Discovering April
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I haven’t thought about April. Okay, that’s a lie. I think about her all the time. I can’t help it. There are two questions that haunt my mind. ‘Why?’ and ‘Did I do the right thing?’ I don’t know if I will ever know.
I’m being discharged tomorrow. I have to head back home. What if I see her? What will I do? Fall back into old habits? She has been my everything for so long; what will I do without her? No. I promised myself not to think about that. They had me see a psychiatrist when I first admitted myself. Mrs. Fontaine. She asked me all kinds of questions. Apparently, they think my mental state is going to inhibit my recovery. What kind of boloney is that? If anything, it drives my recovery. I never want to be so weak ever again. I never want to be so vulnerable, so…
I don’t know what the future holds after today, but I know for certain I don’t think I’ll ever be the same again.
The Next Day
I ALMOST CAVED right then and there when I saw her climb out of her car with that sexy new haircut. It took everything in me to hold it together. She hurt me. I have to remember that, what it felt like to wake up there alone, knowing she was with him. I’m driving down the street away from her. The look in her eyes when I spoke, it’s like I punched her. I swore I would never be that guy to make her cry, and I did. I lied. Who am I? Is this what I want to become? A hard, cold person because of one little instance? Am I willing to give up on love because of one mistake? I’m slowly deciding whether to turn around or not when I catch a glimmer of platinum hair bobbing up and down in my rearview mirror. I spin around. Oh my God. April is running down the middle of the street. I watch in horror as she dashes into a busy intersection without even looking. Her eyes are staring straight at me like they can see through my dirty windows. My heart stops, and I feel like I can’t breathe. A car narrowly misses clipping her legs, I can’t stand it any longer. I jump out of the car, slamming the door behind me.
“Jared!” Her voice is barely audible through the pouring rain.
“April! Have you lost your mind? What the hell do you think you’re doing?!” I scream. She runs a few more steps before hunching over to catch her breath.
“Chasing after you!” She gasps for breath, like she just ran miles and the walls inside me seems to crack.
April, my April, is chasing after me like some corny backwards chick flick. The fissure begins to spread across my every wall and it rifts apart as she continues. “Jared, I know you didn’t wait this long just to leave me!”
She’s right. I have waited what seems like my entire life for her, and now it’s me leaving her. She’s here; she’s the one chasing me now. The rain melts away every last shred of anger I had felt towards her. But, I have to play it cool. I want to see how far she will take this.
I’ve been fighting for her for years – I think it’s about time I hear her fight for me.
Dear Reader!
Thank you for reading!
I hope you enjoyed a trip into my imagination that started from watching my very own neighbor tinkering on his car and spiraled into a full-blown daydream about April.
If you think there is something suspicious about those coffee house scenes with Jack and Sera with an E, you are absolutely correct – Sera has her own story!
The first book in the series is Seraphina: The Awakening where you find out what’s really going on with her and Jack.
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More Books By Sheena:
Seraphina: The Awakening
Book One in the Seraphina Series
Seraphina: Initiation
Book Two in the Seraphina Series
Seraphina: The Angel
Novella in the Seraphina Series
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Seraphina: Vengeance
Book Three