Bull

by B. B. Hamel

  “What is it?”

  “It’s everything we have on Bull Dixon. Are you writing something about that creep?”

  “No,” I mumbled, opening the folder. “Not at all.”

  “What’s it for then?”

  I looked at Dee. “Did Coop tell you?”

  “No,” she said.

  “Then mind your own business.”

  She looked shocked, and then she just smiled and walked away. I sighed, turning back toward the folder. That might have been a mistake, but I couldn’t help myself. Dee was just so terrible.

  I opened the folder and began to skim it. There wasn’t a lot, which didn’t shock me. There were some references to some early arrests, but apparently the records were all missing. There were some quotes about his family, his mother’s name and address, but that was pretty much it.

  The one thing that did catch my eye, though, was buried at the bottom of a bunch of useless crap.

  It was an interview with a journalist. Apparently, she vividly recalled interviewing a young, college-aged Bull Dixon about his family, and she recalled writing the story. As far as she knew, that story had everything about Bull’s family, details nobody else knew.

  But she said the story disappeared from the internet. She had no clue why, and when she asked her editor, he just told her not to worry about it. She said the guy seemed almost afraid.

  I shook my head, mystified. How was Bull able to get rid of all this information? I could just imagine the lengths people would go to get that kind of power.

  Regardless of how he did it, Bull was able to erase things from the internet. That told me a lot about the man and about his connections. If I was going to play him, I needed to be prepared.

  But as I sat there paging through his file again, I couldn’t help but wonder who was really playing who.

  16

  Bull

  My apartment was packed full of people and drugs, so basically it was just another party.

  The usual crew had arrived. Over the years we’d really whittled down exactly how many people were allowed to come to these parties. We’d had issues with journalists and paparazzi trying to get in during the early days, but that had calmed down over the years.

  Now it was the same familiar faces, plus a few new ladies. There were no hookers, like I had requested. I leaned up against the bar, sipping a whisky.

  “What’s your deal?”

  I looked over at Calvin. “What?”

  “Ever since this party started, you’ve had that fucking mean mug on your face.”

  “I’m fine.”

  “Yeah, okay. Whatever you say, man.” He leaned up against the bar next to me. “Is this about that phone call the other day?”

  I shook my head. “No.”

  “Come on, man, stop bullshitting me.”

  I sighed. “Fine. It’s about that phone call.”

  “Who’s the girl?”

  “You don’t know her.”

  “Damn,” he said. “Bull Dixon. You’re actually smitten by some pussy, aren’t you?”

  “Not exactly,” I said, though I realized I was lying.

  “Okay, man. Sure. Whatever you say. I’ve just never seen you give a shit about a woman before.”

  “I’m still Bull Dixon. I’m still all about the pussy.”

  “You sound like you’re trying to convince yourself.”

  I sipped my whisky. Maybe he was right. Maybe I was trying to convince myself.

  I didn’t feel too convinced.

  Ever since I saw Charley at that party, I couldn’t get her out of my head. I thought maybe if I got a taste of her, maybe then I could be done. But no. That taste only made me so much hungrier for her.

  Even finding out that she was a journalist wasn’t stopping me. I thought I was just messing around with her, but I was realizing that it was about more than that.

  “I don’t need convincing,” I grunted.

  “Well, loosen up, man. It’s your party.”

  “Please,” I said. “This shit isn’t about me. It’s for the fucking insiders.”

  “What do you mean?”

  I gestured at the party. There were maybe a hundred people milling about, and each and every one of them was an NFL insider. There were players, coaches, managers, and other important people all over the place, plus their wives and girlfriends. The room was packed full with millions of dollars’ worth of people.

  “Nobody fucking cares about me. They just want to network, and for some reason my parties got that reputation.”

  “I don’t know, Bull. I feel like everyone just wants to do some fucking blow.”

  I laughed. “Maybe. Could be that.”

  “And you always have good blow.”

  I held up my glass in thanks and then sipped it. “Go enjoy some then.”

  “All right, man. Just quit skulking in the corner.”

  “I’ll be around soon.”

  He wandered off, heading over toward a group of rookies.

  I watched him go and then glanced at my watch. The driver should have been back with Charley fifteen minutes ago. I was skulking in the corner because I wanted her to show up, and I was sick of waiting.

  I wasn’t the kind of man to sit in the corner and wait on a woman, but there I was, drinking my whisky and waiting. I could have been in the party, mingling and shit like that, but instead I was anticipating the arrival of just one person.

  As I finished my whisky and got another, the elevator dinged. I looked over as it slowly opened.

  Charley stepped out. She was wearing a tight black dress with a neckline that didn’t leave much to the imagination.

  I felt my heart rate spike as soon as she stepped into the room. I knocked back that second whisky, got a third, and then walked over to her.

  She looked a little lost and overwhelmed, which I liked. I walked past a group of laughing guys and nodded at her.

  “You look lost.”

  She cocked her head at me. “I seem to have stepped into the wrong party.”

  “Why do you say that?”

  “I don’t see any hookers.”

  I laughed. “They’re on break for tonight.”

  “That’s a shame.”

  “Why? Interested in one?”

  “Maybe.” She smiled at me and took out her lipstick, inspecting it for a moment.

  “Want a drink?”

  She paused. “Not tonight.” She slipped the lipstick back into her bag.

  “No? Trying to keep your wits about you?”

  “Something like that.”

  “Well, welcome to the party.”

  “Do I get my property back now?”

  I stopped closer to her. “You can have whatever you want.”

  “Good. Let’s start with that toy.”

  I grinned and put my hand on the small of her back. She shifted her weight toward me. “You have to earn that.”

  “I thought all I had to do was show up.”

  “I’m changing the deal.”

  “That’s not fair.”

  “No, it’s not, but it’s more fun.” I steered her toward the back hallway. “Come on.”

  “Where are we going?”

  “You’re going to work for your toy.”

  “Bull, is this a good idea?”

  “Sure it is.” I stopped in front of a door and pushed it open. Inside was the game room. “Do you know how to play pool?”

  She laughed and walked inside. I grinned, following her. She got a cue down while I racked the balls.

  “Fair warning, I’m really bad.”

  “Good,” I said, finishing. “I have a soft touch. I can teach you.”

  “I’m sure you can.”

  I got down my stick and went to the other end. I put the cue ball down and broke, sending balls scattering all over the table. Unfortunately, nothing dropped, so it was her turn.

  She stepped up to the table, aimed, and slammed the cue down to the other end, knocking a few balls aroun
d at random.

  “Good,” I said. “At least you hit something.”

  She laughed. “I was aiming for the blue ball.”

  “I bet,” I said.

  “Let’s see you do better.”

  “Gladly.” I stepped up to the table and sank three shots in quick succession. I missed the fourth shot and it was her turn.

  “Showoff,” she said, stepping up.

  “Hold on.” I stepped behind her and bent over her body. “Look.” I helped her aim the stick at a different ball. “Shoot it softly and aim for the lower part of the cue ball. That’ll give it some backspin, and then it won’t go into the pocket.”

  “Like this?” She hit the cue and it shot forward, smacking into the green ball. The cue popped backward as soon as it made contact, and the ball went into the pocket.

  “Good,” I said. “You have a soft touch, too.”

  “Not exactly. I’m more likely to break things.”

  I smirked at her. “Breaking things is my specialty, as you well know.”

  She blushed and lined up her next shot. She missed by a mile. I laughed as I got up to the table.

  She glowered at me. “What’s so funny?”

  “You.” I sank a shot and then grinned at her. “You look like you’ve never handled a stick before, but I know that’s not true.”

  She pursed her lips. “Good one.”

  “Thank you.” I sank another shot. “Truthfully, Charley, it’s what I like about you.”

  “What is?”

  “You seem so nice on the outside, but I know you’re far from nice deep down.”

  She sighed as I sank two shots rapid fire.

  “You don’t know anything, Bull.”

  “I know more than you think.”

  “You’re not as great as you think you are.”

  “Says the girl who came back to get a dildo made from my cock.”

  She sighed. “We both know that’s bullshit.”

  “Maybe.” I missed a shot and she stepped up. I smacked her ass as she bent over, and she glared at me. “Go ahead.”

  She lined up her shot and missed.

  “Tell you what,” I said, talking as I made my next two shots. “If you can make two shots in a row, I’ll give you a blank check.”

  “I don’t want your money,” she said, a little too quickly.

  “Okay then. You can take anything you want from my apartment.”

  “Only two shots?”

  “Only two.” I missed my next shot and it was her turn.

  She stepped up to the table, took a second to aim, and then sank a ball. She giggled as she lined up her next shot and easily sank it.

  I laughed, shaking my head. “Did you just hustle me?”

  “I might have.”

  “Damn,” I said, loving it. “I feel so used.”

  She frowned and glanced away. “Anyway, that was fun, I guess.”

  “What’s wrong?”

  “Nothing.” She lined up a shot and sank the eight ball in the corner. “I lose.”

  “No fun.”

  She hopped up onto the table, sitting on the felt. “I guess I’m not in a fun mood.”

  “I find that hard to believe.” I stepped over to her. “In that dress, I think you’re in a very fun mood.”

  I stopped in front of her and pulled her hips closer to mine. She bit her lip and opened her legs as I gently ran my lips up her neck.

  “Bull,” she said softly “why do we keep doing this?”

  “Because you want me to do bad things to you,” I answered. “Because you’re dripping wet, and as much as you pretend like you don’t understand it, we both know why.”

  “Why?” she asked, barely a whisper.

  I took her hair in my big hand, tipping her chin back. “You want to be owned by me.”

  “No.”

  I kissed her hard.

  She didn’t return the kiss at first, but after a second she melted against me.

  Like I knew she would. This was what she really came here for. She came for another taste of what she really wanted but was afraid to actually have.

  I didn’t know why she was so afraid, maybe because of my reputation, or maybe because she was playing coy just to entice me. Whatever the reason, it was working, and I found myself kissing her intensely, my hands roaming along her body.

  “Wait,” she said, pulling back. “We can’t. Someone might come in.”

  “Nobody is going to come in,” I said. “They’re too busy doing blow and drinking to play pool.”

  But almost as if she had summoned them, I heard a few guys open the door and pause.

  “Oh shit. Sorry, Bull.”

  I turned around and Ryan was standing there with two of his friends.

  I felt Charley stiffen. Ryan took in the scene and a smile slowly spread across his face.

  “Didn’t realize this was happening,” he said. “Charley. Good to see you.”

  “Ryan.” She was bright red.

  “Fuck off, you little shit,” I said to him.

  “No need to be a dick, Bull.”

  I stepped away from Charley and toward Ryan, rage flowing through my body.

  “You’re in my house, you tiny cunt. I’ll tear you into pieces. Now fuck off.”

  I didn’t recognize Ryan’s friends, but they didn’t seem as afraid as they should have. I guessed they were on coke, or maybe something a little more intense.

  “Fuck this dude,” the guy on the right said. “He’s a fucking punk.”

  “That’s Bull Dixon,” Ryan said.

  “I don’t give a shit.” The guy stepped toward me. “You’re a fucking pussy, bitch.”

  I walked calmly up to him and punched him clean in the nose. I felt a satisfying crunch as his nose broke and he dropped to the ground, groaning. Blood poured from his face.

  His other friend stepped at me, swinging. I blocked his punch and then slammed my other fist into his elbow. It didn’t break, but the guy screamed and stumbled over. I followed that up by slamming his head into the wall.

  He toppled to the ground, conscious but groaning. I looked at Ryan.

  “You want to say something too?”

  He shook his head, turned, and left.

  I walked back to Charley and helped her down off the table. Her eyes were wide and she was shaking slightly.

  “Are they dead?” she asked.

  I laughed. “No. Look at them. They’re both conscious.” I led her out of the room and into the hall. “Are you okay?”

  “I’m fine.” She looked terrified.

  “Hey, it’s okay.”

  “I think I have to go.” She started walking toward the elevator.

  “Hold on. Don’t let that little fuck ruin this.”

  “It’s okay,” she said. “I just have to go.” She walked quickly away.

  I cursed as she disappeared back into the main part of the apartment. I wasn’t going to chase her and force her to stay if she wanted to go, but she was making a mistake. It wasn’t my fucking fault those little twats wanted to step up to me. I wasn’t going to back down in my own damn home.

  I made a fist and slammed the wall. That asshole Ryan probably did that on purpose.

  Now I was even more frustrated than when all of this started. I wanted to chase her down and drag her back, but that was stupid. I wanted to go back into that room and finish beating the fuck out of those two bastards until they weren’t breathing. Most of all, I wanted to break Ryan’s punk-ass nose.

  But none of those were good options. I knew I’d look like a little bitch if I dragged her back, and I’d be fucking up big time if I went after those two poor idiots again. And hurting Ryan was out of the question, since we were on the same team.

  Ryan would get his. Sooner or later some girl would come forward and tell some stories about him, and then he’d go away for a long time. I wished I could make that happen sooner, but I didn’t actually know any real, concrete details.

  Either way,
I was damned if I did and damned if I didn’t, so I went out to the main party, found the bar, and had another drink.

  At least whisky always tasted fucking good.

  17

  Charlotte

  Bull’s driver brought me back to my apartment, and I went quickly upstairs, my heart beating fast in my chest.

  I couldn’t believe how I had felt when I watched Bull fight those two guys. Well, fight wasn’t the word for it, more like dominate. I had actually heard the one guy’s nose break as Bull smashed his face.

  It was exhilarating. I’d never seen a man fight for me before, and I never thought I’d want one to. Except watching Bull take those guys down was so exciting that it absolutely terrified me.

  I quickly got changed and showered just to have something to do. When I was done, I got my purse and pulled the lipstick camera out, plugging it into my laptop.

  I’d had the good sense to get a few pictures while I was there. I had even taken some right in front of Bull, and he hadn’t seemed to notice. I had managed to get a few more behind his back, including when he smashed the second guy’s skull into the wall.

  I flipped through the imagines, frowning. They were really good. You could clearly see some famous people in the background, and at least one of them was doing a line of coke. And the pictures of Bull’s fight were crystal clear and shocking.

  As I stared at the images again, my heart was pounding in my chest. I saw the guys again in slow motion, heard Ryan’s voice, and watched as Bull took care of them.

  I’d had to get out of there, though. I couldn’t hang around, not with Ryan in the apartment. It just felt too strange, and besides, Ryan knew who I was. It was only a matter of time until he told Bull, and then all of this would be over.

  I had to get my article before then. I needed more dirt, as much as I could find before Bull figured out my secret.

  But as I imagined myself writing the scandalous article, I felt Bull’s lips against my neck, his words in my ear. I felt his hand in my hair, pulling it back, and the way he kissed me sent shivers down my spine. I would have let him take me right then and there, despite my protests, if Ryan and those two guys hadn’t come in and interrupted us.

  Maybe it was for the best. I could try to see Bull a couple more times, refrain from drinking to keep myself composed, and try not to get too tangled up with him. Which basically meant try not to sleep with him, although that was clearly a pretty impossible task.