The FBI Profiler Series 6-Book Bundle

by Lisa Gardner

  He opened his mouth. He tried to yell and he tried to snarl. Hell, at this point he’d settle for gnashing his teeth. But the words wouldn’t come out. So many years of dirty living, and still he could be thwarted by such a simple thing as the word please.

  “Goddammit, it’s September thirteenth and I’m sober. Would someone please get me a drink!”

  She took a step to comply, but then she swayed like a laundry sheet, her knees beginning to buckle.

  “That’s it. To bed,” he commanded, furious as hell. “Just pick a room, any room with a bed, and lie down in it. I have a couple of hours of tequila left, and I don’t want to see you again until the fourteenth unless you’re bringing me a bottle and have a lime in your navel and salt on your breasts.” He pointed toward the sliding glass door. “Out of my sight!”

  She took an obedient step forward and tottered dangerously.

  He had no choice. With a muttered oath he swung her up in his arms. She went rigid, her hands balling as if she would fight him, but her run-down state defeated her before he did. She sank into his arms like a balloon that had just had all the air let out. He could feel her rib cage clearly, as tiny as a bird’s. He could smell her, the clear scents of exhaustion and fear and a warmer, mysterious odor. Then he pinpointed it—baby powder. She carried the scent of baby powder.

  He almost dropped her.

  He didn’t want to know. He refused to know.

  The closest bedroom was neat and tidy, thanks to Freddie. J.T. dumped her unceremoniously onto the double bed. “Got any stuff?”

  “One bag.”

  “Where?”

  “The living room.”

  “Freddie will bring it in. Car out front?”

  “Took a taxi.”

  “Used a fake name, Angela?”

  “Yes. And I paid cash.”

  He grunted. “Not bad.”

  “I’m learning,” she told him honestly. “I’m learning.”

  “Well, learn how to sleep. It’s as good a skill as any.”

  She nodded, but her brown eyes didn’t close. “Are you an alcoholic?”

  “Sometimes.”

  “What are you the other times?”

  “A Baptist. Go to sleep.”

  She murmured, “I know why you saved the children.”

  “Yeah, right. Good night.”

  “Because you missed your family.”

  He jolted to a stop in the middle of the room and shuddered. Rachel and Teddy and the golden days of white picket fences and four-door sedans.

  She was wrong, of course, his family had come after the orphans. And yet her words cut close. “You don’t know what you’re talking about.”

  “I have to.” She sighed and her eyes drifted shut. “My daughter and I need you. You’re the only hope we have left.”

  “Shit,” J.T. said again, and made a beeline for the margarita mix.

  Midnight. In downtown Nogales, some bars were just opening. It wouldn’t be uncommon for J.T. to be heading out the door at this hour, dressed in jeans and a chambray shirt, pocket full of money and hands desperate for a beer. He’d stumble home at three or four, a couple of six-packs beneath his belt and a woman in his arms. The nights ran together.

  This was the first time the man could recall a woman sleeping in the guest room with her own suitcase. The first time he knew a woman was in the house but not in J.T.’s bed. Instead, J.T. was facedown in the living room, the iguana keeping him company.

  The house was still, quiet, almost stagnant. And yet the man knew that everything had changed. After three years, the pattern had been broken. His instructions on this point were clear.

  He crept through the darkened hall. Moonbeams bathed the living room in silvery light. In one corner a small, yellow-glowing heat lamp illuminated the iguana and J.T.’s bare feet. Neither creature stirred.

  The man turned away and moved carefully down the hall to the study. He picked up the telephone, years of practice making the motion soundless. He dialed from memory, already cupping his hand over his mouth to muffle his voice.

  “There’s a woman,” he said the moment the other end picked up.

  “A woman?”

  “Vincent sent her.”

  “Damn.” A long pause. “Her name?”

  “Angela, that’s all. Not her real name.”

  “Obviously. Vital statistics?”

  “Mid-twenties, five feet two inches, one hundred pounds, brown eyes, fair complexion, originally a blonde.”

  “Armed?”

  “A .22 Walther semiautomatic.”

  “Huh. Child’s toy. ID?”

  “Nothing.”

  “She must have something.”

  “There was nothing,” he insisted. “I checked her suitcase—the lining, hair-spray canister, hairbrush, shoe soles, everything. Plenty of cash but no ID. She has an accent. I can’t quite place it. Northern maybe. Boston.”

  “A professional?”

  “I don’t think so. She doesn’t seem to know much.”

  “Given the company J.T. generally keeps, she’s probably an ax murderer who hacked up her husband and children.”

  “What should I do?”

  A frustrated sigh. “He’s back in business?”

  “She’s here, isn’t she?”

  “Damn him. Never mind, I’ll take care of it. You just hold tight.”

  “All right.”

  “You did the right thing by calling.”

  “Thank you. How … how is he?”

  The silence stretched out. “He’s dying. He’s in a lot of pain. He wants to know why his son isn’t here.”

  “Does he ask for me?”

  “No, but don’t worry. He doesn’t ask for me either. All he’s ever cared about was J.T.”

  “Of course.” His voice was appropriately apologetic. He’d given his loyalty to a hard man a long time ago. His loyalty had never wavered; over the years he’d simply grown accustomed to his place. “I’ll call you if anything changes.”

  “You do that.”

  “Good night.”

  “Yeah. Good night.”

  He cradled the phone carefully. It didn’t matter. The overhead light snapped on.

  He turned slowly. J.T. lounged against the doorjamb. His arms were crossed over his bare chest. His eyes were bloodshot, but they were also intent.

  “Freddie, I believe it’s time we talked.”

  THREE

  Tess Williams awoke as she’d learned to awaken—slowly, degree by degree, so that she reached consciousness without ever giving herself away. First her ears woke up, seeking out the sound of another person breathing. Next her skin prickled to life, searching for the burning length of her husband’s body pressed against her back. Finally, when her ears registered no sound and her skin found her alone in her bed, her eyes opened, going automatically to the closet and checking the small wooden chair she’d jammed beneath the doorknob in the middle of the night.

  The chair was still in place. She released the breath she’d been holding and sat up. The empty room was already bright with midmorning sun, the adobe walls golden and cheery. The air was hot. Her T-shirt stuck to her back, but maybe the sweat came from nightmares that never quite went away. She’d once liked mornings. They were difficult for her now, but not as difficult as night, when she would lie there and try to force her eyes to give up their vigilant search of shadows in favor of sleep.

  You made it, she told herself. You actually made it.

  For the last two years she’d been running, clutching her four-year-old daughter’s hand and trying to convince Samantha that everything would be all right. She’d picked up aliases like decorative accessories and new addresses like spare parts. But she’d never really escaped. Late at night she would sit at the edge of her daughter’s bed, stroking Samantha’s golden hair, and stare at the closet with fatalistic eyes.

  She knew what kind of monsters hid in the closet. She had seen the crime scene photos of what they could do. Three weeks
ago her personal monster had broken out of a maximum security prison by beating two guards to death in under two minutes.

  Tess had called Lieutenant Lance Difford. He’d called Vince. The wheels were set in motion. Tess Williams had hidden Samantha safely away, then she had traveled as far as she could travel. Then she had traveled some more.

  First she’d taken the train, and the train had taken her through New England fields of waving grass and industrial sectors of twisted metal. Then she’d caught a plane, flying over everything as if that would help her forget and covering so many miles, she left behind fall and returned to summer.

  Landing in Phoenix was like arriving in a moon crater: Everything was red, dusty, and bordered by distant blue mountains. She’d never seen palms; here roads were lined with them. She’d never seen cactus; here they covered the land like an encroaching army.

  The bus had only moved her farther into alien terrain. The red hills had disappeared, the sun had gained fury. Signs for cities had been replaced by signs reading

  STATE PRISON IN AREA.

  DO NOT STOP FOR HITCHHIKERS.

  The reds and browns had seeped away until the bus rolled through sun-baked amber and bleached-out greens. The mountains no longer followed like kindly grandfathers. In this strange, harsh land of southern Arizona, even the hills were tormented, flayed alive methodically by mining trucks and bulldozers.

  It was the kind of land where you really did expect to turn and see the OK corral. The kind of land where lizards were beautiful and coyotes cute. The kind of land where the hothouse rose died and the prickly cactus lived.

  It was perfect.

  Tess climbed out of bed. She moved slowly. Her right leg was stiff and achy, the jagged scar twitching with ghost pains. Her left wrist throbbed, ringed by a harsh circle of purple bruises. She could tell it wasn’t anything serious—her father had taught her a lot about broken bones. As things went in her life these days, a bruised wrist was the least of her concerns.

  She turned her attention to the bed.

  She made it without thinking, tucking the corners tightly and smoothing the covers with military precision.

  I want to be able to bounce a quarter off that bed, Theresa. Youth is no excuse for sloppiness. You must always seek to improve.

  She caught herself folding back the edge of the sheet over the light blanket and dug her fingertips into her palms. In a deliberate motion she ripped off the blanket and dumped it on the floor.

  “I will not make the bed this morning,” she stated to the empty room. “I choose not to make the bed.”

  She wouldn’t clean anymore either, or wash dishes or scrub floors. She remembered too well the scent of ammonia as she rubbed down the windows, the doorknobs, the banisters. She’d found the pungent odor friendly, a deep-clean sort of scent.

  This is my house, and not only does it look clean, but it smells clean.

  Once, when she’d taken the initiative to rub down the window casings with ammonia, Jim had even complimented her. She’d beamed at him, married one year, already eight months pregnant and as eager as a lapdog for his sparing praise.

  Later, Lieutenant Difford had explained to her how ammonia was one of the few substances that rid surfaces of fingerprints.

  Now she couldn’t smell ammonia without feeling ill.

  Her gaze was drawn back to the bed, the rumpled sheets, the covers tossed and wilted on the floor. For a moment the impulse, the sheer need to make that bed—and make it right because she had to seek to improve herself, you should always seek to improve—nearly overwhelmed her. Sweat beaded her upper lip. She fisted her hands to keep them from picking up the blankets.

  “Don’t give in. He messed with your mind, Tess, but that’s done now. You belong to yourself and you are tough. You won, dammit. You won.”

  The words didn’t soothe her. She crossed to the bureau to retrieve her gun from her purse. Only at the last minute did she remember that the .22 had fallen on the patio.

  J. T. Dillon had it now.

  She froze. She had to have her gun. She ate with her gun, slept with her gun, walked with her gun. She couldn’t be weaponless. Defenseless, vulnerable, weak.

  Oh, God. Her breathing accelerated, her stomach plummeted, and her head began to spin. She walked the edge of the anxiety attack, feeling the shakes and knowing that she either found solid footing now or plunged into the abyss.

  Breathe, Tess, breathe. But the friendly desert air kept flirting with her lungs. She bent down and forcefully caught a gulp by her knees, squeezing her eyes shut.

  “Can I walk you home?”

  She was startled. “You mean me?” She hugged her schoolbooks more tightly against her Mt. Greylock High sweater. She couldn’t believe the police officer was addressing her. She was not the sort of girl handsome young men addressed.

  “No,” he teased lightly. “I’m talking to the grass.” He pushed himself away from the tree, his smile unfurling to reveal two charming dimples. All the girls in her class talked of those dimples, dreamed of those dimples. “You’re Theresa Matthews, right?”

  She nodded stupidly. She should move. She knew she should move. She was already running late for the store, and her father did not tolerate tardiness.

  She remained standing there, staring at this young man’s handsome face. He looked so strong. A man of the law. A man of integrity? For one moment she found herself thinking, If I told you everything, would you save me? Would somebody please save me?

  “Well, Theresa Matthews, I’m Officer Beckett. Jim Beckett.”

  “I know.” Her gaze fell to the grass. “Everyone knows who you are.”

  “May I walk you home, Theresa Matthews? Would you allow me the privilege?”

  She remained uncertain, too overwhelmed to speak. Her father would kill her. Only promiscuous young women, evil women, enticed men to walk them home. But she didn’t want to send Jim Beckett away. She didn’t know what to do.

  He leaned over and winked at her. His blue eyes were so clear, so calm. So steady.

  “Come on, Theresa. I’m a cop. If you can’t trust me, who can you trust?”

  “I won,” she muttered by her knees. “Dammit, I won!”

  But she wanted to cry. She’d won, but the victory remained hollow, the price too high. He’d done things to her that never should have been done. He’d taken things from her that she couldn’t afford to lose. Even now he was still in her head.

  Someday soon he would kill her. He’d promised to cut out her still-beating heart, and Jim always did what he said.

  She forced her head up. She took a deep breath. She pressed her fists against her thighs hard enough to welt her skin. “Fight, Tess. It’s all you have left.”

  She pushed away from the dresser and moved to her suitcase, politely brought to her room by Freddie. She’d made it here, step one of her plan. Next, she had to get J.T. to agree to train her. Dimly she remembered mentioning her daughter to him. That had been a mistake. Never tell them more than you have to, never tell the truth if a lie will suffice.

  Maybe J.T. wouldn’t remember. He hadn’t seemed too sober. Vincent should’ve warned her about his drinking.

  She didn’t know much about J.T. Vince had said J.T. was the kind of man who could do anything he wanted to but who didn’t seem to want to do much. He’d been raised in a wealthy, well-connected family in Virginia, attended West Point, but then left for reasons unknown and joined the marines. Then he’d left the marines and struck out solo, rapidly earning a reputation for a fearlessness bordering on insanity. As a mercenary he’d drifted toward doing the impossible and been indifferent to anything less. He hated politics, loved women. He was fanatical about fulfilling his word and noncommittal about everything else.

  Five years ago he’d up and left the mercenary business without explanation. Like the prodigal son, he’d returned to Virginia and in a sudden flurry of unfathomable activity he’d married, adopted a child, and settled down in the suburbs as if all along he’d rea
lly been a shoe salesman. Later, a sixteen-year-old with a new Camaro and even newer license had killed J.T.’s wife and son in a head-on collision.

  And J.T. had disappeared to Arizona.

  She hadn’t expected him to be drinking. She hadn’t expected him to still appear so strong. She’d pictured him as being older, maybe soft and overripe around the middle, a man who’d once been in his prime but now was melting around the edges. Instead, he’d smelled of tequila. His body was toned and hard. He’d moved fast, pinning her without any effort. He had black hair, covering his head, his arms, his chest.

  Jim had had no hair, not on his head, not on his body. He’d been smooth as marble. Like a swimmer, she’d thought, and only later understood the full depth of her naïveté. Jim’s touch had always been cold and dry, as if he were too perfect for such things as sweat. The first time she’d heard him urinate, she’d felt a vague sense of surprise; he gave the impression of being above such basic biological functions.

  Jim had been mannequin perfect. If only she’d held that thought longer.

  She’d stick with J. T. Dillon. He’d once saved orphans. He’d been married and had a child. He’d destroyed things for money.

  For her purposes, he would do.

  And if helping her cost J. T. Dillon too much?

  She already knew the answer; she’d spent years coming to terms with it.

  Once, she’d dreamed of a white knight. Someone who would never hit her. Someone who would hold her close and tell her she was finally safe.

  Now she remembered the feel of her finger tightening around the trigger. The pull of the trigger, the jerk of the trigger, the roar of the gun, and the ringing in her ears.

  The acrid smell of gunpowder and the hoarse sound of Jim’s cry. The thud of his body falling down. The raw scent of fresh blood pooling on her carpet.

  She remembered these things.

  And she knew she could do anything.

  FOUR

  J.T. was up at the crack of dawn. He didn’t want to be. God knows, it was stupid for a retired man to be up with the sun, but he’d spent too many years in the military to shake the routine from his bones. Oh-six-hundred: Soldier gets up. Oh-six-hundred-fifteen: Soldier does light calisthenics. Oh-six-hundred-thirty: Marine swims fifty laps, then showers. Oh-seven-hundred: Retired man pops open a beer in the middle of his living room and wonders what the hell he’s doing still getting up at oh-six-hundred.