Caligula r-1

by Douglas Jackson

  As Bersheba advanced step by patient step, the crowds threw flower petals beneath her massive feet and the scent of them filled Rufus's nostrils. Cheers from a thousand throats rang in his ears. He did not dare look behind him, but he felt the comforting presence of Cupido close by, keeping pace with the imperial carriage where Caligula sat alone and unseen behind the silken curtains. This was Drusilla's day and the Emperor wanted nothing, not even himself, to distract attention from the great golden figure of his sister.

  Now they were approaching the Rostrum Julium. Rufus could see the distinctive prow beaks from ships captured at the battle of Actium jutting from the wall on either side of the niche that held the shrine.

  Bersheba was directly opposite the rostrum when they struck.

  Rufus had been concentrating on the splendours surrounding him and, at first, didn't realize what was happening. Then, above the roars of the crowd, he heard Cupido's shout. 'Guards, to me.'

  The sight that met his eyes when he twisted in alarm didn't seem possible. Twenty sinister figures had emerged from the still-cheering crowd and somehow breached the line of alert Praetorians. Each man wore a hooded cloak of brown wool that covered his face and each carried a drawn sword. The professional way they held the weapons marked them as soldiers, or ex-soldiers, and they moved silently towards the gilt carriage with an intensity of purpose that made their intention unmistakable. Assassins! They were trying to kill the Emperor. Rufus watched incredulously as a dozen more followed them, still unmolested.

  'Guards, to me.' Cupido's shout was shriller, more desperate. Why were the Praetorians who lined the route not reacting? They stayed frozen in place, as immobile as the statues on their marble plinths.

  Three or four of the faceless killers already surrounded each of Cupido's dozen men and still more were working their way between the individual conflicts towards the carriage. The fighting ebbed and flowed but Cupido somehow managed to stay between the assassins and the Emperor. Rufus saw the long sword flash and one man was down, blood fountaining from a gaping wound in his throat. But he was instantly replaced by another of the hooded figures and Rufus realized the attackers were trying to manoeuvre Cupido away from the carriage.

  Without thinking, Rufus leapt from Bersheba's flank and sprinted towards his friend. 'Here, Cupido,' he shouted as he ran. Cupido stole a quick glance towards him and Rufus recognized the battle light in his eyes. Overwhelming odds or not, this was the young German's natural element, with a sword in his hand and an enemy at his front. The fallen assassin's weapon lay at his feet and with a flick of his wrist Cupido used his blade to send it, grip first, sailing into Rufus's hand.

  'Remember what I taught you,' he shouted, his sword slicing up to parry a slashing blow with a clash that made Rufus's ears ring: 'the eyes, the throat and the balls.' The grim order must have sent fear through the hearts of his opponents, because their attack wavered. It was only for the merest instant but enough to give him his opening. He screamed his war cry and rammed his sword point into the mouth of the stocky figure in the centre, spraying gore as he back-cut it free, leaving the man to drop like a stone.

  Rufus managed to work himself into position at Cupido's right side, blocking access to the carriage just as another group of the hooded killers broke through the Praetorian line. His friend's easy confidence helped still the icy panic churning in his stomach, but the truth was he was terrified. He swallowed hard and tried to concentrate as the assassin lying in a pool of blood at his feet twisted and uttered a choking scream before giving a convulsive shudder and going still.

  Repeating Cupido's instructions over and over inside his head, Rufus kept his sword low and point up, darting with little jabs towards groin and stomach as the gladiator had shown him. It didn't seem very warlike, but it was enough to keep his nearest opponent at a safe distance. Rufus could see his assailant's eyes beneath the hooded cloak. He seemed very young and very frightened and he gave the jabbing blade more respect than it deserved. At first, Rufus wondered why, then he remembered the uniform he was wearing. The Praetorians were the Emperor's elite and among the best-trained soldiers in the Empire. His opponent must have believed he faced a battle-tested campaigner.

  Cupido was fighting hard, but Rufus realized his friend was using his speed and agility to ensure that most of the assassins were forced to face him rather than the clumsy amateur at his side. Another of the killers fell before his sword, and the survivors stepped back, the courage that had brought them through the line quailing before the arena-honed skills of the man who confronted them.

  'The carriage! Remember why we are here.' The shouted order had the ring of desperation. The voice came from beneath the hood of the tallest man, and stirred a memory in Rufus, but before his mind could search for it the assassins rushed the two defenders with swords flailing. Cupido speared one of the attackers in the chest, and somehow parried a sweeping sword cut with a dagger that appeared in his hand like a prop in a deadly conjuring trick. Rufus could hear the clash of iron behind them, and realized a similar battle was being fought on the other side of the Emperor's carriage, but it meant nothing to him. He had to concentrate on staying alive. Then there came a strange moment in the desperate battle when his immediate opponent moved away and he found himself in an oasis of calm at the centre of the maelstrom. Fighting for breath, he was able to look about him for the first time in many minutes.

  Despite being outnumbered Cupido's wolves were holding their own. Bodies lay thick around the carriage, some still, some writhing in their death agonies, bleeding and groaning. The Emperor's coachman had been dragged from his seat and cut to pieces and one of the milkwhite mares harnessed to the carriage was down in her traces, her hooves thrashing as she fought to regain her feet despite the spear that pierced her belly.

  Puzzlingly, the Praetorian line was still holding back the crowd, though several were looking round in alarm and were obviously wondering why they didn't receive the order to join the fight. Surely they could see their comrades were hard pressed and the Emperor was in mortal danger? It was unfair, Rufus felt, that he and Cupido appeared to be doing most of the work.

  The glint of a blade broke the spell and he ducked low to allow the scything cut that would have taken his head from his shoulders to pass harmlessly above him. Then the battle closed in again and he was fighting for his life.

  Now his hooded opponent was bigger and stronger and had none of the caution of the fearful young man he had faced earlier. He was forced back inch by inch until he stumbled over the legs of an injured man who had crawled between the wheels of the carriage for safety. The world turned upside down as he fell backwards and he had a momentary glimpse of a wide-eyed face behind the carriage window. He grunted as the attacker planted a hobnailed sandal on his chest and used him as a platform to get into position to hack at the gold-leaf pattern on the door of the coach. Rufus felt himself being crushed and instinctively lunged upwards with his sword. He experienced an instant of resistance, then an obscene bucking as the man above him squealed and twisted as he felt the needle point angle upwards into his body. Horrified, Rufus pulled the blade free and was rewarded with a howl of agony. At the same time a flood of warm liquid spattered across his face and chest, and the assassin toppled sideways.

  He suddenly felt very tired, but Cupido was still locked in combat a few feet away and he forced himself to his feet, using the carriage wheel as a prop. He could see it was almost over. The Praetorians who had tamely allowed the assassins through their line had finally stirred themselves from their lethargy and six or seven of the killers were struggling to escape their grasp.

  Cupido chopped at one of his surviving opponents and the man spun away with blood pouring from his neck. That left only the tall man; the leader who had shouted the order. He fought well, with the skill of an experienced swordsman, but he was no match for a former gladiator. With a twist of his blade, Cupido ripped the man's sword from his hand and sent it spinning into the air. He put his point to the
assassin's throat and forced the man to his knees, before flicking back the hood.

  Rufus gasped.

  Lucius.

  'Kill me.'

  It was not a plea — he was too proud for that. The words were addressed to Cupido, but Lucius's eyes were fixed on Rufus's. He knew his fate if he fell into the hands of the Emperor's torturers.

  'Kill me,' he repeated, and Rufus knew one of the names screamed out when the hot irons were applied again and again would be his own.

  Cupido heard the words also, but he knew his duty, and it was not to grant a merciful death to a man who had just tried to kill the Emperor. He took the sword away from Lucius's throat.

  'Your fate was written the moment you crossed the line of guards. How did you do that? It will be the first question they ask and I will be interested to hear your answer. Because you will answer, friend. Brave man or coward, they always answer.'

  Lucius dropped his eyes, but not before Rufus recognized the despair in them.

  'Look out, he has a dagger.' The words were out before he realized he had said them. Cupido stepped back and his sword came up, but it was Rufus who moved first, plunging his blade deep into Lucius's chest. The young tribune opened his mouth as if he had something important to say, but a flood of crimson filled it and he fell forward, dragging Rufus's sword from his hand.

  Rufus turned away, to find himself looking into Cupido's accusing eyes.

  'There was no dagger.'

  Rufus drew out the ornate knife Lucius had given him beneath the tree in Drusilla's garden. Using Cupido to shield his movements from the occupant of the carriage, he bent down and placed the weapon in Lucius's lifeless fingers.

  'There is now.'

  Cupido stared hard, but did nothing to stop him. 'We will discuss this later.'

  A shattering roar reminded Rufus that he had abandoned Bersheba. As he walked painfully back towards the elephant, he was forced to pass beneath the shocked gaze of the consuls and senators who had watched the combat in impotent horror. His eyes caught those of the Emperor's uncle. Claudius was blinking nervously, like an elderly owl caught in bright sunlight.

  'Send for Nestor and tell him to bring his most fearsome instruments.' The shouted order was accompanied by a clatter as Caligula kicked back the door of his carriage, his face almost scarlet with fury and suppressed fear. 'We will set up the triangle and the forge here, in open show, and Rome will see how an Emperor rewards those who would do him ill!'

  Rufus shuddered, but kept walking. Nestor was Caligula's most experienced and refined torturer. Was it his imagination, or did Claudius's face go a little paler at the mention of the name?

  XXIX

  He had killed a man. No, he had killed two men.

  This air he breathed seemed more of a privilege now he had robbed Lucius of its gift. Yet the very fact of the deaths seemed to diminish him. Was this how Cupido felt each time he left the arena? Did he experience this emptiness, as if some part of another man's going had taken with it an essential element of his killer?

  Rufus sat at the rough wooden table. He had spent an hour at a public fountain trying to wash the blood from his skin and his clothing, but it seemed to leave an indelible stain. From time to time he would rub his fingers absently over patches on his arm only he could see. Livia watched her husband anxiously. She had heard of the assassination attempt, but not the details. She could see he was affected by what had happened and she wanted to comfort him, but Rufus had created a barrier around himself that she could not penetrate.

  She had another reason for wanting to speak to him. She had news of her own. But there would be another time.

  Eventually, he broke the silence. 'Why did they do it?'

  'Who?'

  'Lucius must have known he would fail. It was as if he expected the guards to stand aside. Some of them did, but not Cupido. Not me.'

  'Who is Lucius?'

  'I killed him. I think he might have been my friend, but I pierced his heart with my sword and he died thanking me for it.' He shook his head and looked at her with empty eyes. 'I killed them both. To save the Emperor.'

  Livia's eyes lit up. 'You saved the Emperor?'

  Rufus stared at her in confusion. He found it difficult to remember the details. Everything had happened so quickly. The dazzling patterns as Cupido's long sword carved the air, the terrible certainty as he drove the point home into another victim. The accusing eyes. Had that been Cupido or Lucius?

  'It was Cupido. Cupido saved the Emperor.'

  'And you?'

  'Yes. And me.'

  'Then there will be a reward.'

  Rufus suddenly felt sick. 'I want no reward.'

  He walked out of the room to sit with Bersheba… and wait for Cupido.

  The Cupido who came to the barn at dusk the following day was almost unrecognizable as the young man he had watched dazzle his opponents in the arena, or even the hard-eyed killer he had fought beside in the shadow of the Rostrum Julium.

  The gladiator stumbled against the barn door and would have fallen beneath Bersheba's feet if Rufus hadn't stepped forward to catch him. His eyes were glazed and his breath was heavy with the fumes of the rough red wine they served in the worst type of tavern. Rufus attempted to support him, and lead him through the barn to the living space, but the gladiator shrugged him off, mumbling wearily to himself.

  'We were betrayed.'

  Rufus opened his mouth to reply, then thought better of it.

  Cupido blinked at him, and brought his face close, as if his eyes were having difficulty focusing.

  'The Praetorians were tricked,' he slurred bitterly. 'Tricked! A legionary officer of the palace went to the barracks and warned the centurion in charge of the guard that the Emperor had ordered a test to entertain the mob. He must tell his men to stand and let certain men pass — certain men who could be identified by their hoods.'

  Rufus winced as the gladiator continued.

  'The centurion was surprised, but such things have happened in the past. He was a good officer, and he checked the order diligently. He recognized the hand, which was that of Callistus, the Emperor's secretary, countersigned by Cassius Chaerea, of the Guard. So he gave the order.' Cupido shook his head to clear it. 'Naturally, the order was a forgery. How he must now wish he had been more suspicious, if he is not already dead.'

  'The legionary officer?' Rufus spoke for the first time, already knowing the answer to his question. 'Lu — arrgh.' He fought for breath as a hand like an iron claw gripped his throat.

  'Yes, Lucius. Lucius who betrayed his Emperor. Lucius who could have condemned another hundred, or another thousand, if he had lived. Lucius… who… you… killed.' With the final four words the fingers tightened on Rufus's windpipe and the hand raised him until his feet dangled inches from the floor. He tried to speak, to explain, to plead for his life, but not a single word came out. His vision first blurred, then faded…

  He felt himself flying through the air, and for a second he truly believed he had been summoned by the gods, before the flight ended with a bone-rattling crash.

  He opened his eyes to see Cupido in a crumpled heap among the straw by the barn door and Bersheba standing over him with her trunk swinging menacingly. There was something in her posture that told him she was preparing to step forward and crush the gladiator beneath her massive pads.

  'Easy, girl,' he croaked, massaging his throat. 'Easy.'

  He crawled over to the prone body and raised Cupido's head, his hands finding a pronounced lump behind the left ear beneath the golden hair. He looked up to find Livia standing over them, her hands held protectively over her stomach and her eyes wide with fear. Between them, they settled Cupido on the bed and waited.

  He opened his eyes two hours later, but it was clear he wasn't aware where he was or how he arrived there. Rufus brought water from the cistern and the gladiator drank it, sitting on the bed. He lifted his head, and the look he gave Rufus was haunted by demons that could not be explained by the eve
nts they had witnessed together.

  Then, in a voice devoid of emotion, he told them of Caligula's vengeance.

  'First they broke the legs of the surviving assassins, so they should be brought low before their Emperor. Not just one break, mind, but smashed up and down with iron bars, so there was no possibility they would ever walk again.

  'When this was done and they writhed on the ground below him — for they had brought his throne so he should see the spectacle more clearly — they took the first and hung him from the triangle. He was a young man, well set and handsome…' Rufus remembered the scared eyes beneath the hood and wondered if it was the opponent he had faced. 'The Emperor joked he would be favoured by the ladies. Then he ordered Nestor to remove his manhood, since he would have no further need of it. This Nestor did with a single cut of his razor, and the youth's squeals chilled the blood. There were no questions, you understand, for this was mere instruction for those who watched and waited their turn.'

  Caligula had discussed the next entertainment with Nestor as the young man bled to death within feet of him.

  'When they trussed up the next he was already babbling with terror, and when Nestor placed the instruments before him — the hooks, the shears and the impaling irons — he wailed that he would tell all and they need not put the fire to him. So the clerks took down the names and the dates and all the minutiae of treason. Once he had given all he knew, he thanked the Emperor for his mercy, but the Emperor asked him reasonably how he could be certain this was all, since he had not been tested. Could he not, for instance, have omitted the name of his mother or his sister, out of love and compassion? And the assassin had no answer, for none would do. So they put the hot irons to him anyway, and he expired still listing the names of his loved ones.