by Bonnie Dee
At the sound of her name, Baby left her foraging under the pine tree and brought me a pine cone in her mouth. I picked her up and threw the cone away. She snuggled between us, smelling of wet fur and pine sap.
Jason gazed into my eyes over the dog’s head. “I want to fuck you so bad right now.”
His hoarse growl made my body contract and heat flare between my legs. “I want to be fucked.”
I glanced around the quiet neighborhood. The houses stood well back from the street, and party guests were safe under their roofs. We could get away with doing it, right there and then, maybe on that low stone wall surrounding the Jameses’ property.
But Baby wiggled and whined between us, and I had to let the fantasy go. I put the terrier back on the ground, leaned in to steal another kiss from Jason, then took his hand.
“We should go back.”
“Back to Columbus,” he said hopefully.
“Soon. Just one more day. And we’ll spend the New Year alone together.”
Chapter Eight
Jason
Makeup sex is the best. The possibility of losing the one you love makes coming together all the sweeter. After that tinsel-trimmed moment and a few kisses that blazed so hot they threatened to melt the snow around us, I wanted to lay Anna down on the ground and take her right there on a neighbor’s lawn. But we had to table the making-up portion of the evening and return to the house.
After spending an evening with the family, when we were alone at last, we still couldn’t do everything we wanted, though we did plenty, kissing and touching and bringing each other off with hushed urgency.
It wasn’t until we got home the day after Christmas that we had a chance to make up properly. We barely made it inside the door of our apartment before tearing off each other’s clothes, leaving a trail of shoes and jeans and underwear all the way to the bedroom.
After several days of abstinence, I had to remap Anna’s body with my hands and mouth. Her skin was even softer than I remembered, her scent richer. The way her nipples puckered beneath my fingertips fascinated me, and her kisses ate away my brain like zombie nibbles, leaving me a pulsing muscle of need and desire.
I burrowed between her legs and lapped at her pussy until she writhed and shouted out in pleasure. Her juices exploded like a musky Starburst on my tongue. I kissed the inside of her quivering thighs, then moved up to lie on top of her.
It’s good for a dick to be forced to abstain from sex now and then. Makes plunging into that luscious, wet warmth feel like the first time again. As I entered her, I gazed into Anna’s face, those incredible clear eyes that always seemed to look right into me and read my thoughts.
Okay. So I hadn’t nearly lost her. We’d had some tense moments at her parents’ house, then resolved the issue, nothing all that terribly dramatic. But in the brief minutes when I’d stood on the street, Baby’s leash in hand, wondering if a “happy ever after” was really in the cards for us, it had felt like an eternity. I couldn’t imagine life without Anna—and now I didn’t have to.
We moved together, familiar yet brand-new, a private dance, a bump and grind in the sheets. Anna’s hair fanned across the pillow. I reached out to stroke some strands back from her sweaty forehead. Her lips parted as she breathed heavily and her eyes glazed over. A second wave was rising inside her. I could sense it in her movements, and I wanted her to come again with me inside her.
I slowed and deepened my thrusts, restraining from plunging hard and fast as I wanted to. I wouldn’t come until she did. I matched my breathing to hers, locked my gaze with hers and followed her rhythm. We moved in sync for what felt like hours, a give and take that filled my senses and my mind.
When climax came, it was almost like an afterthought. Anna gave a soft little whimper, and her body jerked beneath me. That movement touched off my own powder keg, and I came hard, powerful shudders rolling through me.
Joy. I felt a great resounding joy to be there with her, to be alive and well, to be living a life I’d never thought would be possible for me after the accident. I gripped Anna’s hands, our fingers laced together against the pillow on either side of her head, and held on until the last shreds of ecstasy drifted away. Then I flopped to the side, withdrawing from her and lying on my back to stare up at the ceiling.
“Merry Christmas, baby,” Anna murmured.
“And a happy fucking New Year,” I agreed.
You ever experience one of those moments when your life is so damn perfect it’s scary? You’re secure in the love of the person you care most about, everything’s flowing smoothly and it seems there’s no place you could go from that peak but down?
I have to catch myself when I start thinking that way. One life-changing car accident can make you afraid to trust in the permanence of good things. And it’s true that nothing lasts forever. But right now I’ve got Anna and she’s got me, and the new year stretching out before us is looking bright.
The End
About the author: Bonnie Dee began telling stories as a child. Whenever there was a sleepover, she was the designated ghost-tale teller, guaranteed to frighten and thrill with macabre stories. She still has a story printed in second grade on yellow legal paper about a ghost, a witch, and a talking cat. Writing childish stories later led to majoring in English at college. She dreamed of writing a novel, but didn't have the necessary focus and follow-through at that time in her life. It was only in 2000 that she began writing again and became a multipublished erotic romance author. Check out her books at http://bonniedee.com and sign up for her newsletter for updates on new releases. Bonnie Dee is also on Facebook and Twitter.
If you haven’t read New Life and want to know more about how Jason and Anna got together, check out the excerpt below:
Since the car accident that caused traumatic brain injury, Jason has fought to regain his memories and the ability to organize thoughts and control emotions. His promising future shattered, he works as a night janitor in an office building and clings to routine to make it through his days.
New lawyer Anna breaks down one evening after fumbling her first court case. Self-doubt brings her to tears in a deserted stairwell where Jason finds her and offers comforting words. From this unexpected meeting an unlikely romance begins.
A casual coffee date soon leads to a deeper connection and eventually a steamy affair. But are Jason and Anna’s growing feelings for each other strong enough to overcome the social chasm that divides them and the very real issues of Jason’s disability?
Excerpt:
The first thing you need to know about me is I’m not retarded. Or mentally handicapped I guess is the polite term these days. But whatever you call it, I’m not that. I have a mental disability, but I wasn’t born like this. It took extra stupidity for me to get this way—driving drunk, shooting through the windshield, landing on my noggin, and scrambling my brains permanently. I don’t babble and I don’t drool, except sometimes on my pillow when I’m sleeping, but everybody does that.
Anyway, that’s not the story I want to tell. Who really needs to hear about comas and thousands of hours of rehab? My story begins the night I was cleaning black shoe marks off the floor, which could be any night since my life became all about industrial cleaners and swabbing toilets. This particular night, I was buffing the corridor floor of the office building where I clean. I remember the Naked Farmers blasting through my headphones, when I saw a woman sitting in the stairwell, head down, shoulders hunched and shaking.
My first thought was to pass by, concentrate on polishing the floor, and leave her in peace to cry. Everybody deserves privacy. But after I’d polished a few more feet, wall to wall, I turned off the machine.
I don’t like interrupting my routine. If I stray from my list of tasks, I tend to get confused. Memory lapses and trouble with organization—a couple of party favors I took home from a college kegger one night. But people are supposed to be kind to each another, right? So I paused the Naked Farmers in the middle of the line about “
pray to Jesus but keep a shotgun handy when the Four Horsemen come to call” and pulled out my earbuds. I could hear the woman’s sobs echoing in the stairwell.
When I got close and she lifted her head, I recognized her face. At first I thought it was from a long time ago, like back in high school, or maybe during my time in the hospital. I suck at placing people since my memory’s shaky and time kind of shifts on me sometimes. Then I remembered I’d seen her here in the law offices on the second floor as she was leaving work and I was arriving. She’d passed me in the hall and smiled like people do at janitors, polite but barely making eye contact. I remember thinking she was really pretty. Now tear tracks were blazing mascara trails down her cheeks.
“You okay?” I asked.
“Yes, fine. Thank you.” She rubbed her eyes, grabbed the banister, and rose.
I could almost see her moment of weakness being covered like someone protecting broken windows with plywood. She picked up her purse and briefcase and started to walk past me.
Fine. I needed to get back to work anyway. But as she passed, her perfume tickled my nose, and I suddenly wanted her to stick around a little longer. Cleaning an empty office building is boring and lonely. Nothing but hours of me, the floor buffer, and the tunes on my MP3 player.
“Try counting sheep,” I blurted.
She stopped and turned, blonde-streaked brown hair flipping over one shoulder. “Pardon me?”
“It helps…when you’re having a hard day.”
I knew she thought I was simpleminded by the way her eyes went all soft and pitying. “I think that’s for falling asleep.”
“It works for other things too. It’s a technique. Like a—what do you call it—mantra. Helps you calm down…when you’re anxious and…focuses your thoughts.”
I could parrot therapist-speak, and I definitely wanted this chick to know I wasn’t dumb.
Her eyes went wide, and she smiled. “Is that so? Maybe I could use a mantra. Tell me more.”
I felt suddenly nervous. The way my life was at the time, I could go days hardly talking to anybody, and I’d sort of lost the knack.
“When people are emotional, their minds are all over the place. Counting something helps slow your heart rate and breathing. It’s like meditation.”
At least, that’s what I meant to say. The way it came out was less concise, with a lot of pauses while I searched for the right word. She waited patiently for me to finish formulating my thoughts, which was cool. A lot of people want to finish my thoughts for me, and nothing’s more apt to make me clam up.
“Counting sheep, eh? Well, hell, I can get rid of my Xanax prescription and save a bundle.” She smiled.
I tried to think of something else to say so she wouldn’t walk away. “Another good technique is to draw the thing that’s upsetting you. Your boss, maybe,” I guessed. “And work through your shit that way.”
She shifted her purse strap to the other shoulder and set down the briefcase like maybe she was going to stay awhile. “You taking psych classes? It sounds like you’re gearing up for a career as a therapist.”
“No. I had to drop out of college.” I tapped my head. “Brain injury.”
She nodded. “I’m Anna, by the way.”
“Jason.” I wondered if I should offer my hand to shake. But Anna hadn’t held out hers, so I didn’t either.
“Do you like your job here?”
I glanced at the abandoned buffer, then back at her. “Cleaning is my life.”
Her laughter rang down the empty corridor. “Point taken.”
“I wasn’t being”—I searched my scrambled brain before coming up with the right word—“ironic. Unfortunately.”
“You’re funny,” she said.
“Funny looking or funny hah-hah?”
Anna’s gaze swept over me from head to toe, leaving me heated. “Not at all funny looking.”
It was a pretty kind compliment. I can see in the mirror every day that the scar on my face is still red. Supposedly it’ll fade over time, but I’ll never be my former handsome self. I could feel Anna wanting to ask about the scar, but she didn’t. People are too polite. Except for little kids, who’ll say anything that crosses their minds. I appreciate that honesty.
“So, is it your boss who made you cry?” I asked.
She shook her head. “I did it to myself. Thought I was prepared for court, but I wasn’t, and I made a fool of myself.”
“You a paralegal?” I asked, because she looked too young to do anything else in a law office.
“I’m a lawyer.” She gave a little snort. “I worked hard to be able to say that, so why do I have the feeling I drove down a road a long way in the wrong direction?”
“You don’t like it.”
“I didn’t today. My first day in court and I crashed and burned.”
“Public speaking is hard for most people.”
“It’s not just about today. The longer I’ve been here, the more I wonder why. I never stopped to think about what career I wanted, just kept moving to the next level, because in my family there wasn’t any choice but law school.”
“You come from liars…lawyers?” I corrected, and it wasn’t an intentional joke. Sometimes the wrong word just comes out.
“My dad and mom both, plus some other family members. But I chose it. I earned it, and now I’m stuck with it.”
I clicked my tongue. “When you could be doing really important work like this.” I jerked a thumb at the buffer.
She smiled again, a dimple flashing in her left cheek. “Smart-ass. I know I’ve got nothing to complain about, but a girl’s got a right to cry when she thinks she’s all alone. Don’t judge.”
“Not judging, just trying to make you feel better about your job. Do you?”
Her brown eyes crinkled at the corners, stirring things in me that hadn’t been stirred in quite a while, and I don’t mean my cock, although she was doing a fair job of waking it too.
“Thanks for listening.” She stooped to pick up her briefcase and purse, and my giddy joy deflated. Our conversation was over. “And thanks for the sheep-counting tip. I’ll try that next time I’m upset.”
I pressed my palms together, guru-style. “Find your center and remain there.”
She returned my bow. “Yes, sensai.”
Man, I liked this woman who got my sense of humor.
“See you around,” she added before heading down the hall.
I watched her out of sight, then pictured her leaving the building, going to her car, putting her key in the ignition, starting up, and driving away. I would’ve gone on to imagine her arriving home at some apartment building and going inside but shook myself out of the fantasy. Reviewing the order of things was how I made it through my days. Therapists call it “sequencing,” and it saved me from getting scattered and accomplishing nothing.
But imagining Anna’s timeline was not going to help me complete my own tasks for the night. Time to return to reality.
I tucked in the earbuds and turned on the Naked Farmers, then switched on the buffer. One sweep, two, side to side until the corridor was a glossy sheet. Tomorrow, new shoe marks and scuffs would ruin the surface, but for tonight it was flawless. Perfect.
Table of Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
