by Brie Paisley
“Icky, you kissing my mommy?”
I snap my head away from Viktor’s tempting mouth and look to see Gabbie staring at the both of us. Viktor chuckles as he moves his hand off my ass. How could I forget about my baby girl? I blush feeling embarrassed that I was making out right in front of her.
“I was. Is it okay with you if I kiss your mommy?” Viktor asks her. She really seems to think it over for a few moments. Her little eyebrows furrow, and she looks up to me.
“Mommy, you wike Icky?”
I move off Viktor and I place her in my lap. Viktor sits beside me and he watches me carefully, putting his hands in his lap to hide his hard on. I grin and shake my head turning back to Gabbie. “I do, baby. You like Viktor too, don’t you?” I sneak a glance at him and he’s gazing at the both of us with something I’ve never seen before. I quickly turn away, feeling my heart starting to race.
“Hers plays with me.” She turns in my lap and looks right at Viktor as she says, “Icky, you wike my mommy?”
“I like your mommy very much.” There goes that damn look again.
“Okay. Hers play with me now?”
Viktor nods his head and smiles at me. He moves off the couch and takes her out of my arms. They both start to play with her blocks on the floor and I tuck my legs under my butt, watching them. It still amazes me how good he is with her. I could watch them play all day if I could. I catch Viktor staring at me while Gabbie talks away about nothing. I can’t help the grin and the blush when he looks at me like that.
I get off the couch and Viktor watches my every move. I bend down and kiss Gabbie on the forehead. “I’m going to take a bath. Can you put her to bed soon?”
Viktor nods and I turn to leave. He grabs my wrist and pulls me down to him. “Where’s my kiss?”
“You want a kiss?” I sweetly ask.
“I always want to kiss you, moy soblaznitel'nitsa.” I roll my eyes wondering what he just said to me. I have a feeling it’s a compliment. I lean down and I hover over his lips, making him want it more.
“You sure you want it?” I tease.
Viktor growls and pulls my wrist down making me almost fall as my lips cover his. He quickly kisses me and then lets me go. “Derzhite menya iskushayet. YA ispravit' eto ochen' skoro,” he says softly.
I laugh as I say, “English, Vik.”
He slaps my ass playfully and I quickly move away from him before he does something else to me. I start to walk up the stairs and I look back to my baby girl and Viktor. Gabbie’s giggling at something Viktor says, and I think Viktor just might be the best thing to ever happen to me. And as I walk up the stairs, I can’t help to smile and touch my fingers to my lips thinking about Viktor’s lips on mine. Or that smoldering look he gave me.
I place my hair up in a bun on top of my head. I let my silk robe fall into a pile on the tile floor and I walk over to the claw foot tub. I shut off the water and I step into the hot and much needed bath. I sink lower into the tub and I close my eyes trying to get my muscles to relax. Viktor has my entire body aching for him to touch me. I think about what he said to me earlier about taking what I want. I want to do just that, but I still don’t know if I’m ready. Sex with Viktor will be amazing. I know it would be. Just thinking about it, makes my whole body want it.
But am I ready to give into the temptation?
Maybe if I just get it over with I won’t have to worry so much about it anymore. Once it’s done, I can stop second guessing and talking myself out of it. I should just do it. Just let Viktor fuck me and take over my mind and body. Why am I so nervous about it? It’s just sex. I mean it’s not like I haven’t done it before. Granted sex with Malcolm was … not what I expected and pretty much a letdown. But, Viktor’s different. Thinking of how he made me come undone a few days ago, makes deciding what to do a little easier. I need him to make me come again. I want him to make me feel nothing but the pleasure he promises with that hot smoldering look.
With my mind made up, I quickly wash myself. I get out of the tub and drain the water, and reach to grab a towel. I try to push away the bundle of nerves I suddenly feel in the pit of my stomach. I don’t want to be nervous. I walk over to the mirror as I pick up my robe and put it on. I take down my hair, and my reflection catches my eyes. I turn and I open my robe more. I want to think Viktor likes my body the way it is now, but I’ve changed a lot since having Gabbie. My breasts are fuller, my stomach isn’t as flat, and my thighs are thicker. I also have a few stretch marks and my ass jiggles. I turn away from the mirror, because if I don’t, my body will change my mind about letting Viktor having his way with me. I smirk and shake my head. I still think this is all too good to be true. I tie my robe in a tight knot as I walk over to the sink.
I quickly brush my teeth and after I finish I push my hair out of my face. It’s sad that I have to literally give myself a pep talk about having sex. I know it’s mainly because I’m not experienced. My first time, I got pregnant. Malcolm and I had sex while I lived with him, but just knowing how Viktor makes me feel without even touching me, is nerve racking. I want to be the woman Viktor thinks I am. The one who is sure of herself and takes what she wants. Funny thing is, that’s exactly how I am while I dance. Is it possible I have a split personality?
As I open the bathroom door, I breathe in my nose and slowly let it out of my mouth. I don’t want to lose my bravado, so I jerk the door open with a little more force than necessary. My bedroom light is off, and I wonder for a second if Viktor put Gabbie to bed already.
I startle when my beside light clicks on, and I see Viktor laying down on the bed. He’s on his back, with one arm behind his head, and the other moves onto his chest after turning on the light. “Dammit Vik, you scared me.”
“Why are you so jumpy?” he teases.
I roll my eyes and walk over to the bed. I stand in front of him and my damn nerves crank up even more. My palms are sweating and I switch back and forth on my feet.
“What’s on your mind, moya malen'kaya soblaznitel'nitsa?”
“Is Gabbie asleep?”
“Yes, but I don’t think that was what you wanted to say.”
Viktor watches me carefully as I continue to move around nervously. My mouth goes dry and before I stop and actually think of what to say, I end up spilling everything. “Okay, here’s the thing. I haven’t had sex in a very long time, and when I did, it wasn’t great. The first time I had sex I got pregnant, so you can imagine why I wasn’t up for random one night stands. Or it could be the fact that you’re the only guy I want to have sex with. I don’t know. I know I’m not experienced, at all, and I’m sure you’re used to having confident and experienced women all the time. For all I know, you could have someone waiting for you right now. What I’m trying to say is, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing. All I do know is, I want you to do what you did to me a few days ago. I’ve never felt that much pleasure before and I want that again. I want that with you.” I’m breathless after my confession. I hope he understood me. I was talking so fast I’m not sure if he got what I’m trying to say. I don’t know if I did. I watch him, wondering what he’s thinking. He tilts his head a little to the side, and then he starts to laugh at me.
“Viktor, this isn’t funny. I’m being serious here!” I throw up my hands in defeat as he continues to laugh. Why is this so funny to him? I shake my head, feeling the sting of rejection. I clench my jaw, trying not to let my tears get the better of me as I start to walk away. I don’t get very far. Viktor grabs my wrist, and pulls me to him. Before I know what’s happening, he has me on my back and he’s on top of me, between my legs. I love having him so close to me.
I wrap my hands around his neck as Viktor leans in, and pushes my hair out of my face. I love how he stares at me adoringly. “My sweet, Ava. I don’t know why you’re so nervous about being with me.”
“Vik, come on. I know you’ve been with countless women.”
“How do you know that? Ava, I haven’t been with anyone since I
first met you. The day I found you, I didn’t need anyone else. All I wanted was you. Even if you made me wait over a year.”
Hearing that he has waited for me for so long makes my heart flutter. He gazes at me and touches my lips with his fingertips. In a way, I’m glad I’ve waited until this moment to be with him. Knowing we both are committed makes it easier for me to knock down all my walls I have placed up so carefully. “Why did you laugh at me? It took a lot to admit those things to you.” I feel my face flush and I hate that I’m so embarrassed talking about this with him.
“Oh, Ava, seeing you flustered and all worked up over nothing amuses me. There’s no need for you to worry about anything. I’ll take care of you.”
I drop my hands from around his neck and use them to cover my face. I rub my face and let my arms fall behind my head. “I don’t understand why you want me of all people. Why me? I’m not experienced at all with sex.”
He sighs and kisses my noses. “I don’t care that you’re not experienced. I actually like that about you. I can show you so much, and make you mine. I only want you, Ava. I have from the moment I laid eyes on you. I know I’m not your first, but let me be the first to show you how sex is supposed to be. I want to be your first and last in everything from now on.”
“I’m scared, Vik.”
“Why?”
I let out a rush of air as I say, “What if I get pregnant again? I don’t want any more babies right now.”
Viktor grins, and kisses my nose again. His hand slowly slides down my side and to my thigh. He’s making it hard to think straight. “You won’t get pregnant. We’re going to be careful, and you’re not due for another Depo shot for another month and a half.” He leans up and reaches into his pocket for something. “I also have these,” he tells me as he pulls out a few condoms.
“I don’t even want to know how you know about my form of birth control. It’s creepy, Vik.”
“No it’s not. I know everything about you, so I can take care of you. And to ease your mind about things you don’t need to think of.”
“Are you a secret stalker? Because I have to say, it’s kind of sexy.” I laugh when his grin disappears and he actually has to think about what I’m saying.
“So, what you’re saying is, knowing what your medical records say is something a stalker would do?”
“Oh my gosh, Vik. It is, but I’m teasing you. Only you would know what my medical records say.” He opens his mouth to say more but I stop him. “I don’t want to know. It’s fine. I trust you won’t use that information against me.”
We both laugh, and then as if someone sucked all the air out of the room, we stop. Viktor moves off of me, and holds out his hand for me. I lick my lips and let out a sigh. I sit up and I take his hand. He pulls me up so I’m standing in front of him. My heart is already beating rapidly, and I stare at his chest. I can’t seem to make myself look at him yet. He runs his hand through my hair, and slowly moves down to my shoulder. He places his other hand under my chin and tilts my face up to him.
“Are you sure this is what you want? I need you to be sure. After this, you will be mine.”
I blink a few times trying to get my brain working again. I place my hands on his chest as I say, “Yes.” I am ready for this. I am ready to be his.
All of my doubts seem to disappear when he lowers both hands to the knot holding my robe in place. Neither one of us can look away as he slowly unties it. All I can think about is his having his skillful hands on me. I want and need him touching me everywhere, making me feel complete bliss again. I lower my arms down to my side, and once he finally unknots my robe, Viktor raises his hand up to my shoulder. He slowly moves the robe off of me as he touches my shoulder, and the movement sends my robe down my arm. I stand completely still, doing nothing but breathing and savoring his touch. I close my eyes when he does the same to my other shoulder. I feel the robe finally fall, leaving me naked and utterly exposed to him.
“Tak chertovski krasivyy.”
I can’t help but to smile hearing him talk to me in Russian. I love it, but right now, I don’t want to listen to words I don’t know the meaning of. “English, Vik.”
“I’ll try to remember that,” he says huskily in my ear.
Viktor kisses me on the side of my neck as his hands slide to my lower back. His light touch is making me ache for more. My body seems to come alive for him. Everything feels heightened, and I let my head fall back when Viktor starts to kiss up my neck. His lips capture mine, and he takes my mouth with passion. I moan when his tongue touches mine, and I grab onto his shoulders to stay upright. He pulls me closer to him as he kisses me, making all my thoughts fade. I feel one of his hands move up my back, to my neck, and he grabs a handful of my hair. He pulls me away from his hot lips and I slowly open my eyes.
“Get on the bed. Lie on your back.”
He lets me go, and I step backwards until I feel the bed hit the back of my legs. I place my hands behind me and slide onto the bed. Our eyes never leave each other, and I for one, am grateful for that. If I look away now, I fear I’ll lose the connection or my nerves will come back. I move to the middle of the bed, and ease myself down. The bed dips, and Viktor moves over me. He’s not touching me anywhere. Both hands are beside my head as he holds himself over me.
“Do you trust me?” He whispers in my ear, making me shiver with need and want.
“Yes.”
“Close your eyes.” I do as he asks, and I’m tempted to open them when I feel him move off the bed. I want to cover myself, but I fight the urge to do so. I know Viktor wouldn’t want me to feel embarrassed. My breathing starts to turn into panting as I wait for what is next. I can’t hear him, and I have no idea what he’s doing.
When I finally hear his voice again, my pussy starts to throb.
“Do you know how fucking beautiful you are?”
I hold tightly onto the covers as I feel his hand on my ankle. He barely touches me with his fingertips, and when I move my leg closer to his touch, his hand disappears.
“Stay still, or I’ll start over.”
“Viktor,” I call out wanting him to hurry up. For him to do more than just tease me.
I hear him chuckle as he says, “I need you to be patient. I’ll take care of you, moya lyubov'.”
He starts again at my ankle, to my calf, past my knee, and then to my inner thigh. He’s moving so slow it’s driving me insane. He mirrors his actions to my other leg, and I almost move when he comes over my pussy. His torturous touching continues up my stomach, to my sides, and then he reaches my arms. When he starts to make his way down to my breast, I arch my back to feel more of him. He instantly pulls away and I groan in frustration. He leaves me lying on the bed waiting for him once more. I lick my lips and try to stay still. I can feel my nipples harden, and the more he makes me wait, the more my pussy throbs.
“Please, Vik.”
He doesn’t say a word to me, but I feel his caress again. My grip on the covers tightens, and I breathe slowly out my mouth. Finally I feel the bed dip again, and he hovers over me. It’s a struggle not to open my eyes, or to let go of the covers and touch him. I want to please him, so I stay perfectly still. I can feel his breath on my lips, and his addictive smell is adding to my insanity.
“What do you want, Ava?”
I swallow, then say, “You, Vik. I want you.”
He captures my moan with his mouth as he takes both of my arms and places them over my head. He leaves wet, hot kisses down my chin, and on my neck. He lets go of my hands, but I know he wants me to keep them there. I try not to move when his hot mouth starts to suck on my nipple and then clamps down hard on it. I call out loudly for him not to stop. He caresses my other breasts with a firm grip as he continues his assault with his mouth on my other one. I don’t stop the moans that escape, and I do not let go of the covers above my head. I feel him take my other breast into his mouth and his other hand begins to trail down my stomach. Every touch makes my stomach quiver, and
chills form all over my body.
His mouth soon follows his hand down my stomach. I don’t know how much more I can take of his teasing. “Viktor, please.”
I don’t get a response as he kisses me all down the front my body. Viktor uses his hands to move once more up my legs, but when he gets to my thighs, this time he grabs them tightly and pulls me to the edge of the bed. I wasn’t expecting that at all. I yelp loudly as he pulls me and I sit up to see what he’s up to. He’s down on his knees, with both of my legs on his shoulders. His eyes are darker than I’ve ever seen. They’re full of lust and want.
“Viktor, what are you doing?” He smirks at me, and before I actually realize what he’s about to do, his hot mouth is on my pussy. “Oh god.”
I fall back onto the bed as he licks and sucks my clit. My hips move on their own, and I call out Viktor’s name over and over. The feel of him on my pussy with his mouth is unlike anything I could’ve imagined. He’s giving me nothing but sweet pleasure, and I’m on the verge of falling straight into bliss. My eyes roll into the back of my head when he dips his tongue inside of me. His hands pull my legs apart farther for him. He’s commanding my body, making it do what he wants.
I had no idea sex could be this amazingly good. I had no fucking clue. I start to feel the familiar building of my orgasm, and I reach down, putting my hands in Viktor’s dark hair. He groans, and feeling the vibration on my pussy makes me call out some more. His skillful tongue works me over, and I don’t know how much more I can take. I’m panting loudly, moaning, and my heart is thumping in my ears.
“Come for me, moya lyubov'.”
