Nothing Else Matters

by Leslie DuBois

"So, you don't find me sexy?" I gave her the same big puppy dog eyes she gave me every time I didn't compliment her on a new outfit.

  "Ugh, you’re insane," she mumbled before storming off.

  Wow, Stu was right. She wouldn't be able to take her own medicine.

  ***

  Reyna waited for Stu as he exited his last class. She had to talk to him. She wasn't concerned about the Amber situation anymore. She was sure they probably had something up their sleeves that she just needed to stay out of. She wanted to find out if Stu had been noticing strange symptoms in Scott as well.

  "Stu," she called as soon as he emerged from the classroom.

  "Hey, Rey," he adjusted his backpack and tucked his jet black hair behind his ear. He looked a lot like Scott when he wore normal clothes and didn't dye his hair. But in his Goth get up no one would ever suspect he and Scott were even related.

  "Do you have any plans? I think we should talk about Scott."

  "I thought you'd never ask."

  They walked together to a coffee shop a couple of blocks away. After settling down in a booth with their drinks, Reyna got right to the point.

  "Have you been noticing anything weird with Scott lately?"

  "Besides the fact that he's finally realized that he's in love with you?"

  Reyna smiled a little, and then took a sip of her decaffeinated tea. She never drank coffee. She had a hard enough time getting to sleep at night. She didn’t need to add caffeine to the problem.

  "No, I mean, yeah. I mean,” she shook her head to clear her thoughts. “I was really referring to his health. Has he had any strange symptoms?"

  Stu looked down into his mug of coffee. He drummed his black painted fingernails against it.

  "What, what is it?" Reyna asked impatiently.

  "I'm actually kind of worried about him. It's not like it's been anything big, it's more like a feeling that something isn't right. He's just not being the same Scott."

  "What do you mean?"

  After taking a sip of coffee, he sighed and said, "He's been sleeping a lot more. Now, an extra hour or two a day is no big deal, but twice in the past two weeks he's slept like an extra six hours. That's just not like him."

  Reyna made a mental note to add fatigue to her list.

  "Anything else?" she asked.

  "Yeah. I think he's in pain. Like a lot of pain. Scott is super strong. If something makes him cringe even when he's trying to hide it from me, it has got to be extremely painful."

  Reyna shook her head. "We gotta do something."

  "What have you noticed?"

  "Well, I know he's in pain. He actually took a shot of Dilaudid to get him through the game last Friday."

  "I don't know what that is, but I assume it's serious."

  "And today he had a bout of uticaria."

  "You gotta lay off the medical terms." Stu set his coffee down, leaned back and crossed his legs.

  "Hives. He had hives all over his chest and a really high fever."

  Stu sighed. "So, what are we gonna do?"

  "If we tell Sam, do you think she'll make him go to a doctor?"

  Stu let out a high-pitched giggle.

  "Sam wouldn't take Scott to a doctor in a situation like this. She'd be too afraid that the doctor would tell him he couldn't play Friday night. The championship game. Your best bet is to wait until next week."

  "I really don't think we should wait that long. I have read about so many diseases that strike people suddenly and kill them within a 72 hour period."

  Stu leaned forward. "You think it's that serious. You think it could be something fatal?"

  Reyna reached into her backpack and pulled out her notebook. She flipped it open and said, "Meningitis, Sepsis or any number of fatal viral diseases could kill him within a few days. Plus, he doesn’t know who his father is. There is no way to trace his medical history. What if he has some sort of genetic disease that needs treatment immediately."

  "Okay, Rey, you're scaring me," he said as his eyes grew large.

  "I'm sorry, I just can't ... I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if something happened to him and I didn't do everything in my power to help him. I can't ignore the symptoms. Not again."

  Stu reached across the table and placed his hand over hers. "Rey, you were only five. There was nothing you could do about your mother."

  Reyna closed her eyes tightly to hold in the tears. Twice in one day. She was crying twice in one day. What was happening to her?

  Stu went over to her side of the booth and wrapped an arm around her, letting her cry on his shoulder. "You and Scott have no idea how much you need each other."

  Chapter 14

  At six o'clock sharp Stu and I showed up at the Sullivan house to pick up Amber for dinner. A full hour before we were supposed to be there. I figured I would feed her some line about missing her too much or some garbage like that.

  "Scott, what the hell?" Amber asked as she opened the door in a towel with her hair soaking wet. "You're like an hour early."

  "Don't you want to see me? I couldn't wait to have dinner with you." Now that much was true. I couldn't wait to see the expression on her face after an evening with the Kincaids. "I just really want you to meet my family," I added.

  "Hey, what's up," Stu said with a nod of the head.

  Amber looked at him for the first time and nearly jumped out of her skin. Or I guess she nearly jumped out of her towel. Stu's black hair, black clothes, and black lipstick really caught her off guard.

  "Oh, this is my little brother, Stu. You've probably seen him around school."

  "Goth guy is your brother?"

  "I have a nickname?” Stu quipped. “Cool!"

  "Yep, he's my brother."

  "Is he coming to dinner with us?" Amber was trying hard to hold in the panic.

  "No."

  "Oh," she sighed.

  "You're coming to dinner with us. I thought you could come to our house since you were so nice as to have me over last night."

  Amber massaged her temples with one hand while holding up the towel with the other. "I gotta get dressed," she said, swinging the door open so Stu and I could enter.

  As soon as we sat on the sofa, little Crystal Sullivan entered the room. She stood at the end of the room for a moment and stared at Stu. I could tell she was trying to make heads or tails of him in her mind. She probably had never seen anything quite like my little brother in her short, sheltered life. After a few moments, she took a few more steps into the room and approached Stu. She stared at him more closely, squinted her eyes and said, "Are you Satan?"

  Stu laughed his high-pitched chuckle. The one he does when something is truly funny. Then he stopped suddenly, looked Crystal directly in the eyes and said, "Yes," with an eerie calmness.

  Crystal screamed and sprinted out of the living room. Seconds later, Mrs. Sullivan came in holding her daughter.

  "Oh, honey, I'm sure he was just kidding. Satan is not sitting in our living room. Scott, did your friend here say he was Satan?"

  "Um, well —"

  "I'm sorry ma'am. Don't blame my brother. I was just kidding. I'm not Satan."

  "See, honey," Mrs. Sullivan reassured her daughter.

  "I just worship him," Stu added. I pretended to cough so as to hold in my laughter as Mrs. Sullivan's eyes grew and her expression froze. Then she slowly backed out of the living room without saying another word.

  After she left, Stu and I did our secret celebratory handshake. This was going to be easier than I thought.

  ***

  Sam wasn't expecting us to bring a visitor for dinner. It wouldn't have mattered anyway. She wouldn't have changed the menu. Carbs, carbs, carbs. Pasta with no sauce, rolls, lentil beans, rice, steamed vegetables for balance, and bran muffins for dessert. Stu usually managed to smuggle in some Burger King for me, but that night we decided just to ride Sam's Crazy train.

  "What's the matter? You don't like my cooking?" Sam asked as she stared at Amber's untouched paper plate of f
ood. We had real plates, but Sam refused to use them, claiming she didn't have time to do dishes. I was excused from doing dishes because, hey, I was Scott. I needed to train. And the last time she had asked or commanded that Stu do dishes, he invited his friends over and used the cups and plates for paintball gun target practice. So real dishes were only used for special guests. Amber apparently wasn't special enough.

  "Oh, no your cooking is delicious. I'm ... uh ... I'm just on a diet," Amber lied. "Yeah, I'm on a diet." She smiled politely and pushed her food away.

  Sam huffed, and then eyed her up and down. She even dipped her head under the table to get a look at her legs. "You should not be on a diet. You have the worst muscle definition I've ever seen. Well, except on Stuart." Stu glared at her, but bit his tongue. I knew he'd get her back for that remark before the end of the night. "You need to lift some weights and build up your upper body strength." My mother stood and started pulling her hair back into a tight ponytail. I cringed inside knowing where her line of thought was going. "Stand up," she ordered Amber.

  "What?" Amber looked at me, then Stu, then back to me. She looked more terrified than a kitten in a room filled with rocking chairs.

  "You heard me. Stand up. Let me see what you got."

  Amber slowly rose from the table as Sam walked over to the counter separating the kitchen from the dining room and assumed the standard arm wrestling position.

  Amber looked at me again, pleading with me with her eyes. She desperately wanted me to get her out of this. I clasped my hands behind my head and leaned back in my chair as I thought about the barrage of questions her father had fired at me the night before. Ah, revenge was sweet.

  Sam won within seconds, and then forced her into three more matches. By the time Amber returned to her seat, she was rubbing her shoulder in pain.

  "That was a pathetic showing, little girl," Sam said before shoveling pasta into her mouth. "Before you go I'm gonna let you borrow some free weights so you can work on that." Actually, what she said sounded more like gibberish because her mouth was full of food, but I was more than happy to translate for Amber. "I mean, any woman who wants a future with Scott has to at least be able to hold their own against me. Do you know I’ve placed in the top ten of my last six marathons?”

  Amber nodded her head and tried to seem impressed.

  “I’m poised to win one in Italy next week. I’ve been training meticulously for six months. I only make Scott do one triple five a day. I do three. Does she know what a triple five is?” she asked, pointing to Amber with her elbow. I quickly explained before my mother added, “You should join us some time. You need to work out. I don’t want any weak grandchildren. That reminds me." Sam jumped up and retrieved a small jar from the cupboard. After placing it in front of me, she said, "Go take a piss."

  Amber's eyes bulged as I stood from the table, unbuckled my pants, and headed to the bathroom.

  On my way back, I caught Stu stuffing his nose in Amber's hair and saying, "Can I borrow your shampoo? I can come by and get it myself. I know where you live." Amber cringed. And before she had time to recover from that I slammed my jar of urine right on the dinner table.

  Amber covered her mouth and gagged.

  "What's your problem?" Sam asked, taking offense to Amber's reaction. She probably thought Amber was criticizing her cooking again.

  "Nothing. I'm fine, Mrs. Kincaid," Amber said after swallowing hard.

  "Mrs.? Do you see any ring on this finger?"

  "No, I just assumed you were married at some point. Maybe to Scott's father or something." Amber scrunched down, trying to disappear into her chair.

  Stu and I exchanged glances. We hoped Sam would ignore the father comment and not go into any details, but we knew our mother. We knew what was about to happen.

  "Please, I've never even met Scott's father. I picked him out of a catalogue."

  Amber's lips parted, but no words formed. A confused expression befell her face as she turned to stare at me.

  "Sperm donor." Sam offered as explanation. I'd dealt with the reality of being a test-tube baby years ago, but it still kind of hurt the way my mother was so willing to bring it up in front of a virtual stranger. "Yep, I searched for three months for the perfect athletic specimen. I even had the clinic ask a few men to come back in and test for their body mass index. Can you believe they don't test for that in the first place?"

  I felt heat rising to my neck. I knew Sam was insane, but how could she be so cold and callous about her own child's parentage? It was like she didn't care that she had practically turned me into a science experiment.

  Stu must have sensed my discomfort because he decided to turn the tables. "At least your father has credentials, Scott. I'm the product of Sam's drunken one night stand after she lost yet another race."

  "Stuart!" my mother yelled, anger rising.

  "What? Am I lying? Who was it that beat you that time, Sam? Was it one of those genetically enhanced Kenyans?" Stu waved his hands in the air as if he was talking about the boogieman.

  "Don't you need to go find a pretty little dress to match your lipstick or something?"

  "Yeah, I'll get right on that after I write you a love song. I think I'll call it 'Son of Sam.' It'll be about how my mother turned me into a serial killer."

  "Go to your room!" she yelled, slamming her fist into the table.

  "Gladly!" Stu pushed away from the table, and then bolted upstairs.

  ***

  Amber was abnormally silent on the drive home. Instead of asking what she was thinking about or what was bothering her, I kept yammering on about a possible cross country trip to California to visit Cal State Fullerton with me, her and Sam. She was probably imagining having to stop every hundred miles or so to get out of the car and do push-ups.

  When we pulled up in front of her house, she turned to me and said, "I really don't think this is going to work, Scott. I think we need some time apart to ... to think about our relationship." Then she jumped out of the car and dashed into her mansion.

  And that was that.

  ***

  Unable to contain my excitement, I went straight to see Reyna. I scaled the side of her house and entered her window to find her crying on her bed. I crawled in next to her and spooned her. I pressed my body close to hers and wrapped my arm around her waist. I didn't know why she was crying, but I knew I wanted to comfort her. I wanted her to feel better. When she hurt, I hurt. And it was a pain greater than any of the mysterious symptoms that had arisen in my body.

  When her tears subsided, I finally asked her what was wrong.

  "If I had just told someone that I thought she was sick, maybe they would have taken her to a doctor. But I didn't say anything until it was too late.” She spoke in short bursts trying to hold back another onslaught of tears.

  "You were only five," I told her, knowing she was talking about her mother.

  "All the signs were there, fever, delirium, chills, and that damn bruise that just kept growing."

  "Reyna, you were only five." I kissed her neck and squeezed her tighter.

  "Daddy told me to take care of her and I didn't."

  Reyna and her family had been living in a small town in Puerto Rico when her mother injured her ankle during a friendly game of soccer. Walter had to return to the states to attend to some business and decided to leave Francesca and Reyna behind so that his wife could recover. Francesca then developed an infection in her ankle that spread to her blood stream and killed her less than a week later.

  I think that was what motivated Reyna's desire to be a doctor. She always felt if she had been trained to recognize the symptoms she could have saved her mother's life. She was absolutely dedicated to making sure people got proper medical treatment.

  "You have to go to a doctor, Scott," she said, turning to face me. “I don't know what I would do if something happened to you and I didn't do something to help you."

  I brushed my lips against hers and felt that familiar electric thrill sa
il through my body. I had no idea one human being could fulfill another so much. I felt like a missing piece of me had been returned.

  "Amber dumped me," I whispered into her neck, trying to change the subject. "Stu's plan worked."

  Reyna pulled away from me on the bed. "I don't care about Amber. I care about you."

  "Okay, Okay, I'll go to a doctor."

  "Tomorrow?"

  "Rey, between school, football practice, and voting, there's no way I'll have time. You know I can't miss school. I won't be able to play in the championship on Friday."

  "Wednesday then. Right after school."

  "Okay."

  "Promise me, Scottie." She sat up and searched my eyes intently.

  "I'll promise to go to a doctor on one condition.”

  “What?”

  “You have to sleep with me tonight.”

  “What!” she screeched as she leaped off the bed.

  “No, no, not like that,” I said, sitting up. That didn’t come out they way I planned. “I didn’t mean –” I stopped and took a deep breath. She was completely misunderstanding me. “I mean sleep, actually sleep, in my arms. I’ve known you for six years and I’ve never seen you sleep.”

  Reyna eyed me suspiciously. “All I have to do is fall asleep and you’ll go to the doctor?”

  I nodded and held out my arms to her. Cautiously, she entered my embrace.

  ***

  That night, Reyna fell asleep. I watched her chest move up and down in slow rhythmic swells. I brushed my thumb across her lips and watched them slowly curve into a grin. Then I prayed, for the first time in my life, I think. I prayed that God would not let something be terribly wrong with me and take me away from my soul mate when I had just realized she was always there.

  ***

  Reyna found it surprisingly easy to fall asleep in Scott’s arms. She didn’t worry about grades or tests and she certainly didn’t have one of her recurring dreams about dying young. In Scott’s arms, she was at peace. She woke refreshed and looked over to where Scott had lain for probably most of the night wishing he was still there. But she knew he had to get back home before Sam woke him for his morning run and urine test.