Fat

by Sam Crescent

“If something was going on, you’d tell me, right?”

  “Of course, Kim. Why wouldn’t I tell you?”

  “I don’t know. You’ve just been a bit different lately.”

  “It’s college next year, and my mom. You know how she gets.”

  “Yeah, I know, but I don’t like it. You know you can stay over all the time.”

  “I know. Your mom is a wonderful woman.”

  They finished getting changed and made their way out onto the field. It was close to middle autumn, so it was starting to get colder.

  For now, they were going to be running track while the football team practiced, along with the cheerleading squad.

  Their teacher set them to do laps, and staying beside Kim Elsa started at a steady pace. There were clusters of different groups as they worked out. Elsa couldn’t help but look toward the football field. She spotted Noah instantly.

  She quickly averted her gaze. She didn’t need this.

  “Kurt keeps trying to talk to me,” Kim said.

  “He does?”

  “Yeah. He’s also being really nice, and when he’s nice, it’s hard to remember that he’s a bully. Do you think I’m a horrible person?”

  “For not falling for Kurt? No. Do you want to give him a chance?”

  “No. We don’t have anything in common. He’s mean, and he’s a jock. Like you said, we’re going to college soon, and I don’t want to start something up like that.”

  Elsa watched as the cheerleaders who had been in the bathroom made their way toward the football team. Adam, Ryan, Kurt, and Noah were all grouped together, talking. She forced herself to look away.

  This was why she never wanted her relationship with Noah to come out in the open. They would only mock something she loved.

  ****

  Noah watched his friend, who was watching Kim. The gym class had just come out and been told to run. He’d clocked Elsa instantly. She was wearing those ugly ass shorts with the large, baggy shirt. Once again she was with her friend, and he was mad at her.

  She wanted to keep their relationship a secret, and it was starting to piss him off. He had proven to her he wasn’t some asshole who was going to hurt her, and yet that was exactly how she was treating him.

  Her weight didn’t bother him. He was thankful for her curves. Not only had it given them a reason to come together, he loved holding onto her during sex. The night they had spent together had been the best of his life, and he couldn’t wait to explore her some more.

  In time she would come to see that he was the perfect guy for her.

  “You’re not getting anywhere with her?” he asked.

  “No. I’m the guy that has bullied her. I’m surprised if she’d ever look at me.”

  “It sucks.”

  “Hey guys, Sienna has given me a warning that Lola, Jessica, and Britney are pissed with us.”

  “What the fuck did we do?”

  “I don’t know, but they’re pissed.” Adam looked at him. “Are we missing something?”

  “No.”

  “Why did you break up with Britney?” Ryan asked.

  “I got tired of her whining. There’s more to life than screwing a bunch of cheerleaders.”

  “You’re insane, right?” Ryan asked.

  “I’m not going to say anything. Sienna has told me she’s only cheering to pass the time. When we go to college, she’s concentrating on economics,” Adam said.

  Out of all of the cheerleaders, Sienna was the only one who didn’t seem to judge people.

  She also wasn’t bound by some fucking law that stated she had to follow her friends wherever they went.

  “Speaking of the cheerleaders, here they come,” Ryan said.

  Noah glanced toward Elsa and Kim, seeing them talking. He’d lost his temper in the library, and he really shouldn’t have. She was just so infuriating, but being a bitch wasn’t going to make him stop wanting her. If she didn’t want to go public, then he was more than happy to wait for her. He didn’t want to wait, but he’d do it for her.

  “Hey, Sienna,” Adam said.

  Drawing his attention back to the field, Noah watched as Jessica walked up to him. When she put her hands around his neck, he shook his head, stepping away. “Not going to happen.”

  “You’re seriously going to keep holding that shit against me?”

  “That shit means something to me.”

  “Oh, come on, Noah. Stop being a big baby.”

  “You think I’m being a baby? You fucked another guy. You think I should just let that slide as if it didn’t happen.”

  “He didn’t matter. It was just a bunch of fun. Why can’t you see that?”

  Noah ignored her.

  “Seriously, you’re going to pick a fatty over me. Do you even have eyes that are working right now?” Britney asked.

  “I don’t want you. We’re done. I told you we were done before we even got back to school, but like always, you refuse to listen.” Kurt took a step away. “We’re done.”

  “So, it’s those fat sluts that you want?” Britney asked.

  “Don’t even think of getting Kim involved in this. I don’t want you anymore.”

  Jessica tapped Britney’s arm. “It’s okay. It’s their loss. We can find what we want anywhere, can’t we, ladies?”

  Noah didn’t like that, and he watched as the cheerleaders left the field.

  “What the fuck do you think that’s about?” Ryan asked.

  “I don’t know.”

  After a few seconds, Ryan turned back to look at them. “You’ve got a thing for chubby?”

  Before any of them realized it, Kurt had slammed his fist against Ryan’s face. Suddenly Kurt and Ryan were fighting in the mud.

  Noah stepped out of the way.

  “What the hell is going on here?” Mr. Wood asked.

  Kurt and Ryan were separated. “This fucker pissed me off,” Kurt said.

  “What? Can’t handle the truth that you’re a fucking chubby chaser?” Ryan asked.

  “Both of you, my office, now!”

  Noah watched his two friends leave, and he shook his head. He couldn’t believe that they had just fought over this shit.

  “What the hell was that all about?” Adam asked.

  “It was nothing.” Noah glanced over at Elsa and Kim.

  Kim looked ready to cry, and Elsa stared at him.

  He could just hear her words in his mind, or at least what he imagined she’d say. “Do you see?”

  Yeah, he saw, but like Kurt, he’d fight for her.

  No one would say a bad word about her when they were near him, and if he found anyone hurting her, he’d fuck them up.

  After practice he waited for Kurt in the parking lot. Ryan and Kurt both walked out. The four of them stood together, waiting.

  “What happened?” Noah asked.

  “We’re suspended from two games until we can work our shit out,” Kurt said.

  “We? You’re the one that went fucking bat-shit crazy,” Ryan said.

  “I’ve got a crush on Kim, the chubby girl, the whale, the girl I have fucking bullied all my life. You want the truth? That’s it. I’ve been with Britney, and for a brief moment, I was able to see Kim, talk to her, and even though it was about the fucking assignment we were working on, she saw me as more than a fucking cock, and a guy to show off.” They were the only ones left in the parking lot as most of students had left.

  Noah was supposed to be meeting Elsa in an hour, but he’d sent her a text letting her know he was running behind.

  “Whoa, dude, I’m sorry. I didn’t have any idea.”

  “No, no one has any idea. Kim won’t even give me the time of day. I can’t win her over. I shouldn’t have hit you. I’m sorry.”

  Noah watched his friends shake hands. “Is that it? None of you are going to give him shit?”

  “It’s not our business. If you like a girl, then you like a girl. Nothing to worry yourself about.”

  Noah rubbed the back of h
is head. He wanted to tell his friends, but he decided against it. The last thing he wanted to do was break Elsa’s trust.

  Chapter Nine

  “I wasn’t being fair to you,” Elsa said the moment Noah climbed out of his car.

  “Kurt got into a fight because of your friend.”

  “What did Kim do?”

  “Where do you see us going?” he asked.

  “What?”

  “Us. Is this just something for fun, to pass the time?”

  “No!” She didn’t understand why he was yelling.

  “Then what is it?”

  “I don’t know. I don’t want to lose you.”

  “You don’t want to lose me, and yet you won’t tell me what the hell this is. I can’t tell my friends about us. I can’t tell anyone about us. I’ve just watched Kurt defend Kim—you know what I mean, he defended her, and I can’t do that. I had an opportunity to tell them about us, and I kept it a secret, for you, because of you.”

  “I’m sorry.”

  “I’m not some asshole, Elsa. I’m not going to walk away and leave you, okay? I’m not going to make you a laughingstock.”

  “But look how your friends reacted. Look at your exes!”

  “They’re exes for a reason. I’m not here because I want to be with Jessica. I’m here because I want to be with you. I like you, a whole hell of a lot, and that fucking scares me. My whole life, all I ever had was college, football, and my plans. Now I find myself changing my plans for you.”

  “Changing your plans?”

  “Yes. I have feelings for you, Elsa. Is that so hard for you to understand? I don’t want high school to finish and us to be over. I want this to be the start of something amazing.”

  “I don’t know what to say.”

  “Don’t say anything. Just promise me you’d think about it.” He climbed back into his car.

  “Wait, where are you going?”

  “To clear my head. I can’t do this right now.”

  She watched him go, and she hated herself.

  Going to her car, she climbed inside and made her way back home. Her mother was already home, and Elsa let herself in.

  “Elsa, honey, is that you?”

  “Yeah.”

  “Excellent. I’m experimenting with some quinoa. It’s really healthy, and it will help with your little weight problem—”

  “Mom, do you love me?”

  “Of course—”

  “No, do you like the way I am, how I look, how I dress, how I weigh?” she asked.

  “Honey, don’t do this.”

  “I want to understand why I’m not good enough for you.”

  “You are.”

  “Really? You see, I don’t think I am good enough. I’ve just had a really great guy in my life, and I felt I had to keep him a secret because I wasn’t good enough for him. Every time I thought I was doing something great, you’d always come back to my weight. I’m even exercising in fucking secret because of you.”

  “Elsa!”

  “It’s not fair that I have to be like this. I hate it, Mom. I hate myself, and I hate you.” Turning on her heel, she walked out of the house, rushing to her car.

  “Elsa, come back here.”

  She ignored her mother and jumped into her car. She reversed out of the driveway and headed toward Kim’s. When she realized that would be the first place her mother would look, she made her way toward the local town, parked her car, and walked toward Noah’s house. He wanted space, but she really needed to talk to him.

  If he sent her away, she’d understand. On the way toward his house, it started to rain, and by the time she got to his front door, she was already crying.

  There was no sign of his parents, which she was thankful for.

  Noah opened the door.

  “Elsa, what the hell?”

  “I’m really sorry. You deserve someone a hell of a lot better than me.” She turned to leave, but he caught her around the waist and pulled her into his home.

  “You’re freezing.” He pushed her jacket off and walked her into his front room. Within seconds she was down to her underwear, and he had a blanket wrapped around her, rubbing her body in an attempt to warm her up.

  “It was all supposed to be simple, you know? I was supposed to go to the gym, work out, and at the end of school, I’d be this new and improved person. I never expected to see you there, Noah. I didn’t think this would happen.” She wiped her eyes. “My mom doesn’t love me. Well, she probably does, but she doesn’t like me very much. She wants me to be slim, but I can’t be slim. I’m fat.”

  “What have I told you about calling yourself that? You’re not fat. You’re beautiful.”

  “I’m not blind. I look in the mirror.”

  “Yeah, you are blind. I think you’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen, and I’ve seen a lot of women naked.”

  “Yeah, Jessica is one of them. I heard them talking in the toilet. They didn’t know I was there. I’ve never heard such horrible things. I really don’t know what guys see in them.”

  “They’re easy, Elsa. No guy has to work hard to get in their pants.”

  “Is that all guys think about, sex?”

  “Elsa, we’re eighteen. We’re in our sexual prime. Believe me, we’re horny all the time. You’ve got to admit that you’re horny sometimes.”

  She nodded. Around Noah she had felt it more times than she cared to imagine. She’d never known something so consuming before.

  “I didn’t expect to fall for anyone, Elsa. I shouldn’t have left you alone at the gym, or run off. I don’t know. For the first time in my life, I actually feel something for someone else, and you want us to hide. I just want to tell everyone that we’re together.”

  “You do?”

  “I’m not ashamed of you. I’m not embarrassed to call you mine.” He cupped her cheek, running his thumb across her bottom lip. “As crazy as it sounds, I think I may even be in love with you.”

  She gasped. “You love me?”

  “Yeah, fucked up huh? We’ve wasted so much time.”

  “How?”

  “I could have had you since kindergarten.”

  “Oh,” Elsa said. “Yeah, we did go to kindergarten together.”

  “You’ve been in the background of my life for so long, and I’ve taken you for granted.” He kissed her lips. “What have you done to me, Elsa Quinn?”

  “I’ve done nothing to you.”

  She caressed his cheek, kissing him back.

  “I’ve got a condom in my back pocket.” He lifted up and brandished the square foil packet. “We could have some fun.”

  Elsa pushed the blanket off her, and pushed Noah to the sofa.

  “First, are we going public with our relationship? I’m tired of being taken advantage of. You have your wicked way with me, and then I get tossed aside as if I don’t matter—”

  “Shut up. You do matter.” She kissed his lips, sucking on the bottom one and using her teeth to create a little bite of pain. “We’re going to go public, but you may be laughed at.”

  “I know how to use my fists.”

  “Noah Stewart, are you saying you’ll defend my honor?”

  “Yeah. Anyone who tries to hurt my girl will have to come through me.” He gripped the back of her head and pulled her down for a kiss. “Let’s put that condom to good use.”

  Sinking her fingers into his hair, she gripped him tightly, holding him close. Slowly his hands moved down her body, flicking open her bra. She helped remove it, and then he tore her panties off, surprising her with his strength.

  “I always get what I want.”

  She giggled, moving out of the way so he could tug his pants down his thighs.

  He tore into the latex, and she watched as he rolled the condom over his length.

  “Very impressive.”

  “I practiced my technique with a banana. My dad made me one afternoon. He was determined his son wouldn’t get anyone pregnant, so that is what I did
during father-son time.”

  “Really?”

  “Yep. Come here.”

  She straddled his waist and gasped as the tip of his cock started to slide inside her. Once there was enough within her, he gripped her hips and lowered her over his shaft. Biting her lip, she tried to contain her moans.

  “No one is here, Elsa. Scream how much you want me from the top of your lungs.”

  He slammed her down, and she couldn’t contain her need. She screamed his name, which only got louder as he reached between them to stroke her clit.

  “Fuck, do you really think I’d want anyone else, Elsa? You’re it for me.”

  Damn, he was it for her as well.

  ****

  “I’m so nervous,” Elsa said.

  Noah smiled. Not only had Elsa spent the night with him from Friday into Saturday, she had also taken him home to meet her parents. He’d never forget the look on her mother’s face when he walked through the door, or when Elsa introduced him as her boyfriend. Her mother didn’t have a clue how amazing she was.

  Of course he got the grilling from her father, which was scary as hell. He was never going to be breaking any laws if he had to go against Bill Quinn. The guy was a force to reckon with.

  “Don’t be nervous.”

  “Have you told your friends?” she asked.

  “Nope. Have you told Kim?”

  “No. I just said I was getting a ride into school, and I’d tell her everything then. I can’t believe this is happening.”

  “Don’t hyperventilate on me.” He held her hand as he pulled into the school.

  “I’m going to be laughed at.”

  “They can laugh all they want.”

  “This is really happening. I’m not going to wake up to discover this is all a dream?”

  “Nope. We’re about to enter high school hell, and everyone is going to know that you’re my girlfriend, and I’m your boyfriend.”

  “Oh God.”

  “This is it.” He pulled into the car park, and made his way toward where his friends were standing.

  Parking the car, he climbed out. “Morning,” he said. He couldn’t stop smiling, and he didn’t want to ever stop.

  “Hey, Noah,” Ryan said.

  Rounding he car, he helped Elsa out. She tugged her bag onto her shoulder, and he felt how nervous she was. Her hand shook within his.