
physical appearance of, 2, 7, 14–15, 29, 46–47, 50–51, 94, 95, 100–1, 104, 109, 113, 152, 227, 244
preteen years of, 29–31
and religion, 62–63, 93, 136, 203, 355
residences of, 76–78, 79, 85, 129, 139, 157, 159, 174, 176, 191–92, 231, 242, 245, 265, 268, 274, 281–82, 288, 311, 313–14
run-ins with the law, 68–69, 72, 82, 270, 328–29, 358
schooling of, 11, 24, 29, 35, 36, 41–42, 49, 64
self-destructiveness of, 78–79, 99, 209–10, 225
and self-esteem, 67, 72, 79, 95, 116, 148, 159–60, 163, 165, 168, 240, 306
self-hatred of, 3, 69, 89, 104, 168, 170, 235, 277–78, 365
sleeping in the car, 71, 74, 120, 192, 193, 197, 213, 220, 314, 336
as songwriter, 65, 69–70, 71, 80, 86, 108, 120–21, 124–25, 132, 133–34, 138, 140– 41, 149, 152, 154, 162, 168–69, 179, 180, 182, 229, 241, 271, 277–79, 299, 318
stomach problems of, 23, 136, 140–41, 144, 145, 152, 173, 177, 204, 210, 232, 240, 242, 243, 245, 254, 255, 277–78, 280, 296, 301, 308–9, 331
success of, 2, 3, 4, 190, 194, 200–1, 208, 210, 211–12, 215–16, 223–29, 233, 244, 251, 256, 260, 263, 264, 266, 282
and suicide, 1–4, 33–34, 48, 79, 171, 210, 243–44, 245, 247–48, 275, 280, 296, 301, 323, 324–26, 328–29, 330, 331, 332–33, 350–55, 358
Super-8 films by, 33, 72–73, 153, 227
tattoo of, 166–67, 169, 355
teen years of, 31–38, 39–56, 57–75, 76–78
on television, 2, 215–16, 226–28; see also MTV
and Tobi, see Vail, Tobi
and Tracy, see Marander, Tracy
transitions of, 81, 82, 100–1, 117, 135, 148, 168, 196–98, 224–25
withdrawal of, 17, 22, 25, 26–27, 35, 39, 53, 58, 66, 69, 74, 82, 114, 135–36, 166, 190–91, 202, 286–87, 327, 332
women attracted to, 206–7
on wrestling squad, 30, 37–38, 185–86
Cobain, Leland (grandfather), 5, 124
childhood visits with, 18–19, 23
early years of, 19
financial support from, 16–17
and Kurt’s death, 357, 362, 363, 364
and Kurt’s teen years, 32, 38, 40
later years of, 316–17
suicides in family of, 34–35, 61, 316–17, 354
and woodworking projects, 12, 39–40
Cobain, Michael (uncle), 19, 61
Cobain, Wendy (mother), 7–11
divorce of Don and, 21–23, 24, 25, 26–28, 32, 58, 114, 263, 271–72, 295
drinking, 26, 44–45, 51
financial problems of, 21, 27, 44
and Frances, 262, 263
health problems of, 326
homes of, 7–8, 9–10, 22
jobs held by, 27, 32
and Kurt’s adult years, 124–25, 178, 219–21, 224, 232, 284–85, 286–87, 326, 335
and Kurt’s birth, 5, 7
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d Kurt’s childhood, 8–15, 16–18, 20–23, 26–27
and Kurt’s death, 356–57, 359, 362, 364
and Kurt’s teen years, 31–32, 43–45, 51–55, 58, 66, 76
marriage of O’Connor and, 66, 316
and motherhood, 8–9, 11, 13
physical appearance of, 14, 44–45
pregnancies of, 7, 10, 66
Coffin Break, 123
Cokely, Scott, 202
Coletti, Alex, 304
college radio, 133, 142, 149, 161, 193
Collins, Marco, 205
Columbia Records, 160, 175, 179
“Come As You Are,” 183, 232, 304
Community World Theater (CWT), Tacoma, 95, 96, 97–98, 103, 109, 224
“Confederacy of Dunces, A” (Toole), 51
Corbijn, Anton, 201
Corgan, Billy, 188, 206, 207, 324, 364
Costello, Elvis, 153
Cow Palace, San Francisco, 223, 283
Cox, Alex, 153
Crane, Paul, 274
Crash, Darby, 299
Creedence Clearwater Revival, 80
Creem, 45, 132
Croce, Jim, 179
Crotty, Jim, 264–65
Crover, Dale, 59, 74, 102, 114
jamming with, 47, 71, 77, 78, 97
and Nirvana, 98, 100–1, 105, 126, 129, 163
“Curmudgeon,” 238
“Cyanide Bath,” 144
Cyclods, 116
Cyrus, Billy Ray, 300
“D7,” 180
Dain Bramage, 164
Damn the Torpedoes, 181
Dangerous, 225
Danielson, Kurt, 145, 146
David Geffen Company, see DGC
Denver, John, 51
Details, 117, 300
Devo, 180
DeWitt, Michael “Cali,” 283, 296, 314, 315, 323, 328, 330, 333, 336, 345–350
DGC, 166, 176, 180, 189, 192–93, 200, 201, 204, 233, 283, 284, 297
Dharma Bums, 223
“Diamond Dave,” 65
Dickson, Ian, 167, 188, 191, 194, 196, 212, 329
Dillard, Bonnie, 349
Dilly, Shelli, 74, 95, 96, 173, 234
and first gig, 84–88
and Krist, 77, 116, 120, 148
and Kurt’s death, 363
and Kurt’s drug use, 319, 338
Dinosaur Jr., 190
“Dive,” 186
“Doll Parts,” 298
“Don’t Bring Me Down,” 30
“Downer,” 72, 86, 98, 144
Doyle, Tad, 144–46, 154
“Do You Love Me?,” 144
“Drain You,” 169
“Dumb,” 280
Duran Duran, 274
Dwyer, R. Budd, 243
Dylan, Bob, 141
Eagles, 340
Earth, 142
Ecstasy, 196
Edge Shaving Gel, 67, 135
Edwards, Gavin, 288
E.L.O., 30
Endino, Jack, 97, 102, 108, 112, 115, 119, 126, 142, 267
“Endless, Nameless,” 182
England:
drugs in, 196, 244
Nirvana tours in, 143, 144–48, 162, 164–65, 196, 214–16, 251–52
publicity in, 146, 196, 244, 251–52
Reading Festival in, 195, 197, 251–52, 264
record sales in, 143, 146, 215, 216
Rock ’N’ Roll Wax Museum in, 252
Erlandson, Eric, 188, 247, 300, 310, 348, 357
Eugenius, 251
Europe:
drug use in, 319, 320, 321
punk rockers in, 147, 251
tours in, 144–48, 194–97, 199, 210, 214–16, 251–52, 314, 319–22, 330
“Even in His Youth,” 140, 141, 177
Evergreen State College, 91
K-Dorm concert, 116–17, 118, 123
Everman, Jason, 124, 132, 137–38, 140
Evolution, 36
Exodus Recovery Center, Marina Del Ray, 253–54, 257, 259, 340–44, 357
Fancher, Lisa, 174–75
Farmer, Frances, 28, 234
Farry, Jackie:
as nanny, 251, 257, 258, 262, 268, 271, 282, 310, 315, 335, 341–42, 357
other duties of, 282, 332
Fat Man and Bobby, 50–51, 77, 147
Fecal Matter, 71, 74
Fenster, Jeff, 175
Fields, John, 25, 34, 44, 49
Finch, Jennifer, 152, 166, 170, 186, 210, 236
Finnerty, Amy, 205, 226, 228, 256–57, 259, 303, 306, 310–11
Fisk, Steve, 140, 141
Fitz of Depression, 168, 180, 183, 262
Fleetwood Mac, 181
Flipside, 135
“Floyd the Barber,” 98, 102, 120, 134
Fluid, 131, 135, 311
Foo Fighters, 318
“Formula,” 169
Foster, Dave, 98, 116
dismissal from Nirvana, 108–9, 138
as drummer, 100–101, 103, 129
physical appearance of, 100, 101, 104
Fradenburg, Charles (grandfather), 17, 28
Fradenburg, Chuck (uncle), 9, 13, 27, 37, 41, 63, 65
Fradenburg, Delbert (great-uncle), 9, 178–79
Fradenburg, Janis (aunt), 21
Fradenburg, Mari (aunt): and Kurt’s music, 71–72, 179, 266
and Kurt’s teen years, 45, 62, 65–66
memories of Kurt, 8, 9, 20, 22
musical ability of, 9, 13, 303
Fradenburg, Patrick, 178
Fradenburg, Peggy Irving (grandmother), 28
Fradenburg family, 5, 7, 9, 13, 19, 28, 40–41, 44, 178, 237
Franich, Frank, 22, 27, 32, 43, 44, 52
Franks, Jeff, 86
Fremont, Robert, 255, 273, 284
Fricke, David, 247, 301, 319, 323, 327, 335
“Fuck the Pope,” 147
Fuzzy Top Mountain, 13
Gaar, Gillian, 133, 268
Galletta, Osvaldo, 325
Gannon, John, 194
Garcia, Jerry, 193, 240
Geffen, David, 192–93, 325
Geffen Records, 166, 176, 192–93, 283, 333
Gehman, Pleasant, 152
Geiger, Marc, 326
Gerald Katz Antiques, New Orleans, 187
Germs, 299
Gersh, Gary, 176, 189, 272, 333
Gessco, Olympia, 78, 100
Get the Knack, 122, 177
Ginn, Greg, 102
Girl Trouble, 131
Glatfelter-Bell, Lisa, 199
Globe, The, 249
“Gloria,” 115
Goes, Ken, 164
Goldberg, Danny, 256, 266
on Frances’ care, 256, 310
on Kurt and Courtney, 207, 363
on Kurt’s drug use, 225, 331, 333, 334
and Nirvana management, 174, 189, 267, 298–99, 310
Golden Buddha, 363
Gold Mountain Management, 163, 166, 174–75, 176, 189, 194, 225, 242, 244, 251, 257, 269, 273, 279, 286, 309–10, 311, 325, 326, 333, 363
Goldston, Lori, 297, 299, 306
Gonson, J. J., 136, 252
Goo, 193
Goodmanson, John, 159
Good Vibrations, 179
Gordon, Kim, 163, 187
Go Team, 159
Grand Funk Railroad, 35
Grant, Tom, 346, 347, 348
Grateful Dead, 40, 193
“Gray Goose,” 142
Grays Harbor, Washington, 5, 39, 63, 71, 123, 159
Grays Harbor Community Hospital, 5, 60
“Greatest Gift, The,” 111
Greatest Hits (Lynyrd Skynyrd), 77
Great Western Forum, Los Angeles, 312
Green, John, 72
Green River, 107, 151
Gregor, Jan, 112
Grohl, Dave, 191, 297, 326, 359
as drummer, 164–67, 227, 267
Finch and, 170, 186
and Nirvana, 179, 180, 216, 241, 259, 267, 300, 304, 318, 328
promotional efforts of, 199–200, 204, 281
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br /> as roommate, 165, 166, 167, 173, 267
as songwriter, 318
on tour, 193, 208, 216, 253, 319
grunge bands:
coining of term, 150–51
marketing of, 132, 150–51
reviews of, 133
on television, 2, 226–27
Video Music Awards for, 256–60
Gunderson, Edna, 300
Guns N’ Roses, 192, 249, 259, 344
Guthrie, Arlo, 9
Hagar, Sammy, 45–46, 160, 264
Hagara, Jackie, 49–50, 54–56, 57
“Hairspray Queen,” 88, 89, 98
Hammer of the Gods, 65–66
Hanna, Kathleen, 157, 167, 180
Hanner, Gilly, 111
Hansen, Rich, 104, 106
Hanszek, Chris, 97
Hard Day’s Night, A (film), 201
“Harden My Heart,” 45
Hartman, Bret, 162–63, 165
Hartshorne, Nikolas, 358
Haynes, Gibby, 116, 340, 342, 343
Heart, 100
“Heartbreaker,” 87–88
“Heart-Shaped Box,” 276, 278, 281, 283, 299, 318, 341
“Heavier Than Heaven” tour, 144–48, 317
Heavy Metal (film), 33
Heller, Ginny, 346
“Hello Kitty,” 232
Helltrout, 116
Hendrix, Jimi, 34, 357
“Here She Comes Now,” 154, 175
Herling, Dres, 10
Herling, Rod, 10, 11
Hersh, Neal, 250, 282
“Hey Jude,” 9
Hi Infidelity, 45
Hilburn, Robert, 260–61, 265, 269, 347
Hirschberg, Lynn, 248, 273
Hirschman, Tony, 12
“Hitchhiker,” 141
Hochman, Steve, 241
Hokanson, Greg, 47, 50–51, 71, 95
Hole, 187, 195, 214, 215, 217, 219, 233, 236, 238, 247, 268, 275, 283, 290–91, 299, 318, 320, 323, 347
Holiday, Billie, 267
Holmes, Jeff, 273
Hopper, Jessica, 345–47
Hoquiam Eagles hall, Grays Harbor, 123–24
Horowitz, Michael, 273
Hoselton, Charlie, 269
House, Daniel, 117
“How Many More Times,” 88
“H. R. Pufnstuf” (TV), 45, 176
Hullabaloo, 136
Hunter, Bob, 42, 43, 64, 362
“Hunting Tigers Out in Indiah,” 45
I Claudius, 280
“If You Must,” 98
Iggy Pop, 92, 155, 183
I Hate Myself and I Want to Die, 271, 277, 278, 284
“Immigrant Song,” 124
“Imodium,” 145, 154
“In Bloom,” 154, 244, 297
In Cold Blood (Capote), 141
Incesticide, 269, 274
International Pop Underground, Olympia, 197
In Utero, 278, 281, 283–84, 290, 298, 299, 300, 301, 310–12, 314
Iommi, Tony, 88
Iosso, Claude, 326
Iron Butterfly, 128
Irving, James, 28, 358