“Where are you going?” I asked.
“Outside for some fresh air.” he replied.
I followed him. The temperature had dropped more than I expected. I rubbed my arms as goose-flesh broke out. We stayed there for a long time, wrapped in night sounds.
“Thais.” I said at last. “I know I’ve been a disappointment to you. All those years apart, then later, when things turned bad for all of us. But ..
“Shut up.” he said, turning violently toward me. “Just stop talking. How do you think I felt when he came to me? How could I deny him? You’ve cursed me with him.”
He began to weep then. Terrible wracking sobs that shook his frame. I wanted to go and embrace him, but I was afraid to. Afraid that he would reject me again. Oh, what agony it was to hear him in pain. I wondered how Caimbeul could resist the sound of it, for it tore me inside. Like I’d swallowed glass.
I forced myself to wait and watch until his tears began to dry and he seemed more in control of himself.
“Thais.” I said. “I am so sorry. I never wanted you to have to face this. I tried to protect you.”
“I know.” he said. His voice was shaky and rough. “But you haven’t been very good at that. Have you?”
And how could I answer that? But I suspect he didn’t mean me to.
I don’t know how long we stood there in the chilling night air. The stars frosted the sky in diamond-hard brightness. Then, later, I noticed that the black sky was turning purple-gray.
“What did he say?” I asked at last. I felt drained and exhausted. So empty that it didn’t matter what he told me.
“He said you would come for me. He told me that you would try to stop him and it would do you no good.” Thais’s voice sounded weary. I wondered how I could help him, but then I realized there was nothing I could do for him now. That there are some things a parent cannot do for her child.
"Did he tell you if there were any other of the Enemy here?” I asked.
“No.” Thais said. “But I didn’t sense any others. I have always been sensitive to that sort of thing.
Your friend.” he said, giving a jerk of his head toward the house. “He managed to stop something from happening a while ago. But the world has more than one point of entry. They are there waiting. Waiting for the moment when they can return.”
“Did he say anything else?” I asked. “Anything at all might be important.”
“Only that he’s been waiting for you to come to him.”
The sky was light now, moon hanging low against the horizon, looking strange and out of place so near the sunrise. We stood there in silence as the night fled from the day.
Aina sits before an old woman who has black witchy-hair and who wears gypsy colors. The air here is thick with incense and patchouli.
“Cut the cards.” the woman says. Aina does so, feeling the coolness of the deck beneath her fingers.
The reading begins.
The cards lie face down—hidden and hiding their meanings. The first is turned up. The old woman gasps.
The Devil.
In a moment, he’s crossed by the Moon and crowned by the Tower.
Aina shoves away from the table, unwilling to see what comes next.
“But you don’t know how it ends.” the old woman says.
“Why should I want to know?” Aina says. “After all, they’re nothing but a pack of cards.”
18
“You must send me back.” Thais said.
We’d returned to the darkened interior of my living room shortly after sunrise. Thais was not fond of the light. He said it was too cruel.
“Why don’t you stay here with me?” I asked. Caimbeul gave me a sharp look, which I ignored.
“I cannot.” Thais said. “And you know why. But there is something I will tell you. Ysrthgrathe is not the only one of the Enemy here. There is another, just as subtle and as deadly.”
“But where . . . how . . .”
“Deal with Ysrthgrathe first.” Thais said.
I tried to get him to tell me more, but he refused. Finally, I had no other choice than to send him back.
* * *
The house seemed empty after Thais was gone. How I wanted to spend time with him. Get to know him. Figure out his peculiarities. But I had denied myself that long ago. And there was no going into the past to fix things.
We closed up the house again. Sheets covered the furniture. The alarms were set. I didn’t look back as we drove away.
PART II
Millions long for immortality who do not know what to do with themselves on a rainy Sunday afternoon.
—Susan Ertz
She sleeps. And dreams. Safe happy dreams of times never lived and not imagined. They comfort her and calm her until she sinks. Sinks down into the long black darkness of her night.
19
Once, a human discovered what I was.
Like most curious men, he thought that the knowledge would gain him something. As though knowledge is a safe thing. Inert and powerless on its own. It was 1998.
Fin de sie`cle fever was at an all-time high. There were riots and hysterical sightings of UFOs, messiahs. and dead celebrities. I’d bought my home in Scotland a few years earlier for an obscenely cheap price. An earldom, no less. Imagine, me a countess. It was to laugh.
I had settled into a smaller house on this property. The castle held no interest for me, being large and hard to maintain. I’d acquired quite a large fortune over my many eons. I could afford to take the, uh, long view on investments. There are some uses to being immortal—even if they’re only financial.
It was from this vantage point that I was watching everything happening around me with great interest.
The signs were beginning. I knew it wouldn’t be long before the magic returned.
So I began to gather together the things I would need to be prepared. For many centuries I’d hidden artifacts away, waiting for this time. It was on one such trip that I noticed him.
I’d just arrived from Scotland. The United States was still whole back then. The turmoil that would rip it apart was years away. Though I had spent many years in America over the last two centuries, I tried to stay away from the politics of the place. They seemed entirely too messy to me. But that’s always been the nature of freedom.
As I ran to catch my connecting flight to New Orleans, I saw him. He was leaning against one of the pillars that lined the concourse in O’Hare. He wore a black T-shirt and faded blue jeans. A scuffed duffel bag lay at his feet like a lazy dog.
There was a look of intense concentration on his face, as though he were looking not at how I appeared, but at what was inside me. I didn’t like it.
This was before the Awakening, and there was no way he could know what I really was for I’d found ways to disguise my true form. Oh, I appeared human, for the most part. My features were more delicate, perhaps, than most. And I was very thin. But my skin was as black as it ever was, and my hair was dark then, too. Some of the developments in the twenty-first century weren’t all bad. I’d seen that blondes really don’t have more fun, and I found that auburn really didn’t suit me.
As I passed, the light reflected off his glasses, obscuring his eyes from me. I noticed that he had straw-colored hair sprinkled with a little gray. His beard was clipped neat and close, giving him an almost scholarly look. But then I could see his eyes again and once more I had the sensation of being looked through.
Frowning, I turned and hurried on down the corridor. I wouldn’t have given him another thought, except that he boarded my plane not more than fifteen minutes later.
He was the last passenger on, probably flying stand-by. But why was he on this flight? And why had he been standing there in the corridor, as though he were waiting for me?
But he passed by me, not even making eye contact. What an imagination I had, I thought. The idea that he was following me. It was nothing. A chance meeting of the eyes, nothing more.
* * *
De
spite the air conditioning, the air was hot and soupy. The smell of beignets hit me as I walked through the airport. One of the charms of the New Orleans airport was the immediate realization that this place was like none other in the United States. That Puritan priggishness was utterly cast aside here.
Maybe it was the weather, or perhaps the strong hold the French had placed upon the place centuries before, but here there was no hand-wringing over drinking, or gambling, or eating. In short, it was heaven, of a sort.
I caught a cab to the Fairmont Hotel, a gorgeous place with nine-meter-high ceilings in the foyer, crystal chandeliers, thick rugs, and the almost physical sensation of decadence. They also made the most fabulous pecan pie there. A southern confection that I’ve never liked anywhere else.
As the elevator was closing to take me up to my room, I thought I caught a glimpse of Black T-shirt through the milling hotel guests, but I knew it must be my imagination.
* * *
The French Quarter was a five-minute walk from the hotel. New York was the only other place in America where history butts up so closely with the present. I went down Chartres Street, then cut over to Royal. The heavy smell of the olive trees in bloom sweetened the air and almost masked the odor of the river.
Lined in antique shops and small art houses, Royal was my favorite street in the Vieux Carre. Bourbon may have been more famous, but the smell of vomit every few steps always put me off. There were some beautiful homes at the eastern end of Bourbon, but they hardly made up for the foul smells and lingering air of dissipation.
I slipped into one of the antique galleries: de Pouilly’s. Over the years I’d made friends with the owners of many of these stores. They knew me as selective and willing to pay well for what I wanted. In return, I expected them to keep quiet about my visits and to let me . . . wander ... in their shops. The whole Quarter was rabbit-warrened. You might enter an unpretentious storefront, only to discover a maze of rooms that led you through any number of connected buildings. I doubt there was anyone who knew all the twists and turns in these places.
A middle-aged man approached me as I entered. He gave off the superior air of someone who just knew I wasn’t the sort who could afford to buy here.
“May I help you?” he asked in a tone that let me know in no uncertain terms that he thought he couldn’t.
I picked up a bronze piece (not a very good reproduction at that) and turned it over as though considering.
“Tell Mr. Hyslop that Ms. Sluage is here.” I said. I began fingering a porcelain bowl that looked to be an original Meissen. The clerk was obviously torn between telling me not to touch the pretties and trying to decide if I was, indeed, on speaking terms with his employer. Fear won out over officiousness, and he scuttled off like a cockroach.
A few minutes later (I was by now poking around in a large, intricately appointed armoire looking for secret doors), Mr. Hyslop appeared with the now very sweaty clerk in tow.
“Ms. Sluage.” Mr. Hyslop said as he held out his hand. “It’s so good to see you again. I trust you’ve been able to amuse yourself?”
As I backed out of the armoire and gave a little sneeze, Mr. Hyslop produced a handkerchief like a magician performing a trick.
“Bless you.” he said as he pushed it into my hand. “I always get the sneezes when I start looking into these old pieces. No matter how hard we try to keep up, they seem to bring the dust with them.”
“That’s quite all right.” I said, taking the proffered hanky. “I was just investigating to see if I might want this piece.”
“Take your time, take your time.” Hyslop said as he waved his clerk away. The clerk slunk off to go harass a couple who’d just stepped inside from the sweltering October air.
“What I’d like to do is take a look at those items you’ve been keeping for me, and make some arrangements for their transport.”
Hyslop looked a bit concerned. “Are you not satisfied with our arrangement?” he asked. “I thought that—”
“No, no.” I said, cutting him off. “It’s nothing like that. I’ve just finally settled down in one place and I’d like to spend some time enjoying the things I’ve bought.”
“Of course.” he replied. “How foolish of me. Please, this way.”
I followed him through the shop into a series of dimly lit twisting and turning hallways. Then up three flights of narrow stairs painted over so many times there were lumpy bumps like Braille on the railing and walls. It was very quiet here. You couldn’t hear any of the usual street noise that bubbled through the Quarter day and night. He led me into his office, then fumbled around with his keys until he had the right one.
“Here we are.” Hyslop said proudly as he flipped on the light switch.
The closet was small, but crammed to the top with arcana. Shelf after shelf with boxes labeled in a code we’d designed. One shelf held only boxes of books. Another, rare pottery. On yet another, articles of clothing. All had special significance. All were precious only to those who knew what to look for.
I could feel the pull of the energy in that little closet.
“I doubt anyone has a better collection of oddities.” Hyslop said. “I just recently added this.” He pulled a small box from one of the shelves and opened it. Inside was a long white veil, the kind women wore for their weddings and first communions. “It is rumored to have belonged to Marie Laveau’s daughter.”
“I didn’t know she had one.” I said. “A daughter, that is.”
Hyslop nodded vigorously. “She kept her hidden away. She was afraid that when she died, the whites might kill her to keep the Voodoo under control.”
“More than likely to keep the people under control.” I said.
“That too, no doubt.” Hyslop agreed.
“I’d like to look through these.” I said, motioning to the closet.
“Of course.” Hyslop said as he wiped his forehead with another clean white handkerchief. I wondered if he had a pocketful of them, magically pristine and freshly laundered.
“Alone.” I said in a firm but kind voice. After all, I would need Hyslop and his unusual connections for some time to come.
“Of course.” Hyslop said as he pocketed his handkerchief. “Just let me know when you’re finished.”
I smiled at him then, and he gave me a surprised smile back. I suppose I don’t do that often. Smile, that is.
* * *
It took me the better part of the afternoon to go through the boxes. Most of the items were shams. The bones of some shamanistic practitioner, purported to have special curative powers. Shrunken heads, embalmed monkey remains, fossilized eggs. Books supposedly written in Crowley’s own hand detailing his cabalistic findings.
I’d taken care to hide my most precious finds among these harmless trifles. They would be overlooked with all the other folderol. One hopelessly obscure book of cabalistic writings revealed complexities of such an esoteric nature that even I had trouble following it. The challenge of it excited me.
There were other items as well: suspicious bones, the source of which I knew only too well. How had they come to this place again? And so obviously long ago.
There was also a small painting depicting a creature I knew for a fact had not walked the face of this planet for at least seven thousand years. Yet here it was depicted in a piece that could not have been more than fifty years old.
I wrapped my treasures carefully and returned them to their innocuous hiding places.
I felt grimy and hungry all at once. It was almost five by Hyslop’s grandfather clock. I pulled the chain to the light, then shut the closet door. It had an automatic lock, but I still jiggled the doorknob to see if it would open. It didn’t.
On the whole, things were going well. I would have Hyslop crate everything up and ship it to my estate in Scotland. I’d already made the necessary arrangements with Customs, so there would be little delay in my receiving them once I was back home. I felt quite smug and pleased with myself and decided that I need
ed a decadent dinner to celebrate. I picked up the phone on Hysiop’s desk and made a reservation for one at Antoine’s for eight o’clock. I would feast tonight.
* * *
Walking back to the Fairmont, I noticed a van parked on a corner of one of the side streets I passed. It was painted dull black and had reflector stick-on numbers on the back window: 666. I glanced inside the van as I passed. A man, about forty-five or -six with a scraggly beard, sat in the passenger-side seat. He had a large potbelly barely covered by a faded-gray T-shirt. Around his neck he wore a pentagram. I had obviously just seen—Satan’s Van.
Uh oh, I thought. I better watch out because someone is going to come and carry me off in . . . Satan’s Van. The Armageddon starts tonight because—Satan’s Van is in town. Oh, you better watch out, you better not cry, ’cause Satan’s got his Van tonight. Satan’s Van is coming to town.
I really needed dinner.
* * *
Antoine’s was unchanged. I’d been coming there for years whenever I was in New Orleans. I knew it was a bit touristy, but I couldn’t help myself. They had the most marvelous Baked Alaska.
The elderly maitre d’ seated me at a small table in the front room. Like the rest of the buildings in the Quarter, Antoine’s was made up of many rooms. People came through the front doors and disappeared like they were going down Alice’s rabbit hole. There was even a hidden door or two in the place.
I’d just ordered and was admiring myself in the mirror over my table when I saw him. The black T-shirt from the airport. Only he wasn’t wearing a black T-shirt now. He never would have been allowed inside in that. He wore a black jacket over a white shirt and muddy green tie. The jeans had been set aside for dark trousers.
I didn’t take my eyes away from his image in the mirror as he talked to the maitre d’ for a moment, then walked toward me. I couldn’t believe his brass.
“Dinner for one?” he asked. “That seems a lonely proposition.”
“I like it.” I said as I turned toward him. “And who the hell are you?”
“Ah.” he said. “Well that’s not as interesting as who the hell you are.”
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