Love, Laughter, and Happily Ever Afters Collection (Eight Fun, Romantic Novels by Eight Bestselling Authors)
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Thereâs a chill in the air when we get outside, and I shiver, noticeable goosebumps rising from my skin. Brad picks up on that right away and offers me his jacket, which is warm and smells of him. I let out an audible sigh at how wonderful it feels to be wrapped in his jacket.
The subway and walk to my apartment pass in a comfortable silence. Iâve had a lot to drink, and at one point, I almost trip over a crack in the pavement. Brad grabs me and stops me from falling. Hmmm. His arms feel good. Strong, supple, and muscular. I canât help wondering what else is supple on his body. The thought makes me snort.
âWhatâs so funny?â he asks.
âNothing.â I say, but then I roar with laughter. Iâve had way too much to drink.
Brads return laughter echoes in my intoxicated ears. âI need to get you home. The alcohol is making you nutty.â
By the time we make it home, my bed is calling me. Brad walks me all the way to the door of my apartment. Iâm propped up against it because itâs the only thing thatâs holding me up at this point. Brad leans in so close that I can feel his breath feather my cheek. God, he smells good. He slides his hand behind my neck and pulls me close. Licking my lips and closing my eyes, I wait. And wait. I realize at this moment that I really want him to kiss me. In fact, Iâm silently willing him to kiss me. I must be really bad at this, though, because he never does. Instead, he bypasses my lips and leans in to place a delicate kiss to my forehead before pulling away. Stumbling into my apartment, I sink to the floor, let out a huge breath I didnât realize Iâd been holding, and sigh.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
THE NEXT MORNING Iâm a bit disoriented, and my head is pounding so loudly I think I hear voices in there. I put my pillow over my head and try to recall last nightâs events. Oh, thatâs right. I remember. Of course I remember. Brad. It makes me chuckle. In a weird way, Iâm glad Dane didnât show up. I had an amazing time with Brad. My whole face starts to tingle. I wanted to kiss him, badly. I still do.
Itâs sadly Wednesday, and a workday, so my daydreaming has to end for the moment. I pick out a black pencil skirt and white blouse and pull my black heels from the closet. As Iâm dressing, I notice Bradâs jacket hanging on the chair. I forgot to give it back to him. Letting out a huge sigh, I walk over and hug it to my chest. It smells like coffeeâ¦like Brad.
Iâm looking forward to seeing him this morning, and of course I need to return his jacket. I smile to myself. Good excuse, Gabby; like you werenât going to stop there anyway. I walk rather slowly on my way to the shop, holding onto his jacket a little too tightly, my mind on last night and our almost kiss. Thereâs a couple on the street corner in a heated embrace, and for a second, I smile. That is, until I bump headfirst into a woman on her cell phone and her drink ends up all over her white dress. Iâm mortified. I look up at her with remorse. âSorry about that.â
âDammit! Why donât you watch where youâre going?â
I want to tell her Iâm not sure that would have made a difference, people that spend their time in faraway lands, like me, are destined to crash into others.
The door jingles and Brad flashes me his full-on, no holds barred smile. I donât know why, but itâs just what I need, and I smile right back. I make my way through the line of starry-eyed girls who Brad seems oblivious to and finally reach the counter.
âHey, you,â he says.
I bat my lashes like a starry-eyed girl. âHey.â
âYouâre up early this morning,â he teases.
âYeah, I needed some caffeine.â
His lips twitch. âRough night?â
âYes, actually. Some drunk guy tried to take advantage of me.â I wink conspiratorially. âIt was dreadful.â
âReally?â He nods as if heâs listening intently.
Flipping my hair over my shoulder dramatically, I make my way over to a table. âYes, it was absolutely terrifying.â
Brad makes his way over with my drink and that smile of his. âWhat a coincidence! The same thing happened to me, except with a cute drunk girl.â
I canât help but laugh.
He takes a seat next to me and clinks our coffee cups together. âSo, howâs that head of yours today?â
Iâm liking the table service. âNot bad, actually. Luckily I drank a lot of water last night.â
Brad looks over at me with those almond shaped eyes and I melt just a little. âI had a really nice time last night, Gabby.â
âYeah, I did, too.â Iâm suddenly feeling very selfconscious when Iâve never felt anything but comfortable with Brad.
âYouâre pretty funny when youâve been drinking. I enjoyed the giggling, it was fairly amusing.â
âWell, Iâm glad I could entertain you.â
âTrust me, you were very entertaining,â he says with a wink.
We chat for a few more minutes and Iâm almost ready to leave when I remember that I need to give him back his jacket. When I hand it to him, his fingers skim my knuckles and I feel those goosebumps puffing up my skin again. I quickly shake it off. âThanks for letting me borrow your jacket.â
âAnytime,â he says, smiling and going back to the counter. âSee you soon, Gabby.â
I head towards the exit and try to look back without being too obvious; heâs staring at me. Turning around quickly, I walk out the door, a smile completely overtaking my face.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
THE MORE I THINK about Dane standing me up at the Sky Bar, the happier I am that he did. Itâs been a week since Iâve heard from him. Heâs been traveling for business. He finally calls while Iâm at work, startling me out of my post-it induced coma.
âHey, gorgeous! Happy Tuesday! Iâm back from my trip. Iâve been missing you like crazy, I need to see you.â
For some reason, Iâm not all that excited. Maybe because he didnât even ask how Iâm doing.
âCan I see you tonight?â
âUhâ¦sure.â
âGreat! How about dinner in my hotel room at eight oâclock?â
âYeah, okay. Iâll see you then,â I say with a complete lack of enthusiasm.
âI look forward to seeing you tonight.â I can practically hear him leering at me.
âSee you then.â
*
I MAKE MY WAY down the hallway to Daneâs suite. No more horror flick images; no more knights and dragons. Thatâs good, I guess. I knock on his door and he immediately pulls me into the room, sealing his lips over mine with a desperate need. Iâm blindsided by his smoldering heat. I feel his tongue wrap around mine, his breath invading my mouth like a foreign predator. Slowly, he starts to unzip my dress, while I eagerly pull his shirt over his head and reach for the zipper of his trousers, setting free his gigantic erection. Our naked bodies are quickly entangled in one another, turned on and dripping with sweat, our breath coming in heavy bursts.
âI want my cock inside you again. Itâs all Iâve been thinking about.â
Iâm momentarily distracted by that comment, but it soon disintegrates as he moves me onto the soft satin sheets of the bed and thrusts his hard length inside me. The feeling is so intense I scream as my body succumbs almost instantly. My insides tighten at his deliberate movements; the rocking sensation of his hips, the sweat dribbling rapidly down my heated skin makes the craving for release overwhelming. After one final, pounding thrust, I let go, and Dane follows my lead as his body quivers and his voice calls out âIâm gonna come so hard, Gabby!â
As our breathing slows, I hear him whisper, âthat was incredible.â
I donât have a response. I feel numb or sick, I canât figure out which one. Staring up at the
ceiling, I suddenly realize what it is. I feel empty. Good. No, not good. Somethingâs different. What is it? It can only be one thing. Shit. After a few minutes I slowly sit up on the bed. âI have to go.â
âWhat do you mean, you have to go? Where are you going? We havenât even eaten yet.â
While Dane continues to talk, Iâm already out of bed, pulling my panties and bra on, then sliding my dress back up. I grab my shoes and head for the door. I can tell heâs flustered but I donât care. I have to get out of here.
âPlease, Angel, I want you to stay.â
My head whips around. âDonât you ever call me that again,â I snap, stomping out the door as quickly as my feet will carry me. Hearing him say that word, one that holds such special meaning for me, makes me sick to my stomach. I start breathing heavily and grab onto the wall as I wait for the elevator. When the doors finally open, I stagger inside and try to catch my breath. I canât help but think that was the biggest blow off in the history of my life; and it wasnât happening to me. I was making it happen.
Iâm tired, starving, and feeling the need to lose myself for a little while. Junk food and a movie, thatâs it. Making my way over to the corner store, I feel the wind on my face and let it carry me away. Away from all the waves of disappointment drowning me. Disappointment in a family I wish could have been different. Disappointment in a guy who gave me exactly what I wanted. But most of all, disappointment in myself for finally wanting to feel something.
*
I AWAKEN IN the middle of the night with endless tears streaming down my cheeks and a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I throw back my comforter and sneak into Franâs room, crawling into bed beside her. She doesnât wake, but her nearness is enough to calm my tears. Minutes later, she starts to stir and extends her arm to stretch out. She cracks open her eyes when her hand touches my shoulder.
âHey,â I whisper.
âYou okay?â The sound of her voice releases more tears and they tumble down my cheeks without ever looking back. I wish I could do the same. Fran pulls me close. âShhh…itâs okay, sweetieâ¦itâs okay.â
But thatâs the problem. It isnât okay, and I donât know when it will ever be okay again.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
ITâS THURSDAY, day four of this horrific week, and Iâm having a hard time concentrating. Itâs a real problem, since Robbyâs left me three times as many sticky notes as Iâm accustomed to. My mind keeps drifting to Clark.
By the time the dayâs over, Iâm a complete mess. I canât remember the last time I had such a bad day. Well, I can, and thatâs the problem. Iâm walking around aimlessly with no destination in sight, and it suddenly feels like Iâm literally on the road to nowhere. Images of Clarkâs face are flooding my brain and I canât make them stop. My hands are shaking and tears are streaming down my face like raindrops falling from an angry sky. The faster I walk, the quicker they fall. All the tears Iâve cried for Clark over the years are pounding down on me, overwhelming me. When I finally look up, Iâm standing in front of The Brew House. Itâs almost as if my feet constantly know me better than I know myself.
I take a deep breath, wipe my blotchy face, and walk inside. The door jingles and I see a familiar face. A welcome face. Brad looks up from behind the counter with a smile that quickly subsides once he sees me. He makes his way over and leads me to a booth. As I sit there with tears stinging the back of my eyes, I feel a hand on mine. A warm hand. A feeling hand. And I feel things. Things Iâm not supposed to feel. Things I canât allow myself to feel. Itâs like his fingers are strumming my heartstrings; pulling, plucking, twisting, and Iâm helpless. Completely and utterly helpless. I know I need to pull away, but I canât.
âGabby,â he says. There are no questions in his voice, only concern.
After several minutes of silence and using up an entire box of Kleenex, I mutter, âIâm sorry.â
He keeps his hand on mine and gives it a reassuring squeeze, then tugs me up by the hand. âCome on.â
âWhat, where are we going?â
âJust come on.â
âI canât go anywhere looking like this!â
Brad doesnât let go of my hand. âYou look great, now letâs go.â
We make our way onto the street and I still have no idea where weâre going; not that it matters. I look down and notice that Bradâs fingers are still intertwined with mine. The moment I notice, he does, too, and quickly pulls his hand back to his side. I didnât mind it, actually. It felt right in some odd way, even though I know, God help me, it shouldnât. Brad doesnât say much to me, so we continue to walk in silence. Itâs for the best, though; my mind is flooded with too many thoughts I wish I could chase away.
He finally stops and I see that weâve reached our destination. Looking up, I see a movie marquee with âLooney Tunesâ in giant block letters. My eyes dart over to Brad. âLooney Tunes, seriously?â
He leans back on his heels, and with childlike eyes, shoots back, âHey, never underestimate the power of Bugs Bunny and Daffy Duck!â
The marathon is hysterical. I donât remember the last time I laughed so hard. A couple times during the movie, Brad caught me brooding and threw some popcorn at me to shake me out of my mood. It worked, for a while anyway.
Walking back to my apartment, weâre both quiet. Brad hasnât pressed me once tonight to talk about whatâs bothering me, and I really appreciate it. I donât know what to say. I feel like a hand is pulling me down a dark hole, and I canât seem to grab the rope to pull myself out.
Brad stops and looks over at me, forcing my eyes to meet his. âI hope you know by now that you can trust me, Gabby. Iâm here if you want to talk about it.â He hesitates, but then continues. âI can see how pained you are. Thereâs something eating away at you, and I want to help, if youâll let me.â Thereâs a softness in Bradâs eyes when he looks at me. Itâs almost as if heâs trying to melt away my sadness. His fingers touch the side of my cheek, and for a second, the pain melts away. The disappointment melts away. The world melts away.
Turning to walk inside, I look back and try my best to muster up a smile. âHey, Brad?â
âYeah?â
âThanks for tonight.â
âSure.â He walks off into the night.
And just like that, my misery returns.
Returning home to an empty apartment, I shed my skirt, blouse, and rip off my bra and panties as quickly as possible. I make my way to the bathroom and turn the water on until itâs just the right temperature. I slide the curtain to the side and hop into the scalding hot shower, attempting to scrub off all the pain, all the disappointment, and all the guilt. But no matter how raw my skin gets, it just wonât come off.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
MY DAYS ARE blending together again. I canât even remember what day it is, or whether I have to work today. Iâm not sleeping and Iâm freaking exhausted. Dragging myself out of bed this morning, I rub my crusty, sleep-filled eyes and knock on Franâs bedroom door. When I donât hear anything, I crack the door, but she isnât there. A note in the kitchen tells me to meet her for coffee.
I putz around the apartment for a while and consider just going back to bed, when Franâs words come back to haunt me. You have to move on, Gabby. Itâs time. Only, how do I do that? Heading back to my room, I walk over to the $90 consignment shop dresser and stand in front of the top left hand drawer, staring at it. Iâm not sure what possesses me, because I havenât opened it in a while, but my shaky hand grabs the handle and pulls it open. I gaze at the pile of old pictures and papers, and my fingers itch to flip through them, but something stops me, and I think better of it. Sla
mming the drawer shut, I run into the bathroom and prepare for the day.
The door does its usual jingle thing when I walk into The Brew House. My feet seem to be in slow motion, or maybe itâs my brain, Iâm not sure. I take in a couple discussing the benefit of children visiting art museums and notice that, for the first time, my heels arenât sticking to the floor. Maybe Bradâs washed it. I see Fran at the counter leaning over it, her cleavage poking through the top button of her green blouse. My feet make their way over to her of their own volition to interrupt whatever it is sheâs trying to do, and Bradâs lips curve into an easy smile.
âHey,â he says quietly.
âHey.â
He looks at me with concern. âYou doing better today?â
I twist some strands of my hair. âYeah, a little bit.â
Fran looks annoyed that sheâs completely out of the loop. I ignore her for a moment and eye the glass case, deciding I need a heavy dose of sugar. âBrad, can I have two double chocolate chip muffins please?â
He stares at me like he wants to say something, until his mouth finally opens. âTwo, huh? Serious chocolate craving?â
âYeah, you could say that. Can I also have extra whipped cream in my mocha?â
âSure, Gabby.â
After ordering our drinks, Fran grabs my elbow and practically drags me over to a booth. âWhat the hell was that all about?â
âYou know, Fran, youâd know about this stuff if you were at the apartment more and not shacking up with Kyle.â
She slaps me on the shoulder. âYou know you support my relationship with Kyle. Spill.â
âWellâ¦Brad took me to a Looney Tunes marathon yesterday night to cheer me up.â
âHe took you where?â
I canât help the small smile creeping up my face. âI just told you. He took me to see Bugs Bunny.â