Little Moments

by Madison Street

  To my street team, you ladies are the absolute best! Every little post, each little pimp means so much to me. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful group of supporters and your undying support keeps me going. This one is for you girls. XOXO

  To my betas, thank you for taking the time to pick my story apart. Every ounce of feedback fueled this book to life.

  I’d like to give a special shout out to the photographer/cover designer. Lindee, ever since the beginning, you have been there by my side, ready to help take on this challenge of bringing my stories to life. You are so incredibly talented and I am still in awe of your remarkable skills. I am so happy to have known you this past year and I can’t wait to see what other covers we come up with. Thank you for everything!

  To Mikeala and Ahmad, you two are the perfect models for Melanie and Roman. Thank you for being a part of this crazy adventure.

  To the best group of authors ever, I love my entire author BFFs! Thank you for keeping my head on straight when I wanted to give up and thank you for all the laughs, tears, and crazy stories these past few months. I can’t wait to meet you kick ass ladies someday! XOXO

  To my family and friends who have supported me from the beginning, thank you from the bottom of my heart. It’s not easy being an author. There were times when I only slept about 3-4 hours a night and work full-time and times when I sat in front of the computer all day, just to keep the words flowing. I know it hasn’t been easy, but in the end, it’s totally worth it.

  To my amazing husband Carlos, I love you so much. Thank you for dealing with all my crap and pushing me to keep on writing. Stay beautiful. XOXO

  And lastly, to all of the bloggers and readers who have read my books, THANK YOU SO MUCH!! All of the messages, tags, and emails saying that my words moved you and made you cry, or throw your kindle, or even yell out; it’s absolutely amazing and I am touched every single time I am told. Your words of praise has kept me going and without your feedback and need for more, I would not have written Melanie’s story. I could not have made it this far without you.

  Here’s to more stories!! XOXO

  Always cherish the little moments and savor the little things that make life worthwhile.

  And never forget, every day is a second chance. ~ Madison Street

  Madison Street was born in New York City and was raised in the Bronx, where she resided until she was 17 years old. After September 11th, Madison joined the United States Navy to serve her country.

  During the deployments, Madison constantly wrote short stories and she discovered her passion for writing. You will find Madison always on the computer, whether she’s on Facebook, designing websites, messing with Photoshop, or writing for her blog.

  Besides writing, her second passion is music and dance. Even though she’s a terrible singer, she’ll still belt it out in the shower, especially if the song is her jam! She currently resides in Virginia with her family.

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  And now, a treat for all my readers! I have included sneak peek chapters from a few other authors. Now’s your chance to sit back, relax, and discover new authors you will love.

  Enjoy! ~ Madison

  Compulsive by Lia Fairchild

  Lies hurt.

  Lies destroy.

  But some lies protect…and heal. At least that’s what Gray Donovan had hoped for. She’s a compulsive liar using it as a defense mechanism to survive life and her shattered past.

  When she starts seeing therapist Daniel Harrison, she can no longer deny the truths that have haunted her for so many years. She must now stand and face them.

  Opening up to Daniel leaves her exposed and vulnerable. When her soul is bared to him, she can’t contain the attraction or the feelings he elicits.

  Daniel feels drawn to his new patient, but he knows he will have to fight it in order to resurrect Gray from her demons. His will and his judgment are tested when he must overcome his own doubts and face his own secrets.

  Chapter 1

  The ridges on the stark white ceiling blurred from my intense stare as I listened to the steady even breaths coming from the body next to me. He wasn’t a bad guy. Just an idiot. Maybe even married for all I knew. The clock read four twenty-three. That wouldn’t work for me. I waited for a nice round even number. Something that felt right. I held my phone with the message typed out: I need you. I keyed in the address, and when the clock hit four thirty, I hit Send.

  At ten before five AM, I eased my body out of the bed the way a mother slips from her sleeping child, hoping not to rouse her angel. He stirred a moment and turned on his side, his arm involuntarily reaching for me.

  “Sky,” he murmured with his eyes closed. His dark buzz cut hair was sprinkled with gray flecks, and a small rectangular scar bordered the hairline on the right side of his face. I hadn’t noticed that the night before, or I would have asked him. Now my curiosity had me pausing, conjuring up various scenarios for its origin. Whatever the cause would forever remain a mystery. With a gentle hold around his wrist, I lifted his hand and rested it on the comforter. His eyes flitted open and closed. Frozen, I waited to see if he’d wake. I didn’t worry about coming up with a story. It always came.

  Still sitting on the edge of the bed, I reached over to an adjacent chair to snag my black silk shirt. When I pulled it over my head and then glanced down, two light blue eyes met mine.

  “Hey, you,” he whispered. His soft, sweet smile almost made a dent, but I pulled my hand away.

  “I’ve got to run.”

  Surprise and confusion colored his face. “What time is it?”

  “Around five. I’ve got early rounds.”

  He seemed satisfied with my excuse and looked thoughtful. “Ah, yes, Dr. Phillips. Time to save lives.”

  I gave him a nod and a tight smile just before a knock at the door sounded. I rose from the bed to pull on my skirt and slip my feet into my heels.

  He sat up watching me closely like a cat that’d dart out of an open door. “Who could that be at this time?” he said.

  “My ride,” I threw over my shoulder. I scooped up my purse from the dresser on the way out, catching his face in the mirror. They always had that same look the next day. Or perhaps I was the one who saw things differently.

  I heard him jump out of bed and scramble for his pants as I made my way to the living room, picking up my pace. “Sky, wait.”

  When I reached the door, he came in and leaned against the couch, folding his arms. “I could have driven you home.”

  “It’s okay,” I said, pulling the door open.

  Nathan stood in the doorway, hands stretched out to the jams on each side, his brown hair ragged from being dragged from the comfort of his bed. He shot me that look that said, you owe me and then let one hand fall and sweep to the side as if making a path for royalty.

  “Wait,” a voice came from behind me. “Who’s this guy?”

  Nathan took a step into the doorway. “Oh, hey, man.”

  “John, this is my cousin, Nathan,” I said.

  Unfortunately, Nathan had spoken at the same time I did and said, “I’m her neighbor.”

  John walked over to the two of us, eyes darting between me and my partner in crime. “Well, which is it?”

  Nathan and I exchanged looks, and I opened my mouth to speak.

  John held up his hand. “No. Let me guess,” he said in a sarcastic tone. “He’s your cousin who lives next door.”

  I half-shrugged while looking him dead in the eye. “I really should get going.” A split second later, I plastered on a smile. “I’ll call you.”

  “You haven’t given me much choice,” he said to my back as I sidled past Nathan. “I don’t even have your number.”

  I’d be willing to bet John wouldn’t be holding his breath.

  In the car, we drove in easy silence with the windows down. The sky was still a hazy blue melding to light. My shoulder length, dark brown hair fought and tangled around m
y face as I stared out the window. I watched the dawn covered streets half-filled with commuters and the deprived waiting for jobs or wandering about. I sucked the crisp, clean air into my lungs, feeling cleansed and thankful our mutual agreement didn’t require explanation. That didn’t mean we never gave them.

  At the stoplight, I gazed through a glass window at a father and son sitting at a table in a diner. The boy, possibly six or seven with soulful eyes, stared back at me. He smiled and brought a hand slowly to his lips as if kissing it. Then, he reached up two fingers and looked toward the sky. I gasped and squeezed my eyes shut. When I opened them, he was gone; the booth was empty. The way my heart felt as it sank inside my chest pounding with immense force. Nathan stroked the back of my head. I turned and met his smile as his hand ran down my shoulder to my hand, interlacing our fingers. He and I didn’t need words to comfort each other.

  My phone sounded in my purse as we pulled into a gas station. I released his hand to retrieve a text from Dr. Wallace that I’d missed our appointment yesterday. Strike three. Only if she documented it. I contemplated whether it would be worth giving her a story, considering she knew my history. I started typing: Sorry, Alyssa was stranded again. Had to… Backspace all the way. I had an urgent appointment with… Backspace. Close application. Fuck! She wouldn’t believe me, and lies annoyed her. I had no choice. A personal visit accompanied with begging and bribery was the best solution. I thought about her reaction if I told her I’d given John my middle name, Sky, instead of making one up. Was I losing my edge? I had enjoyed being the privileged doctor for a night.

  Back at my apartment, Nathan followed me up the walkway. At the top of the stairs, Alyssa sat outside her door feeding a stray cat.

  “Don’t let Cruella see you doing that in here,” I said, bending over to scratch the top of the cat’s head.

  “No shit,” Alyssa said. Her ingenuous eyes stayed glued to the little tabby. “She won’t be up for hours.”

  “Where’s your mom?” Nathan asked.

  “Like I know that.” She stood and yanked up her tight skinny jeans. “Got any cash? I could go grab us some donuts.” She smiled and held out her hand like it was a done deal. I wasn’t the only damsel Nathan would rescue on occasion.

  He dug into his jeans pocket and pulled out two crumpled bills. “Sorry, I only have six bucks.” He rolled coffee-colored eyes in my direction. “I left in such a hurry I forgot my wallet.”

  Alyssa snatched the cash from his hand. “No biggie.” She shoved the money into her back pocket and then picked up the kitten, caressing her cheek against its fur. “Thanks. What do you guys want?”

  “We’re good,” I said, pulling my keys from my purse. “Nathan’s on a diet.” I gave her a squinty smile.

  Alyssa shrugged and headed down the stairs.

  I tossed my things onto the couch and then collapsed next to them. My feet pushed at each heel until they thumped onto the carpet. Had I slept at all last night? Distinguishing between sleep and awake was not always easy for me, especially in a strange bed. Nathan fell in place next to me, and I noted we still hadn’t said a word to each other. He put his arm around me and I leaned into him, resting my head on his comforting shoulder. I played with the buttons on his shirt for a second and then said, “I’m sorry.”

  “I know,” he said.

  *

  I must have dozed off, because my eyes popped open at sounds and smells coming from the kitchen. I turned to find Nathan at the stove, his back to me. I stared at his broad shoulders and examined how his back muscles pressed tightly inside his white T-shirt and his half-sleeve tattoo showed on his left arm. For a moment, an image flashed in my mind of me grasping that shirt in my eager fists and pulling it over his head. I sighed, closed my eyes, and then took a deep breath, drawing in the scent of bacon. Yes, better to focus on food.

  When I opened my eyes, he turned toward the sink, grabbing my gaze with his. “Hey, gorgeous. You hungry?” he asked with an innocent grin.

  “Always.”

  “Then you better get your ass over here and make something. This is all mine.”

  I grinned and scoffed. “So, you can cook for hundreds of people every day, but not me?”

  He kept his head down as he rinsed a glass bowl in the sink. “Well, they do pay me and…I think I’ve done enough for you today.” Those dark eyes peeked up at me, testing my reaction.

  I reached for my phone, aimlessly scrolling without paying attention to him. I reread the last text I got from Evyn, asking me how things were going with Dr. Wallace. Another person in my life who amazingly hadn’t given up on me…yet. I went to my pictures and clicked on camera roll. I thought of the boy in the window and started scrolling to the top of the list until I found what I was looking for. I brushed my finger across Noah’s smiling face before clicking it off. When nothing but silence came from Nathan, I rose from the couch and went to sit at the bar. “I’m really getting off that easy?”

  “What would be the point of asking?” he said as he pulled plates from the cupboard.

  He knew I couldn’t stand when he turned things around on me like that. “Last night wasn’t a plan, you know? Let’s call it…a setback.”

  He grabbed the pan from the stove and gracefully shifted a piled of eggs onto each plate. “Yep.”

  I’d always found watching his cooking to be sexy and artistic, but today my irritation took over. “You’re an ass,” I said, taking the plate from his hand and adding a couple of strips of bacon.

  Nathan ran a hand through his wavy dark hair in frustration. “Fine…Did you even like the guy?”

  “Sure.” I smiled. “He’s highly intelligent. A corporate lawyer or something.”

  Nathan’s head fell to his chest. He shook it a couple of times and then sighed. I wasn’t trying to annoy him; it was just how things worked out for us sometimes.

  “Fine,” I said before picking up my fork. “I couldn’t hear a damn word he said over that annoying music they were playing, but I did like how he kept staring at my legs.” I scooped a bit of eggs into my mouth and chewed while Nathan regarded whether or not this answer was the truth. If anyone could tell that from me it was him. And sometimes I wanted someone to know about me.

  “Jeez, Gray. You’re the only woman I know who gets off on pervs ogling her body.”

  “He wasn’t a perv.” I stared straight ahead, avoiding the angry eyes that seared into my skin. His reactions seemed to be getting worse. It wasn’t like I never had to deal with this crap from him.

  He came around to sit next to me, but kept his head forward. “Why didn’t you have your car?”

  “Lost it in a poker game,” I said, but his sigh pushed another attempt from me. “I…uh…went out with Becca and Barb.” I flinched before I finished the sentence. Nathan couldn’t stand my twin aunts. They took the matching thing to a whole new level when they each left their cheating husbands, filed for divorce, and moved in together. Becca is still going through hers.

  “Wow, you must have been desperate. Seriously?” He turned his body and gave me a disgusted look. “Those two are like Mary Kate and Ashley after they came back from pet cemetery.”

  “God, that’s dead-on.” I managed a grin. “But they’re not that bad. Besides, they helped me out, and I couldn’t say no. I was broke, and Barb had someone from her work fix my laptop.” Of course, when I went to pick it up, they had to drag me out with them. A classic case of bait and switch. They used me to lure the men over, hoping to snag another husband, and I got free apps and drinks. But ultimately those two have watched over me, helped me when I was in need, even if they were like Cinderella’s step-sisters and the fairy godmother all rolled into one.

  He turned forward again and dug aggressively into his eggs. Nathan had that stereotypical temper of a head chef, but he never displayed it at work, and thankfully kept it under control around me. He’d had his share of trips to the principal’s office and wasn’t a stranger to a bar fight. But since we’d known ea
ch other, he’d only had a few setbacks. “You know I hate it when you’re not being safe.”

  “Hey, we used protection.” I smirked, trying to win his mood back. I tilted my head in his direction only to find the opposite expression on his face.

  His fork clanked onto his plate. “You know what I meant.” He kicked his chair back, getting up at the same time. “I don’t know if I can do this anymore, Gray.” He wandered toward the door.

  I followed behind him. “Hey, wait. Don’t go.” My blood started to heat at the thought of him trying to leave, holding his presence hostage for my behavior. That wasn’t what we did.

  He halted in his tracks, still facing the door. I had no idea what words he’d say when he turned around. Four years of this shit between us. If we were too broken to have real relationships with other people, how could we possibly have thought we could maintain one between us? No matter what this was. Yet through it all, Nathan and I had always clung to each other like life preservers.

  He turned halfway around and shot me a sad, helpless look. “Have you ever heard the word ‘enabler’?”

  My gut wrenched in a too familiar way. “So, that’s what you are to me?” I said, growing angry as I spoke.

  “That’s what we both are, Gray. Any shrink could tell you that.”

  “What are you saying exactly?”

  He turned the rest of the way around, reached out and grabbed my hand, softening my temper. “I’m saying that I can’t watch you do this to yourself any longer.”

  “And your life is so freaking normal?” I pulled my hand from his, looking away toward the window. “It’s no picnic for me either.” Though if I was being honest, this had been becoming more one-sided lately. Nathan’s family had all but disappeared into background noise, and the lingering effects had been miniscule.

  Hands grasped my shoulders, shaking me and my attention back to him, our eyes falling into a desperate connection. “Maybe we’re just…bad for each other.”