The True Diary of That Girl

by J. S. Cooper

  “Saskia!” Natasha ran towards me as soon as I entered the room.

  “How did you know I was here?” I looked at her in surprise as she gave me a hug.

  “Brad just told me.” She kissed my cheek. “I’m so glad that the two of you are finally getting along.”

  “It just took the worst night of my life,” I joked, and she paused.

  “Are you okay? Do you need to talk?”

  I looked around the room then and noticed how many people were there. “We can talk later.” I smiled at her gratefully. “This is your night.”

  “Okay.” She gave me another quick hug. “Come. I want you to meet my family.” She grabbed my arm, and we walked across the room. “Mom, Dad, this is my best friend, Saskia.”

  I stared at the couple in front of me and smiled. Natasha’s mom and dad smiled at me, welcoming me into their circle, and I was appreciative of their openness.

  “Nice to meet you.” I held my hand out and shook hands first with her mom and then her dad.

  “Don’t forget me.” Another man ran up to the group and gave me a flirtatious smile. He appeared to be in his forties with dark hair and sparkling brown eyes.

  “This is my uncle, Mark.” Natasha laughed. “My dad’s younger brother.”

  “Nice to meet you, Uncle Mark.”

  “Just call me Mark.” He grinned as he held my hand for a few seconds too long.

  “The show looks amazing.” I turned to Natasha. “It’s so packed in here.”

  “Yes, it’s going better than I expected.” She smiled as she nodded.

  “I’m going to get a drink. Anyone else want one?” Natasha’s dad asked politely, and I nodded.

  “I’ll come with you. I’m dying for a drink.”

  “Then we must make sure you get one.” He grinned at me, and I realized how similar he and Mark looked. If anything, he was even more handsome and distinguished-looking with his dash of silver hair.

  “Yes, we must.” I laughed and grabbed ahold of his extended arm.

  “So, Saskia, I’ve heard so much about you. I can’t believe we haven’t met before now.” He looked at me with a gentle smile.

  “Uh oh. What’s Natasha been telling you?” I groaned.

  “Nothing.” He paused. “It’s Brad that talks about you all the time.”

  “Oh.” I looked at him in surprise and blushed. “That’s surprising.”

  “I guess you really made an impression on him.”

  “I guess so.” I could feel my face going red.

  “Don’t worry. He hasn’t said anything bad about you. Rather, he’s been very complimentary.”

  “Wow.” I looked around the room and saw Brad in the corner talking on the phone and staring at us. “I didn’t think he liked me much.”

  “What’s not to like?” His eyes smiled at me, and I blushed. “By the way, feel free to call me David.”

  “I see where Natasha gets her friendly traits from.” I laughed and he grinned.

  “Her mom and I are so proud of her.” His voice sounded wistful. “Makes me wish we had more kids.”

  “You guys didn’t want more?”

  “My wife never really wanted kids. I wanted to have a family the size of the Waltons.”

  “Night, John-boy.” I laughed, and he smiled at me.

  “Exactly.” He sighed and turned to the bar. “What would you like to drink?”

  “I’ll have a vodka Sprite, please.”

  “So polite.” He smiled at me again and placed the order.

  I couldn’t help but feel comfortable with David. He had all of the charm and friendliness of Natasha and he made me feel right at home. He was the sort of father I wished I’d had growing up. Someone sweet and charming. Someone who pushed me. Someone who would be proud of me. Someone who would love me.

  “You okay?” David handed me my drink.

  “Yes, sorry. I was just thinking.”

  “You’re too pretty to be thinking that hard.”

  “Don’t I wish.” I laughed and drank down my drink. All of a sudden my mind was on Dominic and Aiden. What sort of sick fucks were they?

  “There you are, brother.” Mark’s booming voice broke me out of my reverie.

  “And there you are, Mark.” David’s voice sounded dry, and I looked up.

  “My, my, who knew Natasha had such good-looking friends?” Mark looked me over and winked.

  “Who knew she had such a good-looking uncle and dad?” I grinned back at him.

  “You mean good-looking uncle.” Mark slipped his arm around my waist, and I felt his chest against my side.

  “If you say so.” I smiled up at him easily.

  “I do.” He licked his lips slowly, and I felt him press himself against me. I didn’t even flinch as I felt his hardness.

  “Excuse my brother’s manners. He thinks he’s God’s gift to women.” David rolled his eyes.

  “I don’t just think.” Mark chuckled and took a step back. “Excuse me.” He bowed his head as his hand brushed against my breasts. I was pretty confident that his touch hadn’t been an accident.

  “Mark.” David frowned and pushed his brother out of the way. “Stop being a pig.”

  “Stop being an old fart,” Mark shot back. “I’m just trying to get to know Saskia.”

  “Hey.” Brad approached us. “How is everyone doing?” He gave me a gentle smile, and I felt my heart flutter for one brief second.

  “We’re fine.” I looked away from him. I didn’t want to notice how blue his eyes looked or how buff his chest was. I didn’t want to remember his hands squeezing my breasts or gripping my waist as he lifted me up and down on his cock.

  “Good.” He continued staring at me until I looked up and made eye contact with him. His face looked serious, and I felt slightly panicked. I wanted to ask him what he was thinking but I didn’t dare.

  “I was telling Saskia what a big admirer she had in you,” David said and looked back and forth at us. “My daughter is lucky to have such a great best friend and husband.”

  “We both love Natasha,” I beamed at David.

  “It’s important to have love in a marriage.” David looked at Brad.

  “Yes it is,” Brad agreed. “I don’t know if one should continue in a marriage if there isn’t love.”

  “You two old women are boring me,” Mark interrupted them. “Saskia, would you like me to show you around?”

  “It’s fine. I’ll show her.” Brad grabbed my arm. “I have to talk to you about something anyways.”

  “Okay.” I nodded and followed him to the side of the room.

  “What do you think you’re playing at?” He frowned at me, and my jaw dropped at his tone.

  “What?” I glared at him.

  “You need to stop flirting with Mark.”

  “What are you talking about?”

  “Don’t tell me. You want to fuck him too.”

  “What the fuck are you talking about?” My voice rose, and he grabbed my arm. “Where are we going?”

  “Just come with me.” He pulled me into a dark corridor and pushed me back against the wall before he kissed me hard on the lips.

  I felt his hands reach up to grab my breasts as he pushed his erection against me. I gasped against his lips, my heart thudding as he kissed me passionately. My hands weakly attempted to push him away, but I couldn’t stop myself from kissing him back. He tasted so good. Felt so hot and hard.

  His fingers slipped up under my shirt and he pulled the cup of my bra down so he could pinch my nipple. I closed my eyes at his touch and tried to banish the guilt from my mind. His fingers slipped lower, and I felt his fingers slip into my panties before he started to rub my clit. My panties grew wet, and he groaned against my lips.

  “I want to fuck you so badly,” he groaned, and it was as if something had hit me in the head.

  I pushed him away from me with all my might and we both stood there staring at each other, gasping for air.

  “What are y
ou doing?” I groaned and adjusted my bra.

  “What we both wanted to happen.” He shrugged, and I watched as he sucked on his fingers.

  “Don’t.” I shook my head. “We can’t do this. You’re my best friend’s husband.”

  “I want to be with you, Saskia.” He took a step towards me. “I want to make love to you. I want to be with you.”

  “You know that’s never going to happen.” I pushed him away from me. “Stop this craziness, Brad.”

  “You can’t tell me you don’t want to be with me.”

  “I don’t want to be with you.” I bit my lower lip. “Stop it,” I breathed out as he grabbed my hands and pushed them against his crotch. He was harder than before, and he squeezed my fingers together so I could feel him properly.

  “You see what you do to me.”

  “This is wrong.” My hands grabbed ahold of him and I sighed.

  “I want to eat you out and then fuck you hard,” he whispered in my ear. “Meet me in the bathroom tonight.”

  “I can’t.” I shook my head and grabbed my hands back. “I have to go back and find Natasha.”

  “Think about it, Saskia.” His voice was hoarse. “I’ll be waiting for you. We can make this work. We can be together if that’s what we both want.”

  I hurried back into the room and raced over to the bar. I needed another drink. And fast. Then my phone rang.

  “Hello,” I gasped into the phone, not even looking at the screen.

  “Where are you?” Dominic’s voice was distant.

  “I left.”

  “Where did you go?”

  “Why do you care?”

  “Saskia, we need to talk.”

  “I know about you and your dad and Jessie.”

  “Saskia.” He paused. “It’s not what you think?”

  “I saw you, Dominic.”

  “It’s over,” he rushed out. “Let me see you.”

  “You can’t be serious.” My voice expressed my disdain for him.

  “We can be together, Saskia.”

  “You’re a sick fuck, Dominic.”

  “Let me make this up to you,” he pleaded. “You know the connection we had.”

  “Dominic, do you really think I’m going to fuck you and your dad?”

  “Why not? It’s not like you haven’t already.” He sounded bitter.

  “Don’t call me again.” I hung up the phone and sighed. Could this day get any worse?

  Mark walked up to me and smiled. “Want a drink?”

  “I won’t say no.” I smiled at him gratefully.

  “It’s been a long day for you, huh?”

  “You can say that again.”

  “It’s been a long day for you, huh?” he repeated, and we both laughed.

  “Something like that.”

  “Let me get you something stiff.” His eyes darkened as he looked at me and leaned towards me. “What would you like?”

  “I’m not sure.” I shrugged, not bothering to move away from him as he moved closer to me.

  “I think I know.” He grinned and brought his hands up to the bar.

  “Oh?” I raised an eyebrow at him.

  “Yes, I know.” His fingers moved forward deliberately, and I felt them brush over my nipples. “They’re hard as rocks.” He smiled at me as he pulled his fingers away. “I think you’re in need of a good fuck.”

  “Is that right?” I stood my ground and stared at him with a small smile.

  I’m not going to lie. I was horny as hell and Mark was hot. And he was a better option for me than Brad. Though I wasn’t sure that there was a man whose cock could do what Brad’s did to me.

  “Yes.” He grinned back at me and gasped as I reached down and squeezed him through his pants. He was hard and reasonably sized. Though he didn’t feel as hard and big as Brad.

  “Are you staying at Natasha’s tonight?” I whispered in his ear, and he nodded eagerly. “Then meet me in the bathroom later.” I grinned at him and then walked away.

  I knew I was playing with fire. I knew that there was a chance that I’d end up fucking Brad, but part of me didn’t care. I was playing a reckless game of Russian Roulette. I was going to fuck someone tonight. Be it Brad or Mark. I knew that I should have told Mark to meet me somewhere else, but I was feeling reckless. Dominic’s call had made me angry, and I knew that I was doing this to hurt him as well. I’d really thought that Dominic and I could have had a future, but he’d been even more screwed up than me. Part of me felt like I had something to prove.

  I stared at Natasha across the room, who was smiling at someone, and my heart broke. I couldn’t do this to her. I couldn’t act on my feelings for Brad. I couldn’t break her heart. She deserved better than that. I looked around the room so I could tell Mark to meet me in my room instead.

  “Looking for someone?” David appeared at my side and gave me a smile.

  “Have you seen Mark?” I asked him slightly urgently.

  “Not recently. Why?” He frowned and looked at my face. “Are you all right, my dear?”

  “I’m fine.” I nodded. “It’s just been a long day.”

  “I’m sorry to hear that.” He put his arm around my shoulder and rubbed my back. “It’ll get better, I promise.” He smiled down at me.

  I smiled back, feeling instantly comforted.

  “So, Saskia, I’m going to ask you something.” His expression changed slightly. “I hope you don’t find it intrusive, but I have to ask.”

  “Go ahead.” I nodded up at him.

  “Have you ever been intimate with Brad?” His voice was soft, and I could feel his eyes on me. “I hope you don’t think I’m prying, but...”

  “Why do you think that?” I frowned at him.

  “I see the way he looks at you.” He shrugged. “And I know he and Natasha have been having problems.”

  “I didn’t know they were having problems.” I bit my lower lip. “It’s not because of me.”

  “Sexual attraction can be a funny thing.” He sighed. “I love my daughter and I want the best for her, but I want her to be with a man that loves her.”

  “Yes, I understand.” I nodded and swallowed hard. “Brad and I haven’t done anything since they have been married.” I said, being half honest.

  “I don’t know why you wanted Mark, but I wouldn’t look to...” He cut himself off and shook his head. “Forgive me. This isn’t any of my business.”

  “It’s fine.” I nodded.

  “I know this may sound crass, but a woman of your beauty doesn’t have to settle for these losers.”

  “It’s not crass.” I shrugged. “I’m not going to lie. I like getting laid.” I gave him a look. “Sorry.”

  “Don’t be sorry.” He offered me his drink. “There aren’t enough honest people like you in the world anymore.”

  “Tell me about it.” I laughed.

  “Look, my brother Mark isn’t the best guy in the world, but if you’re just looking for a good time, I think he can give you what you want.”

  “Thanks.” I laughed, feeling very awkward to be having this conversation with Natasha’s dad.

  “I’ll tell you what.” He grinned. “I’ll go and find Mark and tell him you want to talk to him, yeah?”

  “Yeah. That would be good.” I smiled at him. “Thanks, David.”

  “No worries.” He rubbed my back. “And don’t worry. This will stay between us.”

  “Thanks.” I kissed his cheek and then watched as he walked away from me.

  ***

  We all left the exhibit before I had a chance to tell Mark of the change of plan. By the time we got back to Natasha’s house, I didn’t know what to do. I felt Brad’s eyes on me all night, and all I could think about was the night we had spent together. I closed my eyes on the car ride back and decided that I was going to let the night play out however it was supposed to.

  I know you’re thinking what a bitch I am. How can I even think about being with Brad? My best friend’s husband.
When I look back, I can’t say that I’m proud of myself. I can’t say that I think I’m a good person. I can’t say that I haven’t wondered what would have been different in my life if I’d told Mark to meet me in my bedroom. But life never seems to go as planned. I know what you’re thinking. But you’re wrong. I swear that you’re wrong.

  The night that changed everything

  I waited until two a.m. to get out of bed to go to the bathroom. I was wearing a long T-shirt and nothing else. I walked to the bathroom quietly, not wanting to wake anyone up. I figured I would wait for fifteen minutes and then go back to bed if no one else showed up. Part of me hoped that no one would show up.

  I opened the door, walked in, and kept the light off. I sat on the bathtub, wondering what I was doing. I closed my eyes and tried to get myself to leave. Did I really want to go down this road? Part of me didn’t, but the other part of me wanted my happy ever after. I wanted true love. I admit it. I was tired. I wanted someone who wanted me. Even if I had to pay the ultimate price.

  After about ten minutes, I stood up and was about to leave the room when someone walked in quickly and I heard the door lock behind me.

  “Where were you going?” a deep voice whispered in my ear.

  My brain clicked over as I tried to place the voice. I couldn’t tell if it was Brad or Mark.

  “I didn’t know if you were going to come,” I whispered, and I felt his hands pull me towards him. “I don’t know—” I started again, and I felt his fingers against my lips.

  “Shh,” he whispered as his fingers pulled up the back of my T-shirt and caressed my ass.

  I bit my lower lip as my hands reached up to touch his face. Part of me thought it was Brad, but the other part of me thought it was Mark. Then his fingers slipped between my legs and I stopped thinking about it.

  He pushed me forward until my legs hit the bathtub. I leaned forward and pushed my ass back. He groaned in response, and I felt him lean over. I cried out as I felt his lips running up and down along my slit.

  “Oh!” I cried out as his tongue entered me.

  I gripped the bathtub and tried not to shudder too much as I felt myself coming on his face. I was so horny that I couldn’t stop myself. After about five minutes, he stood back up, grabbed my hips, and pushed me back. I felt the tip of his cock rubbing against me, and I pushed back against him. He didn’t disappoint me, and I felt him entering me quickly. He thrust into me with such force that I fell forward slightly. His grip on my hips tightened and he pulled me back up without stopping his movements. His hands left my hips, and I felt him reach forward to rub my clit as he entered me. I felt my legs trembling as a second climax approached.