Silenced Memories

by Brittney Sahin

  “I thought that was the only place I belonged until I met you.” He touched the side of her face. “I’m in love with you, Kathryn Elizabeth Adams.”

  His words hit her hard. A tornado of feelings spiraled through her; she felt weak. “How do you know?” she asked, still not sure if she could trust him. “How do you know you love me?”

  Michael shut his eyes and tilted his head back. “Because being away from you has caused me more pain than all of the bullets that pierced my chest. Losing you has eaten away at me, making me feel weak and alone.” His eyes flashed open and found hers. “And because your smile tugs at something deep inside of me. Your humor and your sensitivity, your sweetness and amazing personality . . . you make me feel different.” He exhaled a slow breath. “You make me feel human again. I feel like life is possible if you’re in it.”

  She stared in disbelief at the man in front of her. She almost couldn’t believe this was happening. “Can we go inside?” she asked, and her bottom lip trembled.

  “You okay?” He touched her arm.

  She nodded. “Yes. But if we don’t get inside soon, we’ll have to make love out in the snow.”

  He released a nervous laugh and pulled her into his arms. “You just love to drive me crazy, huh?”

  Her eyes sparkled. The dead weight she’d been feeling for months was gone. She no longer needed to silence the memories of her past—she just wanted to create new ones. “We’ve been apart longer than we were ever together . . .”

  “Thankfully, we have our whole lives to make up for lost time.” He pressed his lips to hers and groaned before pulling back. “I promise to do everything I can to earn your love.”

  She shook her head. “You already have it, Michael Maddox.” She touched his lips with her index finger. “I love you, too. I never stopped.”

  “Thank God,” he said, shoving his hands into her thick, blonde hair. “And I never want you to stop.”

  Innocence & Betrayal

  Do you like action and suspense—mixed with romance (and a sexy Irish accent)?

  Check out Innocence & Betrayal, which debuts March 1, 2016.

  Reserved biochemist Ava Daniels has spent the last six months working on a top secret assignment for Homeland Security. One morning, after a night of finally letting loose, she discovers her lab empty and her boss missing. Interrogated by the very organization she works for, followed by unknowns, and attacked, Ava finds herself in search of answers as the clock winds down. Aiden O’Connor, Irish born and raised, attempted to put his past behind him when he opened a bar in the heart of Boston. One night, Ava Daniels shows up to his bar asking for help. She is like no other woman he has ever met—breathtakingly beautiful, brilliant, and in terrible danger. Once he learns the true nature of her problem, Aiden realizes she is the key to unlock his past . . . and perhaps to get a second chance. Innocence & Betrayal is the second novel in the Hidden Truths series. It is a stand-alone book, which features characters from Silenced Memories.

  Continue to read the first 4 chapters.

  Extract from Innocence & Betrayal

  Chapter One

  Speechless. Was that really a thing? Ava never thought it was possible to go completely mute, but at that moment, she had. Her mouth ajar, she stared at the empty room with wide eyes, feeling as though someone had knocked her so hard in the cheek that she couldn’t see straight.

  A deep whiff of bleach assaulted her senses as her purse slipped to the ground, thudding loudly against the floor. Ava’s hands pressed against her abdomen in an attempt to calm the sickness that pooled in the pit of her stomach.

  “Hello?” she called. Her feet started to move through the room and down the hall. She darted into the first lab on the left and her brows knitted together in surprise. She hesitated for a moment, willing her feet to move again.

  When she made her way to the last lab in the building, she doubled over and pushed her hands to her knees, an attempt to slow her rapid breathing.

  Empty. The entire damn building was a wasteland of white walls and concrete floors. There was absolutely . . . freaking . . . nothing.

  The muscles in her chest constricted as she inhaled. Henry. I need to call him.

  Her Nikes hauled her back to the main entrance, which was the only place to get a decent signal. She rummaged through her massive purse, cursing herself for carrying such a big bag, and for filling it to the max. “There you are.”

  Coming upright with her smartphone in hand, Ava scrolled through her favorites, tapped Henry’s name, and waited with impatience for him to answer his phone.

  Henry’s fuzzy voicemail, which she’d been on him to fix for at least three months now, crackled loudly in her ears like a death-knell. “Shit.”

  She phoned him again and again, compulsively pressing the call button in her need for him to answer.

  Her voice quavered when she gave in and left a message. “Henry, call me. Right away.”

  Two years back, Ava had trained for a moment like this, never expecting that it would come, and for the life of her, she couldn’t remember a blessed thing about the protocol. Frantic, she searched through the other favorites in her phone.

  “Come on, Kat.” When Kat’s phone went straight to voicemail without even a ring, Ava began to wonder if she were dreaming. Was this some strange, alcohol-induced nightmare?

  Her last hope was Eddie. “So help me God, please pick up.” There were only four people who worked in the lab, after all, and no one else knew a damned thing.

  “What in the hell is going on?” She cringed as she chucked her phone back into her brown bag and rubbed her shaky hands over her face.

  She’d never been inside Henry’s home, but she’d dropped him off one time when he got sloshed after work. The man had become like a father to her, and she’d insisted he take a break from work for his birthday last month. They went for a few drinks, and a few for him turned into about seven gin and tonics. That was the only time she’d ever witnessed Henry’s brain work at even a slightly reduced level.

  Even then, you couldn’t forget that he was a genius. A mad scientist, even. The man was her idol.

  And now he was missing.

  She jerked at the handle of her car and hopped inside. Henry’s place was only five minutes away. She pushed the little red sedan to its limits on the highway, not giving a damn about the police.

  As she came to a stop in front of his townhome, Ava noticed his silver town car was missing, and she doubted it was in the garage. He has to be here, though. He just has to be. It was already past eight in the morning.

  As she walked to his front door, the Maryland sun helped ease the balance of the cooler-than-normal September air. Prickly bumps of unease raced over her skin as her fist pounded on his door. She rubbed her hands over her arms before ringing the bell a few times.

  Peering up at the pale blue shutters of the windows on the top floor, she wondered, hoped, that he was inside—and that everything was okay.

  As she was about to ring the bell again, Ava caught sight of someone exiting the neighboring townhome. “Excuse me!” she called, hurrying over, her hand waving in the air.

  The old woman crinkled her brow and pulled a small cat close to her chest. Was she afraid of her? Seriously? “Ma’am? Have you seen Henry? He lives next door, and I’m worried about him.”

  The woman studied Ava for a moment, her dark brown eyes taking in every inch of her. “I never see him. I didn’t even know his name, to be honest. He’s never home.”

  Of course not. He practically lives at the lab. Before Ava had a chance to speak again, the woman grabbed her newspaper from off her walkway and returned to her house.

  Desperate, Ava tried Henry’s door one more time, shaking on the handle a bit to see if she could get in. But finally, she knew that it was time to face the music.

  She had to go to Aberdeen. She had to report to Homeland Security.

  ***

  Ava stared at the security guard. He was a beast of a m
an—a cross between an NFL linebacker and the Hulk. She wondered what he was thinking as he squinted in her direction, his forehead wrinkling as his shoulders arched back. His gaze screamed total disapproval.

  “I’m sorry, but you aren’t in the system. I can’t let you in.”

  “What do you mean I’m not on the list? I’m a government employee. Until six months ago, I came in to work here every day.” His eyebrow seemed to query what she had been up to the last six months. “Does Tom still work here? He knows me.” She tried to remain calm, pressing her hands against her sides as if to slow her heartbeat with the strength of their pressure. She didn’t want him to sense the fact that panic and fear had planted root in her body, entangling every inch of her.

  “No, he’s not here, and it doesn’t make any difference. You’re not getting in.”

  No! She couldn’t back down. “I’m not leaving until I talk with Director Frank Harris. Please, this is a matter of national security.” She rubbed her sweaty palms against her hoodie and reached for the zipper, feeling suddenly too hot.

  The guard cocked his head to the side and reached for a phone. “I have an Ava Daniels here, requesting to see Mr. Harris,” he said with a deep voice, studying the name on her ID badge.

  Thank God. Ava’s patience level was somewhere between zero and nuclear as she waited for him to hang up.

  “Someone will be down in a moment.”

  She bit back an “I told you so” and, instead, nodded and took a seat on the black bench near the metal detector, draping her hoodie on her lap. She watched as the minutes ticked by on the digital wall clock across from her, trying not to think about how Henry could be falling into greater danger with every passing moment. She attempted to fight back the steady stream of scenarios that crowded her mind. Her heartbeat grew louder in her ears as fear gripped coldly at her insides. What if terrorists had infiltrated the lab? Dressed in black, because why wouldn’t they be? They’d grabbed Henry, tortured him for information, and wiped away all evidence before going after Kat and Eddie . . . because Henry wouldn’t betray his country. No, they’d have to kill him first.

  She blanched at the thought.

  But surely they would have come after me, too?

  But perhaps they had, only to find her gone. She’d crashed at Becca’s hotel in Baltimore last night.

  “Ava Daniels?”

  She squinted at the middle-aged man, wondering if something was wrong with her eyesight. “You aren’t Frank Harris.”

  He ran a hand over his smooth jaw before extending it in her direction. “I’m Alex Jeffrey. Frank Harris is no longer working here.”

  She blinked a few times before examining his outstretched hand. She stood up and clasped his as she inhaled a deep breath. “Who are you?”

  “His replacement. The director of this division of Homeland.”

  She pressed her lips together in a straight line. Can you be trusted?

  “We need to talk.”

  “I gathered as much.” He motioned for her to follow him.

  After completing her security check, she followed the stranger to the elevators and forced down the lump in her throat. “What happened to Frank?” she asked as they waited for the elevator doors to open.

  “He was promoted about the time you switched positions.”

  “So, you know who I am?” Ava asked while stepping into the elevator. “Why was my security clearance to this facility revoked?” She pulled the black hoodie through the loose fist of her left hand, and then switched and pulled it through the right.

  “It wasn’t revoked. Just changed.”

  “To what?”

  Alex Jeffrey held his arm out after the elevator doors chimed open, offering her the exit. “We’ll talk about everything in a moment.”

  Just breathe, Ava reminded herself. She followed him through a maze of hallways, passing closed doors and a few men in uniform. Although Ava had worked in the building before, she had spent most of her time in the lab. The only time she remembered coming to this floor was during the interview process. It had been a very long and exhaustive process, even though they had recruited her.

  “Would you like some water, Miss Daniels?”

  Her throat was parched, but for some reason, she answered, “No.” She watched as Alex sat behind a massive desk, and then she took a seat in the leather chair across from him.

  “Please, tell me what brings you here today.”

  His voice was a bit too casual. But was that because he knew what had happened in the lab, or because he didn’t have a clue?

  There should have been an alarm.

  Unless the lab hadn’t been attacked at all.

  Ava’s brain sizzled. She needed answers. But how much was she allowed to divulge?

  “Miss Daniels?”

  His deep southern voice pulled her up for air, and she wet her lips before gulping. “What do you know about me? About my project?”

  He leaned forward in his chair and cocked his head before clasping his hands on the desk. “You’re working on a classified assignment that is so classified no personnel even knows the location of your lab.”

  He raised his eyebrows at her, and she saw something in his dark green eyes . . . akin to curiosity, perhaps.

  “You’re working under the leadership of Henry Davidson. And, because you are technically not working for the CSAC anymore, your clearance to this facility,” he gestured both hands, palms up, “is on hold.”

  CSAC—the Chemical Security Analysis Center. “Of course I’m working for the CSAC. Who else would I be working for?”

  She stared at Alex Jeffrey, who stared right back at her with his lips parted.

  “Ava?”

  She realized she hadn’t spoken—her voice wouldn’t work.

  She stood up and walked toward the only window in his room. She looked out at the base down below, following a pair of soldiers as they walked to another building nearby. Why didn’t I just take the job at Revlon?

  “What’s wrong?” His voice was laced with a seriousness that wasn’t there earlier.

  She turned around to face him, and her eyes flashed to meet his. “I signed a document six months ago that directly states I’m not allowed to divulge anything about what I do at the lab.” She had rehearsed the statement, never believing that she’d need it. She sucked in a deep breath and tried to calm her nerves. “But my boss is missing. And the lab—the lab is empty. Like Clorox bleach empty.” She shook her head in disbelief. “I think something happened to Henry. And the other lab assistants. I can’t get ahold of anyone.”

  Alex rubbed the back of his neck before standing. “We should go to the lab.”

  “I can’t show you where it is. I—I signed that document.” The orders had come from the White House, surely a higher power than Alex Jeffrey.

  “That’s inconsequential at this point, don’t you think? This is a matter of national security.”

  She forced a nod. Of course he was right. Who else did she have to go to? The president? She almost laughed at the thought. Of course it wasn’t funny. Not really.

  Before she could respond, her shoulders jerked upright at the sound of banging on the door. But Director Jeffrey didn’t get a chance to answer. The knob turned, and two men with cropped hair and black matching suits strode through. Their attention laser-focused on Ava. “We have orders to escort Miss Ava Daniels,” one of them said once he reached her side.

  She could smell the minty freshness of the man’s breath. “Who are you?”

  “Where to? What’s this about?” The sudden lines in Director Jeffrey’s face exposed the fact that he was closer to fifty than she realized.

  The other man handed paperwork to the director. “That’s classified, sir,” he responded with a deep, throaty voice.

  “Miss Daniels?” The man at her side placed his hand on her forearm and tilted his head at the door.

  She averted her attention to Mr. Jeffrey, biting her lip in a silent plea. If anyone could help
her, he could, right?

  His lips parted, but no sound escaped, as the two men rushed her out of the office so fast that she didn’t even have time to grab her hoodie from the chair.

  Ava retracted her arm from the man’s grasp. “I can walk on my own.”

  Once outside, goosebumps formed on her bare arms at the sight of the black SUV waiting at the curb, its dark tinted windows leering sinisterly.

  The largest of the men shoved Ava into the backseat of the SUV. “What the hell?” Something dark covered her head, through which only a pinprick of light shone. Briefly, she wondered what had been written on that sheet of paper, as metal pressed against her wrists.

  Handcuffs? Seriously?

  Chapter Two

  The man removed the bag from Ava’s head, and his eyes lingered far too long on her chest while leaning forward to unlock her cuffs.

  “Was that necessary?” Static from the bag had her hair clinging to her face. She smoothed a hand over the stray hairs and rubbed her wrists.

  “Wait here,” he said with a voice that could have chilled Orlando on a summer day.

  “Like I have a choice?” She leaned back in her chair, trying to assume a casual demeanor, but before she could even fake relaxation her gaze was drawn to a man in the doorway. He looked a few decades older than her age of twenty-eight. He was above average in height, about six two, and his chocolate brown eyes were anything but warm. The weathered look of his tanned skin and neatly trimmed brown hair gave her the vibe he’d spent time in the military.

  “Miss Daniels, I apologize if you suffered any discomfort during your transport here. This location is top secret, and it’s not safe for anyone outside of the agency to know about it. The precautions were taken with your safety in mind.” The mystery man traced the lines of his black blazer lapels with long, thick fingers before taking a seat at the table in front of Ava.

  Ava straightened in her chair and tried to keep her voice steady. “I understand secrets. I work for Homeland Security.” The words fell from her lips at a slow pace. “What agency is this? Is this a division of Homeland?”