Ray Bradbury Stories Volume 2

by Ray Bradbury

  Jamie took up a station at the end of the bed and stared at Mama, shouting instructions in his mind to her.

  Get well, get well, Ma, get well, you’ll be all right, sure you’ll be fine, I command it, you’ll be fine, you’ll be swell, you just get up and dance around, we need you, Dad and I do, wouldn’t be good without you, get well, Ma, get well, Ma. Get well!

  The fierce energy lashed out from him silently, wrapping, cuddling her and beating into her sickness, tendering her heart. Jamie felt glorified in his warm power.

  She would get well. She must! Why, it was silly to think any other way. Ma just wasn’t the dying sort.

  Dad moved suddenly. It was a stiff movement with a jerking of breath. He held Mama’s wrists so hard he might have broken them. He lay against her breasts sounding the heart and Jamie screamed inside.

  Ma, don’t, Ma, don’t, oh, Ma, please don’t give up.

  Dad got up, swaying.

  She was dead.

  Inside the walls of Jericho that was Jamie’s mind, a thought went screaming about in one last drive of power: Yes, she’s dead, all right, so she is dead, so what if she is dead? Bring her back to life again, yes, make her live again, Lazarus, come forth, Lazarus, Lazarus, come forth from the tomb, Lazarus, come forth.

  He must have been babbling aloud, for Dad turned and glared at him in old, ancient horror and struck him bluntly across the mouth to shut him up.

  Jamie sank against the bed, mouthing into the cold blankets, and the walls of Jericho crumbled and fell down about him.

  Jamie returned to school a week later. He did not stride into the schoolyard with his old assurance; he did not bend imperiously at the fountain; nor did he pass his tests with anything more than a grade of seventy-five.

  The children wondered what had happened to him. He was never quite the same.

  They did not know that Jamie had given up his role. He could not tell them. They did not know what they had lost.

  A Far-away Guitar

  Old Miss Bidwell used to sit with a lemonade glass in her hand in her squeaking rocker on the porch of her house on Saint James Street every summer night from seven until nine. At nine, you could hear the front door tap shut, the brass key turn in the lock, the blinds rustle down, and the lights click out.

  Her routine varied in no detail; she lived alone with a house full of rococo pictures, a dusty library, a yellow-mouthed piano, and a music box which, when she wound it up and set it going, prickled the air like the bubbles from lemon soda pop. Miss Bidwell had a nod for everyone walking by, and it was interesting that her house had no front steps leading up to its wooden porch. No front steps, and no back steps. For Miss Bidwell hadn’t left her house in forty years. In the year 1911, she had had the back and the front steps completely torn down and the porches railed in.

  In the autumn – the closing-up, the nailing-in, the hiding-away time – she would have one last lemonade on her cooling, bleak porch; then she would carry her wicker chair inside, and no one would see her again until the next spring.

  ‘There she goes,’ said Mr Widmer, the grocer, pointing with the red apple in his hand. ‘Take a good look at her.’ He tapped the wall calendar. ‘Nine o’clock of an evening in the month of September, the day after Labor Day.’

  Several customers peered over at Miss Bidwell’s house. There was the old lady, looking around for a final time; then she went inside.

  ‘Won’t see her again until May first,’ said Mr Widmer. ‘There’s a trapdoor in her kitchen wall. I unlock that trapdoor and shove the groceries in. There’s an envelope there, with money in it and a list of the things she wants. I never see her.’

  ‘What’s she do all winter?’

  ‘Only the Lord knows. She’s had a ’phone for forty years and never used it.’

  Miss Bidwell’s house was dark.

  Mr Widmer bit into his apple, enjoying its crisp succulence. ‘Forty years ago, she had the front steps taken away.’

  ‘Why? Folks die?’

  ‘They died before that.’

  ‘Husband or children die?’

  ‘Never had no children nor husband. She held hands with a young man who had all kinds of notions about traveling. They were going to be married. He used to sit and play the guitar and sing to her on that porch. One day he just went to the railway station and bought one ticket for Arizona, California, and China.’

  ‘That’s a long time for a woman to carry a torch.’

  They laughed quietly and solemnly, for it was a sad admission they had made.

  ‘Suppose she’ll ever come out?’

  ‘When you’re seventy? All I do every year is wait for the first of May. If she don’t come out on the porch that day and set up her chair, I’ll know for sure she’s dead. Then I’ll ’phone the police.’

  ‘Good night,’ said everyone, and left Mr Widmer alone in the gray light of his grocery shop.

  Mr Widmer put on his coat and listened to the whining of the wind grow stronger. Yes, every year. And every year at this time he’d watched the old woman become more of an old woman. She was as remote as one of those barometers where the woman comes out for fair weather and the man appears for bad. But what a broken instrument, with only the woman coming out and coming out alone, and never a man at all, for bad or for better. How many thousands of July and August nights had he seen her there, beyond her moat of green grass which was as impassable as a crocodile stream? Forty years of small-town nights. How much might they weigh if put to the scale? A feather to himself, but how much to her?

  Mr Widmer was putting on his hat when he saw the man.

  The man came along the street, on the other side: an old man, dim in the light of the single corner street lamp. He was looking at all the house numbers, and when he came to the corner house, number 11, he stopped and looked at the lightless windows.

  ‘It couldn’t be,’ said Mr Widmer. He turned out the light and stood in the warm grocery smell of his shop, watching the old man through the plate glass. ‘Not after this much time.’ He shook his head. It was much more than ridiculous, for hadn’t he felt his heart quicken at least once a day, every day, for four decades whenever he saw a man pass or pause by Miss Bidwell’s? Every man in the history of the town who so much as tied a shoelace in front of her locked house had been a source of wonder to Mr Widmer.

  ‘Are you the young man who ran off and left our Miss Bidwell?’ he cried to himself.

  Once, thirty years ago, white apron flapping, he had run across the brick street to confront a young man. ‘Well, so you came back!’

  ‘What?’ the young man said.

  ‘Aren’t you Mr Robert Farr, the one who brought her red carnations and played the guitar and sang?’

  ‘The name’s Corley,’ and the young man drew forth silk samples to display and sell.

  As the years passed, Mr Widmer had become frightened about one thing: Suppose Mr Farr did come back some day, how was he to be recognized? In his mind, Mr Widmer remembered the man as striding and young and very clean-faced. But forty years could peel a man away and dry his bones and tighten his flesh into a fine, acid etching. Perhaps some day Mr Farr might return, like a hound to old trials, and, because of Mr Widmer’s negligence, think the house locked and buried deep in another century, and go away, never the wiser. Perhaps it had happened already!

  There stood the man, the old man, the unbelievable man, at nine-fifteen in the evening of the day after Labor Day in September. There was a slight bend to his knees and his back, and his face was turned to the Bidwell house.

  ‘One last try,’ said Mr Widmer. ‘Sticking my nose in.’

  He stepped lightly over the cool brick street and reached the farther curb. The old man turned toward him.

  ‘“Evening,” said Mr Widmer.

  ‘I wonder if you could help me?’ said the old man. ‘Is this the old Bidwell house?’

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘Does anyone live there?’

  ‘Miss Ann Bidwell, she’s still
there.’

  ‘Thank you.’

  ‘Good night.’ And Mr Widmer walked off, his heart pounding, cursing himself. Why didn’t you ask him, you idiot! Why didn’t you say, Mr Farr? Is that you, Mr Farr?

  But he knew the answer. This time, he wanted it to be Mr Farr. And the only way to insure that it was Mr Farr was not to shatter the thin bubble of reality. Asking outright might have evoked an answer which would have crushed him all over again. No, I’m not Mr Farr; no, I’m not him. But this way, by not asking, Mr Widmer could go to his home tonight, could lie in his upstairs bed, and, for an hour or so, could imagine, with an ancient and implausible tinge of romanticism, that at last the wandering man had come home from long trackways of traveling and long years of other cities and other worlds. This sort of lie was the most pleasant in which to indulge. You don’t ask a dream if it is real, or you wake up. All right then, let that man – bill collector, dust-man, or whatever – for this night, at least, assume the identity of a lost person.

  Mr Widmer walked back across the street, around the side of his shop, and up the narrow, dark stairs to where his wife was already in bed, asleep.

  ‘Suppose it is him,’ he thought, in bed. ‘And he’s knocking on the house sides, knocking on the back door with a broom handle, tapping at the windows, calling her on the ’phone, leaving his card poked under the doors, suppose?’

  He turned on his side.

  ‘Will she answer?’ he wondered. ‘Will she pay attention, will she do anything? Or will she just sit in her house with the fenced-in porch and no steps going up or down to the door, and let him knock and call her name?’

  He turned on his other side.

  ‘Will we see her again next May first, and not until then? And will he wait until then … six months of knocking and calling her name and waiting?’

  He got up and went to the window. There, far away over the green lawns, at the base of the huge, black house, by the porch which had no steps, stood the old man. And was it imagination or was his voice calling, calling there under the autumn trees, at the lightless windows?

  The next morning, very early, Mr Widmer looked down at Miss Bidwell’s lawn.

  It was empty. ‘I doubt if he was even there,’ said Mr Widmer. ‘I doubt I even talked to anyone but a lamp post. That apple was half cider; it turned my head.’

  It was seven o’clock; Mrs Terle and Mrs Adams came into the cold shop for bacon and eggs and milk. Mr Widmer edged round the subject. ‘Say, you didn’t see no prowlers near Miss Bidwell’s last night, did you?’

  ‘Were there some?’ cried the ladies.

  ‘Thought I saw some.’

  ‘I didn’t see no one,’ they said.

  ‘It was the apple,’ murmured Mr Widmer. ‘Pure cider.’

  The door slammed, and Mr Widmer felt his spirits slump. Only he had seen, and the seeing must have been the rusted product of too many years of trying to live out another person’s life.

  The streets were empty, but the town was slowly arising to life. The sun was a reddish ball over the courthouse clock. Dew still lay on everything in a cool blanket. Dew stood in bubbles on every grass blade, on every silent red brick; dripped from the elms and the maples and the empty apple trees.

  He walked slowly and carefully across the empty street and stood on Miss Bidwell’s sidewalk. Her lawns, a vast green sea of dew that had fallen in the night, lay before him. Mr Widmer felt again the warm pounding of his heart. For there, in the dew, circling and circling the house, where they had left fine, clear impressions, was a series of endless footprints, round and round, under the windows, near the bushes, at the doors. Footprints in the crystal grass, footprints that melted as the sun rose.

  The day was a slow day. Mr Widmer kept near the front of his shop, but saw nothing. At sunset, he sat smoking under the awning. ‘Maybe he’s gone, maybe he’ll never come back. She didn’t answer. I know her. She’s proud and old. The older the prouder, that’s what they say. Maybe he’s gone off on the train again. Why didn’t I ask him his name? Why didn’t I pound on the doors with him!’

  But the fact remained that he hadn’t asked and he hadn’t pounded, and he felt himself the nucleus of a tragedy that was beginning to grow far beyond him.

  ‘He won’t come back. Not after all night walking round. He must have left just before dawn. Footsteps still fresh.’

  Eight o’clock. Eight-thirty. Nothing. Nine o’clock. Nine-thirty. Nothing. Mr Widmer stayed open until quite late, even though there were no customers.

  It was after eleven when he sat by the upstairs window of his home, not watching exactly, but not going to bed either.

  At eleven-thirty, the clock struck softly, and the old man came along the street and stood before the house.

  ‘Of course!’ said Mr Widmer to himself. ‘He’s afraid someone will see him. He slept all day somewhere and waited. Afraid of what people might say. Look at him there, going round and round.’

  He listened. There was the calling again. Like the last cricket of the year, like the last rustle of the last oak leaf of the season. At the front door, at the back, at the bay windows. Oh, there would be a million slow footprints in the meadow lawn tomorrow when the sun rose.

  Was she listening?

  ‘Ann, Ann, oh, Ann!’ was that what he called? ‘Ann, can you hear me, Ann?’ – was that what you called when you came back very late in the day?

  And then, suddenly, Mr Widmer stood up.

  Suppose she didn’t hear him? How could he be sure that she was still able to hear? Seventy years make for spider webs in the ears, gray waddings of time which dull everything for some people until they live in a universe of cotton and wool and silence. Nobody had spoken to her in thirty years save to open their mouths to say hello. What if she were deaf, lying there in her cold bed now like a little girl playing out a long and lonely game, never even aware that someone was tapping on the rattling windows, someone was calling through her flake-painted door, someone was walking on the soft grass round her locked house? Perhaps not pride but a physical inability prevented her from answering!

  In the living room, Mr Widmer quietly took the ’phone off the hook, watching the bedroom door to be certain he hadn’t wakened his wife. To the operator he said, ‘Helen? Give me 729.’

  ‘That you, Mr Widmer? Funny time of night to call her.’

  ‘Never mind.’

  ‘All right, but she won’t answer, never has. Don’t recall she ever has used her ’phone in all the years after she had it put in.’

  The ’phone rang. It rang six times, and nothing happened.

  ‘Keep trying, Helen.’

  The ’phone rang twelve times more. His face was streaming perspiration. Someone picked up the ’phone at the other end.

  ‘Miss Bidwell!’ cried Mr Widmer, almost collapsing in relief. ‘Miss Bidwell?’ he lowered his voice. ‘This is Mr Widmer, the grocer, calling.’

  No answer. She was on the other end, in her house, standing in the dark. Through his window he could see that her house was still unlit. She hadn’t switched on any lights to find the ’phone.

  ‘Miss Bidwell, do you hear me?’ he asked.

  Silence.

  ‘Miss Bidwell, I want you to do me a favor,’ he said.

  Click.

  ‘I want you to open your front door and look out,’ he said.

  ‘She’s hung up,’ said Helen. ‘Want me to call her again?’

  ‘No thanks.’ He put the receiver back on the hook.

  There was the house, in the morning sun, in the afternoon sun, and in the twilight – silent. Here was the grocery, with Mr Widmer in it, thinking: she’s a fool. No matter what, she’s a fool. It’s never too late. No matter how old, wrinkled hands are better than none. He’s traveled a long way, and, by his look, he’s never married but always traveled, as some men do, crazy to change their scenery every week, every month, every year, until they reach an age where they find they are collecting nothing at all but a lot of empty trips and a l
ot of towns with no more substance to them than movie sets and a lot of people in those towns who are about as real as wax dummies seen in lighted windows late at night as you pass by on a slow, black train.

  He’s been living with a world of people who didn’t care about him because he never stayed anywhere long enough to make anyone worry whether he would rise in the morning or whether he had turned to dust. And then he got to thinking about her and decided that she was the one real person he’d ever known. And just a little too late, he took a train and got off and walked up here, and there he is on her lawn, feeling like a fool, and one more night of this and he won’t come back at all.

  This was the third night. Mr Widmer thought of going over, of setting fire to the porch of Miss Bidwell’s house, and of causing the firemen to roar up. That would bring her out, right into the old man’s arms, by Jupiter!

  But wait! Ah, but wait.

  Mr Widmer’s eyes went to the ceiling. Up there, in the attic – wasn’t there a weapon there to be used against pride and time? In all that dust, wasn’t there something with which to strike out? Something as old as all of them – Mr Widmer, the old man, the old lady? How long since the attic has been cleaned out? Never.

  But it was too ridiculous. He wouldn’t dare!

  And yet, this was the last night. A weapon must be provided.

  Ten minutes later, he heard his wife cry out to him, ‘Tom, Tom! What’s that noise! What are you doing in the attic?’

  At eleven-thirty, there was the old man. He stood in front of the stepless house as if not knowing what to try next. And then he took a quick step and looked down.

  Mr Widmer, from his upstairs window, whispered, ‘Yes, yes, go ahead.’

  The old man bent over.

  ‘Pick it up!’ cried Mr Widmer to himself.

  The old man extended his hands.

  ‘Brush it off! I know, I know it’s dusty; but it’s still fair enough. Brush it off, use it!’

  In the moonlight, the old man held a guitar in his hands. It had been lying in the middle of the lawn. There was a period of long waiting while the old man turned it over with his fingers.