Addicted

by Claire Adams

  I was laughing so hard that I'd pulled my legs from him and was curled up on my side in pain.

  He swatted my butt and got up, walking back to the stove.

  My phone buzzed and I pulled it out as I wiped tears from my eyes. It was my brother and he was tired of being alone. Dad wasn't there and he was starving.

  I looked over at Finn and sighed. "That's my little brother. I need to go."

  "Sure. No problem. This is almost done. Let me just package some of it up for you guys and I'll drop you off."

  "I hate for you to go out. Just let me take your truck and I'll pick you up for work in the morning."

  "What? No. I want to take you home. Get your shoes on and we'll get going."

  I did just as he said and walked languidly to the door. "It's a good thing he called, right?"

  Finn smiled wickedly as he handed me the stew and leaned over, kissing me softly. "Would you want to spend the night with me? To let me fuck you? Are you ready for that?"

  I leaned in and pressed a long, hot kiss against his perfect mouth. "Yes. That's part of the problem."

  "Well, when it stops being a problem you let me know and we make it happen."

  Chapter 16

  Finn

  My sleep was filled with dreams of what would have happened if Chloe hadn't left. After our day together, I drove her back to the shop to get her SUV in a comfortable silence and let her go without another kiss. I wanted one, but figured she'd given more than enough of herself for the day.

  I worked my ass off, trying to push through my jobs as quickly as possible so I would be available by the early afternoon. She wanted to take her brother snowboarding and there was a new hill that had opened the previous weekend on the east side of the city. I was dying to get over there and knew that if I could impress her brother, maybe I could wiggle my way into her heart a little deeper. I was running out of time with her and I'd just met her.

  My phoned buzzed several times during the day, but after checking it and seeing it was Brian, I figured I’d hit him up later on my way home to shower and change. I wrapped up my last job and stopped by the shop, only to have my dad pull me in his office for a few minutes.

  "What's up?" I dropped down in the chair in front of his desk.

  "That girl from yesterday...you need to be careful with her."

  "Chloe? Why?" I pulled off my knit cap and scratched my hair frantically.

  Dad's lip curled in a snarl, as if I cared what he thought of my hygiene. I'd worked hard and sweated like an ape all day. I needed a shower and clean clothes badly.

  "She's a Burke, son. She doesn't seem like her old man, but I'm just warning you. Jonathan is a stealing, lying bastard."

  "Chloe's leaving in two weeks, Dad. The only thing she's taking with her is likely my heart."

  "That's what I'm worried about. You need to be smart about this. You're too damn giving." He leaned back in his chair and pinned me with a knowing glare.

  "I don't really have a choice. I'm falling in love with her. She's smart and sweet, beautiful and probably the most authentic person I've met in ages." I slipped my hands in my pockets. "She makes me want to be a good man."

  "Awe damn. You're already lost to her, then." He stood up and let out a long sigh. "Stay away from her father. He and I have..."

  "Bad blood between you. I know. She asked me why yesterday, but I wasn't sure of the answer." I shrugged, not really caring. I might be falling for Chloe, but it wasn't like we'd be sending out wedding invitations anytime soon. There was the issue of her being a million miles away and not wanting a long distance relationship. Her father was the least of my concerns. Besides, her and I were still very much classified as friends.

  "She knows about me and Jonathan?"

  "I guess. Who knows how, but she doesn't know why." I walked to the door.

  "You're not going to ask for her?"

  "Nope. If you wanted me to know, then you'd tell me." I put my hat back on and tapped the doorframe. "You need anything else? There's a large mountain and a snowboard calling my name."

  "Must be a nice break from it being a woman. There the only ones who usually call out your name," he laughed.

  I rolled my eyes, flipping him off and walking back out into the freezing cold afternoon.

  I got in the truck and texted Chloe to meet me at the ski lodge in front of the mountain in an hour or so. We could rent her a board or skis if she preferred. She reminded me that her brother Parker was coming, which I was looking forward to. I didn't have a brother, so I'd be happy to borrow hers for the afternoon, as long as he wasn't a tit.

  My phone buzzed again as I drove home, and I growled. Brian again.

  "Damn, dude. You'd think we were dating with as many times as you've called me today," I barked.

  "Well, if you'd pick up, I wouldn't have to keep trying. I haven't heard from you since the other night at the club. How did things go with Cindy?"

  "They didn't. You knew I wanted Chloe and yet you didn't help at all. You actually stepped on my dick. Is there a reason for that?" I didn't realize how pissed I was until we started talking about it.

  "Yeah, because I don't want to see you get hurt. You have enough shit you’re dealing with. Falling in love with a girl who's leaving in two weeks and already has a man isn't going to fly."

  "Already has a man?" My heart almost stopped in my chest. Was Chloe playing me?

  "Yes. Please tell me that you haven't been hanging out with this girl."

  "Of course, I have. She's everything I want in a woman." I ran my hand over my head and tugged my hat back off, throwing it across the console of the truck.

  She didn't have a boyfriend. That would be ridiculous. With as timid as she was, she probably just told Brian that she was dating someone to keep him off of her.

  "Well, stop. She's taken and you don't need your heart broken." Brian was still ranting at me, but I calmed as soon as I realized that he was only trying to protect me.

  "I'm seeing her today. I'll talk to her about it, see what's up."

  "I think that's a bad idea."

  I clenched my jaw and held back a growl. "I appreciate your concern, buddy. But I'm a grown-ass man. I'll figure it out, but thanks."

  "Whatever, dude. Don't get pissed when I say I told you so." He hung up and I gripped the steering wheel tight.

  Chloe wasn't seeing someone and Brian being overly sensitive about it was simply his way of watching out for me. I would just clear things up and get on with trying to win the beautiful girl.

  * * * *

  By the time I met her at the Wolf Lodge on the east side of town, I was pissy and convinced that she was still taken by some guy back home. Why wouldn't a girl as beautiful and talented as her be?

  She was obviously an incredible catch, and by the way she kissed and petted at me all night, she knew how to turn a man on. There was no way someone like her was single. That meant she was just getting out of a relationship.

  Wait, didn't she tell me that? She was just getting out of a relationship and didn't want to date anyone else right now? Or was that another girl I'd been involved with?

  The conversations seemed to run together. I grumbled under my breath and parked the truck before getting out, pulling my board out of the back and walking toward them.

  She was in ski pants and a long sleeve shirt that fit her incredibly well. She smiled and her whole face lit up. She was happy to see me, and here I was, planning to light into her.

  Guilty before proven innocent, huh?

  I let out a long, slow breath as I approached them and forced a smile.

  "Finn, this is my brother Parker. Parker, my friend Finn."

  Parker stuck out his hand and gave me a goofy grin. "Hey. Nice to meet you."

  "You, too. I heard you got some skills." I nodded toward his board.

  "Some, but I'm always up for learning something new." Parker glanced toward Chloe. "I'm going to go wax my board in the lodge. I'll meet you guys by the lift."

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bsp; "Alright. See you up there." She turned to me and smiled. "You look good."

  "Yeah? Same man I was yesterday, I think." I shrugged and turned to walk after her brother. "You coming?"

  She moved up beside me and I could tell from the tension in her shoulders that she was reading into my comments.

  "What's the matter?" She pulled me to a stop and forced me to face her.

  "I'm tired. I worked my ass off all day and tried to hurry, which left me a little more put out than I thought it would." I shrugged and looked around her, not sure why I felt the need to be a dick, but I did. "It's all good."

  "Okay," she mumbled as she fell in behind me.

  I should have stayed at home after talking to Brian. I couldn't shake the thought of her being with someone else and yet to ask her would have me looking needy and childish. She'd already mentioned that her life wasn't going to be in Colorado and that we were strictly going to remain friends. I just needed to lean on that and stop pushing in the other direction.

  Parker turned as I walked up beside him and smiled. "Hurry up and scoot over. I haven't waxed mine, either."

  Chloe walked past us and left the building, moving toward the lift with her skis in her hands.

  "What's that about? She okay?" Parker glanced from Chloe to me.

  "Yeah, absolutely." I shrugged and worked on getting my board ready.

  "Don't hurt my sister. I know you're the big shit around here, which is totally cool, but she's not just another notch on your belt. Understood?" I had to give the kid the respect he deserved for having the balls to stand up to me like that. I would have done it for my sister, too, if I had one.

  "Hell, yeah. I hear you loud and clear." I winked and turned back to the task at hand. "Question for you, you know, in the hopes of not having my heart crushed...she got a boyfriend?”

  Parker looked like he was thinking about whether to be truthful or not. "Why does it matter?"

  "Because it does." I stood to my full height and looked down at him.

  "Yeah, she does. They've been dating forever. He's headed to the NFL next year." He shrugged, took his board and headed for the door. "She's just a friend to you, right?"

  "Yep. Just skiing buddies. She's not interested in anything else. I just didn't know why. Now, I do." I smiled as my heart broke in my chest.

  She had lied to me, but why?

  "Cool." He walked out and put his arm around Chloe's shoulders.

  I finished up and walked out behind them, slipping on a tight facade. I would have fun with them as friends and then I was done. My heart was already too wrapped up and it was my own fucking fault. Chloe wasn't to blame. I was. She had been clear with her intentions.

  "You guys ready?" I glanced toward Chloe and smiled. "You sure you don't want to try one of these babies? They're so much fun."

  She gave me a tight smile, still upset about our conversation. "No, but thanks."

  Parker helped her up onto the lift and took the seat next to her, which was fine with me.

  I waved at them and winked at her. "I'll catch you at the top." I waited until the next one came, and sunk down into it.

  The wind and snow blew around me as I tried hard to pull myself out of the slump I was diving into. This was a good thing. It was the caution tape being resurrected. She was off limits and even though she was starting to open up to me, it would only lead to her cheating on her boy and hating herself.

  She wasn't the type of woman who wanted to cheat, she'd made that clear. I could respect that and would just back off. Besides... I was a man whore. All the lovey-dovey shit I was starting to feel was incredibly uncomfortable if I really thought about it.

  I dropped off the lift and moved beside them before glancing around. "There's two hard slopes and an easy one."

  "I'm going to focus on the easy one for a little while to see if I remember how to do this." Chloe turned and walked toward it.

  "I'll go with you, Sis," Parker called after her, but I caught his arm.

  "No, I'll go. I need to talk to her for a minute, anyway. You get on the hard one and show me some shit. Seriously. I'll be watching from the side." I smiled and Parker looked at Chloe, then back to the new hill.

  "You sure?"

  "Yeah. Get to it." I pushed at his shoulder and he turned, moving quickly to the starting line.

  I jogged toward Chloe and stopped beside her. "Hey."

  "Hey." She glanced over at me and moved to a bench to tighten her skis.

  "Sorry about earlier. I'm just tired. Forgive me?" I smiled and touched her shoulder, not wanting the nasty energy between us to continue. I could have fun for a few weeks off and on with her – I'd just treat her like Brian.

  "Already done." She gave me a sad smile and I knew it was a lie.

  "Chloe." I reached for her, but she moved, getting up and heading toward the mountain.

  She paused and looked back, as if she knew things were ending between us before they even began. "Are you still coming over tonight?"

  "I can't," I lied. "Something has come up with my dad. Rain check?"

  "Absolutely." She nodded, her beautiful face expressionless.

  If I thought my heart had shattered over finding out that she was still with her man, I had no clue what I was talking about. It hurt so much worse standing there, watching her hurt.

  Why did she want me in her life if someone already had the spot I wanted so badly?

  She didn't seem like the kind of woman to play around with someone’s emotions, so what the fuck was happening?

  Chapter 17

  Chloe

  "That was a blast!" Parker yelled after we'd been on the slopes for more than two hours. We all met back up at the bottom, the guys breathless from trying to outdo each other.

  Something was bothering Finn, but instead of talking to me about it, he slammed a door in my face. It hurt way more than it should and I was at a loss as to what to do about us. The friendship thing was a rouse and we both knew it. I wanted more and he did, too – or he used to. After our afternoon avoiding each other, I wasn't so sure anymore.

  "I have to get to the front of the lodge." Parker glanced down at his watch. "My friend's dad is supposed to pick me up here in twenty minutes."

  "Well, go and I'll see you tomorrow." I reached out and ruffled his hair.

  He jerked back and glanced around. "Sis...shit."

  I laughed and Finn joined me.

  "Be lucky you have a sister that loves you." Finn turned to me and smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes.

  "Speaking of..." Parker took my attention for a minute more. "You going to be okay at home alone tonight?"

  "Yeah. I'm good." I crossed my arms over my chest as he gave me a look. "Honestly. I'm a grown-ass woman."

  Finn laughed again. "I'll be at her beck and call should something happen."

  "Alright. Call if you need me." Parker looked around before giving me a quick hug.

  I watched him go. Finn had been a dick most of the day, and after the night before, I was considering giving up my life just to see where our love affair might go. There was no reason to dream about it now, though. I was like every other girl... a one-night stand. Our date just didn't include sex.

  I slipped my hands in my back pockets. "Thanks for the afternoon. Take care."

  "Chloe." He reached for me, but I didn’t let him touch me.

  I turned and walked quickly toward the car, losing my balance, but catching myself, thankfully. I piled my stuff in the trunk and turned in time to see him running toward me.

  "Wait. Wait." He moved up as I closed the trunk and the first tear dripped onto my cheek.

  "No. I don't want to wait. I want to go home. Obviously whatever was happening between us was something I made up. Call me an idiot and let's be done with this." More tears – fucking embarrassing.

  "Baby." He reached out and grabbed my shoulder, not giving me much room to pull back. "Look, I just...I..."

  "You nothing. That's what. We had our one-night stand
. Thanks for it. It was fun. I almost thought something was happening, but I was wrong. Just the excitement of the chase. Once that's over, there's really no point in anything else." I pulled away from him and walked to my side of the car, getting in.

  "Chloe."

  I let out a slow breath and rolled the window down. "What?"

  "I'm sorry. It's not what you think." He reached into the car and brushed his fingers over my arms.

  "It's not you being a total jerk to me?" I tilted my head and let my confusion bleed across my face.

  "Come to dinner with me and I'll explain. Please." His handsome face was filled with sadness and I couldn't say no. As much as I hated it, I was falling in love with him.

  "Fine, but drive your own car. I don't want to be stranded somewhere with you when this conversation blows up. I've done nothing to deserve your attitude, but I'm willing to hear you out simply because of how great yesterday was." I looked back at the snowy parking lot in front of me, not wanting to look at him anymore. "Where are we going?"

  "You know where Jerry's is?"

  "Yep. See you there." I rolled up the window and he jerked back, cursing at me for catching his arm. He had some explaining to do – not that it would matter to much what his excuses were. I could feel the protective wall already starting to come back up. It was icy cold and I hated it, but since my mother died, it was the only thing that left me able to cope.

  I had thought maybe it was time to open up, to share myself with someone. It seemed so natural with Finn, like fate put us together as a gift for persevering through so many hardships.

  Obviously, I was wrong.

  * * * *

  "I love this place. My dad and I used to come here when I was little and Mom was out of town." Finn sat down across from me, looking much more like the fun-loving guy that rolled around in the snow with me yesterday.

  "What's going on? I'm not in the mood to bullshit around. I was excited about this afternoon and have been waiting all day to see you and you show up and treat me like one of your has-beens. Why?" Tears swam in my eyes again.

  I pulled my arms off the table as he reached across to touch me.