Dirty Little Secret: New Adult Rock Star Romance (Not Exactly A Stepbrother Romance Book 1)

by Kristen Strassel

  “That’s crazy. Are you sure this is legal? It doesn’t seem like something Dad would do.” Maybe I had heatstroke. Dad would never leave something like that up in the air. He knew we’d kill each other before we played nice over that kind of money. “Can’t we just split it?”

  “That was the first thing I asked the lawyer. He said, legally, no. It has to be one of the other. You’re both free to contest it, of course.” Mom took off her glasses and tucked the document back into the folder. “Honestly, I’d like to see the two of you work this out. It shocked me too, but I know how much he wanted to see you get along. Maybe this was his way of doing it.”

  Chapter Four

  The clock was ticking. Less than ninety days. Five million dollars. One winner. My dad had concocted the reality show from Hell. But there was no camera crew, no confessional, and no actual competition. Just me versus Bret.

  No way was I letting him get that money. He’d blow it all on his stupid band, drugs, and sleazy sex. I wanted to use it to save animals. I was never one to whine about life being unfair, but this was an excellent example of just that.

  I joined Bret on the back deck. “Did you know about this before Mom read the will?” I asked. He’d stayed home tonight, probably too shell-shocked to go anywhere after that calamity. Unless he was in on the fix the whole time.

  “No. How would I have known about it? The lawyer had the will until today.” Bret curled his lip in disgust. We were polishing off the rest of the rum punch and probably shouldn’t be talking about this tonight. Or ever. It was ridiculous, and we were letting it have power over us.

  “Maybe Dad told you.” I wasn’t backing down from my conspiracy theory. “You’ve been awfully nice to me lately. And…” The way he’d touched me when he put the sunscreen on. I caught myself before I said that out loud, but shivered just thinking about it.

  He slammed his hand on the table. “And what? I’ve been nice to you because we’ve been going through some serious shit lately, and I thought maybe we could be adults and put our past behind us. Not because I was trying to scam Dad’s money out of you.” Bret scoffed, shaking his head. “But if that’s not what you want, fine with me. No love lost here, Gem. And you can kiss that money goodbye. I’ll wipe my ass with it before I let you have it.”

  I couldn’t see Bret anymore. There was just a black hole in the middle of my red-hot rage. “How can I just magically forget everything you’ve done to me? Like poof, it doesn’t exist anymore?”

  “What did I do to you?”

  “Let’s see. You fucked every one of my girlfriends. They’d come crying to me after they figured out you used them…” He’d string them along enough that they’d think he actually cared about them. Every time. The impact hurt like hell when they fell out of the clouds with no warning. I knew, because they landed on me.

  “We were having a good time.” The black hole shrugged. “Maybe they weren’t really your friends in the first place.”

  That comment wasn’t easy to ignore. “Whenever a guy was interested in me, you suddenly became their BFF, and they never talked to me again. I didn’t even have a boyfriend until college.” And then I tore a page out of Bret’s book and made up for lost time in a hurry. What can I say? I learned from the best.

  He leaned forward, smirking. “Did you ever consider maybe they were using you to get to me? That they never wanted you in the first place?”

  Oh, I was going to kill him. “So you’re gay now?”

  “I don’t limit myself, Gem.”

  I scoffed. “That’s for sure.”

  “What’s that supposed to mean?”

  Don’t tell him about the videos. “Nothing.” I took a deep breath and tried to calm down. “Listen, Bret. I need that money. I’m over two hundred thousand dollars in debt from NYU, and I can’t get a job doing anything more than scooping up dog shit until I go to grad school, which is completely out of the question right now.”

  “I need it too. I’m an artist,” Bret said, completely straight faced.

  “You’re an asshole. I had to go to the food pantry before I left New York. Do you know how that feels?”

  “Yeah, actually. I do.”

  “Bullshit, rock star.” He’d been on tour for the better part of two years. He was really going to try to go toe to toe with me on this? No way.

  “The tour was for publicity. Do you know how expensive it is to bring a production of that scale to another continent? The band gets paid last. After the crew, the record label, and the fucking accountants. If we get paid at all. There are days I don’t fucking eat.”

  “Don’t liquid diets count?”

  Bret grinned. “At least I own my choices. We all do what we need to do to get shit done.” His gaze fell back to its regularly scheduled programming. My cleavage. “Are those real?”

  He did not just ask me that. “What?”

  “Your tits.” Oh yes, he did.

  “Really? That’s all you can think about right now?” So typical Bret, to ask me if I had breast implants in the middle of a knock-down, drag-out argument. “And you haven’t stopped looking at them since you got here.”

  He shrugged. “You’ve got great tits.”

  “Of course they’re real. I don’t have any money to modify my body parts. And what’s wrong with you? You’re my stepbrother. I can’t believe you fucking said that.” If he only knew how I thought about him, he’d make my life a living hell.

  “Like I said before, all it means is that my dad married your mom. I never considered you my sister.”

  “Tell me about it.” I had to walk away from him. I didn’t want him to know how much it hurt that I couldn’t have him in any capacity. And even worse, that I wanted him any way I could have him. I leaned against the railing and watched the filter bubble in the pool.

  Bret followed me. No surprise, since he had no regard for boundaries. Or decency. Or anything else civilized people held dear. “I don’t know what you do with your money,” he said softly.

  I turned around to face him. I only came up to his shoulders. His T-shirt strained against his chest, and the heat radiating from his body in the night left dew on my skin. I lifted my chin. “How are we going to do this? We could split it down the middle. Fuck the lawyers. It’s the only thing that makes any sense.”

  Bret shook his head. “That’s no fun. And if Dad wanted that, he would’ve written it in the will that way. He chose this for a reason.”

  “Fine. Whatever. You’re flat broke. So am I. What do you propose?”

  “Exactly what Dad would want us to do. We’re going to work for it. Whoever needs it more gets the money. But whoever wins gets it because they proved they deserved it.”

  Fuck. It was like Dad was here, saying those words. It was exactly what he’d want. I’d always respected his work ethic, and it made me strive to be better. No matter what the sacrifice. If I wanted it that bad, I’d get it. But this was insane. “You’ve got to be kidding me. How are we going to do that?”

  “Let me untie your dress.” That tone was back—the low one that vibrated deep in my body.

  Holy shit.

  “What did you just say to me?” All my nerves instantly went into overdrive. My skin tingled like fireworks breaking in low clouds. I had no idea what the hell he was thinking. The tension between the two of us had been insane since he came home, but I thought it was just me, on edge about the videos. There was no fucking way I was going to do that. Bret lived in a fantasy land, in his tour bus bubble, and this was not how rational adults solved problems.

  No matter what Bret thought about our relationship, we were related. Sure, it was just by marriage, but we called the same man Dad. I looked up at Bret, gearing up to tell him exactly where to go, but I couldn’t say a word when I saw his eyes. Heavy lidded with lust, steely and determined. I knew one thing—Bret was willing to work for what he wanted, too.

  I understood why perfectly sane females turned into putty in his presence. Bret Starling was go
ing to be the death of me.

  He took half a step closer. He knew he had me. “You say you’ve got the real deal going on under there? I want to see them.”

  “You’re disgusting.”

  “And you’re pretty hot when you’re disgusted.” He grinned. “Show me yours, and I’ll show you mine.”

  I rolled my eyes. “I’ve seen your nipples a thousand times.” All I could think about was sucking on those silver rings. Damn it. There was no winning this argument.

  “That’s not what I’m talking about.” He looked down, his tongue playing with the inside of his bottom lip. Electricity danced in his eyes like a heartbeat.

  “I’ve seen that, too. You’ve got your shit all over the internet.” I scoffed, calling his bluff. It was the perfect chance to own up to watching those videos and keep the ball in my court. “Shouldn’t you leak a sex tape if you want to get famous and make money? Isn’t that how it’s done? You don’t make any money on Tumblr, dumbass.”

  Bret stepped even closer to me. “What did you think?” he asked, his voice husky.

  This close to him, I could hardly breathe. He looked down at me, lips parted, waiting for my answer. He managed to completely unravel me without actually doing anything. Besides pissing me off. “I couldn’t stop watching you,” I whispered.

  And there went my lady balls, rolling away from me, along with my self-control and any shred of decency. Right into the gutter, where they belonged.

  He leaned in, and I tried to prepare myself mentally for the kiss. This was insane. What was about to happen would change everything.

  My mouth still hung open, and he ghosted his finger over my bottom lip. It was rough against the tender skin. Calloused from playing guitar and working in the yard. Those fingers were responsible for so much beauty, and it made sense how much I wanted them on my body. I knew what they were capable of. I made a noise that wasn’t quite a moan or a sigh; it was pure surrender. Bret slid two fingers in my mouth and ran them along the line of my bottom teeth. I clamped down on them and sucked as hard as I could, like I was giving him head. Bret moved back and forth, fucking my mouth with his fingers, as I licked and swirled and nipped.

  My pussy throbbed, jealous of all the attention my mouth got. But I didn’t stop, and Bret kept working his fingers. I never noticed his other hand reach behind my neck and untie my dress until the cool air brought my nipples to full salute.

  Bret dragged his fingers away from my tongue, down my chin and throat, until he circled one hard bud. I groaned when he pinched my nipple. I dropped my head back and gripped the railing for dear life. I didn’t trust myself to touch him yet. I needed to know the rules of this game before I broke them.

  He sunk to his knees, scraping his teeth against my other nipple. He stopped the circling to palm my breast. “Yeah, they’re real.” He cupped my breast hard, before taking the other one in his mouth and sucking with the same intensity I’d shown his fingers.

  If Bret knew what to do with his hands, he was a master with his mouth. This would be so much easier if he was terrible at this. He had me seeing stars, and I never responded like this to having my nipples played with. Maybe because this was so forbidden. He was going to make me come with his mouth on my breasts. I bit my lip so hard I drew blood. I couldn’t cry out; my mother was up in her room, sleeping. My mother. I tangled my hands in his hair, pulling hard to get him to stop. There was no speaking in anything more than gibberish.

  He moaned against my nipple, the sensation sending the first wave crashing through my body. Bret rode it with me, squeezing my other breast again. My knees buckled as he sent me over the edge, and my whole body pulsed when he caught me. I fell against him, landing on my knees, panting.

  “You liked that?” he asked. That satisfied smirk was back.

  Liked it? He’d made me come by sucking my nipple. As amazing as that little trick was, I wasn’t going to let him fuck me—literally—out of five mil.

  “It was okay.” I cupped him between his legs. His shaft was rock hard and endless in his shorts. “But I believe the agreement was if I showed you mine, which I did, you’d show me yours?”

  He narrowed his eyes and swallowed hard, while I stroked his shaft through the fabric. “You’re all about agreements now?” he asked. “That involves give and take. I thought you just liked to take. Think you can give it as good as you can get it?”

  I gave him the slowest, sweetest smile I could manage with my tits hanging out and my hand on his cock. “I want to see what the terms are before I agree to anything.”

  Bret clasped me hard by the shoulders. “You know what I’ve got, Gemma.” He growled in my ear. “You just want to see it for yourself.”

  That tone had me squirming under his firm hold. He gasped when I took my hand away from his dick. Sorry, buddy, not so fast. He wanted to work for things, and I was going to hold him to it. I pushed his shirt up the hard ridges of his stomach muscles. “Are those sensitive?” I asked, changing the subject.

  “My nipples?”

  I nodded.

  “Yeah. I always liked having them played with, but with the piercings…” He moaned, maybe because I’d dropped my hand back into his lap.

  “I never paid that much attention to anyone’s before.” I was totally stalling. I’d let Bret get me off, and I was acting like the world’s biggest cock-tease, but I needed a minute. We could stay in the place that was weird with the lust-laced looks and innuendo, but we still hadn’t fucked. Yet. There was no if anymore, only a when. And it scared the shit out of me.

  “That’s pretty shit luck for the guys you’ve slept with.” Bret chuckled. “Not that I’m surprised.”

  Thanks, Bret. You just made it really easy for me to fuck you like I hated you.

  I tickled his chest with my hair, to see how sensitive he really was. Bret took a sharp breath before I circled his areola, catching the ring between my teeth and pulling.

  “Yes,” he hissed, cupping the back of my head with his hand. “Pull as hard as you want. You can’t hurt me.” I squeezed his other nipple, hooking my pinky into the ring, while I nipped and sucked. My other hand still worked his lap, kneading and stroking his shaft. Bret groaned, his head falling back as he pressed my head to his chest. He moved in rhythm with me, pushing and pulling to intensify each sensation. I’d never been with a man as responsive as Bret, and it was so frigging hot. There was no question of what he liked and didn’t like, and it only made me want to push harder. And I’d never been with someone who got off on pain before, and Bret was the perfect place to start. Nothing between us was gentle or loving. This was years of pent-up aggression and pure ambition.

  And I was going to love every second of it.

  Finally freeing his cock from his shorts, I took it in my mouth. The ball of his piercing glowed in the porch light. It wasn’t a traditional Prince Albert, but instead a curved bar that ran underneath the head. I thought it was called a Dolphin. That was what it looked like, anyway. I wasn’t totally up on my dick-piercing terminology, and this was the first time I’d been up close and personal with one. I was pretty excited about it. Those little balls were going to feel amazing rubbing inside of me.

  What the hell was I thinking?

  Stop thinking, Gemma.

  I circled the piercing ball on the underside with my fingernail, and Bret groaned, hanging on to the bottom of the railing. I put the tip of his cock in my mouth, sucking on that silver ball while I continued to play with the other one. In all the videos of Bret fucking his fans, even if they sucked him off, the camera stayed on the girls, showing their reactions. Never on Bret. I’d watched those videos so many times, and I had no idea what it was like for him to be fucked. His body reacted to every little thing. I took him deeper in my mouth, letting the little ball hit the back of my throat, and cupped his balls hard before running my hand and mouth up and down the length of his cock.

  Bret was panting, thrusting his hips up to meet me somewhere in the middle. Our rhythm didn�
�t match, but it worked. I wanted this to be messy and fucked up. I didn’t want to lie to myself about what it really was.

  Bret caught me off guard, gripping my head and pushing it down, so he could fuck my mouth. Now I could match him thrust for thrust, scraping my teeth along the metal balls as they moved across my tongue. He groaned, but he didn’t let me go. I clamped down harder, catching the piercing between my teeth and tugging.

  “Holy shit.” He pulled me up by my hair, flipped me over on my back, and pushed up my skirt. He stopped, looking up to grin at me. “You don’t have any panties on.”

  “It’s too hot.” I shrugged. I desperately wanted to play this cool, but I was losing my mind. Bret had me totally exposed, and my mother could look out the window and catch us at any moment. I should’ve slapped him across the face when he put his fingers in my mouth, but the truth was, I didn’t want this to stop.

  I wondered what I would’ve done differently if had an inkling this was how the night was going to end.

  “You’re a hot little slut, Gemma,” Bret said. He pushed my legs apart and crawled up my body, his mouth falling to my ear. “I didn’t think you had it in you.”

  “Like you can talk about being a slut.” I laughed, grabbing his cock. “There’s something else I don’t have in me right now. I hope to hell you’re going to double bag this thing. I’ve seen where you’ve been. It ain’t pretty.”

  “Of course I’m going to.” Bret rolled back on his knees and retrieved a packet out of his shorts. He rolled the condom down his shaft, and I squeezed my eyes closed as he positioned himself to enter me.

  I was going straight to Hell on a pierced penis magic carpet ride, courtesy of my stepbrother.

  Those hard silver balls felt so good. They hurt a little, more because I wasn’t used to the sensation, but it was a good pain. Bret filled me completely, then pulled out slowly and caged me in once more.