Rogue's Pawn
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Rogue’s Pawn
By Jeffe Kennedy
This is no fairy tale…
Haunted by nightmares of a black dog, sick to death of my mind-numbing career and heart-numbing fiancé, I impulsively walked out of my life—and fell into Faerie. Terrified, fascinated, I discover I possess a power I can’t control: my wishes come true. After an all-too-real attack by the animal from my dreams, I wake to find myself the captive of the seductive and ruthless fae lord Rogue. In return for my rescue, he demands an extravagant price—my firstborn child, which he intends to sire himself…
With no hope of escaping this world, I must learn to harness my magic and build a new life despite the perils—including my own inexplicable and debilitating desire for Rogue. I swear I will never submit to his demands, no matter what erotic torment he subjects me to…
92,000 words
Dear Reader,
Inspiration comes from the strangest places. Every month, I whine a little when my coworker in charge of production, Jenny Bullough, emails to tell me it’s time to write a new Dear Reader letter. “But, but, I don’t know what to write about,” I say. This month, I added to my whine, “People have been telling me they actually READ these letters. Now there’s PRESSURE.” To which Jenny replied:
My usual offer still stands ;)
Dear Reader,
Angela is busy sunning herself on a beach somewhere; we’ll return to our regularly scheduled dear reader letter in August. Meanwhile, enjoy this book!
~Jenny Bullough
Unfortunately, since I write these letters months in advance, while this particular letter is going in the July books, and you’re perhaps reading this during the summer, the truth is, right now I’m dealing with allergy season, and not beach season. Though I did get to visit a beach in Florida a few weeks ago during a conference. Ahhh, memories…
But I hope, for your sake, as you’re reading this, you are sunning yourself on some beach. With a tropical drink or frosty beer in hand. And a good-looking cabana person of your choice serving it. Oh, and no biting insects (our beach has biting insects and they hurt!).
Still, I thank Jenny for the offer, and the inspiration to help me start off this letter. I have to admire the dedication of our authors who, every month, use their inspiration and write such fantastic stories that make great companions on the beach, by the pool, or even in your favorite reading spot indoors. This month, we have another creative and diverse group of releases for your reading pleasure.
Kicking off the month is a sweeping historical romance from Laura Navarre. By Royal Command offers everything you’re looking for in a great historical read: rich historical details, sweeping passion, intrigue and, I don’t think I’m giving anything away by saying this, an amazing happy ending! Joining Laura in starting off our month of releases is debut author Kait Gamble with her fascinating science-fiction romance Liar’s Game. Meanwhile, KC Burn keeps readers in the detailed science-fiction universe of Spice ’n’ Solace with her follow-up super-hot-and-spicy erotic m/m novella Alien ’n’ Outlaw.
Longing for a particularly delicious erotic romance to turn up the heat inside, while it’s hot outside? We’ve got you covered this month. In addition to Alien ’n’ Outlaw, check out erotic romance offerings from Delphine Dryden and Karen Erickson with The Theory of Attraction and A Scandalous Affair, respectively. And we’re proud to announce debut erotic romance author Samantha Ann King with her ménage novel Sharing Hailey, and debut author Zaide Bishop with her erotic historical novella Eliza’s Awakening.
Meanwhile, Michelle Garren Flye offers a compelling and emotional contemporary romance, Where the Heart Lies.
Also this month, join Allegra Fairweather in another paranormal adventure in Island of Secrets by Janni Nell. And make sure you check out Jeffe Kennedy’s Rogue’s Pawn, which kicks off her new fantasy romance series!
Other returning Carina Press authors this month include Natasha Hoar with The Ravenous Dead, the next installment in her Lost Souls series; Dee J. Adams’s Dangerously Close, which continues the high-octane Adrenaline Highs series; Anne Marie Becker, bringing you another slightly creepy and very suspenseful romance in Avenging Angel; and Hunter Raines with the paranormal m/m romance Sight Unseen.
In addition to Samantha Ann King, Kait Gamble and Zaide Bishop, we’re proud to introduce another debut author, R.L. Naquin. If you enjoy your urban fantasy with a cheeky edge and a sense of humor, while offering the urban fantasy and romantic elements you love, make sure to check out Naquin’s debut novel, Monster in My Closet.
I hope you these July 2012 releases as much as we do. And that you really do have a cabana person to wait on you ;)
Remember, we love to hear from readers, and you can email us your thoughts, comments and questions to generalinquiries@carinapress.com. You can also interact with Carina Press staff and authors on our blog, Twitter stream and Facebook fan page.
Happy reading!
~Angela James
Executive Editor, Carina Press
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Dedication
To Deedee Boysen, first fan of this story, whose begging for more chapters kept me going.
Acknowledgements
This story, my first long fiction work, took many years—and support from many people—to come into being. I wish I could remember every person who encouraged me and offered advice. I will no doubt fail. If I’ve forgotten you, ping me and I’ll buy you a drink. Or something better.
Many thanks to Kevin Reitz and Valerie Moon Meiers, who read this novel in its earliest, grittiest stages and pronounced it good.
Special thanks to early reader Karen Koonce Weesner, who told me this was a book she would keep and read over and over. Only one of the many wonderful things she’s said to me all these years of our friendship.
A heartfelt thank you to Lise Horton, contest coordinator for her RWA chapter, who reached out to me when this story received very high and really abysmal scores. She told me it was that kind of story and not to lose faith. I’ve never forgotten it.
Thanks to Tammy Doherty, another contest judge, who became my critique partner for a while at a time I desperately needed it.
Thanks to Alyson Hagy, who encouraged me to write fiction and who helped me with the beginning. Several times.
Deep gratitude to Laurie Potter, friend, colleague and day-job boss, who read this, encouraged me, and without whose support everything would be so much more difficult.
Thank you to Allison Pang, for always believing in this book, even when she got invited to the party without me.
Big kisses to Laura Bickle and Marcella Burnard, who seem to be there to hold my hand when I need it most and shout my successes louder than I ever could.
Thanks to the rest of the Word Whores, for their bawdy support and enthusiasm.
Many thanks to Catherine Asaro, who read this and told me a story about wading through waist-deep snow. I think my toes are thawing out now.
As always, many thanks to my insightful editor, Deb Nemeth, for loving this story, too. And for knowing which century Western saloons should be in.
Thank you to my family, for being so nice to me.
Finally and forever—thank you to David. You’ve been there with unfailing support. I wouldn’t be here without you, my dear.
Contents
Part I
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Part II
Chapter Ten
Part III
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Part IV
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Part V
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
About the Author
Copyright
Part I
Fundamentals and Context
Chapter One
In Which I Achieve Escape Velocity
Wagon-wheel chandeliers and red velvet. Why on earth every damn hotel in Wyoming seemed compelled to decorate their conference rooms like nineteenth-century saloons escaped me.
But then, everything annoyed me lately.
I shifted, sipping from my glass of Jameson. My feet throbbed from standing around in my heels all evening, and restless irritation crawled across my skin. I’d rather be home, having a quiet evening with my cat, Isabel. I should be in the lab trying to make sense of that last batch of probably worthless data. Being Clive’s convenient arm-candy fell pretty low on my list.
And yet, look where I’d ended up. I’d caved to him. Yet again.
The reception was really important to him, and as his fiancée—and here Clive had pulled out the big guns, since he usually only referred to me as his girlfriend—I should be by his side. I always found the energy for my job so if I really loved him, I would. On and on and on. Sometimes I think I agreed with him just so I wouldn’t have to hear about it anymore.
What the hell was wrong with me these days?
My brain pulsed against my skull. The fragile bones felt as if they could explode from the sheer pressure of what seethed inside.
I couldn’t keep living my life this way.
How did you realize these things? Not in a flash, I thought. Not the epiphany complete with rays of light and singing angels. Instead, it was a slow, creeping restlessness. A depression that sent out fingers of anguished rebellion. You gradually noticed that every morning you dreaded going to your prestigious university research job. Worse, every night you came home to face the guy you thought was The One and you find yourself on the doorstep, hand on the doorknob, and you’re suddenly desperate to be anywhere but walking into that house.
I suppose I was finally facing the fact that I was miserable. Dreams about a black dog, both compelling and terrifying, had been disrupting my sleep with a message I couldn’t interpret.
Or, more precisely, that I didn’t want to hear. When I met Clive he’d seemed so different, so mature and, well, like husband material. He fit the neat little peg-hole in the car of my personal Game of Life. Somehow in shining up that image, I’d forgotten that a nice salary and polished shoes didn’t make someone a good partner. I’d been just as guilty—letting him see me as the cool, logical scientist. He’d never signed up for a woman with a formless restlessness and these dreams that lately obsessed me.
No, it hadn’t been a flash, but standing at that party, it became obvious to me.
I didn’t love Clive. Half the time I didn’t even like him. Nothing in my life had turned out quite as wonderful as it had seemed when I planned it.
The conversation washed over me. The usual ballyhoo about oil, more drilling, politics, crazy environmentalists. Nothing new. I’d heard the conversation twenty times over and knew better than to argue any of the points. I didn’t even think I was listening until I found myself saying, “Oh, Clive, that statistic has been discredited ten times over!”
Clive gaped at me. The other men looked surprised that I spoke.
Try to be softer, my mother said. So far as I could see, soft got you nowhere. Soft got you married to a man who spent his life making up problems to solve and leaving you to sleep alone. Besides, Clive knew I was right. I’d proved him wrong on that point before.
Now we’d have to stay up half the night discussing why I couldn’t mind my smart mouth in public and how I didn’t have to be always right. He’d explain until I wore down and agreed.
He patted me on the hip—the socially correct version of a pat on the bottom—and said, “It’s okay, sweetie, I don’t think you really understood the concept of what we were discussing. But love ya, babe!” And with an off-color joke, he guided the group of men away, leaving me standing there.
Maybe I just needed sleep. Probably I shouldn’t be drinking whiskey.
With every intention of swapping my empty Jameson glass for some Chardonnay, I headed to the saloon-style bar. Better to have something cool I could sip slowly. Drinking whiskey never contributed to my resolutions to get along with Clive. I appreciated that Clive was a great catch, handsome, successful, charming. Everyone said so. Somehow that just wasn’t enough anymore. Maybe it was me. Perhaps, like my father, nothing could make me happy.
Lately Clive had been saying that logic meant more to me than love. I had to bite my tongue to defy him to prove to me that love existed outside of Hallmark cards and romance novels. Did it register on an oscilloscope or an EEG?
I didn’t think so.
I set my highball glass on the bar, nodded to the very cute but very young bartender…and kept walking.
Pulling my coat and purse from the hooks near the reception hall door, I walked out the door. My body carried me away as if it belonged to someone else.
And no one saw me go.
I wasn’t thinking about what I was doing until I was driving down the two-lane rural highway, turning up the radio to non-Clive-approved volumes so I could better hear Nickelback assure me that everything would be all right. But just not right now. I sang along, a curious sense of elated freedom lightening my mood. It felt good not to think.
When I did start thinking again, the first thing my brain did was point out that I wasn’t on the interstate. Instead it coursed off to my left about half a mile across railroad tracks and prairie, angling away. I hadn’t passed any kind of sign in quite a while, but I’d definitely missed the interstate access and was probably going east, not west, in the deepening evening.
Well, shit.
To get on I-90, I’d have to turn around, which I found myself absolutely unable to do. As if I’d gained some kind of escape velocity from the immense gravity well of Clive, from my old life, momentum I couldn’t afford to lose. So I just kept driving, feeling the tension bleed away with the rhythm of the highway.
I ended up at Devils Tower.
What can I say? The weathered billboards with the big arrows caught my eye.
They produced a kind of longing in me for something I couldn’t quite define. That cold, creeping restlessness in me warmed to the sight of the arrows, like they pointed to the one thing I’d always wanted and never had. I felt compelled to follow them, as I did in those dreams. As if someone was sending messages I couldn’t quite hear.
Not logical, but at least it seemed that the plates of my skull might hold together.
Night hung heavy u
nder the trees, a shadowed contrast to the spring sky, which still held a little light. As I wound around the hills, buff-colored sandstone stood out in bright relief to the dark greens of the pines, which in turn made dark silhouettes against the gloaming. Wyoming skies radiate light—one of the best things about the place.
The next bend revealed the tower, starkly outlined against the blue dusk. I might have seen it before, had I been looking in the right place—down instead of up. I’d expected a peak thrusting against the sky, but Devils Tower sits down in a river bottom, carved out of soft sandstone by the Belle Fourche River until only the striated stump of granite remains. As I dropped into its valley, the tower showed black against the darkness, so dark the shadows around it paled to vivid blues.
I found the gates to the park open but unmanned, so I filled out the yellow envelope at the self-pay station with one of those three-inch pencils provided in the bin. Name, date, car make and year, a ten-dollar bill stuffed inside. I kept going, excited now, circling the base of the tower that loomed so immediately above me that I couldn’t see it much anymore.
The road terminated, fittingly, in one final curl—a circular parking lot at the base of the tower, gleaming in the growing moonlight. I stood out in the dark, leaning against the car, as if I was waiting for someone. Like when you were a teenager and every trip to the mall held limitless romantic possibilities. I remembered the champagne giddiness of it all, as if, if you could just walk around enough, you’d find him. Or he’d find you.
Mule deer wandered nearby, cropping the new green grass in the center parkway. And that was it. Pretty evening. Peaceful scene. Nothing else happened.
So much for epiphanies.
Oddly disappointed and abruptly exhausted again, I drove back down the paved road. I didn’t know what I’d been expecting. Something more than deer.
A dirt turnoff to the right was marked by a peeling sign for Devils Tower Lodge: Friends and Guests Only. A place to sleep was absolutely what I needed. I turned in. A sign at a second cattle guard repeated the invitation and warning.