Ryder

by Amy Davies

  “Baby girl, we didn’t say Ryder was your new daddy, now did we?” She shakes her head no with a sad face and it breaks my heart. I try to smile but it is forced. I am too scared to look at anyone but my daughter who is also trying to smile but it isn’t working. I take a deep breath and know that tonight’s date isn’t going to happen. I take another deep breath and stand and turn to face Ryder who is standing there watching me, unmoving.

  “Can we do this date another night? I’m not feeling up to it now” I’m giving him an out and if he takes it then I know that I won’t hear from him again. It will hurt, but its best for this to happen now rather than later.

  “Why?” is all Ryder says. Looking at Demi and then back to him I reply.

  “You know why, we don’t have to do this tonight, Ryder ok? I get it. It’s a lot to take in. I’m just going to give Demi her bath and get her ready for bed.” I turn towards Rafe and Lucy, “I’m sorry guys for tonight. I hope you can salvage what is left of the evening. Demi come on, baby, let’s get you ready for bed.” Demi looks at me confused and so does everyone else.

  “Why, Letty? Why do we have to end tonight? My brother and Lucy can bathe and get Demi ready for bed and we can go out on our date. I don’t get why you are ending our night?”

  Did he not just hear what my daughter just called him?

  “Ryder, please don’t make this harder on me or Demi. I know that you care for her … for us but are you really ready to be her dad? Shit, you are twenty years old for crying out loud.” I lift Demi up and sit her on my hip, waiting for Ryder’s answer. His eyes flicker between Demi and me. The longer he takes to answer the lower my heart sinks. I close my eyes and kiss Demi’s head and take a deep breath before asking everyone to leave us, when I feel strong arms wrap around Demi and me. I turn my head to see Ryder placing a kiss to Demi’s head and he looks me square in the eyes. His gaze is so intense my heart skips a beat.

  “I want to get to know you both, Letty. What part of that conversation did you not get? Ok I may not be ready for Demi to call me her dad, but maybe someday I will have that honor. Now, Angel, why don’t you go and show Aunt Lucy where your bath toys are so I can take your mom out on our date?” Just like that our ‘dad conversation’ is over. It’s one of the things I love about Ryder he doesn’t dwell on things and … where the fuck did that come from?

  I love Ryder Phoenix.

  No, that can’t happen after such a short time, surely? Shit.

  After showing Lucy where everything is that she needs to get Demi ready for her bath and bed, Ryder takes my hand and leads me to his car.

  “Where are we going?” I ask as we pull away from my building. Ryder looks over to me and smirks, my body starts to heat up waiting for his answer.

  “We are going to a nice little Italian restaurant that my mom loves. She said it was a nice romantic place to take you and the food is amazing so it’s a win, win situation I say.” I’m gobsmacked that he has talked to him mom about me; I wonder if he has told her about Demi.

  “Before you ask, baby, yes. I have talked to my mom about you and she can’t wait to meet you, plus she is excited to meet Demi. There is one thing you need to know about Mama Phoenix and that is that she is loyal to a fault when it comes to family and as you are with me, she will see you and Angel as family.”

  My heart stutters at his words. I have never had a family this big and now I am being thrown in at the deep end with the Phoenix family. We talk a little about Ryder’s family, his school course and the band. I tell him that I have seen Inside Noise play a few times but never had the courage to talk to them. Before I know it, we are pulling into a parking spot and Ryder is jumping out of his door and walking around to mine.

  I take his offered hand and we walk into the restaurant where a very pretty redhead girl greets us and her smile widens when she sees Ryder.

  “Hey Ryder, long time no see baby. Where have you been?” Wow, does she not see me or is she just being an ignorant bitch? Fuck this shit; I have had enough of this.

  “Hi, we have a reservation under Ryder’s name and I would really like to hurry up and eat my food so I can take my man home and have him for desert. Now, can you show us to our table, please?”

  Holy shit, that felt good.

  Chapter 14

  Ryder

  “Hi, we have a reservation under Ryder’s name and I would really like to hurry up and eat my food so I can take my man home and have him for desert. Now, can you show us to our table, please?”

  Fucking, holy shit. Is it wrong that Letty just totally turn me the fuck on? My dick is hard as nails in my pants right now. That was some sexy as fucking shit that just came out of her beautiful mouth; I place my arm around her waist, resting my hand on her slim hip and kissing her temple.

  “I believe my girlfriend wants to eat so we can get out of here.” I use my fingers to turn Letty's head to me so I can reach her lips. I hear the hostess stomp her feet and tells us to follow her. We follow but I keep my grip on Letty; there is no way I am letting her go. She is mine now. We reach our table and the hostess tells us our waiter will be with us shortly. I take Letty’s hand over the table.

  “Sunshine, I know it’s fast, this thing that is happening between us but I am ok with it. It feels right, natural. Tell me you feel it too?” I pray that she feels what I’m feeling.

  “I do feel it, Ryder. I do, believe me, and it frightens the shit out of me.” I go to speak but she holds her hand up to stop me, “I am a twenty-two year old single mom…” I cut her off before she can finish, she has to know that she has me.

  “Not single, baby.”

  “You know what I mean, Ryder. But you are a twenty-year-old hot, sexy guy, who has women throwing themselves at you because you are in a band and before you start, I love the band you know that. But I can tell you again that me and Demi won’t survive if you leave us, so I am trying so fucking hard to let my heart fall. And it’s falling Ryder, even though I’m trying to hold back” She swipes a tear away that has escaped from her beautiful eyes. I push my chair back and kneel on the floor next to her.

  “Baby, I am not going anywhere. Yes, I know we are young. I didn’t actually know that you were two years older than me, but Sunshine, that just makes me hot. I have a cougar girlfriend. The boys are gonna be so jealous.” I wink at her and a perfect smile creeps across her face.

  “I’m hardly a cougar, baby.” My smile widens and I lean up and kiss her.

  “I like it when you call me baby. Now let’s order, eat so I can get you home and devour you for desert like you wanted, baby. And what my girls want, my girls get.”

  “I like that” she says in a whispered tone playing with her napkin.

  “You like what, Sunshine?”

  “You calling Demi and me ‘Your girls.’ It makes me believe that you are here to stay.” I reach over and tilt her chin up so our eyes meet.

  “I am here to stay, baby. Always. You are the beat in me.”

  Holy fucking shit, did I just say that to her?

  We order and eat our food, forgoing desert, as we both want each other for desert. On the drive back Letty’s apartment I entwine our hands and kiss her knuckles every now and then, I can’t get enough of her skin on mine, even if it only a small amount.

  “Baby, you sure it’s ok if I stay the night? I don’t want to confuse Demi in the morning.” I ask her once we park outside her apartment building.

  “I have already had a talk with her, babe and I have told her that we will be doing some sleepovers and she was so excited to know that we can make you our breakfast special pancakes.” She smiles at me and I can’t help but smile back; my heart is beating a mile a minute. You would think this was my first time having sex but fuck if Letty doesn’t make me feel like that.

  I hold her hand while walking up to her front door. She stops and turns to me and kisses me, I open my mouth for her tongue to play with mine all wet and hot. I push her against the door and pin her hips with mine.


  Hello, hard-on.

  She threads her hands through my hair and tugs a little which causes a stray growl to escape me, that only drives her more crazier. I pull away but believe me I don’t fucking want to.

  “Baby, let’s take this inside or we will be giving your neighbors a free show and I am going to be the only man to see you cum, Letty.” A blush creeps up her neck and face and I can't stop myself from leaning in and licking the pulse in her neck, which in turn causes Letty to whimper.

  Fuck me, now that is sexy. I open the door to find an empty living room; I can see that there is a small light coming from Demi’s bedroom but no Rafe and Lucy. We walk further into Letty’s apartment and we hear moaning coming from down the hall.

  “Bastard, he couldn’t fucking wait till he got her home.” I storm down the hall to see the bathroom door open and see Lucy with her head in the toilet, vomiting. Letty pushes past me and goes into Mom mode.

  “How long has she been like this?” Letty asks Rafe. My brother looks just as pale as his girlfriend.

  “A few days but she keeps telling me that it’s just a stomach bug she won’t go see a doctor.” He wipes Lucy’s face with a cloth. I turn to look at Letty who gives me a smile but it doesn’t reach her eyes. She goes to speak but stops and then does it again.

  “What, Sunshine? Do you know what’s wrong with Lucy?” She nods at me and crouches down to Lucy.

  “Lucy, is there any chance you could be pregnant?” You could hear a pin drop in the bathroom and then Lucy's cries breaks the daze we are all in. My brother mutters, ‘fuck’ under his breath and pulls Lucy tight to him.

  “You need to get a test done, Luce. It isn’t good for you to be vomiting this much. Please see a doctor as soon as you can, ok?”

  Rafe and Lucy leave once she can stand on her own and her stomach has stopped convulsing. I follow Letty back to her bedroom after locking up the apartment and my girl is standing there is just her white panties and strapless bra and fuck me if my breath didn’t get caught in my throat.

  “Fuck, baby you look beautiful. You look like an angel standing there, which is why you need a bad boy like me to dirty you up. I fucking love that hip tattoo, baby. I’m gonna enjoy licking that.

  I wink at her and make my way over to her. I kiss her full soft lips while she unbuttons shirt and pushes it off my shoulders; she runs her fingers over my tribute tattoo and my body shivers from her touch. I undo my belt and my jeans drop to the floor, leaving me in my boxers. I know she is happy to see my dick tenting my boxers because she licks her lips.

  She slowly lowers herself to her knees and pulls my boxers down to my ankles and I step out of them. I am now fully naked and she is still in her panties and bra, but not for long. She licks the tip of my dick and my hips jerk from her touch she gives me a seductive smile and licks the full length of my shaft. One of my hands instinctively goes to her head and the other grips my dick, guiding it to her lips. She opens for me and I slip into her wet hot mouth. She sucks softly and slowly but picks up speed, which has me fucking her mouth in no time because she makes it feel so fucking good.

  “Yes, Letty just like that baby. Fuck, suck it all. Fuck, that’s good” It’s too good, I need her to stop; I need to come inside her body. “Baby stop, I want to come inside of you. Get on the bed, Sunshine and lay on your back.” She climbs on her bed and lays back for me, her feet planted flat on the bed and her legs fall open for me to see her. I crawl up the bed and between her legs, laying kisses along her very toned stomach and between her fantastic tits before turning my attention to sucking her nipples through her lace bra.

  “Take it off, Ry.” Who am I to refuse her that order? I slip my hands behind her and unclip her bra, sliding the straps down her slender shoulders and throwing it on the floor. I suck on her right nipple and then share the affection with the left nipple. I grind my dick into her hot core and Letty whimpers my name. My dick jerks at my name coming from her mouth.

  I make my way back down her beautiful body and pull her panties off in one swift pull. I run my tongue over her hip tattoo which is a mixture of stars and music notes that leads to her bare sex. She shivers as my tongue gets to know every star and music note on her hip and slowly run my tongue down to her wet core as her arousal is making me crazy; she smells sweet like candy.

  I slide my tongue through her wet lips and circle her clit, her hips bucking up, bringing her closer to my face, at which I smile into her wet flesh. I slide one finger into her wet heat and then add another as Letty cries out my name. I suck on her clit and that’s enough to send her into her orgasm. I lap up her juices and give a gentle kiss to her clit, which causes her to spasm; I chuckle and make my way back up her body.

  “Holy shit, Ryder. That was amazing.” she says while trying to calm her breathing down.

  “You ready for me, baby? I am going to make you scream my name, but not tonight. You are loud, baby and we can’t have Demi coming in here while I’m making love to her mom. That will kill the raging hard on that I have for you right now.” I motion my head to my dick. She laughs and the sound ripples through my entire body.

  “I’m not normally that loud, baby. It’s you, you bring it out of me, not that I’m complaining.” She laughs and I laugh with her. Her face turns serious and lust filled still. “Condoms in the top drawer, baby.” She bucks her hips she her sex meets my dick and a hiss leaves my mouth and the cheeky little minx laughs at me. I hurry to grab a condom and roll it over my thick hardened shaft and place myself at her wet entrance.

  “Ryder, I haven’t had sex in four years so, please just slam it home, baby. I don’t want to prolong the pain” Well fuck me sideways. She is going to kill me with her mouth. I nod and kiss her hard and making our tongues dance to the beat of our hearts. I slam it home just for her and she cries out my name and I freeze.

  “Fuck, baby you ok? I’m sorry” I go to pull out but Letty locks her ankles around my hips and places her hand on my face.

  “Babe, I’m fine. I knew it would hurt a little but I’m ok, please move Ryder. I need to feel you sliding in and out of me.” She wiggles her eyebrows, damn my woman. I start to move and she moans my name. Our breathing picks up speed as do my thrusts; she meets me thrust for thrust. I have thoughts of Letty riding me and it’s like she can read my mind because in a flash she has flipped us so that she is on top but we never disengage from each other. I place my hands on her hips and help her move up and down my shaft. I rub my thumb over her tattoo and run my hands up to her perfect round tits, I can truly admire her body from this angle and it’s hard to believe that she has given birth to a child.

  “Shit, I feel you deeper this way Ryder. Please make me come again, baby please,” she pleads against our thrusts. I can feel my balls tighten and I know my orgasm is building. I bring my hands down leaving one on her hip and the other down to thumb her clit. With the right amount of pressure she comes apart on top of me, her orgasm setting my own off. I gasp her name, as this has to be the hardest I have ever come before in my life and that is saying something. She slows her pace and we ride out our euphoria together. Letty falls forward into my chest and I wrap her tightly against me.

  “You are mine, Letty Shaw and I am never letting you go, baby. No way in hell.” She giggles and I slide her off of me so I can dispose of the condom, when I enter her bedroom again Letty is laying on her side waiting for me, looking at sexed up and sexy as sin.

  “So Mr. Phoenix, if I am yours, does that mean you are mine also? No more groupies for you?”

  I chuckle and climb into her bed and pull her to me so that her head is resting in the crook of my neck. “Baby, this …” I motion my hand down my body, “belongs to you and you only. I don’t cheat Letty. I despise it and I hate liars.” My thoughts drift to Laurie and I shudder. Letty feels it and lifts herself to face me, resting her chin on my chest.

  “Who hurt you Ry?” I shake my head and clear the negative thoughts.

  “It was a long time ago. I go
t into a casual relationship with a girl; we were seeing each other for a few weeks but it turned out she was married. I didn’t know.” She gasps but leans up and kisses me.

  “She was a bitch for doing that to you and her husband. I will never hurt you Ryder; I have too much heart riding on us.” She kisses me once more and snuggles into my body and I drift off to sleep holding my Sunshine close to me.

  I wake up still wrapped in Letty and it feels fucking amazing, if I do say so myself. I don’t ever spend the night but waking up in bed with Letty is all kinds of right and my heart swells at the thought of doing this every morning. I hear the door creak open and I know Demi is awake and I’m thankful that I put my boxers on before getting back into bed last night. I pretend to be asleep when I feel Demi tap my nose and whispers my name.

  “Ryder, wake up.” She taps my nose again and I twitch it, which makes Demi giggle. She taps my nose again and I pretend to sneeze, she yelps and I sit up pull her into lap.

  “Good morning, Angel. You doing ok?” I whisper to her, careful not to wake Letty. She smiles at me and traces my chest tattoo.

  “Pretty, just like Mama’s drawings.” She smiles with pride. I feel Letty stir next to me so I climb out of bed with Demi still in my arms, bending to pick up my jeans and head for the kitchen.

  “How about we make Mama breakfast? Do you know how to make your special pancakes?”

  She nods her head yes with her big gorgeous smile and we get to work making my girl breakfast in bed.

  Chapter 15

  Letty

  I wake up to an empty bed but deliciously sore. Ryder’s side of the bed is cold, which means he has been gone awhile. My heart sinks, I thought he was for real I thought he meant the words he spoke to me yesterday. I look at the clock, which reads eight-thirty. Shit, Demi. I jump out of bed and throw on a night shirt I grab out of my drawer I step over the clothes on the floor and make my way out to start Demi breakfast. I hear a giggle that I love so much and the clanging of pots and pans. As I enter my kitchen I see that a tornado has decided to make breakfast in my kitchen.