Shifters, Beasts, and Monsters

by Aya Fukunishi, Linda Barlow, Elixa Everett, Virginia Wade, Savannah Reardon, Skye Eagleday, Giselle Renarde, Jessi Bond, Natalie Deschain, Audrey Grace, Francis Ashe, J. E.

  Suddenly, a thought occurred to me. I had long ago heard of markets in the city where people could go to be sold and then, over time, buy themselves free again. Another girl from our little village went there some years ago, and when she returned she was wealthy and married.

  “Papa, do you remember Meribeth? Do you remember what she did a few years ago? With going to the city, and-”

  “Oh no, no, no, little girl. That won’t do at all,” papa said. “I need you here to help with the crops.”

  “But papa, if it works out the same way as it did when she went off, you’ll make a lot of money. Enough to buy more land maybe, or at least hire a couple of hands come harvest time. You could even journey somewhere with mama.”

  He said “no” so many times they started to run together. His voice got louder and louder, the way it does when he’s trying to convince himself of something.

  “I just can’t do such a thing to you. You’re my pride and joy, Jovena, and I couldn’t send you off to a place like...like that. Even for all the money in the world.”

  “What is so awful about it? Meribeth went off to live in some palace for a few years and then she came back wed to a nice man and had a pair of fat little babies. Mama is always asking me when I’m going to find a husband and settle down. This seems like the perfect chance to help you and get on with my life.”

  “You’re such a kind girl,” he said. “Always thinking of your poor old papa. Jovie, do you know what you’re saying? If you do this, there’s no telling where you’ll end up. Meribeth was one of the lucky ones.”

  “I can’t believe you’re considering this, Jovena,” my mother was aghast, her face pale and ashen. “You may go somewhere terrible and live in the house of some awful tyrant who could do things to you that...no, no, you mustn’t even consider this. You mustn’t.”

  Nodding, I sat down on papa’s lap and patted his fat, whiskery cheeks.

  “It will be alright, papa. It always is.”

  He smiled again.

  The next morning, I was gone before the sun came up.

  ***

  With a tiny bundle of clothes and souvenirs from home which amounted to three rings and a small, stuffed doll my mama made me when I was a little girl, I stumbled out into the small clearing where new owners were busily loading their new acquisitions into wagons. All manner of people milled about, but the one common trait was that everyone seemed very sullen. Eyes were all fixed firmly on the ground; no one seemed willing to look up, either at each other, or at the men pushing them around.

  I couldn’t help it though. As frightening as it all was to leave everything I’d ever known behind and be taken away to a far off land of which I knew only shadowy rumors and brusque jokes, my curiosity was simply flaring. I’m here anyway, may as well take it all in. Why waste the time? When am I going to see all this sort of thing again? It isn’t every day I see this sort of commotion, all these different people milling about. Painted men, women covered in tattoos from hair to their feet, tiny men, men with huge bellies. Such an incredible variety!

  My curiosity and giddiness caught the attention of a man who was himself standing around and watching the goings-on. His well-muscled, sun-browned arms were crossed over a mighty chest. He wore no shirt, no helmet or hat, and his inky hair flowed in a cascade over one of his mighty shoulders. On his face was a grim smile that almost seemed more his natural facial configuration than any expression of feeling.

  “Girl,” he said in a booming, accented voice. “Where does the girl go?”

  “I...uh...me?”

  “Girl,” he nodded. “Where does the girl go? She seems lost.”

  “Oh, no, I’m just taking it all in. Never know when I’ll see such things again. I’ve been bought into Morzan’s harem. I understand the apartments for his girls are-”

  “Ha! Morzan! Morzan, King of the entire world which lies east of the great river.”

  “That’s quite a lot of land to claim. I thought he was just king of something called Zor?”

  “Girl is young, and has an innocent face. Morzan will like this girl.”

  As he spoke in his curious accent, I couldn’t help but stare at the man towering above me. I’m not tiny by any stretch of the imagination, but he stood at least a head taller. His eyes were so dark that they seemed to drink in all of the sunlight and twinkle. He put his hands on his hips and showed me his sculpted, broad, powerful chest. If he weren’t so dark, he could be a statue. Maybe they’ve started painting statues bronze where he’s from? I giggled at myself, and the grim, thin-lipped scowl on the man’s face lightened.

  “How does the girl have such cheer in a place like this one? Does she not know to where she goes?”

  “I know. Really, I do.” Truly speaking, I did not. I only had a vague notion that I was going off to be in the service of a king of whom I’d never heard before a few hours past. “But there’s just so much going on. I think I’m just stunned at all the activity. I’m from a little village outside the city, so I’ve never seen people like you – I mean people like this.”

  The man standing in front of me shook with laughter, but made no sound. He reached out a hand and took a curl of my hair between his fingers. Why did he touch me? Does he like the way I look? That’s ridiculous, I’m wearing a big, saggy tunic that a slaver gave me. If I was wearing my nicer things, maybe, but no. That’s ridiculous. And he’s so big and strong, gorgeous and exotic. I’m just a simple farm girl. He could have his pick of any woman here, or most anywhere probably.

  “Gold,” he said. “You are curious. Want to know things, yes?”

  “I suppose. I’ve always wanted to see the world outside my little burg, but never had the chance. Thought I never would.

  “A girl picked a strange way to do it.”

  I shrugged.

  He cocked his head a little to one side and stared at me for a moment longer without speaking. Dropping the curl of hair between his fingers, he touched my face with the back of his hand. Surprised, I pulled away from him, which in turn made him jump a little.

  “Why did the girl jump away? Are my hands too rough?”

  “No,” I said. “No, it’s just that...well...it was a surprise is all. I didn’t expect it.”

  “There is something about your eyes that reminds me of home,” he said. He cocked his head in the other direction. His voice turned much softer, but stayed nice and deep. As he watched me, he curled the pointy beard on his chin around his little finger and flicked the tip. Down either side of his jaw thick, black whiskers ran and were all neatly braided, each one with what looked like a coin around the end.

  “You like Shingo’s beard?” He ran his hand along the coins, letting them jingle against one another. “This is how a Zoran shows his might. When a fight is won, you braid in a coin. When a fight is lost, the beard is shaved and the warrior shamed. He can grow another, but that takes some time.”

  “May I?” I said, reaching out to touch him.

  He took a small step forward.

  Taking one of the three-inch long braids between my fingers, I rolled it around, and then tried another. Each tip was covered in something like bee’s wax. A vague smell of spices and incense drifted off his face and touched my nose when I got near enough to smell him. I let out a surprised puff of air.

  “The girl doesn’t like Shingo’s beard?”

  “I do, it’s very impressive. I just didn’t expect you to smell so...nice.”

  Even as I spoke, I felt a warm flush creep up my neck and immediately felt foolish.

  “Sorry, sorry, I always stick my foot in my mouth when I talk.”

  He laughed very, very loud. “The girl’s feet are both on the ground. How can one be in your mouth?” Shingo slapped his leather-clad thigh over and over again, bellowing such that tears streamed down his face. “Can you do this?”

  “Do what?” A smile crept across my face. “Stick my foot in my mouth?”

  He nodded.

  “I – no, probab
ly not. Well maybe, but I’m only wearing this tied off tunic. It might be indecent.”

  “What does the girl mean indecent? Why would the girl be ashamed of having a good trick?”

  “Ah...well, I mean I’m not wearing any underclothes. It would be embarrassing for all these men to see me writhe around to stick my foot in my mouth.”

  “Ohhhh, Shingo always forgets. Every time I come here, forget Lotan modesty. Must be uhcum – uncom – ah...you must not like being paraded around without clothes on, for the parade of slaves and the inspection.”

  His black eyes sparkled again as the sun rose high enough to crest the city walls. The lines of Shingo’s cheeks stunned me for a moment. I paid no attention to the words he said or the blush creeping up my throat. Then it dawned on me that he said something about the parade.

  “It was bad, but I took myself out of it. I forced myself to look at faces in the crowd and not think about what was happening to me.”

  Shingo raised his hand and put it on the back of mine. That time I didn’t jump.

  “How does the girl do it? So much sadness and crying and yelling here; there is so much pain and terror. How do you not weep for what you have lost?” His hand warmed mine. It sent little tingles down my wrist to my elbow, then to my shoulder and down my side. “And why is she not afraid of me? How does she keep smiling?”

  I blushed again when he spoke, but it was the sort that’s deep inside. My skin felt warm when he touched my hand, but his words warmed me from the inside out. It took me a second to collect myself enough to respond.

  “I don’t know that I’m doing anything special,” I finally managed. “I’m just getting by however I can. It’s not like I want to be here, but my father, he needed...”

  “A girl sold herself to a king out of love for her father?”

  “Yes, that’s it, more or less.”

  He stroked my hand with his fingertips, then gathered both of my hands in one of his, and pressed the whole bundle to my chest. Just like before, he radiated heat that sent curls of energy out from where our bodies met.

  “Shingo!” A cry came from off to the east, from one of the guards atop the wall. “What are you doing? If you’re going to rape her, rape her and get on with it. One of Morzan’s purchases tried to escape and hurt herself somehow. Come set this wound!”

  “Ah. Quite sorry little princess.”

  “Princess?”

  “Oh, not princess? Thought auctioneer said girl was a princess.”

  “No,” I giggled. “Most certainly not. Just the daughter of a lowly lord without enough money to buy crops for the next year.”

  He nodded a grave, serious nod.

  “You are a special girl. Shingo will see you again.”

  “When? I mean – do you work for Morzan?”

  “Ha! Does Shingo work for Morzan, she asks.”

  “Well?”

  “Shingo and Morzan are very close. He trusts me to do things he trusts no one else to do. I will see you again. Shingo will be in Zor after the snowy season breaks.”

  “But I thought Zor was a winter kingdom? I thought it snowed all the time there?”

  “No. Well, yes. For a part of the year, it snows a little less. Zoran call that time of year summer.”

  “Oh,” I said. “Is that when the sun shines?”

  “Yes, yes, every day the sun shines. For at least an hour.”

  As I turned to continue on my way to the small barracks, I heard Shingo bellow another of his laughs on his way to check a broken ankle.

  “That’s strange, I don’t remember...” I felt a scratch between my breasts and pulled the front of my loose-fitting tunic open, stuck my hand down it without a shred of shame and fished out a small slip of paper.”

  “Do not forget,” it read. “Shingo will come after the winter. Stay strong until then. Do not let the King break your smile.”

  “Now what in the world does that mean? Break my smile?”

  I stuffed the paper into my little bundle, rolling it up nice and tight. Just holding the slip of paper made me feel better, though I can’t say exactly why. Maybe it was the idea that even with everything going on, I had a friend.

  ***

  No sleep came that night. I turned the note over and over in my hands so many times that I was a little afraid of rubbing the ink off. A small hearth fire was all the light we had after the sun went down, but judging from the reactions shared by the rest of the newly-sold girls, they were far more accustomed to this treatment than was I.

  “Are you going to sleep? Put the grass on the fire when you do.” A red-haired girl said to me as she rolled over and tugged a sheet up to her chin.

  “I’ll be up awhile still.”

  She nodded. “Hum. New to all this, aren’t you? You don’t seem as bitter as everyone else.”

  “Oh no, I’ve been through it a half-dozen times.” My lie was obvious, but it made me feel some better.

  As I sat, staring at the fire and poking it with a stick, I started to wonder whether or not I had done something tremendously stupid. I mean, sure, my papa would be able to afford seed and help for the foreseeable future, but what was to happen to me? Still, no matter how I worried about what was going to happen to me, I couldn’t get my papa’s face out of my mind.

  Imagining the morning I left, a picture painted itself behind my eyelids. I saw my papa waking up and calling me to help with the chickens and then worrying when I didn’t come for breakfast. Mama would have made the normal biscuits and marmalade we had every morning, maybe some eggs from the hens, maybe a little bacon from the pig we killed last month. It’d be burned black of course, because that’s how I liked it.

  Mama was always pleasing me. I never felt able to keep up with the things they did for me. Neither of my parents told me I was anything but the most beautiful, wonderful girl in the world, but I never much felt like it. Papa woke up before the sun and went to sleep long after anyone else. Aside from the farming business, he had to administer the very few farmers who tended lands on his estate. Not many of them, but they always seemed to have a problem – wanting to fish slightly down river and a neighbor complaining, Billy goats from the next house over eating their thatch – and it was up to him to keep the peace.

  And then there was mama and her cooking, and her cleaning, and constantly taking care of me when I got sick. I could taste the bread she baked, unfailingly, no matter how terrible she felt or how bad the weather was, in the back of my throat, deep down, where you smell things and you taste them at the same time – even when they aren’t there.

  Sitting on my little palette in front of the fire, I tried my best to push those things out of my mind. I think that I made the decision I did to repay them for all of that, and so much more. At least that’s what I told myself. If I was never going to pay them back any other way, maybe this would save the farm. Then again maybe not, I just didn’t know.

  I felt myself sinking into one of those dark places that is really, really hard to get out of. The ones where you think of one thing, then another and then another, and before you know it, you’ve gotten into the worst place you’ve ever been and then you go one worse. I thought what if my papa got sick and couldn’t do the harvest, what if mama’s throat started to act up and there was no one to cook or clean the clothes. What if the crops all died? What if I died and never got back? What if, what if, what if! Calm down, Jo! You’re getting yourself worked up over something you can’t help. Just take it how it comes.

  A loud sigh escaped my mouth, on the end of which rode a shudder, and a sniffle.

  I told him it would be alright. The last thing I said to my father, the man I loved best in the entire world, was that everything would be fine. And then there I was, rocking myself on a palette in the middle of a slave camp. The next morning I knew I was leaving the whole world that I knew behind. Part of me was a little excited to see new things, hear new accents and meet new people, but even my weirdly optimistic spirit knew it wasn’t going to be a
ll roses and fun.

  For a long time, the fire danced in front of my eyes. Little orange flecks disappeared into the chimney, and a lip of smoke trickled out of the flue and back into the bunkhouse. A window was open and a breeze blew gently through that sucked away whatever smoke was left.

  Sitting and rocking back and forth on my heels wasn’t making me feel any better. It was just giving me a chance to think up all the most horrible stuff possible. Then I remembered that tiny slip of paper that Shingo secreted down the front of my tunic. I hadn’t put it down since he gave it to me, just idly rolled it back and forth. My eyes drifted down to the burned wood as it fell to ash.

  After another sniff and a wipe of my eyes to ward off tears that I’m sure were caused by the acrid smoke, or at least that’s what I told myself, I stuck my finger in the fluffy ashes and rubbed them together.

  I got an idea.

  A little bit of water and a squeeze of lemon juice later, I had a decent supply of rather good, if slightly runny, ink. I managed to pry a length of twig off a piece of firewood. Not the finest of writing utensils, but it had to do. Paper was impossible, but I’d never miss a bit of hem, so I ripped a square off one of my underskirts. I thought to write a letter to my papa and wish him well but I knew it would never get to him, so I scratched out the ‘papa’ part. When I started again, my makeshift pen seemed to move on its own.

  “Dear Shingo,

  I don’t know why I’m writing to you, or even how you’ll get this. I do hope you’re around the camp tomorrow morning so I can pass it before the wagon leaves. Otherwise, I’ll leave it in my bunk and maybe you’ll find it. I suppose I won’t know if you did or not. Sometimes things just have to be taken on faith.

  So that’s what I’m doing. I’m taking a leap. I don’t know why and I don’t know how far it’ll go, but I’m opening up because there’s nothing else to do. Not right now, anyway. I don’t even know if you can read and I’m writing you a letter. How’s that for faith?