Manage Me (Taven's Circus Book 1)

by Unknown

  At the end of Raven, a huge full watt smile breaks out on Nell’s face. One song was all it took, she loves it up here and I will make it my life’s mission to keep that smile on her face for the rest of our lives.

  “You may be wondering who this foxy talented as fuck violinist is? This is Nell Craven, by day she is our Tour Manager but by niiight…she is our newest member of Toven’s Circus.” Nell’s jaw drops and tears flood her eyes. Ashton, Ryker, and Finn each stand to give her a big hug. We had discussed this a couple days ago, deciding we would know for sure after she played. “What do you guys think, should we keep her?” I ask the crowd, who are losing their shit with excitement.

  While we wait for them to all calm down, I take am turn to huge Nell. I wrap her up tight in my arms and she nuzzles into her spot in my neck. “You were incredible, Beauty. I am so proud of you.” Pulling back from me, her lips crash into mine. Everything fades away including the 10,000 people that are screaming around us. I never knew anyone could or would mean so much. This beautiful talented smart woman has inhabited my heart eternally.

  I vaguely register something hitting my arm then a yank to my hair pulls my lips from Nell’s causing me to release a feral growl. “Knock it off asshole we are on stage.” Whisper shouts Ashton.

  “Oh shit, later” I send a wink to Nell and turn back to the mic. “Uh… so this is a new song I wrote called “Her Song”, I hope you like it.”

  We play through the rest of the set before doing our on cores and escaping backstage.

  Nell is nowhere in sight, I ask every roadie and security guard that I pass but no one has seen her. Finally while wondering around I see her standing on the edge of the Gorge cliff looking out over enormous canyon that lays before us. The sun has long since set but the moon is bight in the cloudless skin and shimmers against her nearly white hair. She looks angelic standing the still as a statue just lost in thought. I wonder if I should just leave her to her thought. We are all so crammed in together that it’s nice to take the time to yourself but I need to know that she is okay with the idea of being in the band. We need to talk about what happened the other day. I have been waiting for her to bring it up but since she hasn’t I have let her avoid it for the weekend but I feel that it has been long enough. We need to talk and we need to talk it out now.

  She leans into me as I wrap my arms around her. “Hey, I was looking everywhere for you, Beauty.|

  “Sorry, I just wanted some space.” She says rubbing her soft hands along my forearms. “Did you really mean what you said back there?”

  “Of course I did. The band talked a couple days ago. We agreed that if you made it through the first acoustic set that we were going to ask you. I could tell by your grin after the first song that you were in love with it. That you were a part of Toven’s Circus, a part of us, a part of me. And I want to share that, this, with you every time we get on stage for along as we do this.” I rub my cheek against her soft hair. “Do you want this with us, Nell?”

  She turns in my arms, grabbing my face for once, tears catching the light on her cheeks as she says, “I’ve only every wanted to be a part of a family. A family that was more than just the front for the tabloids. I very much want to be a part of the crazy Toven’s family Circus.” I tighten my hold on her and pressing my lips to her I swing her around, completely unaware that we are being watched.

  Emily

  She watches them from the shadows. She has to stay well hidden as to avoid being recognized especially now with their little three some being in the lime light. She would kill that little bitch for that embarrassment alone. Faulting her ass around with her love for the world to see while she was at home on bed rest with his child growing inside of her. She would make her pay. She would feed her, her insides and make Jaden watch.

  She watches them disappear into the meet and greet tent before heading towards the bands bus.

  Chapter 34

  Nell

  Tonight has been like a dream that I never was aware I wanted. Playing with Toven’s Circus is more incredible every time we sit down together and tonight was no different. Playing with Jaden is so intense, so deep. It’s like we become one through the music, connecting on a completely different plan of existence. The plan I have only ever reached through my music is now shared with Jaden. Ryker, Ashton, and Finn are there but are muted shadows providing the melody that surrounds us. Today has been a wonderful day.

  We make our way into the meet and greet tent, where the band will hang out with some fans, take pictures and sign things. Women dressed in barely-there clothes are littered about everywhere backstage, hoping to get a taste of the guys. There are big burley biker dudes, young metal heads, and even a gaggle or two of teenagers, all lined up to meet their idols. I stand behind the long table, that seat the band, just watching the show of people. I love watching the real fans that come up and gush over them. The ones that are in complete awe that they are meeting their idols. The young girls that are struck speechless. The young men who babble incessantly about wanting to be just like them. These people are the ones that make fame worth it. Sharing these moments with them are special.

  I smile at this enjoying myself when a bouncy barely clothed girl pops up to Jaden and drops her top exposing her breast right in his face. Jaden’s eyes don’t waver from her face though. He reaches out with his pen, signing his name quickly without touching her skin with his own or even acknowledging that her boobs were out at all. The girl heads off with a pout and Jaden moves onto the next fan. I am not shocked by the girl’s action, I know girls will do anything to get their attention. I’m happy with Jaden’s response, the girl may be a little butt that he didn’t just fall into her rack but they won’t lose a fan over it either and he’s not in trouble with me either.

  A pre-teen makes her way through the line with her father in tow but instead of heading out like the rest of the fans she makes her way over to me.

  “Hi, you were the violin player right? The new member of Toven?” she asks confidently.

  “Um…yes. It was a bit of a surprise for everyone tonight, including myself.” I say with a chuckle.

  “I think it’s so awesome. I have been playing violin for 5 years. I would love to play in a rock band like Toven someday. When did you start playing? Have you always played rock music? Can I have you autograph too?”

  “Wow, really? You want my autograph? I mean yes of course.” I sign her poster along with everyone else’s and answer all of her questions. Her dad is very nice too and peppers me with questions about how to help his daughter get the best teaching possible to make her dreams come true. When they leave I am so damn happy and never want the night to end, Jaden better be ready because he is going to get majorly laid tonight, I plan to climb my man like a tree, sit on his face, and then do dirty, dirty things to his body until dawn.

  Jaden

  My woman is on cloud nine and it makes my heart quiver with love in my chest. The second we are out of the tent I swoop her up into my arms, planting my lips against hers.

  “You are so fucking beautiful but especially tonight, on stage and after. Light is radiating from your every pore and it takes my breath from my lungs. I hope you aren’t tired.” I murmur my way along her jaw.

  “I was hoping the same thing about you. I’ve big plans for you tonight.”

  “Good.” I growl before demolishing her mouth once more.

  We make our way towards the bus but end up finding a private dark corner behind a power building and I need to feel her, I need to have her taste in my mouth. Pushing her up against the cooling brick building, we devour each other mouths. Our hands grabbing and bruising as we both seek as much contact as possible. I tug the bottom of her shirt up around her neck just exposing her front. She grabs my hair directing my mouth to her covered nipples that I quickly expose by yanking her breasts out of the bra pockets. She moans deep when my wet hot tongue meets her sweet tightened flesh. Using my teeth, I drag them over the tip then roughly nip before s
ucking it hard with my lips and lapping it gently with my tongue.

  “Oh my God! Jaden fuck!” Nell pants and tries to squirm around but I use my body to hold her in place. I work my other hand down to her jeans, undoing the button and zipper, reaching into her panties. The heat between her thighs in like an inferno nearly burning my fingers but I keeps going into the saturated heat. I rub a couple fingers around her swollen clit, wanting to suck it into my mouth and taste her nectar. She is so close to her release that her body tightens almost instantly but I want her cum on my face, so I draw back.

  “Damn it, Jaden, please don’t stop.” She mews as she moves her hips around trying to get my fingers back to where she needs them. Instead I pull my hand out and she growls at me. “Fucker I said don’t stop.”

  I can’t help but grin, I fucking love it when she gets so turned on she is aggressive for me. I turn her around pressing her face against the brick.

  “Don’t fucking move, Beauty.” I growl in her ear and yank her jeans and panties to her knees. I adjust her so she is bent forward, face still against the brick, legs spread as far as the jeans will allow, her soft pale ass ready for the taking. I give a cheek a good smack, enjoying seeing my handprint appear immediately.

  “Tonight I will take your ass for the first time.” I punctuate my statement with another smack causing her to let out a grunt and a moan.

  “Jaden if you don’t fuck me in some way soon, I’m going to rape the fuck out of you.” At this demand I can’t stand teaser her anymore. I drop to my knees behind her and bury my face in her sopping pussy. She begins to come the second my tongue enters her tight hole. I palm her ass cheeks spreading them wide as I gorge myself on her delectable essence. As her orgasm comes to an end she starts to struggle trying to make me stop but I hook an arm between her legs and around her hip to hold her in place.

  “Come on Beauty, one more.” I breathe against her.

  “No Jaden, I can’t.” She pants. I press two fingers into her and set about pleasuring the tight backdoor prize. Her sucks in a breath of shock that’s quickly turned to a groan of desire. With my fingers I push against her softened g-spot, I can feel it tightening and Nell is now grinding against me searching for her release.

  “Right there Baby, don’t stop, I’m coming! Fuck, fuck, fuck!!” she screams out. I dive down, removing my finger to catch her squirting juices, suctioning my mouth to her to get every drop.

  I help Nell to the ground when her knees give out on her. I sit down beside her, snuggling her close. My cock is raging in my pants but I’ll let him free when we get back to the bus.

  “Do you think you can walk?” I ask.

  “Not with my pants around my ankles” she snorts.

  “I could carry you, ass in the air, fireman style.” I joke.

  “Or I could get on my knees right here and take your cock in my mouth.” She throws out seductively running her hand up my thigh, teasing my trapped and angry beast though my jeans. But I have other ideas for my woman but we need some privacy to achieve them. I stand up tugging her up with me.

  “Hey!” she squawks and I just laugh, helping her pull up her jeans.

  “Don’t worry, you’ll have years to please my cock but I have plan for you.” I say and fling her over my shoulder, laughing more when she shrieks and starts smacking my ass. It doesn’t take her long to take advantage of her situation pulling my shirt up to access my bare skin. She caresses, kisses, licks, then shocks me with a hefty bite.

  “Feisty minx!” I holler smacking her ass. “Someone wants to be punished tonight. I love it when you’re feisty Beauty.” I bite down on the side of her ass this time and instead of a yell, Nell lets out a moan of pleasure. Fuck me, I need to get my woman naked and beneath me before I lose my damn mind.

  I thunder up the step of the empty bus, not caring where everyone else is right now. I just need to get inside my woman. I kick open the bedroom door, setting Nell on her feet before attacking her face. She lets out a moan dragging her nails across my scalp sending goosebumps through my body. I flip her around pushing her against the door so I can grind against her. I pull away from her lips long enough to yank off her shirt returning to my feast right away. My hands encasing her breast to knead and massage. I slide my lips down her chin, along her neck, across her clavicle, her heads tilts back, her chest thrust out for me to take my fill, gasps of pleasure escaping her throat.

  When she screams out in fear, I spin around in defense, and what I see shocks me stupid.

  Chapter 35

  Nell

  Emily fucking Snow sits naked in the middle of our bed. Desire melts from her eyes, her nipples in hard peaks as she sat there watching us. How the hell did she get in here and why is she naked in our bed?!

  “What the fuck are you doing in our bed Emily?” growls out Jaden. “And what the fuck are you even doing here?”

  “I wanted to surprise you and I got in late. I decided to take a shower and when I got out I was so tired. I must have fallen asleep. I’m so sleepy all the time, with being in my first trimester and all.” She says sliding out of the bed and slinking over to Jaden, who is standing front of me seething.

  “You need to get dressed.” He grinds out.

  “Why, it’s nothing you haven’t seen before.” She purrs reaching out towards his chest, but I step out and grab her arm.

  “Do not touch him.” I say it softly but the venom is clear. Her eyes go wide as she meet mine gaze but she smiles seductively.

  “Come on Nell, I was hoping we could all have some fun together.” She says, attempting to seduce me now.

  “You will never touch what is mine again. Got it. You might, and that’s a big fucking “might” be carrying his child but he is mine. Do. You. Understand? Now get dressed and get the fuck out of our bedroom.” I’m pissed beyond belief and want to tear this bitches hair extensions out of her pretty blonde head. If she wasn’t pregnant I might so instead, I fling her arm away, grab Jaden’s hand, and pull him out of the bedroom behind me.

  “Nice rack Beauty!” says Ryker when we enter the living space and I remember I am not wearing a shirt.

  “Fuck,” Jaden grabs me, pulling me behind him. “Ashton can you grab Nell a shirt, please.” He asks, and she jumps up to grab one from her bunk, handing me a tank top to toss on.

  “Thanks.” I mumble.

  “Why are you guys out here half undress and unable to get your own clothes?” asks Finn.

  “Emily Snow is naked and with her pussflaps on our damn bed, thinking we were going to enjoy a little ménage with her.” I grumble.

  “Really…” Ryker says like he is ponding the, “what ifs”.

  “Gross,” states Ashton giving him a smack in the arm. “She’s like a cockroach.” The description is fitting in so many ways.

  “Are you implying we need to nuke the bus?” Jaden asks. Ashton just scrunches up her face and shrugs. The bedroom door pops open and Emily skips, yes the bitch skips, happily towards us with a huge grin on her face while we all shoot daggers at her.

  “I’m going to go burn the bedding…” I say trying to escape but Jaden grabs my hand pulling me to his side.

  “Why are you here Emily?” he ask, his tone stung tight.

  “I told you, I just wanted to see you. I am all alone in L.A. and pregnant. I wanted to be with the baby’s daddy.” She says in her best “feel bad for me” voice.

  “Can’t you go home to your family?” Ashton asks.

  “I don’t have family.” Emily spits back at her before turning back to Jaden with pleading eyes. “I just don’t want to be alone through this. I was hoping you would let me stay.” She says softly.

  “The bus is pretty full already. We have one bunk left and we pick up Gemma in Vegas. I am sorry but we don’t have room for you, Emily.” Finn jumps in to be the bad guy so Jaden doesn’t have to.

  “What about the roadie’s bus? Surely, this Gemma person can stay with them.” She tries.

  “Gemma, will not b
e staying on the roadies bus especially not so you can stay on the bands. You want to stay so bad, you stay with the roadies.” I jump in.

  “She can’t stay with the roadies, Nell. She's pregnant.” Jaden says. Angry hate fire fuels through me and I pull back from him. How dare he defend her?

  “Fine, I will.” I stomp away heading for the door of the bus making it only halfway before Jaden has me locked against his chest.

  “Please don’t go… I don’t know what to do, I need you.” he whispers against my ear dissipating my anger. I turn in his arms, placing my hand on his face. His eyes are huge and terrified. “I need you always. I want you always…” before he can continue, Emily’s voice butts in.