The Selection Stories Collection

by Kiera Cass

  His words were cut off by me barreling into his arms. I was so elated by the possibility of seeing May and my parents, I couldn’t contain my enthusiasm. He wrapped his arms around my waist and stared into my eyes, his own glittering with delight. How did this person—someone I’d imagined would be my polar opposite—always seem to find the things that would make me the happiest?

  “Do you mean it? Can they really come?”

  “Of course,” he answered. “I’ve been longing to meet them, and it’s part of the competition. Anyway, I think it would do all of you good to see your families.”

  Once I was sure I wouldn’t cry, I whispered back, “Thank you.”

  “You’re quite welcome …. I know you love them.”

  “I do.”

  He chuckled. “And it’s clear you’d do practically anything for them. After all, you stayed in the Selection for them.”

  I jerked back, putting space between us so I could see his eyes. There was no judgment there, only shock at my abrupt movement. I couldn’t let this pass though. I had to be absolutely clear.

  “Maxon, they were part of the reason I stayed in the beginning, but they’re not why I’m here now. You know that, right? I’m here because …”

  “Because?”

  I looked at Maxon, his adoring face so hopeful. Say it, America. Just tell him.

  “Because?” he asked again, this time with an impish smile coming to his lips, which made me soften even more.

  I thought about my conversation with Marlee and the way I’d felt the other day when we talked about the Selection. It was hard to think of Maxon as my boyfriend when there were other girls dating him, but he wasn’t just my friend. That hopeful feeling hit me again, the wonder that we might be something special. Maxon was more to me than I’d let myself believe.

  I gave him a flirtatious smile and started walking toward the door.

  “America Singer, you get back here.” He ran in front of me, wrapping an arm around my waist as we stood, chest to chest. “Tell me,” he whispered.

  I pinched my lips together.

  “Fine, then I shall have to rely on other means of communication.”

  Without any warning, he kissed me. I felt myself dip backward a bit, completely supported by his arms. I placed my hands on his neck, wanting to hold him to me … and something shifted in my head.

  Usually when we were alone together, I could block out the other girls. But tonight I thought about the possibility of someone else in my place. Just imagining it: someone else in Maxon’s arms, making him laugh, marrying him … It broke my heart. I couldn’t help it; I started to cry.

  “Darling, what’s wrong?”

  Darling? The word, so tender and personal, enveloped me. In that moment, any desire I had to fight my feelings for Maxon disappeared. I wanted to be his dear, his darling. I wanted to be Maxon’s alone.

  It might mean welcoming a future I never thought I would and saying good-bye to things I never intended to, but the thought of leaving him now wasn’t something I could handle.

  It was true that I wasn’t the best candidate for the crown, but I didn’t deserve to be in the running at all if I couldn’t at least be brave enough to confess how I felt.

  I sighed, trying to keep my voice steady. “I don’t want to leave all this.”

  “If I remember correctly, the first time we met, you said it was like a cage.” He smiled. “It does grow on you, though, doesn’t it?”

  I gave my head a small shake. “Sometimes you can be so stupid.” A weak laugh pushed through my choked-up throat.

  Maxon let me pull away just enough so I could look into his brown eyes.

  “Not the palace, Maxon. I could care less about the clothes or my bed or, believe it or not, the food.”

  Maxon laughed. It was no secret how excited I had been about the extravagant meals here.

  “It’s you,” I said. “I don’t want to leave you.”

  “Me?”

  I nodded.

  “You want me?”

  I giggled at his bewildered expression. “That’s what I’m saying.”

  He paused a moment. “How—But—What did I do?”

  “I don’t know,” I said with a shrug. “I just think that we’d be a good us.”

  He smiled slowly. “We’d be a wonderful us.”

  Maxon pulled me in, roughly by his standards, and kissed me again.

  “Are you sure?” he asked, holding me at arm’s length, staring intently at me. “Are you absolutely positive?”

  “If you’re sure, I’m sure.”

  For a flicker of a second, something changed in his expression. But it passed so quickly, I wondered if it—whatever it was—was even real.

  In the very next moment, he led me over to the bed, and we perched on the edge together, holding hands as my head rested on his shoulder. I was expecting him to say something. After all, wasn’t this what he had been waiting for? But there were no words. Every once in a while he’d let out a long sigh, and in that sound alone I could hear how happy he was. That helped me not to feel so anxious.

  After a while—perhaps because neither of us knew what to say—Maxon sat up straighter. “I should probably go. If we’re going to add all the families to the celebration, I need to make extra plans.”

  I pulled back and smiled, still giddy that I was going to get to hug my mom, dad, and May soon. “Thank you again.”

  We stood together, walking toward the door. I held on to his hand tightly. For some reason, I dreaded letting it go. It felt like this whole moment was fragile somehow, and if it shifted too much it might break.

  “I’ll see you tomorrow,” he promised in a whisper, his nose millimeters away from mine. He looked upon me with such adoration that I felt silly for worrying. “You’re astonishing.”

  Once he was gone, I closed my eyes and pulled in everything from our short time together: the way he stared at me, the playful smiles, the sweet kisses. I thought about them over and over as I got ready for bed, wondering if Maxon was doing the same thing.

  CHAPTER 6

  “LOVELY, MISS. KEEP POINTING AT the sketches, and the rest of you, try not to look at me,” the photographer asked.

  It was Saturday, and all the Elite had been excused from our obligatory day of sitting in the Women’s Room. At breakfast, Maxon made his announcement about the Halloween party; and by the afternoon, our maids had started working on costume designs, and photographers had shown up to document the whole process.

  Now I was attempting to look natural as I went over Anne’s drawings while my maids stood behind the table with pieces of fabric, containers of sequins, and an absurd amount of feathers.

  The camera snapped and flashed as we tried to give several options. Just as I was about to pose with some gold fabric held up to my face, we had a visitor.

  “Good morning, ladies,” Maxon said, strolling through the open doorway.

  I couldn’t help but stand a little straighter, and it felt like my smile was taking over my face. The photographer caught that moment before addressing Maxon.

  “Your Majesty, always an honor. Would you mind posing with the young lady?”

  “It would be my pleasure.”

  My maids stepped back, and Maxon picked up a few sketches and stood right behind me, the papers in front of us in one hand and his other settled low on my waist. That touch conveyed so much to me. See, it said, soon I’ll get to touch you like this in front of the world. You don’t have to worry about anything.

  A few pictures were taken, and the photographer left for the next girl on his list. I realized my maids had inconspicuously dismissed themselves at some point as well.

  “Your maids are quite talented,” Maxon said. “These are wonderful concepts.”

  I tried to act like I always did with Maxon, but things felt different now, better and worse at the same time. “I know. I couldn’t be in better hands.”

  “Have you settled on one yet?” he asked, fanning out the pap
ers on my desk.

  “We’re all fond of the bird idea. I think it’s meant to be a reference to my necklace,” I said, touching the thin string of silver. My songbird necklace was a gift from my dad, and I preferred it over the heavy jewelry the palace provided for us.

  “I hate to say this, but I think Celeste has picked something avian as well. She seemed awfully determined,” he said.

  “That’s all right,” I replied with a shrug. “I’m not crazy about feathers anyway.” My smile faltered. “Wait. You were with Celeste?”

  He nodded. “Just a quick visit to chat. I’m afraid I can’t stay long here, either. Father’s not thrilled about all this, but with the Selection still going on, he understood that it would be nice to have some more festivities. And he agreed it would be a much better way to meet the families, all things considered.”

  “Like what?”

  “He’s eager for an elimination, and I’m supposed to do one after I meet with everyone’s parents. The sooner they come, the better in his eyes.”

  I hadn’t realized sending someone home was part of the Halloween plan. I thought it was just a big party. It made me nervous, though I told myself there was no reason I should be. Not after our conversation last night. Of all the moments I’d shared with Maxon, nothing seemed quite so real as that one.

  Still scanning the designs, he spoke absentmindedly. “I suppose I ought to finish my rounds.”

  “You’re leaving already?”

  “Not to worry, darling. I’ll see you at dinner.”

  Yes, I thought, but you’ll see all of us at dinner.

  “Is everything all right?” I asked.

  “Of course,” he answered, offering me a quick kiss. On the cheek. “I have to run. We’ll talk again soon.”

  And, just as suddenly as he appeared, he was gone.

  As of Sunday, the Halloween party was eight days away, which meant the palace was a hurricane of activity.

  On Monday the Elite spent the morning with Queen Amberly taste testing and approving a menu for the party. It was easily the best task we’d been given so far. That afternoon, however, Celeste was missing from the Women’s Room for a few hours. When she returned around four, she announced to us all, “Maxon sends his love.”

  Tuesday afternoon we greeted extended members of the royal family who were coming to town for the festivities. But that morning we all watched out the window as Maxon gave Kriss an archery lesson in the gardens.

  Meals were full of guests who had come to stay early, but Maxon was often missing, as well as Marlee and Natalie.

  I felt more and more embarrassed. I’d made a mistake by confessing my feelings to Maxon. For all his talk, he couldn’t really be interested in me if his first instinct was to spend time with everyone else.

  I’d all but lost hope by Friday when I found myself sitting at the piano in my room after the Report, wishing that Maxon would come.

  He didn’t.

  I tried to put it out of my mind on Saturday, as the Elite were obligated to entertain the influx of ladies at the palace in the Women’s Room in the morning and have yet another dance rehearsal in the afternoon.

  Thank goodness our family chose to focus on music and art as Fives, because I was a terrible dancer. The only person in the room worse than me was Natalie. Obnoxiously enough, Celeste was the epitome of gracefulness. More than once the instructors asked her to help others in the room, the result of which was Natalie nearly twisting her ankle because of Celeste’s intentionally poor guidance.

  Smooth as a snake, Celeste faulted Natalie’s two left feet for her problems. The teachers believed her, and Natalie laughed it all off. I admired Natalie for not letting Celeste get to her.

  Aspen had been there for all the lessons. The first few times I avoided him, not really sure I wanted to interact with him. I heard rumors that the guards were switching schedules so fast it was dizzying. Some wanted to go to the party desperately while others had girls back home and would be in huge trouble if they were seen dancing with someone else, especially since five of us would be eligible again soon and in very high demand.

  But seeing as this was our last formal rehearsal, when Aspen was near enough to offer me a dance, I didn’t turn him down.

  “Are you all right?” he asked. “You’ve seemed down the last few times I’ve seen you.”

  “Just tired,” I lied. I couldn’t talk with him about boy problems.

  “Really?” he asked doubtfully. “I was sure that it meant bad news was coming.”

  “What do you mean?” Did he know something I didn’t?

  He sighed. “If you’re preparing to tell me that I need to stop fighting for you, that’s not a conversation I want to have.”

  In truth, I hadn’t even thought about Aspen in the last week or so. I was so consumed by my mistimed words and mistaken guesses, I couldn’t consider anything else. And here, while I’d been worried about Maxon letting me go, Aspen had been worrying about me doing the same to him.

  “That’s not what it is,” I answered vaguely, feeling guilty.

  He nodded, satisfied with that response for now. “Ouch!”

  “Oops!” I said. I genuinely hadn’t meant to step on him. I worked to focus a little more on the dancing.

  “I’m sorry, Mer, but you’re terrible.” He was chuckling even though the heel of my shoe had to have hurt him.

  “I know, I know,” I said breathlessly. “I’m trying, I swear!”

  I pranced around the room like a blind moose, but what I lacked in grace I made up for in effort. Aspen, kindly, did his best to make me look good, attempting to be a little less on the beat to be in time with me. That was so typical of him, always trying to be my hero.

  By the end of that last lesson, I at least knew all the steps. I couldn’t promise I wouldn’t accidentally take out a visiting diplomat with an energetic kick of my leg, but I’d do my best. As I considered that image, I realized it was no wonder Maxon was having second thoughts. I’d be an embarrassment to take to another country let alone receive anyone here. I just didn’t have that princess air about me.

  I sighed and went to get a cup of water. Aspen followed me while the rest of the girls left.

  “So,” he started. I did a sweep of the room to make sure no one was watching. “I have to assume that if you’re not worried about me, you’re worried about him.”

  I lowered my eyes and blushed. How well he knew me.

  “Not that I’m cheering for him or anything, but if he can’t see how amazing you are, he’s an idiot.”

  I smiled, continuing to study the floor.

  “And if you don’t get to be princess then, so what? That doesn’t make you any less incredible. And you know … you know …” He couldn’t get out what he wanted to say, and I risked looking at his face.

  In Aspen’s eyes I saw a thousand different endings to that sentence, all of them connecting him to me. That he was still waiting for me. That he knew me better than anyone. That we were the same. That a few months at the palace couldn’t erase two years. No matter what, Aspen would always be there for me.

  “I know, Aspen. I do.”

  CHAPTER 7

  I STOOD IN LINE WITH the other girls in the massive foyer of the palace, bouncing on the balls of my feet.

  “Lady America,” Silvia whispered, and that was all it took to know I was behaving in an unacceptable way. As our main tutor for the Selection, she took our actions quite personally.

  I tried to still myself. I envied Silvia and the staff and the handful of guards who were moving around the space if only for the fact that they were allowed to walk. If I could do the same, I knew I’d feel much calmer.

  Maybe if Maxon was here already it wouldn’t be so bad. Then again, maybe it would make me more anxious. I still couldn’t figure out why, after everything, he hadn’t made any time for me lately.

  “They’re here!” I heard through the palace doors. I wasn’t the only one who made sounds of delight.


  “All right, ladies!” Silvia called. “Best behavior! Butlers and maids against the wall, please.”

  We tried to be the lovely, regal young women Silvia wanted us to, but the second Kriss’s and Marlee’s parents made it through the doorway, it all fell apart. I knew that both girls were only children, and it was obvious their parents missed them too much to bother with decorum. They ran in screaming, and Marlee dashed out of the line without so much as a pause.

  Celeste’s parents were more put together, though they clearly were thrilled to see their daughter. She broke rank as well, but in a much more civilized way than Marlee. I didn’t even register Natalie’s or Elise’s parents, because a short figure with wild red hair blazed around the open door, her eyes searching.

  “May!”

  She heard my call and saw my waving arm and rushed to me, Mom and Dad following her lead. I knelt on the floor, embracing her.

  “Ames! I can’t believe it!” she crooned, admiration and jealousy in her voice. “You look so, so beautiful!”

  I couldn’t speak. I could barely even see her, I was crying so much.

  A moment later, I felt the steady arms of my father taking us both in. Then Mom, abandoning her usual propriety, joined us, and we all held one another in a heap on the palace floor.

  I heard a sigh that I knew was Silvia’s, but I really didn’t care at the moment.

  Once I could breathe again, I spoke. “I’m so happy you guys are here.”

  “We are, too, kitten,” Dad said. “Can’t even tell you how much we missed you.” I felt his kiss on the back of my head.

  I twisted so I could hug him better. I didn’t know until this very moment how badly I had needed to see them.

  I reached for Mom last. I was shocked that she was so quiet. I couldn’t believe she hadn’t already demanded a detailed report of my progress with Maxon. But when I pulled back, I noticed the tears in her eyes.

  “You’re so beautiful, sweetheart. You look like a princess.”