The Governess Who Stole My Heart: A Historical Regency Romance Novel
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“It’s a delicate matter, and I must be sensitive as to how I tell them.”
“But you will, my dear. There is no one more aware of other’s feelings than you.”
“Thank you. But I must go to Elizabeth now. It’s time for lessons.”
“Go. But know that I almost feel like it’s my wedding again. I am so excited for you. I hope you’ll let me help in planning the wedding.”
“I’d like that.”
John carried Elizabeth in his arms. He was taking her to her room as it was her bedtime. Her head rested on his shoulder and she yawned. John patted her back.
“Tell me a story,” Elizabeth, said, yawing again.
The covers were already pulled back like another yawn as John slipped her into the bed and pulled up the covers, tucking them around her neck.
“Once upon a time there was a country girl named Susan,” he began. Elizabeth blinked. “And there was a mean old prince named, John.”
“He wasn’t a mean prince,” Elizabeth insisted.
“Very well, he wasn’t mean—he was as sweet as a piece of honeycomb.”
“With extra sugar on top.”
“Who’s telling this story?” John asked, as he leaned in and blew a wet blowing kiss on her neck.
“You are,” she wiggled. “Go on tell me the story.”
“And this country girl…”
“Susan.”
“Susan went to teach the sad prince’s daughter.”
“He was sad?”
“He was at the time.
“Poor prince.”
“And this poor prince had been sad for a long, long time until the magical Susan came into the house.”
“And she made him happy?” she added.
“She did. She made him very, very happy.”
“And she made the prince’s daughter happy too, didn’t she?”
“What do you think? Did she?”
“Yes. Yes. She did.”
“And the prince decided that he loved this Susan so much he asked her to marry him.”
“And what did she say?”
“She said yes, but only if the prince’s daughter agreed.”
“And did she?”
“What do you think?” John asked.
“That’s a totally silly question. Of course, she agreed.”
“Are you certain about that?”
“Absolutely certain. And they married and lived happily ever after. Is that the rest of the story?”
“One would like to think so.”
“I like that story, you have to tell it to me again,” Elizabeth said with another yawn.”
“Good-night. Sleep tight, sweetheart,” John said leaning in and giving her a kiss.
But she didn’t answer as she was already asleep.
“Have you written your parents that we’re coming for a visit?” John asked Susan as they were having breakfast together the next morning.
“I sent a note saying that I was coming. I didn’t want to mention you or what the reason was. If I told them that, they would become frantic, trying to prepare a lavish welcome for you, and I don’t want that. I want them to get to know you for who you are—all they could see right now is the Duke,” Susan replied.
“What would you think about taking Elizabeth with us?”
“Have you spoken to her yet about the marriage?” Susan asked.
John smiled. “Indirectly, yes.”
“And what did she say?”
“As we expected, she supports us without reservation.”
“I’ll talk to her too. And yes, we should take her. My family enjoyed her so much when I visited them while you were in London. If we’re going to be a family, it’s good that we do things together as a family.”
“Did you set a date for when we’ll be coming?” John asked as she rose up from the table.
“I left it open. I just said sometime next week.”
“Excellent. Let me know when you want to go and I’ll make myself available.”
Susan hesitated, but said, “I’ll need to visit with Katherine as well—alone. I want her to be my chief bridesmaid, and it’s going to be difficult to tell her we’re getting married.”
“Perhaps you can visit her while I get to know your parents.”
Susan stood up from the table and went to John placing her hands on his chest. “My dear, man. It’s difficult for me to believe we’re doing this. It’s still so unreal to me.”
John took her hands. “Fear not, my dear, it is real.” Then he kissed her on the forehead.
It was time. Aunt Clarissa went to her dresser and removed a letter hidden under a stack of undergarments. She looked at the front of the letter. It was addressed to John in Annabel’s handwriting.
She found John speaking with Standish in the kitchen.
“Hello, Aunt,” John said when he saw her come into the room. “Did you wish to see me?” She nodded. “I’ll be right with you.”
He turned back to Standish, finished his conversation, and then came over to her.
“Nephew, I have something for you,” she said gravely.
“Oh?”
She reached into her pocket and pulled out the letter. “This was given to me by Annabel before Elizabeth’s birth and she asked me to keep it until you ever married again. It’s time now you should have this.” And she handed him the letter.
He seemed to be shocked. “How did she know..?”
Aunt gave John a hug. “Read the letter.”
John went up to his rooms, looking at the letter addressed to him. He recognized his wife’s handwriting, but he couldn’t open it immediately.
He closed the door and went over to the window, gazing at the park. His mind went back to the time of Elizabeth’s birth. Why had she written this? How could she know she would not survive the birthing?
He opened the letter.
My Beloved,
If you are reading this, then I am gone. It may be a year after. It may be many, but in either case, I hope you do read this because it means you have moved on and are about to become a husband again. And you have my blessing for that. I am sure she must be the very worthiest of ladies or you would not be marrying her.
I have asked Aunt Clarissa to keep this letter for you until this time. And you may wonder why I am writing this now. After all, I am about to give birth to our first child. Why would such an event prompt me to write this, you might ask? But as I near the due date, I feel that something is wrong with the pregnancy. I can’t say why, and I couldn’t even explain to Doctor Richards why I feel this. But I know there is a danger.
If the birth goes well I shall destroy this letter and we will continue in our happy life together. If not…then…
But my dearest husband and friend, I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and soul and have had the happiest life possible with you.
I knew you were my true love when we first met that fateful night in my father’s house. An arranged marriage. I expect you dreaded that as much as I did. But when we finally met I knew the graces had brought us together. And for that, I am forever grateful.
In closing know I love you—then, now, and forever.
Your Loving and Devoted Wife,
Annabel
John’s heart swelled and he burst into tears—unexpressed tears that belched from the well of grief that still lay deep within him. And as he sobbed, he felt the last savage vestiges of anger and sorrow begin to melt away. It was the last gift he would receive from his first wife.
Elizabeth was sitting on her father’s lap as the carriage drove toward Susan’s family home. She had ribbons in her hair that Susan had lovingly woven into a crown atop her head. She was excited to be visiting Susan’s parents again. She’d had such a fun time when she’d been there before.
“Are your sister and brother’s families going to be there too? Elizabeth asked.
“No, dear, just my Mamma, and Papa. It’s going to be a short visit. We want your father
to meet my parents and tell them about our engagement.”
“That’s nice. Will there be candy?”
“Perhaps. Mamma always has a few surprises tucked away somewhere in the house.”
The carriage arrived at the Wilton house and Mamma came out to greet them.
“Where’s Papa,” Susan asked as she stepped out of the carriage.
“He’s in the barn. I’ll go find him.”
Then John stepped out of the carriage with Elizabeth and Mamma stopped short.
“Oh, Your Grace… We weren’t expecting you.” She curtsied.
“Mamma, we didn’t want a fuss. We just want to have a chat with you.”
Mamma seemed flustered. She turned in several circles and then headed toward the barn, calling out, “I’ll just fetch your father, and we’ll be right back. Go on inside.”
“Let me go with you,” Elizabeth screamed, as she jumped out of John’s arms and ran after Mamma.
“Elizabeth!” John shouted. But she was gone.
“She’ll be fine,” Susan insisted, laying her hand on John’s arm, and then took it, as she led him inside.
Papa came into the sitting room first, drying his hands with a towel after washing them in the kitchen.
“Your Grace,” he said bowing slightly, “Care for a smoke? Got me some fresh tobacco.”
“No thank you, but please yourself. We just stopped by to give you all some good news.”
Mamma came trotting in from the kitchen carrying a bowl of soup. “Have you eaten? Have some soup. Just made it this very morning.”
“Mamma, stop,” Susan insisted. “We don’t need anything. We just want to talk to you and tell you our good news.”
“Oh.” Mamma seemed flustered and didn’t know what to do with the bowl, so she returned to the kitchen and came back with Elizabeth trailing behind her.
“Sit, both of you,” Susan ordered.
“You have news?” Mamma asked, wide eyed and breathless.
John stood and addressed her parents, “Squire… Mrs. Wilton, I’ve come to formally ask for your daughter’s hand in marriage.”
When the uproar was over, after the announcement to her parents, Susan whispered to John she was going to see Katherine. He nodded and turned back to her parents to tell them the tale of their romance.
Susan was more than apprehensive as she headed toward Katherine’s home. She arrived in the village and knocked on the family’s door.
Katherine’s mother answered. She looked surprised. “Oh, Susan,” she cried out and burst into tears.
“Mrs. Howe…” Susan said embracing her.
“Come in. I’m sorry. It was just such a shock seeing you after…”
“I know. I’m sorry I didn’t let you know I was coming, as it was somewhat last minute. Is Katherine in?”
“Oh, yes. She’s in the kitchen.”
Mrs. Howe led Susan to Katherine, who looked up in surprise and then smiled. “Oh, Susan… I’ve missed you so much.” She rushed over and took Susan in her arms.
“How are you doing?” Susan asked.
“Well enough. It’s been a difficult time, but things are leveling out now that Daniel’s getting treatment. Did you come to see your parents?” she asked, wiping her hands on her apron.
“Yes, and you. Do you have time to sit with me for a spell? I need to talk to you,” Susan asked.
“Of course, do you want some tea?”
“Not now. Mamma has been trying to ply us with soup all morning.”
“Us?” Katherine asked.
“Yes, and that’s what I want to talk to you about.”
“Oh… all right. Let’s go to my room. There’s a nice fire there.”
They went to Katherine’s room.
“Come sit with me. I’ve missed you so much since Daniel’s breakdown,” she said.
“And how is he doing?”
“It’s too early to know. But the institute’s doctors are hopeful that he might eventually recover. Although they say it may never be fully.”
“I’m so very sorry. I know your family must be devastated.”
“It’s like losing him all over again,” Katherine said, tucking her legs under her, as she settled into the sofa.
Susan sat beside her and took her hands, looking into her eyes.
“I have some good news, but it may upset you,” Susan began.
Katherine looked at Susan askance. “Why would it upset me?”
“It’s about John… the Duke, and I. There’s no easy way to say this except to say we’re engaged.”
It was clear Katherine did not expect that, and she put her hand to her mouth.
“I know. It’s a shock. But John and I have been getting to know one another for many months now. Working together, sharing the care of Elizabeth together. Our affections just grew. And then Daniel was away and we had so little communication until he returned so expectantly.”
“Do you think this still would have happened if Daniel hadn’t had his troubles?”
“Yes, Katherine, I believe it would have. I cared a great deal for Daniel, but while I admired him and was deeply grateful for his attentions toward me, I have to honestly say it was not a passionate romance.”
Katherine was silent and gazed into her lap. “But I thought…”
Susan took Katherine’s hand again. “John and I… we’ve become so closely knitted together. And Elizabeth has become such a deep part of my life. I cannot imagine not being with her and caring for her.”
“And the Duke? Do you care for him as deeply?”
“Yes. I do. When he touches me I shiver from head to toe. He makes my vision go wobbly and I feel like I’m melting. And as much as I cared for Daniel—and I did—I never felt that way when he touched me. I feel I would have eventually made the same decision even if Daniel hadn’t become ill.”
Katherine fingered her apron for a moment before speaking. “Perhaps you’re right.”
“And what about your marriage? Have you and Roger set a date?
Katherine gave her first smile. “Yes. It’s going to be in May of next year. And I want you to be my bridesmaid. Will you?”
“I will if you’ll be mine,” Susan said.
Katherine and Susan both nodded together. Then they threw their arms around each other and began to cry.
Chapter 29
Elizabeth was asleep on Susan’s lap as they headed back toward Haverford. John was holding Susan’s hand and even he was fighting nodding off.
Mamma had persuaded them to say for dinner and had managed to send word to Jacob and Louisa to bring their families to meet the newly engaged couple.
Now, as the carriage rocked, all three were tired.
“How did it go with Katherine?” John asked when he had briefly shaken off his tiredness.
“Well enough. I left it for her to tell her parents about our engagement. And we both agreed to be each other’s bridesmaids. So it was not a disaster.”
“Christmas is coming rapidly upon us. I’d like to announce our engagement Christmas day. Would that be fine with you?” John asked.
Susan nodded. “Seems like a good time to do it. But won’t we need to set a wedding day before we announce?”
John nodded. “If you like. And what are your thoughts about that?”
“It would be nice to hold the wedding outdoors in warm weather. April—May? How does that sound?”
John smiled. “I’m not sure I want to wait that long.”
“Oh… Then what are you thinking?” she asked.
“Sometime before the sheering starts up in March.”
“Not in the church where Simon and I were to be married, please. That would not be comfortable—for any of us.”
“I was thinking of the Haverford chapel.”
“Oh, that’s a sweet place. Perfect. Then you set the date to your liking. But let me know because I want to invite my cousin Jessica and her husband and they are so booked ahead they’ll need to know early.”
“Very good idea,” Susan answered.
“Oh, and speaking about engagements, Simon told me he’d found our Christmas tree and announced right afterward that he’d asked Fitz to marry him.”
“Gracious… were you expecting that?”
John laughed. “Simon mentioned the possibility to me a few days before.”
“And how do you feel about that?” she asked.
“Ambiguous, at best. But it’s his life.”
“But does that mean they’ll be living at Haverford with us in perpetuity?” Susan almost giggled.
“I’ve given that some thought.”
“And?”
“I thought they might be able to reside at the school when it’s completed, but if it becomes a boarding school, I don’t think it would be very comfortable living with dozens of students running about.”
“Oh, no.”
“So I think it’s best to wait and see if their wedding actually happens, and if it does, we’ll evaluate the situation then.”
“Have they set a date for their wedding?” Susan asked.
“Not that I know of,” John answered.
“Do you think they may want to have a joint wedding with us?” Susan asked, a little apprehensively.
John grimaced. “It would probably be the expedient thing to do but I’d rather not. He may be my brother, but as a Duke, there is a number of people in the establishment I’ll be expected to invite that wouldn’t be happy attending a second brother’s wedding at the same time.”
“It also detracts from the specialness of each individual wedding. And I feel certain Miss Fitzwilliam would agree.”
They rode on in silence, until John said, “Aunt Clarissa gave me a letter the other day that Annabel wrote me before she gave birth to Elizabeth.”
“I don’t understand…”
“I’ll let you read it. It explains.”
“You want me to read it? Why?”
“I don’t want anything unspoken between us. And one day I’ll want to let Elizabeth see it too. It’s part of who she is and it is part of our history.”