Ride or Die 1
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Table of Contents
Prologue
Chapter One:
Chapter Two:
Chapter Three:
Chapter four:
Chapter Five:
Chapter Six:
Chapter Seven:
Chapter Eight:
Chapter Nine:
Chapter ten:
Chapter eleven:
Chapter twelve:
Chapter Thirteen:
Chapter Fourteen:
Chapter Fifteen:
Chapter sixteen:
Chapter seventeen:
Chapter eighteen:
Chapter nineteen:
Chapter twenty:
Chapter twenty-one:
Chapter twenty-two:
Chapter twenty-three:
Chapter twenty-four:
Chapter twenty-five:
Chapter twenty-six:
Chapter twenty-seven:
Chapter Twenty-eight:
Chapter Twenty-nine:
Chapter thirty:
Chapter thirty-one:
Prologue
Ride or Die Series #1
A Devil’s Highwaymen MC novel
By
USA Today Bestselling Author
Claire C. Riley writing as:
Cee Cee Riley
Ride or Die #1 A Devil’s Highwaymen MC Novel
Copyright © 2017
Written by Claire C. Riley / Cee Cee Riley
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Ride or Die #1
A Devil’s Highwaymen MC novel
“We would blow up this world and create something beautiful in its ruins”
Jesse & Laney 1985
We were each survivors of our upbringing: lost, unloved and afraid. Yet like moths to a flame, we couldn’t stay apart.
We loved.
We lost.
We fought.
We cried.
And then we shattered each other’s hearts.
Jesse was a hard man; a biker outlaw for the Devil’s Highwaymen MC Club. I was Laney; the daughter of a dead mother and a father that didn’t know or want me.
We were doomed right from the start.
But this was our romance.
And this was our disaster.
And hopefully, this would be our second chance.
Ride or Die Series #1
A Devil’s Highwaymen novel
By
USA Today Bestselling Author
Claire C. Riley writing as:
Cee Cee Riley
For those of you who love the unlovable.
Prologue
1973
It was different this time.
I didn’t know how, or why; I just knew it was.
Even at five years old, I knew the difference between high and dead.
Watching her from my hiding place, I stared silently at her slack jaw and pallid skin. Her chest was rising and falling, quickly at first and then slowly. Her mouth was open, the hue of her pale tongue just showing near her yellow teeth. I wanted to reach over and close her lips, but was too afraid to.
I didn’t want to touch her.
I never did—not when she was like this.
She wasn’t my mommy when she was like this. She was a monster.
Gone were her loving arms and soft kisses, and instead she was…someone else.
I glanced at the ticking clock above the fireplace, wishing that I could make time speed up. I didn’t know what time it was; I couldn’t tell the time yet, but Butch had said he would be home by 4 p.m. and he had pointed to where the hands of the clock would be at that time, so I would know. But it seemed so far away now, and I wondered if I should go get help, because this time was different.
I knew it.
I started to crawl out from under the kitchen table. It was a big old wooden thing, with scratches and score marks across the top. Underneath was where Butch had carved both of our names. I almost bumped my head as I was getting out from under it; I was getting bigger now, but I ducked just in time, thankfully. My head still hurt where she’d hit me and I rubbed it tenderly, feeling the large bump below my fingertips.
She would be sorry when she came around—she always was. I was her Jesse, her little gunslinger, and she loved me more than the moon and the stars. She couldn’t help the things she did; she was sick. I understood that.
She was lying on the hard linoleum floor, and I crawled to her, my blue eyes blinking slowly as I took in her face, my body drawing closer to her.
Vomit had dribbled out of the corner of her mouth. It smelled bad, like stale cookies and old carrots. The needle was still poked in her arm, and even though Butch had said never ever to touch them, I couldn’t help myself. I reached over and I pulled it out of her arm, because I didn’t like it still being stuck in her. If I could, I would have taken all of the pain and the poison out of her too, so I could have had my mommy back.
A small drop of blood bubbled to the surface where the needle had been stuck in her skin, and I wiped it away with the sleeve of my dirty gray hoody.
Her skin felt cold—too cold for my mom, because Mommy was always warm and soft. I chewed on the inside of my cheek, wondering what to do. I made my way to the living room and got the blanket from across the back of our brown sofa, and then I dragged it back to her in the kitchen, carefully avoiding the vomit, and I laid it over her, hoping it would warm her enough.
I sat and watched her, not wanting to move in case she needed me. I still had the needle in my hand, so I put it on the table, out of her reach, and I prayed that Butch would come home soon, because he would know what to do.
Her body got even colder, and I curled up against her side and put my arm around her to help keep her warm. I needed to pee but didn’t want to leave her alone, and at some point I must have fallen asleep and peed myself, because when I woke up, Butch was picking me up and I was wet and cold.
The fading sunlight shone in through the kitchen window, glinting off the wedding band she still wore. It had a green stone in it that matched her eyes. She used to tell us that that was why Daddy had given it to her.
Butch carried me across the kitchen.
I cried for her then, for my mom.
I reached out with my small hands and clawed at Butch as he continued walking, ignoring my tears and screams.
But Butch continued on, whispering in my ear that we would be okay together, that he wouldn’t ever leave me. And that he would always be there for me, no matter what.
We passed my daddy on the way out. He was standing in the doorway with his arms folded over his huge chest, his gaze on Mommy.
I knew he was my daddy because Mommy kept a picture of him by her bed. She told me he was the love of her life. She told me that they were like the modern-day Bonnie and Clyde and that they were meant to be together forever.
But Daddy rarely came to visit, and when he did, he didn’t look at M
ommy like he did in that picture, even though she still looked at him like that. And he never, never, ever looked at me with anything like that. I was scared of Daddy, even though Mommy said not to be.
Daddy turned away from the kitchen, and put the house phone to his ear, the long green curly cord dangling like spaghetti. He sounded angry-sad, a mixture of the two things. And I could understand that, because I felt the same way. I was angry-sad. Angry because I didn’t want to leave. Angry because I wanted my mommy to stop hurting herself like this, and sad because I already missed her.
All three of us left the house—me, my big brother Butch (who was carrying me), and my daddy, and we climbed in daddy’s truck. And then we left, and I never saw my mommy or my home again.
Butch said it was going to be okay, and not to cry because it would make Daddy angry. He said Mommy was in a better place now anyway. But I didn’t understand.
Because how could my Mommy be in a better place when I wasn’t with her?
Chapter One:
1982
Jesse
“Goddamn it, Jesse, will you stay out of my stuff!” Butch stormed as he came towards me!
I dove off my bed with Butch following me quickly, my hand still clutching the magazine I’d found under his mattress. I threw open our bedroom door and ran down the short hallway to the main part of the clubhouse, taking a good look at the breasts of one of the club skanks as I raced past her.
“Looking good, Bernice!” I called, laughing my ass off. She blew me a kiss and kept on walking, her pert ass swaying hypnotically.
Butch was already tiring, and there was no way he would catch up to me. He may have been big, but I was fast. And he was still hungover from the night before. I slowed down and turned around, finally dropping the magazine and flipping him the bird with both hands while laughing.
And then I was flying through the air and landing on my ass.
I looked up at the ceiling, the wind completely knocked out of me, wondering what the hell had just happened, when Dom’s face came into view, his wolf-grey eyes staring down at me. He grinned and then moved out of the way for Butch to grab me.
“Shit!” I swore as he grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and dragged me up to my feet. He was taller than me, but not by much considering our five-year age gap. He was much stronger, though; it would be years before I could catch up to him. That much I was certain of.
Butch was almost six foot already, and built like a machine. So much so that I’d worried for a while that he was using steroids or some shit. But no, it was all just good, honest, home-grown Hardy DNA. His skin was, so far, bare of tattoos and piercings, though I’d seen him flipping through magazines for weeks picking out what he wanted.
Butch slammed me against the wall of the clubhouse and glared at me, and I waited for his fist to hit me. But it never came. Instead he shook his head and started to laugh and dropped me back on my feet. He scrubbed the top of my head and tapped the side of my face with the back of his hand.
“Thought you were gonna piss yourself then for sure, little brother,” he laughed and started to walk away. Dom, another member of the club and Butch’s best friend, was laughing and followed Butch.
I looked around the clubhouse, noting some of the other members were watching us with annoyance. This wasn’t a school house and it sure as shit wasn’t a playground, yet I treated it as such because this place was all I had. The bikers grumbled and cursed when I ran around the place causing havoc. The women, though, they loved this shit.
“Ladies,” I said, taking a quick bow, and a couple of the skanks gave me a wink.
I jogged to catch up to Butch, and started following him outside, matching my stride with his. He was my big brother, and despite how annoying I could be—his words, not mine—he didn’t mind me hanging around him all the time. He was seventeen, almost eighteen, and prospect for the Devil’s Highwaymen, our dad’s MC club, and I was proud as shit to be able to call him my big brother.
He’d been looking after me since I was a baby, and had never made me feel like anything I did was any trouble to him—more of a father than my own had ever tried to be. We pretty much lived at the clubhouse, which was normally unheard of, but Dad spent almost all of his time there, so it had made sense to convert one of the wings of the old motel into a home for me and Butch to live in. At first we thought it meant we’d see our dad more, but that wasn’t the case at all. We probably saw him less, though neither of us really cared. Hardy, our dad, was not father material. He was a brutal dictator to both of us, though he had a particular dislike for me, for some reason.
Outside the day was hot, and Butch straddled his bike and slipped on his shades and a helmet. Dom did the same and they both started their bikes. Butch rode a custom Harley Davidson Road King, and he smoothed his hand over the dark green body as if it were a woman’s body. My brother loved that bike.
He saw me watching him and smiled. “You still saving up?”
I nodded.
“Good, because me and you, little brother, we’re going to build you the best damn bike there’s ever been.”
I smiled broadly. “It’ll be ours,” I said.
He reached over and scrubbed at my hair, and I darted out from under his grip self-consciously even as he and Dom laughed.
“Where you going?” I asked, wishing I was going with him.
“Club business, little brother,” he said with a smile. “Just waiting on Gauge turning up.”
“When will you be back?”
“Soon enough,” he replied, not even the slightest bit irritated by me.
“I want to come with you,” I said. I hated it when he left.
“You’ll be prospecting soon enough, little brother, then we’ll both get patched in and the real fun will start.” He smiled again.
Despite my father being the president of the club, I wasn’t really a member of the club. I was too young right then and if I was honest I wasn’t even sure if my dad would let me join. The man always seemed to have beef with everything I did. So I got told two things about club business: jack and shit. It pissed me off, but Butch assured me that he was saving a spot on his right-hand side, just for me—no matter what our father said. I just needed to grow up some more was all.
The sound of a bike—and not Dom or Butch’s—drew our attention and we all looked over to the main gates of the clubhouse, where one of the prospects was pulling them open. Gauge, the Devil’s Highwaymen’s sergeant at arms, pulled through the gates and parked his bike, duck-walking it back into position alongside all the others that were lined up. A skinny pair of arms were wrapped around his waist, and Butch pulled his glasses off to get a good look at who it was. Whoever it was, was female, I decided.
Gauge never had a woman with him.
Never.
Club whores were more his thing.
Not only that, but Hardy, didn’t let just anyone roll up in there. The Devil’s Highwaymen were responsible for almost half of the drugs moving in and out of the state of Georgia, and despite most of the cops in the county being on our payroll, precautions still had to be adhered too.
I looked over at Butch and he shrugged at me without looking away from Gauge, already sensing the question I hadn’t voiced yet.
“This should be interesting,” Dom said, lighting a cigarette and settling in for the show.
I turned to look back at Gauge as he cut the engine of his bike and pulled off his helmet. He eyeballed Butch and Dom, barely noticing me standing there, and then he climbed off his bike with a grunt. Gauge was around twenty-eight or thirty, with dark hair and a long beard. Most days he wore a little black beanie hat that we all ridiculed him for, because come rain or shine, he always wore that damn hat. He was quiet, never talking when talking wasn’t called for, but he was a mean motherfucker underneath his quietness.
Gauge started walking toward us, and then I saw her.
I swallowed hard and tried not to stare, despite the fact all I could do was fucking st
are.
Even at fourteen years old I knew she was fucking special. My kind of special.
Long, straight, dark hair that hung down her back and warm olive skin just begging for me to touch it. She was wearing some little black ankle boots and a pair of cutoff denim shorts and a T-shirt so thin I could practically see her bra underneath. And when she lifted her leg off of Gauge’s bike, I swear her legs led the way to heaven.
She paid none of us any mind as she followed Gauge into the clubhouse, her hands clutching onto the straps of the backpack on her back and a hard scowl on her face as she glared at Gauge’s back. I followed her with my eyes until she was out of sight.
“Looks like little Jesse is in love,” Dom laughed with Butch, and I turned to glower at them both, feeling my cheeks heat up.
“Shut up! She’s just a nice piece of ass is all,” I said, scratching at my chin and wishing I had a badass beard like Gauge’s.
“Wouldn’t let Gauge hear you saying that about her,” Pops said, cracking open a bottle of beer as he came outside.
Pops wasn’t actually our pops, but he was the pops of the clubhouse. He’d been a member since almost the beginning, and though he didn’t really get too involved with club business anymore, his vote still counted, and so did his advice. His wife had passed a few years back, and he spent practically all day and every day down at the clubhouse now, drinking and fucking anything he could get his hands on. “Nothing much better to do till I die,” he always said. And I couldn’t disagree with him.
“She’s a little on the young side to be his old lady,” Butch said, lighting a cigarette and making the comment that I had been thinking. I reached for his pack of cigarettes and he slapped my hand away. “No fuckin’ chance.”
I didn’t bother to argue with him on it, knowing he never backed down and I had some inside anyway. Pops came closer, downing half his beer in one gulp. Despite his constant heavy drinking, he was still one of the wisest men I knew.