Trailer Park Princess

by Steele, Delia

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  (Rome)

  It’s hard to tell her to stop, I can’t watch her cry. She’s pregnant, drunk, lonely, and feeling unwanted. As much as I want her, I have to do right by her. So I kiss her back not that it’s a hard job this girl is my life, the air I breathe. What is hard is sitting here with her knowing I can do anything and she will take it. The pressure pushing against my jeans, that’s hard for sure. Now with her hands rubbing down my chest and pulling my hair, I swear I could bust my load without ever being inside her. The moans she lets out seize me. They control me. She is moving her hips but following my rules. She touches everything above my pants line and damn it she is grinding those hips, I should stop her but I am only a man, I can’t help but enjoy it. I know tomorrow will be bad for her but not as bad if I let her cry it out all night. I will let her exhaust herself and pass out, I will hold her tight so she knows she is loved and tomorrow we will fix it all. I just hope she didn’t hurt the baby. I should have taken her to the hospital, but I wasn’t thinking after seeing that nasty dude with his claws dug into her hips. I could have ripped his arms off and beat his limp body with them. He didn’t even know her name. The motions are getting to me and I let my head loll to the side, forgetting myself for a moment. I try to unsnap her bra but reality hits me so I just flat grip her back as hard as I can, and push her down a little harder, resulting in another moan. Maybe if I get off like this I won’t have blue balls tomorrow.

  “Princess I want you more than anything, never think you aren’t loved or cherished. As bad as I want this with you I know it would kill you tomorrow. I want you all, everything that’s you, I want to be mine, but your heart isn’t here, not yet.” It’s a strangled comment that’s hard to push out with all the dry grinding she is doing to me, but I want her know I am hers whenever she wants me. I’d give anything to be to her, what she is to me. She doesn’t see it. It’s always been Toby. It likely always will be. DAMN! She is getting at it and my pants have no more room to give. She’s panting my name and moving in a perfect pattern, why she can’t see she was made for me not him.

  (Rory)

  If I can go just a few more.. Pushing down and squeezing my hips. The feeling between my legs feels like nothing I’ve ever felt .I rock harder. Up. Down. Up. Down. “Ohh Rome!” I all but scream and with it the release is on me, I lay my head down on his shoulder and bite the side of his neck once hard. He grips me tight into one of his famous hugs. I love him to the extreme, just not like I should. But maybe I could if I tried?

  I wake the next morning with him still beside me. His pants are still on and my top is still off. Fuck my life! He must have passed out right after last night with me. As memories fill my mind I groan, I’m so groggy and when I stand I almost fall. Rome’s hand shoots out and he steady’s me, like he always does. I cross my arms over my chest and stare at him. I refuse to let this be weird. Even if my skirt is up around my waist and I am aware something hardened is rubbing my thigh. Ew! I need to change my panties. Stat! Rome pulls the cover back patting the bed “Lay back down Princess, just 20 more minutes please then I will walk you home.” My face turns the color of a tomato as I stare at Rome’s pants. My eyes all bugged out and mouth hung open “Oh my gosh Rome, I am so stupid.”I throw my hands over my face and he giggles. Yes, giggles at me! I mean really girly giggles at me. When I lower my hands I see him staring at his pants to. It’s obvious I enjoyed myself because my panties aren’t the only thing covered in my lady liquids. Open up floor now and swallow me please, I beg you. “Why is it your nose runs and your feet smell?” Why when you sit up and sit down it ends in the same result?” When I get nervous I start spouting off random questions or throwing out ridiculous facts that don’t even matter. Rome knows this so he just lets me ramble. “Ok Princess no more sleep I get it, give me a few to change and we will walk over.” he gets up kisses the top of my head and hands me one of his hoodies. I zip up and straighten my skirt, while he throws on some comfy overly large sweats and a t-shirt, and never once flinches when he drops his pants. Dear Night! He doesn’t wear underpants. Why must he be so beautiful and sweet? I should stop making an ass of myself and appreciate what I have in him. He is by far my best friend, he would do anything to keep me safe. He never pushes me and always supports me. He does it in a way that Toby never has. I shake the thoughts away and yawn. I can’t get hung up like that, I can’t take the chance of ever losing him. Then it hits me. Losing something, I could lose my baby after last night’s stunt. I didn’t know I was drinking but none the less I need to deal with it now. “Rome, Can you take me to the doctor’s office please? I need to get checked out after last night” he smiles “Yep let me make sure the boys are ok, I sent them over to the sitter last night when Mando called me, they should still be asleep” while he does that I called my doctor and braced myself for the ass chewing coming. Not only am I pregnant, I am still underage.

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  My heart breaks even more, if that’s even possible. Watching Amandolette put her bags into her mom’s car is killing me. “I can’t believe your leaving tomorrow. It’s just crazy.” I say to her for the fourth time in as many minutes. “Are you going to be ok that far away and alone?” she has no idea how worried about her I am. She’s lived such a sheltered life. “I will be fine Chula, besides I will be back in 4 months for winter break.” she smiles at me from behind her huge Gucci shades. “You’re the one who has to be watched. What were you thinking the other night? I mean come on crazy girl, you can’t go drinking and doing stupid stuff like that. Rome’s going to have to tighten your leash, so I can actually study while I’m gone.” Pushing past her to rearrange the way she has packed the trunk “Yea not necessary, that scared me to death. I don’t know why I ever trusted Ashley. I knew better. Without you here I won’t be hanging at any parties, so it’s not an issue.” Closing the trunk, I look at her and smile. “I won’t mess up again, I promise.”

  It’s going to be so lonely with her not around, she’s my only girlfriend. “Hey, did Rome tell you he got a promotion at work?” she turns to me and I see she is wiping tears from her face. “No, man I’m right here and already missing it all.” She wipes again. “No, he hasn’t really told anyone but me I guess, but yea he got manager over the entire department. It’s pretty awesome because he already did it all, now he will have the pay to go along with it. He really loves being a grease monkey. He is really good at it, but he is an even better musician, too bad that can’t pay the bills.” We hug each other tight “Yea but he is happy Rory, and honestly that’s all that matters. Hell it’s more than most of us ever get, ya know.” I look at her quizzically “You’re not happy?” I asked. “Yea I am I guess, I just can’t believe I am leaving you here and my Gran. I don’t want to be so far but it’s the best school for what I want to do. It’s just hard but we will get through this, then my baby will be dressed to impress.” I hug her close again and do what I do best “Hey did you know, samba means to rub navels together?” with that all the sadness starts to disappear. “I love you Rory, not that cheesy shitty love either. You know the kind dreams are made of. You’re my unicorn crazy girl. You’re untouchable and you’re the kind of girl meant to run free. You taught me to be me and be happy just like that. Thank You for being the best friend I have ever had or will ever have!”

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  I spend the next few weeks mourning Toby and Mando, but I have to step up and deal with it, because it’s getting closer to finding out the sex of the baby. I still haven’t told Toby and at some point I need to. It’s not like I haven’t tried, I called and his number had been changed. So many things to come over the next few weeks, it makes me tired just thinking about it all.

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  This chair is digging into my lower back, as I look around at all the people in the room. I can’t believe I am doing this. I mean it doesn’t really matter and it makes the most sense, but I always saw myself walking. I hear my name, stand up, and walk
towards the door. “You have 90 minutes for each section. Keep your eyes on your screen.” I shake my head letting her know I understand and take my seat at the boxed in computer. “We’ve upgraded a lot, so by the time you finish we will have most of your scores. If you have time to wait we will be able to give out the results today, about a 15 minutes wait I’d say.” I just stare at the screen and shake my head again. I breeze through the questions like it’s nothing and within 4 hours everything is done. They claimed this was a 7-8 hour test. Oh well, guess they can’t tell time. I hit the finished button and make my way back to the waiting are. I look around and I am the youngest one here, everyone else looks to be in the 30’s or 40’s even some in the maybe 60’s. I put my hands on my legs feeling like a loser and wait. Tick Tock. Tick Tock. “Aurora Wilde?” I stand and walk to the lady at the counter. She smiles at me and hands me a piece of paper. “Congrats sweet, you passed with a perfect score.” I smile for the first time, just like that I tested out of high school. Now I am free to work full time! I take time for a minute to think about the pro’s we listed. The main one is a better life for the baby and Thax. For that I am grateful. I pull out my cell and text Rome “I did it. I tested out with a perfect score!” I know he is working but he will get it when he takes break. I walk over to his car and climb in, so thankful he let me use it for this, walking here would have killed me. With Amandolette gone Rome was my only option these days. It’s a good thing he has his bike, it works for us when it has to.

  I am almost to the house when I pass by this little baby store, I haven’t bought much due to funds, but I want to celebrate so I stop and go in. I walk around and look at everything for a bit. I stop at these onsies that have funny sayings. As I dig through them I think about Toby, he should be helping, but the only way he will ever know is if I go to his parent’s house to get his new number. Some I don’t want to do. I grab one that says “Potty like a rockstar” and walk to the counter. Rome will crack up at that one. The lady at the counter looks at me and smiles “Someone’s going to be a big sister.” she says. I deadpan “Excuse me?” she instantly realizes her screw up “Oh, I didn’t mean it that way, I am so sorry. You just look so young.” I roll my eyes “Here take these, I really am sorry.” She throws a big red bow and a head band in the bag “if it’s a girl this will match the outfit” she smiles and grabs a black beanie “and if it’s a boy this will watch it.” She smiles again but it is one mixed with fear and sadness. I take the bag and grab the change “Thank You.” is all I can give her and walk out.

  I am almost home when I do a u-turn and head for cross town. I have to go talk to Mrs. West right now. If I wait I will chicken out. I know I should talk to Rome and see what he thinks, he is so rational but I can’t I have to do it now! I’m so messed up in the head, I don’t even know what I want anymore. Pulling up the long driveway looking at the towering house I shudder. My palms are sweating and my head is pounding, but I have to do it. I jam the car in park and step out. I make my way up to the door. Before I can knock the door flies open and I jump. “What do you want?” I look up into the wicked witches evil eyes, where I see nothing but sheer hate. “Tobias isn’t here anymore, thanks to you.” I blink and compose myself. Deep breath. “I am aware of that Mrs. West, but if you will give me just a few minutes of your time, I think we should talk.” She stares for what seems like forever. Finally closing the door, she walks over to the 2 rockers on the porch, and gestures for me to do the same. “You have 5 minutes Aurora, I shouldn’t even give you that.” I sit down and look at my feet trying to figure out how to start. “I just need to talk to him, I know he is at school and moving on with his life. However, I have some important news he should know about.” I look up at her. Big mistake, she has this nasty look on her face and it’s stone. She isn’t even blinking I swear I doubt she is even breathing at this point. “What News?” she says it and I swear I feel like she already knows. “What news!” she screams at me making me jump again. It pisses me off and I stare into her eyes with all the anger and hate I have saved up “I am pregnant, and I know for a fact it’s his. I slept with him once and that’s the only time I have ever had sex. I need to tell your perfect son that he knocked me up!” I stand up causing the rocker to slide back a bit. I don’t know why I have so much anger built up, it’s not really me but ever since I meet Toby it just happens and honestly I hate it. “I believe you.” I blink at her “WHAT?” she drops her head and I barely hear it. “I believe you Aurora. Tobias is going to be something one day and this will ruin it for him, he can’t come back here to take care of you and it, he can’t. I won’t let you do that to him. He has worked hard and you’re just some little trash from over the tracks. I am sorry but you know it’s true, you were never meant to be a part of his world.” I can’t even picture what my face looks like right now. Everything she is saying is just matter of fact, not her being nasty. It hurts all the same though. “What will it take to make you go away? Is it too late to get rid of it? I am willing to do that for you and pay all the cost including time missed from work. I know you support your brother and can’t miss, but as you do what’s right for him, I have to protect Tobias.” I shake my head and start to walk away. I get to the steps and turn back to her “I wouldn’t get rid of it, no matter what. I don’t want anything from you at all, except a number for Toby. I will support this child the same as I do Thaxton. But Toby will know you ungrateful, judgmental, wicked Bitch. You can tell him or I will figure out a way. I go next week to find out the sex but I will not be back here. No worries of that.” I walk to the car making sure I don’t cry, as I open the door I hear her “I never disliked you Aurora, I just wanted better for him, and what you’re doing is bad for him, I can’t let that happen.” I look up at the sky squinting. “What are you doing you horrible girl?” she screeches at me from the steps, and it makes me laugh “Just waiting on the house to drop on you Mrs. West, that’s all.” I smile and slam the car door, the need to cry is gone, and I feel better knowing now it’s not just on me. I tried.

  Rome comes bouncing into my trailer, covered in grease, and his 2 rug rats in tow. “Well well what do we have here? A princess with a G.E.D! What!” he hugs me tight. “Eww Rome your filthy get off.” I laugh, shove him back, and stir the mac and cheese. “You guys want some? I made 3 boxes, should be enough for all of us.” He smiles “Yup, can the boys sit with you while I go shower and I’ll come back? I shake my head up and down “Of course, they are always welcome here you know that, oh and your keys are by the door. Thanks so much.” He grabs the keys and head out.

  “Thax come on” I call him while shoveling the boys a bowl of cheesy heavenly noodles. He slides into a seat and the boys are set by the time Rome makes it back. I make us a plate and sit them down on the coffee table. “So I have some news for you Princess.” He says with a huge smile on his face. “Oh no, should I be worried? How much more good news can you have?” he takes a big bite “Yumm, you make the best mac n cheese ever.” ha “Don’t eat with your mouth full, your teaching the boys bad habits.” As I point over at the table all 3 of them are opening their mouths at each other. “See!”

  O.K. seriously, I bet I have a boy because I am over ran by them! “Ok first things first. You have a gig this Saturday night at Reds with me. Don’t say anything because Mrs. Riaz already knows! And you are off but making up the time with your new schedule, apparently, you’re going to be getting some more hours during the weekdays now.” He smiles matter of fact. “Oh and that’s news to, you’re getting more hours, soon as I called her about the gig she told me. That older waitress asked for 3 half shifts, so you will pick up her other halves making you almost fulltime.” he smiles even bigger. I know he would do anything to make my life easier. He is going to die when I tell him what I did today. “Rome before you tell me anything else, I need to tell you something.” I grab his hand and grimace, I know I am going to upset him, but reality is, it’s my choice to make “I went by” I stop and try again “ I… after I finish
ed the test” I shake my head trying to clear my mind and almost start crying . “It’s ok Rory, whatever it is, I’m here for you. Just tell me.” Closing my eyes and centering myself I start again “Today I went and told Mrs. West about the baby. She knows its Toby’s and didn’t seem surprised, even said she believed me. But..” I stop again “but she wanted to pay for me to ‘get rid of it’ so I called her a few names and left.” He pulls me into a hug “you should’ve waited on me, I would’ve went with you.” Pulling back and wiping my eyes. “It was ok, I’m a big girl.” He smirks “I know, trust me.” He pinches my side and I laugh thinking back to the party night, eh yea he knows exactly how grown I am. I am so grateful he isn’t one to harp on things or pick about certain stuff. “I miss Mando so bad. I need to text her and let her know I tested out.” He throws his cell at me “Here use mine, don’t waste your text, mine are unlimited.” He finished his supper and grabs the boy’s bowls to wash them up “Get done so I can show you my surprise.”