Love, Laughter, and Happily Ever Afters Collection (Eight Fun, Romantic Novels by Eight Bestselling Authors)
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My mom looks around the room, and I can see her thin body strain with tension.
âYou should pack all this away,â I tell her. âItâs not healthy, keeping it here.â
âI know. I keep calling them to come, but thenâ¦â Mom swallows. âI guess Iâm just not ready to let go.â
That makes two of us.
Thereâs silence for a minute, the two of us alone with our ghosts. I look at her, and a terrible thought creeps into my mind, the one that haunts me only at my darkest ebb.
Does she wish it was me?
I get up. âIâm leaving in the morning,â I tell her abruptly.
âBut what about the party next week?â she asks. âItâs our anniversary.â
Shit, I totally forgot. âThe party will go great without me. Iâm sorry, I need to get home.â
âThis is your home.â Mom looks wounded.
âNot anymore.â
She moves to block my path. âPlease, think of your father. Heâs been so proud, showing you around, introducing you to everyone.â
Guilt twists in me, hard. âMomââ
She grips my hands. âItâs all he ever wanted, to build something and pass it on to you both. And nowâ¦â
âIâm not him, Mom.â I plead. âIâll never be him. Just look around.â
âWe know.â Her voice breaks. âBut youâre all we have left now. We need you more than ever.â
She collapses into sobs against me, and I stand, holding her up, feeling the loss sweep through her body. Sheâs trying to manipulate me with grief, I knowâmore of the same family loyalty stuff theyâve been holding over me for years, driving me through college and internships and every other milestone on the map laid down from birth. I want to fight it, Goddammit, I want so bad to be done, but all the fight has drained out of me now. The sad truth of the matter is, sheâs right.
Iâm all they have. And whether itâs my fault or not, itâs because of me.
I thought I could escape all this, and build a life of my own. Beachwood, the horses, Brit. But standing here in the wreckage of the past, surrounded by broken dreamsââdreams I smashed with my own damn carelessnessââI wonder if Iâm ever getting out. Hell, maybe itâs what I deserve. The punishment for my crimes, to live here in his shadow forever, and never be free.
âFine,â I whisper, missing Brit more than I can stand. âIâll stay.â
CHAPTER NINETEEN
BRIT
âWILL YOU PUT THAT thing down for like, five minutes?â Garrett complains, calling over from behind the bar.
I lower my phone, looking pointedly around the empty room. âWhat, so I can serve all our imaginary customers?â I ask. Iâm perched on the empty serverâs station, drumming my heels against the cabinets. âI hate to break it to you, but summer seasonâs over. Lunch is going to be dead until next May.â
âWhich means I can get by without another waitress,â Garrett points out.
I roll my eyes. âIf you fire me, youâll be stuck hanging out here all alone. Youâll die of boredom.â
Garrett shakes his head with amused exasperation. âAt least try and look like youâre working, instead of just killing time until you hear from loverboy.â He pauses wiping down the surface and gives me a sympathetic look. âStill no word?â
I shrug, selfconscious. âHe called a couple of days ago. Said everything was fine, that heâd try and talk to me todayâ¦â I trail off. âIâm sure heâs just busy with family stuff.â
âSure,â Garrett agrees, too quickly.
I look up. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âNothing,â he replies. âYouâre right, I bet heâs got a ton of shit to catch up on. Itâs justâ¦â he makes a face. âI hate seeing you like this. Itâs been a week now. How long does it take to send a damn text?â
I grit my teeth, trying not to flinch at the sharp blade of insecurity that slices through me at Garrettâs words.
Heâs right.
Heâs right, and I wish to God he wasnât. Itâs been forever since I left Hunter in that hospital, and even though I told myself everything was going to be fine, with every day that passes, my reassurances sound more like naïve hope than the truth. He said he would call, but every time Hunter picks up the phone, heâs distracted and distant, and we barely have a chance to talk before he gets cut short by some plans heâs got with his folks. He says itâs important for him to try and build bridges with them, and I know itâs true, but every night I lie awake longer, waiting for his response to my goodnight text to come.
Last night, it didnât come at all.
âThat thing works both ways, you know,â Garrett notes. He pulls out a can of Diet Coke from the fridge and slides it down the bar to me.
I shrug. âI know, but whenever I do call itâs a bad time. I feel like Iâm intruding.â
If thereâs anything worse than the nervous anxiety of waiting for his calls, itâs dialing his number, and feeling the crash of disappointment when he makes his excuse to hang up. It sends me straight down a spiral of self-doubt, wondering if all the things he told me were just pretty lines to get me falling at his feet; if he only ever liked the thrill of the chase, and now that Iâve given it all up to himâ¦
I stop that thought dead in its tracks. I believe in him, I have to.
âAny plans later?â Garrett asks, blatantly trying to change the subject.
He means besides waiting on Hunter to call? âNope, nothing much.â I reply. âIâm nearly done with my mock-up pattern on the dress though.â
âThatâs awesome!â Garrett congratulates me, and I let myself feel a small glow of pride. With all my nervous energy to burn, Iâve made tons of progress.
âI donât know,â I hedge, âSomethingâs still not right with the drape. I want to get it perfect before I risk cutting the pattern on the fabric for real.â
âWanna take a break, watch a movie or something tonight?â Garrett asks. âI figure on shutting this place down early. Maybe grab some takeout.â
I give him a smile. Itâs clear he wants to distract me from my silent phone. âDonât you have a girl coming by?â
He shrugs. âNo girl right now.â
âWhat?â I exclaim, teasing. âThereâs always a girl!â
Garrett looks bashful. âI donât know, I guess I could use a break. So many women, running me ragged,â he jokes. âA man needs some time to recover!â
âYeah, yeah,â I laugh. âMore likely, they got together and decided to post a warning: Beware, manwhore!â
My phone suddenly lights up, sending my heart skipping. âItâs him!â I slide down from the counter and answer. âHey, whatâs happening?â
âHey,â As usual, Hunterâs voice sounds distant, in a way that has nothing to do with the quality of the cell line. âSorry I didnât call last night. My parents had tickets to the opera, and I couldnât get away.â
âThatâs OK,â I swallow back my disappointment. âHowâs your dad doing?â
âHeâs great,â Hunter says. âHe dragged me out for a morning at the country club playing golf. Itâs like nothing ever happened.â
âIâm glad,â I say, sincere. âSo when are you coming home?â
Thereâs a long pause.
âThey want me to stay a while longer,â Hunter says at last. âThereâs a bunch of stuff to deal with at the company. Mom was right, heâs doing too much on his own. The least I can do is help
out, after everything thatâs happened,â he adds, and it sounds as if heâs parroting his motherâs words straight back to me. âItâs family.â
âBut what about the ranch?â I ask, feeling a cold chill sweep through my body. âDonât they need you there too?â
âI can have my guys take care of things.â Hunter says.
What about me? I want to cry. I need him, too.
I swallow back my protest, Iâm just being selfish. âHow long do you think itâll take, to get things figured out there?â I try my best to sound supportive. âAnother couple of days?â
He doesnât answer.
My heart catches. âNext week?â I try.
Hunter exhales a long breath, sounding stressed. âI donât know, Brit. Itâll take as long as it takes.â
I clench my fists into my palms. âI miss you, is all,â I tell him softly.
âI miss you too.â Hunterâs voice softens for the first time. âIâm sorry about all this bullshit, Brit, I really am. My family is a fucking mess.â
âItâs OK.â I pull myself together. âYou do whatever you need. Iâll be here.â
âThank you.â A voice comes, muffled in the background. âLook, Iâve got to go, I have a lunch with some of the partners. Iâll try and call you later.â
âOK.â I feel a stab of disappointment. âLove you.â
âYou too,â he tells me, and then the line goes dead.
I slowly lower the phone.
Garrett looks over. âIâm sorry,â he grimaces, my disappointment clearly written all over my face.
I shrug, helpless. âI just wish there was something I could do. I mean, heâs just a couple of hours away, but it feels like heâs been sucked into a whole other world.â
His world, full of wealth and privilege, where girls like you donât belong.
âSo, if he canât get away, why donât you go to him?â Garrett suggests. âTake my truck.â
I pause, uncertain. âI donât know, I donât want to intrudeâ¦â
âIt was just an idea.â Garrett shrugs. âEven if heâs busy, youâll get to see him face-to-face. Thatâs got to be better than this, right?â
I stare at him, torn. It goes against all my instincts to go chasing after some guyâespecially when heâs told me heâs got it covered. But this isnât just some guyâitâs Hunter. Even if he needed me, I realize, he would never think to ask.
And to see him in person, look him in those beautiful blue eyes⦠I can make the distance between us disappear, I just know I can. Itâs got to be worth a shot.
âYouâre right,â I decide, my heart pounding. âIâll go. Iâll take some things from his place, we left in such a rush, heâll be needing clothes and stuff for sure.â
Garrett tosses me the keys. âDrive safe.â
âNow?â I pause. âBut, itâs only halfway through my shift.â
âLike you said, Iâm not exactly rushed off my feet.â Garrett gives me a warm smile. âGo get him. And good luck!â
I HEAD OUT OF town to the ranch. One of Hunterâs guys lets me into the main house, and I fill a duffel bag with toiletries from the bathroom and some clothing from his closet. I pause in his bedroom, overcome with a wave of sweet, sexy memories. The bed is still rumpled, sheets tangled from our last night there, so I strip it down and put them in the laundry, making the bed with crisp new linens that smell like fabric softener and him.
Hunter.
I breathe it in, finally feeling a sense of peace flood through me, calming all my insecurities and fears. Just being back in this place sets me right again, takes me back to the equilibrium I havenât felt since that night. That night, that gorgeous, earth-shaking, soul-mending night together, when I felt him moving inside of me, and looked up into his eyes, and saw stars.
He was right. I have to grin at how smug he would be to hear it, as I grab the bag and head back to truck. But Hunter was right, making me wait for him. All these years of hook-ups and cheap flings, Iâd become so desensitized to sex, I didnât even know what it could be like when it mattered: sharing more than just your body with someone, when every movement is a revelation; every whisper, a song.
Thereâs no going back now, I smile to myself, turning onto the highway. Even if I wasnât deeply, hopelessly, irreparably in love with the man, I could never give up the way his body makes me feel. And I know that once Iâm with him again, holding him close, everything will be OK between us again.
It has to be.
I DRIVE FOR hours, following directions out to the address Hunter left with his guy at the ranch. The route takes me through the city and out to one of the richest neighborhoods on the outskirts of town. Here, sycamore trees swathe the street with a green canopy and the road winds past huge estates, the kind where you canât even see the house, just tall, wrought-iron gates and perfectly manicured hedgerows guarding against unwanted guests.
I feel a flicker of nerves as I reach the Covington turn-off, and find a set of gates at least twice as high as the rest, flanked by stone columns with matching gargoyles.
Youâre here for Hunter, I remind myself. Just ignore all the rest.
I approach the gates, rolling my window down to call up through the security system. A moment later, a reply buzzes.
âYes?â
âIâm, umm, here to see Hunter? Iâm a friend. From home. I mean, not home home, this is his home,â I hear myself babbling, but I canât stop. âAnyway, my name isââ
Thereâs a buzz, and the gates swing open.
I catch my breath. Iâm already sweating, and I havenât even stepped foot inside! I wipe my palms on my skirt, and put the truck back in gear, slowly driving through the gates and up the winding road leading back from the street.
At least this time, Iâm dressed for the part. I stopped to change after leaving the bar, and now Iâm wearing my most conservative outfit: a pale green 1950s sundress I cut from a vintage Vogue pattern. I usually wear it with a hot-pink bra peeping out, and chunky boots, but today I have on gold strappy sandals, my hair smoothed back in a neat braid. I look like a stranger, but Iâll do whatever it takes not to feel like a common trampâor whatever it is his ice-queen mother thinks when she looks at me.
I drive around a wide bend, emerging from the trees, and see the house rising up in front of me for the first time.
Holy shit!
I gape up at it, dumbstruck. I always knew the Covingtons were wealthy, but this is something else: a huge, Antebellum-style mansion with columns and balconies, and white trim running around the whole place, like icing on a cake. Perfect beds of roses line the driveway, manicured lawns rolling gently away from the house to⦠I blink, squinting in the distance. Is that a lake?
By the time I pull up outside, my nerves have blossomed into a full-on panic. This is a long way from Beachwood, and I am so far out of my league. I put the truck in park beside a line of vans. There are people milling around in uniform, carrying trays and flowers like theyâre setting up for something. Nobody gives me a second look as I get out of the cab and slowly climb the front steps.
âExcuse me,â I ask a passing man, with his arms piled high with paper lanterns. âDo you knowââ
âOut back,â he waves me through. âAnd watch out, someone ordered lilac instead of mauve so Her Highness is on the warpath.â
I frown. âIâm notââ I start, but heâs already hurried away.
OK then.
I walk slowly through the house, my eyes wide at the luxury. Everything is silk-covered and gilt-edged, huge rooms opening up into each other with polished floors a
nd thick Persian rugs, like something from a glossy magazine. I canât believe that Hunter grew up in this place. Now that Iâve seen him in his jeans and boots, I canât think of him any other way, but the family photos lined up in the halls show him in tennis whites and preppy blazers, reluctantly posing with his parents.
With Jace.
I stop to look at a picture of them together. It must have been taken right before the accident, because they both look fully grown, towering over Camilleâs bird-like frame. Jaceâs hair is darker than Hunterâs, his smile wider and less strained. But they both look like a matching pair, two bookends holding the family up: solid and full of life.
I swallow back a pang of heartache, and keep moving, stepping out of a long, gallery-style room to the wide verandah at the back of the house.
Itâs chaos.
The immaculate gardens are a hive of activity. Staff in black uniforms scurry around, laying electrical wiring from the house all the way to the huge white canopy tents being constructed on the lawn. People are setting up a wooden dance floor by a half-built stage, and marking out the location of tables with ribbon and seating charts. Gardeners are on ladders up the old sycamore tress, stringing lanterns and tiny bulbs, and a dozen workers dismantle an elegant fountain in the middle of the lawn and move it to the edge of the gardens.
I watch for a moment, amazed. Then my eyes land on a figure in the center of the storm. Hunter. Heâs wearing a crisp white shirt and khakis, his hair cut shorter than when I saw him last. Heâs holding a clipboard, directing staff and consulting with a blonde woman at his side. She shifts, shielding her eyes from the sunshine, and I see that itâs Alicia, the woman from my interview, the one Hunter introduced as being an old college friend.
As I watch, she leans over to check his papers. He says something, and she throws her head back to laugh, her glossy blonde hair falling in waves around her face. She rests her hand on his arm, gazing up at him adoringly.
Her feelings couldnât be clearer if they were flashed up on a billboard in Times Square.
This is why he didnât want you here, a treacherous voice whispers in my mind. Heâs got better things on his mind.