Mimi's Ghost

by Tim Parks

  ALSO BY TIM PARKS

  Fiction

  Tongues of Flame

  Loving Roger

  Home Thoughts

  Family Planning

  Goodness

  Juggling the Stars

  Shear

  Europa

  Destiny

  Nonfiction

  Italian Neighbors

  An Italian Education

  Adultery and Other Diversions

  Copyright © 1995, 2011 by Tim Parks

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  First published in Great Britain by Secker & Warburg

  The characters and events in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.

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  ISBN: 978-1-61145-558-8

  ‘The realms of thought, philosophy

  and the spirit break up and shatter

  against the unnameable, myself.’

  Max Stirner, The Unique and his Property

  Contents

  Part One

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Part Two

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Part Three

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Part Four

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Part One

  1

  Morris ran soft fingertips along the silk finish of coffee-coloured tiles designed by Valentino. It was almost the only room in the flat he felt unreservedly happy about. The polished walnut fittings were particularly attractive, he thought, holding here a fleshy beige soap dish, there the thick white towels that made such a change from the skin-scraping variety he had grown up with. What’s more, the babble of radios, televisions and raised voices from the other households in the condominium rarely penetrated this sanctum - some trick of modern construction methods, some unplanned relief. So that here one could shave in peace, admire the clean line of one’s jaw, the perfect complexion of two cheeks exactly poised between youth and maturity, the neat cut of still-thick hair above clear blue eyes . . . and dream of a life in which one had made different decisions.

  For Paola had been a mistake of course.

  Having straightened his tie beneath the freshly pink chin, this successful property owner walked around his sunken bath to a window tastefully double-glazed in a frame of orange pine. Enjoying the simple movements, the feel of the brushed steel handle, the still-new smell of resiny wood and paint, he pulled open the window, and unlatched the shutter. But there was rust on the black varnished metalwork here; that was something he would have to talk to the builder about. Morris scratched with manicured nails at a series of blisterings. Sometimes it seemed you had hardly settled down to enjoy some luxury detail of the place before you were finding a fault, a blemish, some niggling little thing that made you feel you couldn’t settle down and relax. Morris examined. Clearly the builder had been accepting junk from cheap suppliers and banking on the fact that the purchaser couldn’t possibly notice everything in the couple of quick inspections he’d be granted before being told that if he didn’t pay up (in cash!) then someone else was more than willing to. No, he had been taken for a ride there. Taken for a ride by a provincial, tax-evading shark. And the thing about being taken for a ride of course was to face up to it, admit it, take it square on the chin. Never, never tell yourself things were all right when they weren’t.

  Things were definitely not all right with Paola.

  Pushing back the shutter revealed an oppressively grey winter dawn, hatching out the uninspired silhouette of the next luxury’ condo the same builder was now throwing up on an area of land that only six months ago he had promised would be forever part of their beautiful cross-country view. Morris shivered in the cold air but forced himself to look, to savour this little defeat, so eloquent of his failure to really grasp the Italian character. For it was not enough to have got hold of a fortune, one would have to learn how to defend it. It occurred to him how smug that man must feel every time their cars crossed along the avenue, how confident of Morris’s humiliation!

  Still, it was fitting weather for the Day of the Dead: icy, a touch of fog. Good. There would be the dressing up, which he always enjoyed, the family gathering, the procession of cars to the cemetery, the flowers, the poignancy of seeing Massimina’s photograph by the family tomb. Morris liked these traditions. He liked the way they framed your experience and gave it rhythm. Certainly Father had never visited the rose tree where Mother’s ashes were deposited. Next time he went home he must make a point of getting out there to show the man what civilisation and respect were all about.

  Having closed the window, Morris again stopped and gazed in the mirror: the Armani cardigan, the Versace tie, the shirt by Gianfranco Ferre - there could be no denying the elegance of all this. Just that now one had it, one realised it wasn’t enough. One wanted more. One wanted art and culture and dignity and one wanted to live with people who appreciated such values and cultivated them. Which was why his marriage had been such a tragic, such a stupid mistake. If there was time this afternoon he would visit Forbes . . .

  ‘Paola!’ Morris stepped out into the corridor. ‘Paola, it’s past eight-thirty!’ There was no reply. He looked into the bedroom. His wife was luxuriously sprawled under the goosedown quilt. Expensively permed chestnut hair bubbled over pink pillows. But there wasn’t that girlishness, the radiant innocence and ingenuousness her sister Massimina had had. What’s more, Massimina, in the brief halcyon month of their elopement, had always been up and about at a decent hour.

  He sat down at the bedside and stared at the creature he had so hastily joined his life to. At some point or other he was going to have to impose himself. Otherwise one would find oneself just another weak husband providing the wherewithal for a simpering woman to waste her time exactly as she wished. Eventually, without opening her eyes, Paola enquired: ‘How come you’re not off to work this morning, Mo?’

  He disliked being called Mo.

  ‘Sono i morti,’ he said. The Dead.’

  ‘Giusto. Why did you get up then? We don’t have to be at the cem till elevenish. Come back to bed and play.’

  Morris said stiffly: ‘There are the flowers to collect for Massimina. Anyw
ay I thought you had your big exam tomorrow.’

  ‘Oh, what a bore! Come to bed, Mo, come on, do what you did last night. I can’t wait.’ She groaned and made a rude gesture.

  Trying to put kindness and encouragement into his voice, he said: ‘Every hour counts the day before an exam, you’ll regret it tomorrow.’

  The young woman sat up sharply in a night-dress of such creamily thin silk her nipples beneath seemed Cadbury’s chocolate buttons Mother had tucked in his Christmas stocking twenty years before. She had smaller breasts than Massimina, but more pert and, he was aware, fashionable. Pouting, she reached across the bed, found a pack of Rothmans and lit up with a lighter, apparently of brushed silver. Along with the discothéques, the punkishly showy clothes in the poorest taste and the moronic if locally well-placed circle of friends, this smoking of hers was another habit which Morris now realised was out of line with the vision of a better life that had always been his inspiration.

  Anyway, his father had smoked Rothmans.

  ‘Well?’

  ‘Oh, I don’t think I’m going to do it.?

  He opened his mouth to object. Was she going to throw away the possibility of a career, he protested, just for fear of the very last exam?

  ‘Well, you know, Mo, I was thinking, what I really want with a degree in architecture in the end? Do you see what I mean?’ She cocked her head to one side. The fact is we’ve already got money. Another couple of months and Mamma will be joining Mimi under the old angel anyway. You get to run the company and it’s plain sailing.’

  The angel was a reference to the somewhat pompous monument that topped the family tomb.

  Wincing at the crudity of this, Morris observed that quite apart from the money, which was always a plus, a career in architecture would offer her a path to self-realisation.

  ‘Oh, Morris, you’re such a bore!’ She laughed out loud, her husky, patronising laugh, and as she did so he reflected that it wasn’t so much the fact that she smoked that bothered him, but the way she did it: with the brash confidence, he thought, the particularly unpleasant arrogance of stylish young women in films. Was this why his father had been so appreciative during their visit to England? He hoped he himself would never be guilty of radiating intimidation in this way.

  ‘I told you before,’ she continued, ‘the only reason I went to university in the first place was to get out of that stuffy house and as far away as possible from Mamma and that reek of mothballs and polished furniture. And the only reason I did architecture was because they don’t have it at Verona, so I had to go to Padua four days a week and there was the chance of having some fun. Now come on, take those silly clothes off and get back In the sack.’

  Again Morris suffered from the crudity of all this, though he had heard a lot worse of late. When they made love, for example, which he still rather enjoyed, and surprised himself by being so good at (though there was always that feeling of repulsion afterwards that would send him hurrying to the shower) - yes, when they made love she would come out with the most amazing stream of obscenities, things he had never imagined anybody could want to say to anybody. He protested: ‘But, Paola, my love’ - he enjoyed hearing himself say ‘my love’ - ‘you always seemed so happy at home; I mean, when I visited that first time and you and Antonella were complaining about how badly Massimina was doing at school.’

  Paola positively pealed with laughter. ‘What an act!’ she giggled. ‘What an act It always was! Poor Mimi was so hopeless. I knew she’d end up badly.’

  But this was too painful. He said abruptly in the intimate gloom of their bedroom: ‘So you’re giving up your career?’

  She puffed. ‘I never had one, darling. Just passed all my exams copying everybody else. You know how it is here. I could never understand why Mimi didn’t do the same.’

  Then Morris startled himself by saying with genuine tenderness: ‘OK, but then let’s have a child. I’ve always wanted a little boy.’

  But again she positively shook with laughter. ‘Nemmeno per sogno, Morris! that can wait at least five or six years.’

  ‘So what are you going to do in the meanwhile? I mean, we’ve never really talked about this.’

  ‘Have a good time.’ She blew out a smoke ring and cocked her head to one side in a sly smile. Certainly she was not the picture of demure bereavement that had first drawn him to her and put the whole idea into his head the day of MImi’s funeral. And she added: I ’feel I’m only starting to live.’

  ‘While I slave at the company?’

  ‘I thought that was what you wanted. You nearly jumped for joy when Mamma had her stroke.’

  He stared at her.

  ‘And now, if you are not going to do the honours. I think I’ll take a shower.’

  She stood up and, coming round the bed, tweaked his nose. ‘Silly old Mo,’ she laughed, again speaking pidgin English, and walked out with some deliberately exaggerated arse wiggling in tiny tight white pants.

  Morris shut his eyes.

  A few minutes later he was outside the smart and decidedly expensive condominium. The air was biting. Under the grey fog, frost rimed every surface. A stately row of cypresses loomed rigid and white. The laurel hedge by the gate was draped with icy cobwebs. Morris was the kind of person who noticed and appreciated such things.

  Wearing a tastefully grey wool coat and lilac cashmere scarf, he drove into town in a small white Mercedes. If he had had his way of course, he would have bought a place right in the ancient centre and not bothered with a car at all. But Paola had wanted to be quite sure she wouldn’t have to put up with unexpected visits from her mother, who was endlessly bothering sister Antonella and brother-in-law Bobo; she had thus felt that one of these chic new condominiums out in the country the other side of town from Mamma would be more to her liking. Morris, still in a state of foolish euphoria at being accepted, at least legally, into the family, had been at his most accommodating.

  Given Mamma’s sudden deterioration these last couple of months, this decision had probably been a mistake, Morris now realised. Especially since no one knew quite how the company was to be divided up on her departure. Had he and Paola been living that bit nearer they would have been in a better position to show respect for her, their compassion and maturity. Certainly Antonella and Bobo were being most assiduous. Morris felt he should have foreseen all this and not been so ready to let Paola have her way. But he was new to marriage, had embarked on it with the best intentions, and anyway it was easy to be wise after the event. One thing Morris was learning these days was not to be too hard on himself.

  Driving fast, he picked up the car phone and called Forbes. The man’s cultured, gravelly voice enquired: ‘Pronto?’in an accent that was more or less a declaration of British superiority. Morris, so proud of his own achievements in sounding Italian, becoming Italian, truly being Italian, was nevertheless fascinated by this older man’s refusal to adapt in any way, by the ostentatious manner in which he appreciated Italy and Italian art as a foreign connoisseur, an outsider. He didn’t seem to share or even understand Morris’s need for camouflage at all.

  Morris announced himself and apologised if perhaps he had wakened the older man.

  ‘Ah, Morris, I would forgive you more than that.’ There was immediately a fruity generosity in his pensioner’s voice.

  It’s just I was thinking of going down to Florence at the weekend. Do you want to come? There’s a picture I’d like to look at. In the Uffizi.’

  ‘Splendid idea.’

  ‘What I was thinking was, if I took you with me you could explain everything. I hope you don’t consider that presumptuous of me. I’m a bit weak on some of that early Renaissance stuff.’

  ‘Only too glad to help, no problem.’

  ‘And on the way maybe we could talk about that little piece of business you suggested.’

  ‘If you think there’s any hope of raising the capital,’ Forbes said humbly. ‘I’m afraid that with my limited means . . .’

  ‘
Something might be arranged,’ hinted a Morris who had married into a wealthy family and didn’t need to hide the fact. Or at least not from Forbes. On the contrary, it was nice to think he had this asset that encouraged a man like Forbes to give him some of his time. The only danger was he might have exaggerated.

  ‘I’ll be over to pick you up Saturday morning, around nine,’ he said.

  ‘Er, do you mind making it nine-thirty, Morris? I’m not an early bird.’

  ‘Not at all.’

  They both rang off. But then it was so much fun, talking on a designer phone in a fast car, so much the perfect symbol of his well-deserved success, that, as quite often these days, this handsome blond Englishman continued to chat away, even after the line had gone dead.

  ‘Pronto?’ he enquired coolly. ‘Massimina, can you hear me? Bit of a bad connection, I’m afraid. Can you hear me? It is the Day of the Dead, you know.’

  He imagined he heard her saying yes in her intimate, breathless, girlish voice. Or rather sì ‘Sì, Morri, sì.’

  The fog suddenly thickened on the road into town and was swirling all round the car now.

  ‘You know I’ve seen a painting of you? Yes. No, I knew you wouldn’t believe me.’ He spoke very casually into the elegant white receiver, cruising in overdrive into zero visibility. Somehow it seemed important to take these risks, as if every time one escaped one had bought some good fortune for oneself. ‘I was reading one of my art-history books and there you were. Yes, it was Fra Lippi’s La Vergine incoronata. I mean, it must be you. It’s so exactly the same. And it made me think, you know, Mimi, seeing as he’d painted you five hundred years before you were born, that perhaps you were still alive now, that perhaps in a way you were the Virgin, reincarnated again and again, for one incoronazione after another . . .’

  Heavens, this was oddball stuff, Morris thought. He hadn’t known he was going to come out with this sort of sick drivel at all. On the other hand, one of the things that most gratified him, that most convinced him he must be something of an artist deep down, was the way he never ceased to surprise himself. He wasn’t getting old and stale at all. On the contrary, his train of thought was ever richer.