Breaking Through The Wall (Guarded Hearts)

by Ashley Piscitelli

We were almost at my house and he still hadn’t said two fucking words to me. The most communication I had from him was him turning on the Nickelback song “Something in your mouth”, and giving me a look. He was out of his damn mind if he thought I would let him touch me. I was done being his little plaything.

  I turned the radio off and turned to him. “Just so you know, I will not wait around for you, Jason. You either talk to me now, or understand that this is done. I refuse to let you use me anymore.”

  I was dreading his response. Especially since we were pulling into my driveway now. He stopped the car and didn’t even turn to look at me. This was fucking ridiculous!

  “You know what, J, I am so sick of your little bad boy act! FYI, being a dickhead doesn’t make you a bad boy, it just makes you a dickhead!” I threw the door open and turned around to look at him one last time. “Oh, and last time I checked, bad boys drove motorcycles not fucking Toyota Corollas!” I slammed the door and hurried into the house, before he could see me break down.

  Of course, my stepmother, the wicked witch, had to be there when I walked in. “Boy problems Nicole?” She smirked at me and I hated that she caught me like this.

  “Shut up, Barbie.” I pushed past her and headed straight for my room. God, I hated her so much. My dad married her about two years ago. She puts on a show in front of him, as if she wants to be my friend, but she isn’t fooling anyone.

  I started packing my bag so that I could spend the rest of the summer with Mads. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and pulled it out, praying for good news. I saw that it was Mads and I breathed a sigh of relief.

  Hey Nic I’m sorry about Jason. I have a proposition for you though…

  Proposition? Damn girl, you get tired of Carter already? ;-)

  Definitely Not! Carter’s sister Holly and her friend Christen are moving into a three-bedroom house. They want another roommate and asked me if I knew of any girls that might be interested…

  When can I move in?

  I couldn’t wait to get out of here. I loved my father, but spending the summer with the Barbie Troll from hell was just not appealing to me.

  They are moving in next week! You could always stay with us till then though…

  Sounds amazing! Leaving now!

  I wished things would have ended different with Jason and I, but I can’t focus on that. I need to focus on Mads and helping her get through this summer.

  Jason

  This drive home is like torture. I usually love the peace and quite, but right now it is haunting me. I know that I was wrong for running, but its done now. When I woke up with Nicole there this morning, it all hit me like a brick. I just needed some time and some space to be able to breathe.

  Knowing that Maddy was better and getting out of the hospital eased my mind. I know that Nicole had thought after the last couple nights that we were together, but I can’t right now. If I stay, though, then I won’t be able to stay away from her. She is like a magnet for me and that is dangerous.

  We had definitely grown closer over the past couple days. I had opened up to her about my mom, which was not easy. She had ended up talking to me some about her family, too. I felt myself growing attached and that is what made me leave.

  I hated that I hurt her today, although I didn’t walk away injury free. That girl could really throw a punch. I know when I go back I will have to deal with it, but for right now I will just hang out, get a summer job, and try to forget the girl that haunts me every time I close my eyes.

  *****

  This summer has been the most uneventful yet. I worked my ass off so I could have extra cash for the year. I have tried to go out with girls here and there, but nothing feels right anymore. I remember Carter talking to me about this kind of feeling last year and I thought that he was fucking crazy.

  Every time I have talked to Maddy and Carter, I have avoided the topic of Nicole. I think I’m scared that they are going to tell me that she has moved on.

  Maddy hadn’t been doing good for the first month or so anytime I talked to her I could tell she was upset. It is understandable, of course, but lately it’s like she has found her spark again. This year is going to be hard for her. Especially with all the things that Chris and his father have been pulling.

  I don’t know how they did it, but they had to have paid someone off to get away with all that they are. The report from the night of the accident has no mention of Maddy’s mouthed being taped shut or her hands being tied. Of course Carter and I swear by it, but he is her fiancée and I’m her friend. Apparently, we don’t hold much credibility. They are going to be having Chris’s hearing soon, and Maddy is scared that he will get away with everything. This whole process has been so ridiculous, and I know that it is killing Carter.

  Tonight, Nicole, Holly, and Christen are having a back-to-school party at their house. I’m going, although I don’t know how it is going to be seeing Nicole again. I’m still undecided about our relationship, but I have missed her so much.

  I have to admit, too, that I’m nervous she won’t be alone. She had told me when I left last time, that she wouldn’t wait around for me. I don’t really know how I will react if I get there and she is with someone else. All I know is that if she is, it’s gonna kill me.

  Nicole

  I can’t believe school was starting in a couple days. This summer has gone by so fast. I have missed Jason so much and Carter has been sneaking me updates here and there. I haven’t been interested in finding a new guy although that might have been the smartest decision.

  It seemed like every time I tried to talk to a guy, I lost interest. I knew that my infatuation with Jason was only hurting me, but I couldn’t stop myself from wishing that things would be different.

  I’m around campus today to sign up for the play this semester and meet one of my friends. Just then, I see him walking across the campus in his tight pink polo and bright blue khaki pants. That boy and his fashion choices astound me.

  “Hey, Jamie!”

  He looks up and smiles when he sees me. Jamie was in one of my acting classes with me last semester and I loved him; he was so outrageous and funny. He would be the perfect person to help me get to Jason and make him snap out of it.

  “Hey, hot stuff! What’s going on, mama?”

  “Listen, I need a huge favor if you’re up for it.”

  “Alright, well let’s go grab lunch and you can tell me all about it.”

  We went to eat at the coffee shop where Mads had been working. Once we ordered and got our stuff, we headed over to one of the booths. “Ok, spill girl.”

  “So, you know Jason Smith right?”

  “Ugh! Do I know him? That man could melt my panties in a minute with just one of those brooding looks!”

  I choked a little on my coffee and had to catch my breath. “Well, we have kind of been hooking up.” I saw Jamie’s mouth drop open. “We both want more, but he is scared to make an actual commitment. I feel like at this point I need to give him a little push. So I have an idea. We are having a back to school party at my house tonight and I want you to be my date.”

  “Your date? Girl you do remember that I’m--.” His face lit up like a Christmas tree, when he realized what I was suggesting. “Oh! This is going to be so much fun bitch! You better put on something sexy for me. I like a lot of skin.” He winked at me and now I couldn’t be more excited for tonight.

  . . . .

  “Damn girl! You look bomb!” Christen was standing in my doorway and laughing. “This outfit wouldn’t have anything to do with a certain bad boy who is coming back tonight, would it?”

  I laughed at her as I slipped into my heels. Christen, Holly, and I have been getting along great since we moved in together. Holly and Christen were your typical gorgeous blonds, except Holly’s hair was long where Christen’s was more shoulder length.

  The dress I had on tonight was bright red, the straps tied around my neck. I loved this feature, because it seemed to make my boobs look at least a
couple of cup sizes bigger. It dipped down low in the back coming to a stop just above my butt and it was short enough to show off my legs that Jason always said he loved.

  “If you must know, I have a plan tonight.”

  “Oh really?”

  I heard the doorbell ring and started to get excited. “Let the games begin, girl.”

  When I went downstairs I saw Carter, Mads, and Jason. He looked sexy in his low slung jeans and tight t-shirt. I hoped this worked tonight because I missed him, and his incredible body. When he looked up at me I could see the sharp inhale of breath he took. Christen leaned down to whisper in my ear, “I hope you brought the boy oxygen, girl.”

  I walked down the rest of the steps and gave everyone a hug. When the doorbell rang again, I had a feeling it would be Jamie. I answered it and couldn’t believe my eyes. He was dressed in a tight black t-shirt and faded jeans. He looked so different, and, when he saw me, he winked. He walked in, scooped me up in a hug, spun me around, and planted a kiss right on my lips. I swear to God, I think I heard Jason growl behind me. When I turned around to introduce him to everyone, Jason was fuming.

  “Everyone, I want you to meet Jamie; Jamie this is everyone. Jamie and I have started dating!”

  The faces of everyone around the room were priceless. Christen, Holly, and Mads all had smirks on their faces, because they knew exactly who Jamie was. Carter’s mouth was hanging open in surprise, and Jason looked murderous. I loved this plan!

  Jamie was standing behind me with his arms around me, he leaned down so his chin was resting on my shoulder. “How about we go get a drink, gorgeous?”

  “Sure, babe! Come on!” Once we got in the kitchen, Jamie and I busted out laughing. “Did you see his face? I thought he was going to blow a blood vessel!”

  “You look damn sexy tonight, girl! If this doesn’t do the trick, I don’t know what will!”

  We got our drinks and went to sit on the couch. I was just about to sit next to Jamie, when he pulled me down onto his lap. I leaned down to his ear. “You’re a very bad boy.” We laughed and I felt my hairs stand up at the back of my neck.

  I looked across the room and saw Jason. He looked like he was barely able to keep it together. Mads came and sat next to us, while J stormed off to the kitchen. “What the hell are you two trying to do, give the poor guy a heart attack?”

  Jamie and I started to laugh, but that died down once Jason walked back in the room. “What can I say Mads? Jamie is just amazing.” Jason threw himself into the Lazy-boy and slammed his beer on the end table. I really don’t know how much more he can take, but I’m interested to see. “Hey, babe? Do you wanna just stay here with me tonight?”

  Jamie squeezed my hips and I let out a squeal. “Mmmm that sounds good, babe.”

  I leaned down and gave him a peck on the lips. “I’m gonna run to the bathroom. I’ll be back.”

  I walked upstairs, through my room, and into the bathroom. When I looked in the mirror, I laughed at the huge grin that was on my face. It was only a matter of time at this point. I will have him by the end of the night. I walked out of the bathroom to find Jason standing right in front of me. He was breathing heavily and staring at me like he didn’t know whether to scream at me or rip my clothes off.

  I hope he takes the second option.

  Jason

  When I came to the house tonight, I thought it wouldn’t be that big of a deal seeing Nic. Then she walked down the steps in that short little dress and those high ass heels. I was ready to take her upstairs as soon as she came down. Then that tool showed up and he has had his hands all over her. I’m about ready to rip his fucking hands off. When I saw her walk up to the bathroom, I knew this was my shot.

  I can’t fight it anymore and now I’m determined that I will make her mine tonight. When she came out of the bathroom and saw me standing there, she smirked at me. I walked over to her, grabbed her hand, and walked her over to her bed. She opened up her mouth to speak, but I crashed mine into her before she got the chance. I pushed her down onto the bed and settled myself on top of her. I was going to remind her exactly why we were so good together.

  I reached down and hiked her dress up to her hips. She moaned when my hand brushed over her and I knew I had her. I hooked my fingers into the little piece of lace she had on and ripped them off. When I ran my finger over her, I was surprised at how wet she was already.

  “Mmmm, baby, you are always so ready for me.” I pushed two of my fingers into her and she moaned. “Did you miss this baby?” I stroked her inside and played with her clit with my thumb.

  “Jason!”

  “I know that you’re already close, baby. You are always so ready and into it.” I lowered myself and positioned my head between her thighs. I ran my nose up and down them, while she grasped my head and tried to push me towards her. “Do you want me to kiss it, baby?” I ran my tongue up her pussy stopping just short of her clit. “Do you want me to make you come?”

  “God, yes!” She was grasping at the bed sheets and I knew it wouldn’t take long to get her there.

  “If you want me to do that baby, you need to tell me who’s pussy this is. You seemed confused tonight, so I just need to make sure you still know who it belongs to.”

  “What?”

  I licked her again just to prove my point. “Tell.Me.Who’s.Pussy.This.Is.” I emphasized each word with a thrust of my fingers deep inside her.

  “It’s yours, Jason! Please, baby!”

  That’s all I needed. I started to move my fingers in and out of her while I licked and sucked her pussy, so hard I might just leave a mark. When I moved up to her clit and sucked it into my mouth, she came, screaming my name at the same time. She tasted so fucking good, that I lapped it up until nothing was left.

  When I moved back up to her, she looked so pleased and relaxed. “I’m not done with you yet, babe. Ever since you walked down the steps all I could think about was being inside of you. This is going to be quick though, because with all the build up and watching you come while you screamed my name, my dick is about to explode.” I pulled my pants down just enough to free myself, pulled back, and rammed into her. “God, I missed this!”

  “Fuck Jason, I think I’m going to come again!”

  I was thrusting into her so hard I’m surprised I didn’t break through. Her pussy was always so tight and made me come so fast. Not only that, but the constant dreams I had been having with her and seeing her here tonight already had me on edge.

  “I’m coming! Fuck!”

  When she came, her muscles started pulsating against me and that was it. “Shit, babe!”

  I collapsed on the bed next to her and started to catch my breath. After a couple minutes I went in the bathroom and got us a couple washcloths to clean up with. When we were done and she put new panties on, she looked up at me for the first time. I knew she really didn’t know what to do at this point and I needed to make the first move.

  I walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her waist. “Nic, listen I know I acted like a possessive jerkoff tonight, but it’s only because I couldn’t stand the sight of someone else getting to touch you. I’m done with the games; I want you and I want everyone to know you’re mine.”

  She wrapped her arms around me, then leaned up to give me a kiss. “You don’t know how long I have been waiting to hear that.”

  “Good, now let’s get downstairs and tell that idiot to fuck off.” I started pulling her downstairs. I couldn’t wait to get that asshole out of this house.

  She pulled me back into her room and started to laugh. “Wait a minute, J.”

  “What?”

  “I’m not telling Jamie to leave.”

  “Are you fucking kidding me, Nic? Now that you’re mine, you are not going to go back down there and let him put one hand on you.”

  She was still laughing and I really didn’t see what was so funny. “Jamie is a friend of mine, Jason; a very gay friend.”

  What the fuck?! “What do you m
ean, Nic?”

  “Jamie is in the drama program with me. I asked him to come here tonight to help me knock some sense into that stubborn head of yours.”

  This girl was crazy. I can’t believe that she did that, but it worked like a charm. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her. “Gay or not, you better tell him that you are hands off now.” Then I smacked her butt and started to pull her downstairs with me.

  Madison

  When I saw Jason follow Nicole upstairs, I couldn’t help the huge smile on my face. I just hoped this time, he took his head out of his ass and stuck with her.

  “Hey babe, you ok?” Carter was rubbing my back and looking over at me. I loved him so much. Especially, after these last few months. I know how hard everything was for him to deal with, especially losing the baby. He always put me before himself though, which is amazing. I thank God every day, that I met Carter, and that he is in my life.

  “I’m fine.” I leaned over and gave him a kiss. “I think I am going to get a drink, though.” I haven’t had a drink, much less allowed myself to have fun and relax, since that night. Chris still haunted me every time I closed my eyes. Especially because I was so scared that he was going to get away with it. I walked into the kitchen, grabbed a drink, and decided that tonight I would let go.

  When I was walking back into the living room, Jason and Nicole were making their way down the steps hand-in-hand. I smiled up at my best friend and she started to giggle like a little schoolgirl.

  I loved that they were finally going to be with each other and be happy; they deserved it. Someone knocked on the door and, when I pulled it open, I saw that it was Shawn. He looked so different. He had bulked up a lot over the summer and his shaggy hair was now buzzed.

  “Hey, Maddy!” He wrapped his arms around me and picked me up a little. I hadn’t seen him for most of the summer. Carter had said that he had been working for his dad at home to help out.

  He put me down and started to make his rounds with everyone. It felt so good to have everyone back together again. I had missed this and I feel like this will help me finally move on, too.