Burn Baby Byrne: A Secret Baby Romance (Byrne Brothers Book 2)

by Holly Hart

  I reach up and kiss Kieran, smack on the lips. My fingers snake around the back of his head and pull it towards me, like I’m trying to stop the man from escaping. There’s no need. The passion in Kieran’s reply is enough to assure me he’s not going anywhere fast.

  We kiss each other like this moment means something more than all the others. I can tell that Kieran recognizes it as well. I don’t think either of us trusts ourselves to speak. We don’t need to. The intensity of this kiss sweeps aside all conscious thought. It even starts to paper over the cracks: the bruises and welts that my brother left on my skin. Suddenly they don’t hurt like they did just moments ago.

  Kieran rolls me over so that I’m underneath him. He touches me with tender, almost anxious hands. I grab his arm.

  “You don’t need to worry,” I say, staring directly into his eyes. “I’m fine.”

  The look Kieran shoots me in reply tells me he doesn’t believe a word I’m saying. He reaches down and unzips one of my boots, and pulls it off. It catches, so he tugs harder. I kick it to help.

  “I’ll wear sneakers next time,” I pant, deadpan. A smile tickles my lips. Heck, maybe I’ll become a jeans and sneakers girl now. The all black, thigh high boots look: it’s just a uniform. If I could, maybe I would dress all in color and light, silk dresses.

  Kieran’s throat rumbles with approval.

  He undresses me with soft, unhurried, practiced hands. My top joins every other item of clothing – by my underwear – on the floor. Kieran’s lips hiss with a sudden intake of breath as he sees the first seeds of bruises beginning to sprout on my freckled white skin.

  “Who did this to ye, Sofia?” He growls, his voice hard.

  “Not now,” I murmur, shaking my head. “I’ll take care of it; I’ll tell you, just not now. Now I need you.”

  Kieran grimaces, but does as I ask. I guess he might be thinking of the conversation we just had – the one in which he told me how strong I was: am.

  Kieran dips his head to my stomach. His lips graze a bruise just above my left hip bone, and I flinch from the sudden touch. It doesn’t hurt; but still, I’m tense. Kieran does it for every single bruise he can find, staring into my eyes for each one, never looking away. His lips kiss their way up my skin, until his mouth meets mine once more. He keeps holding me, keeps his arms around me, as though he’s scared I might blow away in the wind.

  I won’t. I’m here. I’m his.

  The last thought that crosses my mind, before Kieran’s fingers stroke my sex, is that I need to open up to Kieran. I need to tell him my secret. He needs to know that he’s going to be a father.

  Just … Not yet.

  17

  Sofia

  There’s only one thought on my mind when I wake up in Kieran’s bed; I need to tell him about the baby. At least, I think that’s what my dream was trying to tell me. After all, there aren’t many ways to interpret a life-sized Kieran wearing a diaper chasing me around my mind all night …

  I pat the mattress to my left. I’m still in that post-sleep haze phase: not ready to open my eyes; not ready to wake up. But the mattress is cold and empty beside me. It’s the shock to my system that I need for my eyelids to finally spring open. I stare at the empty space, where Kieran should be, sparks of indignant outrage firing inside me.

  “Kieran!” I call out, like a petulant child.

  Hell, why shouldn’t I be annoyed? I was looking forward to waking up by Kieran’s side. When I say there is only one thought on my mind, I’m lying. There are two. Before I spoil Kieran’s day, I need to feel his touch on my skin. He makes me come like no one else ever has. I don’t know how he does it. There’s magic in those fingers, and I need it.

  There’s no reply. I sit up in bed, wrinkling my forehead. I have to glance around Kieran’s empty bedroom to make sure that I’m actually here. The walls are so sparse and empty of decoration that I could be anywhere.

  I grab one of Kieran’s pillows to prop up my back, and a small scrap of paper falls through the air. I clutch at it, and open up a note.

  “Duty called,” it reads in neat, cursive school letters. “Help yourself to breakfast. Keys are in the kitchen, might be back late. K.”

  I read it in Kieran’s thick Irish accent. It’s weird to see his perfect, practiced handwriting not show a hint of the slang he speaks with. I drag my fingers across the letters, as if I’m going to tease some more meaning out of them, but it’s a fruitless task.

  “Ah, hell; I guess you’re not getting laid this morning, Sofia.”

  I can’t help but pout.

  I was looking forward to going a couple of rounds underneath Kieran’s hard body. Maybe more than I ought. I guess I shouldn’t get hooked on it, in case he throws me out in the cold when he finds out the secret I’ve been hiding from him. Still, I don’t know how I’m going to stop myself from getting addicted to his touch. Any woman would. Hell, I’m just surprised he’s made it to his mid-20s without a girl getting her claws into him.

  I learned a phrase, once, from the wives of some of the soldiers: “never let go of good dick.” It’s coarse; but it’s all kinds of true. I’ll never find another man who touches me like Kieran, not if I search for the rest of my life.

  I pull myself out of bed, giving my system another shock when I glance at the clock on Kieran’s bedside table. It’s almost eleven in the morning. I never sleep this late. Yesterday must have hit me harder than I thought.

  It doesn’t take long for me to shower. All I have to change into is the same black outfit I was wearing the day before. It’s kind of gross, but I’ll live.

  I can’t help but grin when I step into Kieran’s kitchen. The stainless steel counters are neat and tidy; I wouldn’t be surprised if they’ve never been used to cook a single meal. Kieran Byrne might be a lot of things, but I doubt he’s a chef.

  But the boy can shop.

  The counters are covered in different breakfast items: box after box of cereal; half a dozen different kinds of French pastry; there’s even a box of doughnuts. I’m pretty sure if I check the fridge, I’ll find bacon, eggs, milk: everything I need to eat myself into a coma.

  On any other day, I would. But if I’m not going to get laid this morning, then I can do something nearly as useful.

  I’m going to prevent a war.

  Well, that is, just as soon as I’ve eaten this Danish.

  I haven’t been to the old sports bar in Roxbury since I was a teenager. Papa figured that since we were going to drink anyway, we might as well do it somewhere safe. For him, that meant somewhere populated by two dozen armed men, who were ready to help his favorite – and only – daughter, if she got into a scrape.

  I never did.

  I buy a baseball cap from behind the counter of a convenience store, just before stepping in, and pull it low over my eyes. I don’t figure it’ll take long before they guess who I am, but I want to get the lay of the land first.

  The smell of decades of spilled beer and cigarette smoke is hard to scrub out of a bar. I doubt the owners of the Union would know much about that, though. By the smell of the place, they never bothered finding out.

  Even at lunchtime, the place is half full. It’s a favorite haunt of one of my father’s old lieutenants. If I know Mickey, he’s barely bothered to give Matteo the time of day. I intend to change all that.

  I walk through the bar, hidden underneath a baseball cap and a forest of my own hair. No one pays me the slightest interest.

  “Bottle of Budweiser, please,” I murmur to a bored-looking female bartender. I want something light. If I’m going to tussle wits with Matteo, I need a booster of courage, but nothing that’s going to dull me completely. When she hands it to me, I hand over a couple of dollars extra. The girl doesn’t even break a smile: tough crowd.

  I raise the bottle to my lips, and the first drop of the malty, hoppy liquid explodes on my tongue. I almost spit it out. The bottle falls with a clatter to the surface of the wooden bar as I realize what I alm
ost did.

  Strike one, I groan to myself. I don’t know how I’m going to get used to being pregnant. Most girls get to plan for this moment. Most girls dream about it their entire lives. Not me. The news hit me like an eighteen wheeler: in the back. I straighten myself up, and push the beer as far away as I can.

  From where I’m sitting, up at the bar, I’ve got a good vantage point over the rest of the room. It’s filled with men I half-recognize, and others I’ve known for years. I glance at myself in the mirror. I’m hit with quite a shock.

  I didn’t have any makeup with me this morning, so my face is plain. No hairdryer, so my hair is wild and frizzy. No clean clothes, either. I look like I’ve been tracked through a hedge: backwards. The only bonus is that I look so unlike my normal, carefully manicured self, that I guess I must be hard to spot.

  I bite down on the inside of my lip. I don’t like what that says about me. Have I really cultivated my life so completely that I’m not even a person anymore: just a persona? After all of these years making myself over into the “ice queen”; what’s actually left behind?

  “Sofia Morello,” a man’s low voice rumbles on my left. His own beer bottle thumps against the wooden surface of the bar. I glance towards him and grimace.

  “Matteo,” I sigh, smoothing back my hair. “I guess I wasn’t as stealthy as I hoped.”

  Matteo leans over and wraps me with a hug. He’s got twenty years on me, gray in his hair and a few extra pounds around his stomach since the last time I saw him.

  “Please,” the Italian grins, “In this place? You stick out like a sore thumb. You think a baseball cap is going to change the way you walk?”

  “The way I –?” I sigh: Again: “Never mind. Who spotted me?”

  “That,” Matteo grunts, setting himself down on the stool next to me, “Would be me. Truth told, Sofia, you just can’t get the help these days.”

  He looks around the room, lips curled back in a disapproving snarl.

  “So why are you here, Sofia?” Matteo finally smiles, apparently satisfied that no one is watching us. His men seem too interested in their games of cards, or else staring up at the replay of last night’s game on one of the bar’s many televisions.

  I pick up my own beer, playing with it to buy some time. I don’t let a drop touch my lips. But it’s all part of the act. I’m still wincing at my apparent inability to hide in a room like this. How am I supposed to lead these men if I can’t even hide from them?

  “Papa,” I say, tapping the glass bottle down on the bar, “always spoke well of you.”

  Matteo nods. His face is somber and businesslike now. It lets me know that we’ve started the serious part of the conversation. Not that I needed any hint.

  “Your father was a good man,” Matteo agrees. “But that isn’t what I asked.”

  I glance up at Matteo, surprised by his tone. “You’re right,” I agree, “it wasn’t. It was the question I wanted to answer.”

  “You’ve done it again, Sofia,” Matteo grins. “You ever think about going into politics?”

  “That viper-ridden cesspit?” I smile back, “fat chance. They call us criminals, but…” I turn my palms out in a gesture of disgust.

  Matteo calls for another couple of bottles of beer. I hold mine up in the air, as if to say “don’t bother with me.” This time the bartender moves a lot quicker. She looks at me with renewed interest, and I see the flare in her eyes when she recognizes who I am. Her cheeks flush pink with embarrassment.

  “I’m here because I respect you, Matteo,” I finally say when it becomes clear that my father’s old lieutenant isn’t going to make the first move. “But it’s more than just because I respect you, it’s also because –.”

  “Also because,” Matteo says with a knowing grin, “I control the largest group of fighting men in the Morello family.”

  I nod. “You got me.”

  “Or what was once the Morello Family,” Matteo finishes, arching one eyebrow.

  I look up at him sharply. “What are you saying, Matteo? Speak plainly.”

  “Because it’s you, Sofia, I will,” Matteo says. He looks uncomfortable. “Your brother and his supporters have been around here of late. They are saying some very interesting things; saying some very upsetting things.”

  I grimace. Mickey. He just can’t stop putting his meddling foot in things. It’s like he’s compelled to do it. “The men don’t suffer fools lightly,” I say, grimacing and holding Matteo’s gaze. Kieran’s phrase floats into my head, and it seems to fit.

  Matteo shakes his head. “They don’t.”

  “They won’t die for one, either,” I finish.

  Matteo shakes his head for a second time. “They won’t,” he agrees. “So tell me something, Sofia. Why are you here?”

  That’s the million-dollar question, I think. Mickey is turning Boston into one giant tinderbox, and standing over it with a match. Matteo looks like he is on the brink of breaking away to form his own Family, and we might be days away from war with the Irish. And that’s forgetting that I’m pregnant with Kieran freaking Byrne’s child…

  I drum my fingers against the bar. I hold Matteo’s gaze firmly. I know better than to blink, or to look away. Matteo is old-school. He respects strength and intelligence: and not a whole lot else. I don’t blame him for not respecting my brother. I don’t either. But I need to make a choice.

  If I let Matteo break from the Family, and form his own, then the Family’s fighting power will be reduced by half, maybe even more. We’ll be a minnow in a sea of sharks. Someone will snap us up: if not the Byrnes, then the Templars, or another of the groups currently too scared to enter the city of Boston.

  “I’m glad you asked,” I murmur, speaking like a politician being interviewed to buy myself some time to think.

  Mickey might still start a war, but he would be wiped out. The problem is Matteo’s new Family would be small as well: and just as weak; and, therefore, just as tempting. Breaking the balance of power like that; it’s a recipe for disaster.

  “You want to keep your boys alive, don’t you?” It’s a question in name only. I say it as a statement.

  Matteo looks around the room, his wrinkled eyes softening. “I don’t care about much, Sofia,” he sighs. “My wife and I never could have kids, no matter how we tried. I care about each and every one of these boys as if they were my own sons.”

  This is my opening. I need to seize upon it.

  “They are all going to die,” I say matter-of-factly, spinning my bottle of beer. I’m desperate to keep talking; to say something, anything, but I know I can’t. The shock value of what I just said will disappear if I do. I drag out the silence as long as I dare. “You know that, right? There’s nothing that you can do to stop it: not alone, anyway.”

  Matteo clicks his fingers. Half a dozen men stand up, fingers in waistbands, or else held up by leather belts. Every single one is no more than a few inches from their gun. A narrow-faced man inches forward, as though he’s trying to listen in to my conversation with his boss. I don’t like it, but it’s not like I have a choice.

  “I don’t care for threats, Sofia,” the old mobster growls. The temperature in the room has dropped a dozen degrees, and it’s still falling. I’m on all kinds of thin ice right now. One wrong step and I’ll plunge right through.

  “It’s no threat,” I say, looking at Matteo without a hint of a smile on my face. “It’s the truth, whether you like it or not. You know it is, otherwise you would have broken away from my family already.”

  Matteo winces. He tries to hide it, but I know it’s there. Papa trained me well.

  “We’ll make do,” he grunts, “with or without your psycho brother.”

  “Maybe,” I nod, “but then again, maybe not.”

  Matteo stares up at me sharply. “Speak your mind, Sofia,” he growls; “before I have you thrown out of my bar.”

  I shrug. “Like I said; it wasn’t a threat. They’ll die: you’ll die; I’ll die. I
t’ll be like a damn Oprah show, except with bullets, instead of gift cards.”

  “And it will all be your brother’s fault,” Mickey growls, leaning forward with his teeth bared in anger. “Believe me, Sofia; I don’t want to do this. I made my bones with your father. But Michael is going around town promising grunts the world, if they go to war with him.”

  “I’m not my brother,” I sigh. Inside, my stomach is roiling; but I keep my features calm. This is the moment of truth. I can’t afford to blink: not now. I look up at Matteo – holding his gaze one last time.

  “But I can be better.”

  18

  Sofia

  “We need to talk.”

  I say it again, loosening my fingers from the knots my hands are twisting into. “We need to talk,” I murmur, practicing, staring at my reflection in the mirror. I look like crap, and I know it. I try softening my expression, smoothing over the worry lines, and pretending like there’s nothing wrong.

  But there is.

  There’s a lot wrong.

  I’ve been lying to Kieran, and now my chickens are coming home to roost. No matter how long I’ve spent in front of this mirror since I got back from the bar, there’s nothing I can do to change that simple fact.

  I say it again. “We need to talk.”

  Kieran’s key rattles in the lock. He’s home, and I’m out of time.

  19

  Kieran

  I push the door in with my shoulder. God, I hope I find Sofia still inside. A day of running around, firefighting with Declan has got me pooped. I just want to cook a meal with Sofia – or more likely, have her teach me how – and see what other delights her body has to offer.

  She’s standing right in front of me as I open the door, like the welcoming committee to heaven. I flash an appreciative smile. Damn, she looks good. Sofia must have bought some sweatpants today, but they hug her body so well I don’t care.