Anya's Freedom

by Lisa Daniels

  “Wolf spirit?”

  “I’ve not spoken to one myself. But that’s how it’s supposed to go.” Markus gave a shrug. “Find the patron wolf spirit, get blessing, everything’s cool. After all, werewolves had to come from somewhere, you know. They used to be humans once. Maybe they asked for a blessing for a successful hunt or something. Most of my clan didn’t know themselves where they came from, except from looking into the old Slavic mythology.”

  Markus examined the pendant that Arina wore, a faint smile playing upon his face.

  “I’m surprised you didn’t go into law enforcement in Bulgaria,” Danny said. “Things are pretty screwy over there.”

  A lurching, knotted feeling invaded Arina’s skin. The mention of her homeland and the idea of her remaining in it made her queasy. She reined down the sensation enough to explain, “I didn’t want to stay in Bulgaria. Too many bad memories. I wanted a fresh start in a new place. Why not the land of the American Dream?”

  Both werewolve’s noses quivered, sensing her trepidation. Danny Lubanov sighed. “Yes. That was part of our thinking too. But… you? I would have thought if you choose this… path, to be a cop, then you might have an ulterior motive for it. More than just making it a job. Though I could be mistaken.”

  The unspoken thought lay between them. Arina knew the werewolves had a good suspicion as to why their human friend had chosen to pursue a career in law enforcement. Ricten Spirova’s leering face came to her mind out of the dark, frozen in the moment where he obliterated the remaining members of her family, reveled in it, loved it. Stamping on human lives as if they were cattle.

  She took deep breaths, trying to release some of the venomous whispers, that told her she should run as far as possible from anything to do with werewolves. “He’s always on my mind. But I did find thinking about it too much was destroying me. I was spiraling down, you know. It got bad.”

  Arina shivered. She didn’t like thinking about the years after she had turned up at the doorstep of her Godfather and his wife in Sofia. It wasn’t a time she cared to dwell in, because it poisoned her mind, tainted all the neural connections like black tar, dragging things to a twisted place. She’d tried everything, when she was old enough to understand, though not necessarily old legally. Sex, drugs, drink – all the classics people employed to forget about the shit that had happened to them. Nothing worked, because once the effects cleared, she was only left in squalor and misery, the gnawing feeling cutting at her heart, at the spot where her father, brother, and her four friends lived. It was a hollow emptiness, even with those memories.

  Eventually, she crawled out of the pit, gathered the shards of her life together, and scrubbed everything clean. Left the dirt and the despair behind, and sank into America, where she’d emerged out in success. When she did reflect upon the past, she waded through the bad memories, the terrible things she’d done to herself, to remember the five of them together, in another lifetime.

  She much preferred thinking of her current status, content in a different country, the threads of her past waving in the wind.

  Except, some of those threads began tying themselves up again, congregating into the form of the two werewolves with her tonight.

  “I’m glad you’re doing well, Ari,” Danny said, patting her on the shoulder. We often thought about you, wondered how you kept. Worried, a lot. You had some heavy memories in your heart. We were scared it meant we could no longer be friends. I believed that idea for a while as well.”

  “Me, too,” Arina confessed. She licked her lips, steepled her fingers. “Easier to think you’re all monsters. But I’ve seen my fair share of human monsters, too. It’s not so straightforward.” Her eyes briefly flickered to her gun. Friends or not, she didn’t know fully the status of the two men with her tonight, how much they kept from her, and what truth they chose to share. She didn’t feel in danger from them, but she would be a fool to trust instantly with two decades of extra existence stamped upon their souls. Except, she finally faced Markus again, and the fluttering in her blood persisted, bringing something else she had tried to bury.

  Love. She had loved that little boy. Had even declared to him that they should marry when she was eight, because marriage was what people were supposed to do when they loved each other.

  A child’s dream, but the memory made her smile.

  “What are you thinking, Arina?” Markus had been gazing at her softly, lips curled, drinking in the sight of her.

  “Nothing,” she lied. “Just… amazed that I got to see you both again. I should be heading back soon, though. It might be crowded in here for the three of us.”

  “Oh, no! No, it won’t! Please stay. There will always be room for you. I insist,” Markus said, a tiny edge of desperation in his voice.

  Arina allowed a smirk to play about her lips. “Well, I suppose if you’ve been looking for me all this time, it would be a shame to leave you so soon. But we can also stay in contact. Catch up. See what changed.”

  “Yes. Of course. But stay with us one night.” A sliver of black invaded Markus’s dark blue irises. His nostrils flared. The gaze made Arina shiver, and a bolt of arousal streaked through her spine. A faint hint of desire creeped onto her cheeks.

  Drat. She knew about the werewolf magnetism. She knew if she stayed here too long, she wouldn’t be able to resist. She’d take Markus, every inch of him, grope him in the darkness and whimper out his name, because the tentative fantasies she harbored for the boy she loved had stirred into thrilled hope, drawing her to him, into the snow-lake scent of him, that took her mind to far away mountains and cold, pristine lakes, and of bird calls in the trees, and the red squirrels, with their little tails flickering, scratching up and down the evergreens.

  Danny Lubanov regarded the exchange smugly, clearly smelling the attraction. “I knew it.”

  Arina shot him an irritated look. “Nothing untoward will happen. We’re going to catch up, share, and then go to sleep like good people. What you think you’re seeing or smelling isn’t actually happening.”

  Markus shook himself, and flexed his arm muscles. “Right. Absolutely no attraction at all. We’re just old friends. Catching up. With things. That need to be caught up with.”

  “Uh huh.” Danny sat back, clearly enjoying this. “You can keep telling yourself that, mister alpha werewolf and hotshot cop. Whatever makes you sleep at night. Or doesn’t.”

  Arina and Markus simultaneously lashed out at Danny, and he blocked the hits, roaring with laughter. “I need to tell Tia this. She’ll love it.”

  “Don’t you dare,” Arina hissed, clawing for Danny’s phone, but he danced out of reach, furiously tapping. Markus ran a deep pink tongue over his top lip, apparently distracted by the barest of hip flesh that had been exposed under Arina’s blouse. Danny waved her aside, giggling.

  “She says that I should make my excuses and give you two a quiet moment together to explore the differences.”

  “Fuck off, seriously,” Arina growled, both turned on and exasperated at the same time. She was annoyed with herself that she could feel the desire, annoyed because her heart and body craved the idea of staying behind, of doing something with Markus Spirova, that even hearing his deep, rumbling voice was enough to make her wet, though she tried to hide it.

  It annoyed her as well, because these people were damn werewolves. A connection to a dark legacy, a world hidden in plain sight. Another, heinous thought wormed in. Markus was also a connection to Ricten Spirova. If she kept him close, it invited that danger, the memories that she wanted to discard back into her life, like a body crawling out the grave.

  It also put him closer within the reach of her gun.

  One step forward, two steps back. She had flourished in Fort Tyr, gained friends, stability. She dreamed about her friends, but would have accepted never seeing them again, leaving them as a crystallized link to the good segment of her past.

  I would have forgotten that I loved him.

  As Danny continue
d sharing the messages he sent to his human girlfriend, Markus and Arina kept finding excuses to look at each other, occasionally touch, brushing limbs.

  Sometimes, it was just best to go with the flow.

  Chapter Four

  There was some definite flowing going on. The door closed behind her. She faced the darkness of Markus’s bedroom and shivered and shivered, her cheeks already flaming from the two glasses of wine she’d treated herself to.

  Markus grabbed her from behind, growling softly, burying his mouth into her neck, sucking and nibbling at the flesh there, pressing his erection into her clothed rear. Sometimes, he sniffed at her hair and neck, the same way Arina took deep inhales, absorbing the intoxicating scent of him. “Arina,” he whispered into her neck, licking at the bruising flesh, as she tilted her head back, mouth open in a silent cry of pleasure. Her legs buckled, and he supported her weight, grasping her tighter, whispering her name again, as if worshipping her, kissing up to her earlobe and lipping it. She felt the smile on her ear, all the electrical ripples in her spine and arms and stomach and clit, and melted into him. He moved up his hands to caress her breasts over the material, squeezing, now gently grinding his hips into her rear, causing the erection to lengthen, causing the wet arousal from Arina’s core to seep into her panties, drenching them.

  Arina’s eyes snapped open, glazed in lust and pleasure, and she pushed herself into Markus’s chest, reaching a hand behind to cup his neck, the shock of cold against warm skin making Markus groan.

  She certainly had wanted to see Markus again. However, Arina didn’t anticipate just how handsome he would be, how horny she would become, and how keen he was in her body, her beauty. It did strange things to the heart and mind, seeing desire in somebody else, knowing that they focused it on you, that they wanted nothing in the world but you at that moment.

  It felt incredible. Arina’s legs dangled as Markus pushed back, lifting her by the waist and positioning her onto the bed. He started tugging off her pants, and a dark thrill surged inside – she knew something of how werewolves had sex – had asked around to the boys when she was eleven, curious of how things worked, because in the smaller villages, girls could marry as young as twelve. Alpha werewolves loved taking someone from the rear – for them, it was an aggressive claim that the person underneath them belonged to them – less a romantic act, more a primal one – marking their territory. Markus wanted to claim her, to take her without preamble, and it made her ridiculously wet, and her breath panted out in excited gasps.

  Still wearing her top, but with her pants and panties pulled off, the bed creaked as he crawled onto it, and dug himself inside her, his throbbing erection wrapped in her inner core. She howled pleasure and longing, and dug into the bed as he began thrusting aggressively inside her, one hand grabbing a fistful of hair as he rocked back and forth, making her whole body move, making the bed creak. Sweat crawled down her forehead, and she cried as he slammed into her, hard, fast, breath hitching in excitement, and her fingers slid further up the sheets from the force. God, Arina thought, a warm knot curling in her stomach, Maybe all my friends were werewolves because I had some of the animal in me as well. Danger attracts me, aggression turns me on – and I crave this. I fucking crave it.

  She braced her palms into the headboards, felt his hands scratch at her hips, felt him pound into her soul, laying bare the fantasies and sometimes twisted thoughts she had, which made her ashamed, made her want to deny she ever had them, except right now she just wanted him within, wanted pain, to give into the darkness that she held at bay, locked within a mental fortress of her own making.

  He reached forward, hands sliding up her blouse, rolling down her bra to grab her breasts and thumb over the nipples, which were rock hard by now, and he bit into her neck, slowing down his thrusts as he orgasmed, spilling his warmth into her. She shivered as he rested against her for a few seconds, before forcibly turning her around, so they could lock gazes. His eyes gleamed icy blue, influenced by the werewolf passion within. A low growl stirred his throat, as Arina, keeping eye contact as much as possible, peeled off the rest of her clothes, and unclasped her bra, letting her hair cascade past her shoulders. The werewolf eye glow began to slowly fade, the more animalistic urge dissipating into the sex-scented air, and he breathed deeper, calmer, as she went and took off his shirt, the rest of his clothes, revealing a masterpiece of a body, lean and muscular at the same time.

  The voice at the back of her head that whispered she should be ashamed of giving into such carnal, basic desire, no less with a werewolf, the murderer of her family, got suffocated into silence. She listened instead to the heartbeat of Markus through her palm, examined the body of her once childhood friend, and leaned forward to brush his lips with hers. For some reason, this sent a powerful, warm shiver through her bones, heated the blood under her skin and melted some of the ice around her heart, because the kiss had something the fucking before them hadn’t – love.

  He kissed back, slowly, letting his arms envelop her, cradle her, and she endulged in the mountain and lake scent of him, tasted the salt of ocean on his lips, clamped his bottom lip between hers, moved and breathed in time with him. It was easy to keep her eyes close, to lose herself into the kiss, which was soft, and sweet, and beautiful.

  When their tongues touched, the raw nerve shock of it sent them both into a bout of aroused shivers, and his erection, which had been recoiling from its former release, quivered a little, but otherwise remained without the same hardness, temporarily out of power.

  That didn’t matter, though. Not at all. Instead, they explored the taste of one another’s mouths, pressed their fronts together and embraced, kissing in rhythm, breathing in sync.

  Markus made a sound which was oddly like a low purr, as he moved from Arina’s mouth to her neck, kissing it with feathery presses.

  “I can’t believe how much I want this,” Arina said, drunk and floating, feeling the odd combination of being secure and anchored at the same time, feeling as if she belonged in his arms. “It’s your werewolf pheromones. Clearly. Making me do all these things.”

  “Yes. Clearly. I mean, like, there’s obviously no way you can resist them. You’ll just have to succumb to my wolfy whims every single time. Such a horrible fate for such a beautiful woman.”

  “Terrible,” Arina murmured, as Markus kissed to her collarbone, along her breast and to her belly button, where he dipped his tongue into her navel for a brief, tantalizing moment. Arina relaxed into the sheets, her head resting against the pillow – she stared at cracks in the ceiling, before closing her eyes, letting Markus carefully spread her legs, breathe hot air onto her thighs, before his warm, wet tongue brushed her nether regions. She jerked, her hips twitched at the powerful shock, and Markus clamped his arms around her thighs to hold her in place as he licked at her, breathed into her, focused on that tiny organ capable of injecting so much endorphin throughout her entire body.

  “Arina,” he said again, saying her name like a prayer. “How I’ve wanted to find you again. How I hung onto the conversations we had, and what a strange absence I felt without being able to see you again. I was empty.”

  His tongue pressed onto her clit, curled around it, flicked. Sometimes, his lips pinched around the organ, sometimes, he huffed tormenting hot air onto it, making her jerk uncontrollably. “I needed you. But you didn’t need me.”

  “I need you,” Arina whispered, opening her eyes to see him staring straight at her face. “I always needed you. I just didn’t always allow myself to see. I wanted to marry you, even. Why do you think I asked so many questions?”

  His eyes turned from worry to surprise to purpose. They transformed color slightly, going from dark blue to ice, as his passion ignited. He gripped her thighs tighter, and dabbed his tongue harder and faster into her clit, making her spasm, cry, gasp to whatever God happened to be out there, her hands reach for Markus’s hair to hold him, to feel him and encourage the assault of pleasure. Her toes curls as the begin
nings of an orgasm began to cluster, rushing closer and closer and closer until it burst like fireworks in her body, shooting out to every limb as she arched, her neck and thigh muscles tensing, her mouth agape as she choked out sounds, shuddering as the feeling melted her into bliss.

  Markus had kept lapping at her the whole time she endured the orgasm, making it last longer, until she became too sensitive, and flinched with every touch. Removing himself away from her core, he wiped his mouth before moving up her body, still happily tucked between her legs, to kiss her on the lips, before positioning himself to comfortably embrace her on the side.

  “Give me a moment,” Arina said. “I’m seeing fairies and stars.” She wasn’t completely lying – her brain felt detached, delirious in the sensations coursing inside.

  Markus kissed her cheek. “I can wait.”

  A strange feeling of sadness went over Arina, mixing with the happiness. She wondered how things might have been, if her family were still alive, if the werewolves had never needed to go away. Would she and Markus have been married? Would she have ever hopped to America, pursued a career in law enforcement, or would she have been happily shacked up in a small village, perhaps with children puking and gurgling on the floor?

  Could that still happen?

  She buried her head into Markus’s shoulder, unsure of how to deal with the new wave of emotions. She knew it was pointless, going down that path. It led to insanity, it caused insanity, considering the thousands of what-ifs your life took you through at any point.

  What if she hadn’t drank, taken drugs. What if Markus and Danny had never warned her ahead of time.

  What if she never exacted any vengeance on Ricten Spirova? What if it didn’t even matter if she did or not?