Highland Heiress
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“He wasn’t drinking because he was worried about that. He was overimbibing because…” She drew in a deep shuddering breath before continuing, for it was so difficult to face this next truth, let alone speak of it. “Because he’s dying. There’s a growth in his abdomen. Dr. Campbell told me so when he came today. He wanted my father to take laudanum, but he refused. The doctor thinks he’s been drinking to dull the pain instead. And all this time, I was condemning him for weakness, for being selfish, for breaking his promise, when I should have seen…or asked…”
His own fatigue and pain forgotten in light of her anguished distress, Gordon put his arms about her and held her close.
“Oh, Gordon, I said such terrible things to him!” she whispered, her voice breaking.
He had heard that sort of dry-throated remorse, the guilt, the sorrow, many times in his practice.
“Don’t blame yourself,” he said softly, his lips against her hair. “I suspect that even if you had asked him if he was sick, he would have denied it. I’ve met other men like your father, who think silence is better than revealing the truth, who believe that by keeping their illness or troubles to themselves, they spare their loved ones fear and worry. They don’t realize that ignorance can cause more worry and pain, and their efforts to be stoic can lead to havoc and misunderstanding when they’re gone. Yet I’m sure that in his heart he wanted to spare you, because he loves you.”
His words touched her heart and lifted the worst of the burden of guilt and regret from her. She leaned against him, gaining strength from his strength, and consolation not just from his words, but from his presence, and his love.
“He thought he was protecting me,” she agreed, “just as he was protecting me from a bad marriage when he told me about Robbie.”
“Do you think it would help if he knows he doesn’t have to worry that you’ll be alone? That there is another man who loves you deeply and who’ll try to keep you safe and happy for the rest of your life? Who can hardly wait for the day he can call you his wife?”
As happy as that thought made her, she didn’t immediately agree. “Considering how he feels about you, it might be best not to speak of our plans, at least not right away. Perhaps in a few days.”
“Whenever you think best,” he said, stroking her cheek.
She took his face between her hands and kissed him slowly, tenderly.
As she wanted to—and would—kiss him every day of her life.
A few hours later, the constable stood in the earl’s drawing room, twisting his hat in his hands and shaking his head as he addressed Moira and Gordon.
“We’ve searched everywhere and questioned every innkeeper, livery stable owner, postilion and tollbooth keeper between here and Edinburgh, and as far north as Inverness and halfway to Glasgow and Stirling, too. Nobody’s seen him. Only sign of Sir Robert has been the coat on the beach up near Plockton, like I said.”
Moira and Gordon exchanged wary, dismayed glances.
“You’re certain there was no boat there?” Gordon asked.
“No, sir, none, according to the fishermen who use that stretch of sand.”
“Oh, Gordon,” Moira said, trying not to cry. In spite of everything Robbie had done and all the anguish he’d caused, she didn’t want to believe he was dead.
“Aye, my lady, it’s a bad business when a body does himself in, but that looks to be the way of it. Sir Robert walked into the ocean and never came out.”
Mr. McCrutcheon cleared his throat and his manner became more professional and less like an undertaker offering solace to the bereaved. “To the other matter, about the fire. Since all the men responsible are dead and we never did find out who paid them, there isn’t much we can do in the way of prosecution, I’m afraid.”
Moira and Gordon exchanged glances. Knowing the truth themselves and given her father’s condition, they had decided not to enlighten the constable, at least not as long as her father still lived.
“We’re satisfied knowing that they won’t be setting any more fires,” Moira said.
“Aye, well, that they won’t. Now, about the inquest, Mr. McHeath. The coroner thinks there’s no need for you to come back to Dunbrachie to give evidence. He says that man we thought you killed wasn’t killed at the school at all, so there’s no chance you did it. He’d been dragged a ways, you see.”
“How can you tell?” Moira asked, pleased that Gordon needn’t testify, but surprised by the constable’s explanation, too.
“The mud on his clothes, and it was matted in his hair. Too much of it, the coroner says. Never occurred to me to take that into account, I’m sorry to say, but then, by the time I usually see a body, the family’s washed it.”
Mr. McCrutcheon put his hands on his knees and hoisted himself to his feet. “Yes, it seems like the three of ’em managed to do each other in. Pity more bad ’uns don’t do the same, but then what are prisons for, eh?
“I’ll be off now then,” he continued when they didn’t reply. “I’d say it was a pleasure, Mr. McHeath, but that doesn’t seem quite right under the circumstances.”
“I can say it was a pleasure to meet you, though,” Gordon said, rising to shake his hand. “You’ll let us know if you hear anything more about Sir Robert?”
“Aye, sir, aye,” he affirmed. “Well, good day. And here’s hoping the next time we meet, it’s under more sociable conditions.”
Gordon nodded, then turned back into the room, where Moira stood looking out the windows at the garden. The day was gray and gloomy, but she was like a ray of sunlight against the windowpanes.
“Do you believe Robbie’s dead?” she asked when he came up behind her and wrapped his arms about her.
“Without any other evidence, it’s difficult to say what happened. I’d like to think he simply went to the shore to think, removed his jacket and forgot it when he left, but when I recall how he was the last time I saw him—” Gordon shook his head “—it’s difficult to be optimistic.”
“I’m so sorry I ever agreed to marry him,” Moira said with a heavy sigh. “How much pain and trouble for all of us could have been averted if I’d known my own heart better and not let my pride and vanity sway me!”
“We’re all liable to pay heed to our pride and vanity,” Gordon said softly. “If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have been so thrilled when Robbie paid attention to me when I was young. I would have seen his flaws and realized I should avoid him. If I had known my own heart better, I would have realized that what I felt for a certain young woman in Edinburgh wasn’t love, or even desire. It was just boyish admiration.”
He pulled Moira back against him. “Now that I know what love is, I know I was a fool to think that what I felt for Catriona was even close.”
Moira turned in his arms, so that they were face-to-face. “I’ve been thinking, Gordon, and I’ve decided to tell my father about us today. There have been too many secrets already.”
Gordon studied her determined features. “Are you quite sure?”
“Quite. Besides, I’d like him to be at our wedding. And I think it should be…soon.”
“Today would suit me admirably,” Gordon sincerely replied, “but if I must wait a few more days, so be it.”
She gave him a wistful smile. “I would rather it be today, too, but you must have some time to return to Edinburgh and see your clients.”
“I also have to prepare for the move to Dunbrachie. And I should inform my friends they’re going to be receiving wedding invitations.”
“I hope your friends like me.”
“Well,” he said slowly as he sat on the sofa and drew her down onto his lap, “I confess I haven’t given much thought to any socializing we may be doing. I’ve been thinking about being alone with my wife.”
“I’ve thought about being alone with my husband, too,” she confessed as she wound her arms around his neck.
His lips quickly found hers, and they shared a kiss.
“Good God!”
Moira sprang
up from the sofa and turned to see her father standing indignantly on the threshold.
“Papa!” she cried, hurrying toward him, surprised and upset, but not because she’d been caught kissing Gordon. “What are you doing out of bed? The doctor said—”
“Bother the doctor!” he interrupted. “I know when I’m well enough to get out of bed—and it’s a damn good thing I did, too, when this is what I find!” He pointed at Gordon, who had also gotten to his feet. “Get out of my house, you…you rogue!”
Moira put her hands on her father’s outstretched arm, gently forcing it lower. “Please, Papa, you don’t understand.”
“The hell I don’t! I saw what he was doing!”
“What I was doing, too, Papa,” she said as she faced him. “There’s no need to be angry. We’re going to be married.”
The earl’s eyes widened as he stared at her, then Gordon, then his daughter again. “Married?” here repeated, as if she’d announced she was getting a tattoo.
“Married,” she confirmed. “As soon as possible.”
“Are you with child?” he demanded.
“No, Papa!” she cried, aghast and suddenly sorry she’d announced their plans. But she had, and there was no going back now. “We’re in love and we’re going to be married. You wanted me to be a wife, didn’t you? Well, now I will be.”
“Yes, but…but…” Her father felt for the sofa and sat heavily. He glanced up at Gordon, then turned his stern gaze back to Moira. “Have you somehow forgotten that this man was helping Robert McStuart to sue you?”
“Was,” Gordon emphasized. “I’m no longer his solicitor, or his friend.”
If her father hadn’t been so sick, Moira would have pointed out that the earl had done worse by hiring men to burn down her school, but since he was ill, and because she was sure Gordon could argue his own case without her help, she stayed silent.
“You’re only a solicitor. You’re not even a barrister.”
“That’s true,” Gordon replied evenly. “However, I make a very good living and am well respected in my profession. And I promise you, my lord, that your daughter’s welfare and happiness will always be my first consideration.”
“As well as our children’s,” Moira added.
Her father continued to scowl, but she saw cause for hope in his eyes. “Children will keep you at home, at least,” he muttered, giving her a sidelong glance before he eyed Gordon speculatively. “I don’t suppose you can make her give up these notions about education for the poor.”
“I don’t intend to try. Indeed, my lord, I intend to help her in any way I can.”
“Huh.”
“My lord, I appreciate that your objections stem from a natural urge to protect your child,” Gordon said in what Moira could only assume was his courtroom timbre, “yet I must point out that she is legally an adult. You cannot forbid her marriage nor her charitable endeavors.”
His voice and expression softened. “Besides, my lord, you must realize you’ve raised a woman as determined and clever as yourself.”
Moira doubted there could have been anything better Gordon could have said to mollify her father.
“You’ll have to live in Edinburgh, I suppose,” the earl grumbled.
“No, Papa, I still want my first school to be here,” Moira said.
“I understand there is a lack of legal representation in Dunbrachie and the surrounding area,” Gordon said quickly before her father realized she’d said her first school, “whereas solicitors are rather thick on the ground in Edinburgh. So we plan to live in Dunbrachie, provided I can find a suitable house.”
Finally her father’s shoulders relaxed, and he even smiled. “In that case, I have no objections,” he allowed, “but what is this about finding a house when there is this huge place? It would be a waste of money to buy another. It will be yours one day anyway, Moira. You both might as well live here.”
He then shook a finger at Gordon and declared, “Keep a tight rein on her, my lad, or she’ll run roughshod all over you! She’s just like her mother—a head full of ideas and plans and schemes.” He lowered his hand and his expression grew tender as he regarded his daughter. “But if you love her half as much as I loved her dear mother, you’ll be a very happy fellow.”
“Oh, Papa!” Moira cried as she threw her arms around him and smiled through her tears.
Some weeks later, Moira looked up and smiled when she saw her husband standing on the threshold of the drawing room in the manor house of the earl of Dunbrachie.
Her smile faded when she saw his weary, worried expression.
Setting aside the garment she was sewing, she hurried to kiss Gordon lightly on the lips. “Did Mr. MacIntosh prove to be even more stubborn about the contract than you feared?”
The cantankerous Mr. MacIntosh and his complicated business affairs had been consuming much of Gordon’s time and effort in his new practice.
“No,” he replied as he wrapped his arms around her.
“You had another client who wanted to talk about your victory over the Titan of Inverness?”
“No,” he replied with a bit of a smile. “I suppose I shouldn’t complain if that sends clients to my door, but it does get a little tiresome.”
She thought of something that might erase that grim expression from his face.
“Dr. Campbell said my father’s doing much better than expected,” she said as she led him to the sofa and drew him down beside her. “Keeping him away from drink and having Mrs. McAlvey’s help has been very beneficial. Dr. Campbell thinks that if things continue this way, my father may live for at least another eight months—certainly long enough to see his first grandchild.”
“I’m glad he’s…” Gordon paused and his visage became a stunned blank for a moment. Then his eyes lit up with a joy that lifted her happiness to new heights, too.
“Grandchild!” he exclaimed as he jumped to his feet as if she’d poked him with the fire tongs—and he liked it. “Moira! Are you…are we…a baby?”
“Yes, we’re having a baby,” she laughingly confirmed.
He pulled her up and into his arms before kissing her face, all over. “Oh, Moira!” he gasped between kisses. “This is wonderful! I couldn’t be happier. Or feel more blessed.”
For several minutes, they embraced and kissed and held each other. Moira clung to him tightly, loving him, loving the life they shared after all they’d been through.
So when Gordon eventually pulled away, she was taken aback to see that he looked even more gravely serious. “I’m so happy, I nearly forgot. I’ve had news about Robbie.”
No wonder he had looked so serious! “Is he…dead?”
“No, he’s alive.”
“Alive?” she gasped, relieved and yet not quite willing to believe it. “Where is he? Has he been caught? Is he in prison?”
Her husband took her hand. “Sit down, Moira, please, and I’ll explain,” he said, and she obeyed, barely realizing where she was sitting.
He sat beside her and pulled an envelope from his jacket. “I received this letter this afternoon. It’s from Robbie himself. He’s somewhere in America. He’s sorry for everything that happened, and regrets causing us any pain or heartache.”
“I’m glad he’s not dead,” Moira replied with heartfelt relief and sincerity. “But his coat…or was that someone else’s?”
“No, it was his. He was going to drown himself, but at the last moment, the tide turned and he took it as a sign that he, too, could turn the tide of his life—and he has.
“He enclosed a document giving me power of attorney over his entire estate. He’s instructed me to sell all his property and the mill to pay off his debts. If there’s any money left after that, I am to give it to you to use in the building of a school. He wants nothing for himself.”
“Nothing? But how will he live?”
Gordon drew the letter out of his jacket pocket, opened it and read:
“I want nothing because I deserve nothing. I’v
e done terrible things that I regret more than I can say. I would say it cost me the best woman in the world, but she’s far better off with you, Gordon, than she would have been married to a weakling like me. So I am starting over here in this new world, with a new name, and working to earn my bread. I can’t say it’s enjoyable, but already I feel more of a man here than I ever did in Scotland.
“I only hope you can both forgive me. Whether you do or not, I wish you every happiness and many joyful years together.”
As Gordon silently folded the letter, Moira put her hand on his arm. “I’m glad he’s alive, Gordon, and I think we can be hopeful that he’ll be all right. Perhaps,” she added softly, “he’ll find a good woman to love and have a family, too.”
“I’d like to think so,” Gordon said, tucking the letter back in his jacket. “After all, if it weren’t for Robbie, I’d never have been traveling along that road and found a beautiful young woman taking refuge in a tree.”
“I’m thankful, too,” Moira said as she looked into his eyes shining with love. “If he hadn’t invited you here, I would never have met the love of my life. I love you so much, Gordon McHeath!”
“As I love you, my lady,” he replied, as he bent his head to kiss her.
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HIGHLAND HEIRESS
Copyright © 2011 by Margaret Wilkins
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