The Return: Midnight tvd-7

by Лиза Джейн Смит

  “Pin” was a good word. Elena liked the sound of it. Even as she was staring at the sharp recurved barbs on the branches, meant to keep anything caught by them held permanently in the ground, she was thinking of Damon’s annoyance if a shaft had pierced his leather jacket. He would curse at them, and Bonnie would try to pretend he hadn’t — and…

  She was close enough by now to see that it wasn’t as simple as that. The branch, which was proper javelin size, had gone through Damon’s shoulder, which must hurt like hell, in addition to having splattered a blood drop right at the corner of his mouth. But far more annoying than that was the fact that he had closed his eyes against her. That was how Elena thought of it. He was shutting them out deliberately — maybe because he was angry; maybe because of the pain in his shoulder. But it reminded her of the steel wall feeling she’d gotten the last time she’d tried to touch his mind — and, damn, couldn’t he tell he was scaring them?

  “Open your eyes, Damon,” she said, flushing, because that was what he wanted her to say. He really was the greatest manipulator of all. “Open your eyes, I said!”

  Now she was really irritated. “Don’t play possum, because you’re not fooling anyone, and we’ve really had enough!” She was about to shake him hard when something lifted her into the air, into Stefan’s line of vision.

  Stefan was in pain, but surely not as badly as Damon, so she was looking back to curse Damon when Stefan said harshly, “Elena, he can’t!”

  For just the tiniest fleeting instant the words sounded like nonsense to her. Not only garbled, but meaningless, like saying someone couldn’t stop their appendix from doing — whatever it was an appendix did. That was all the respite that she got, and then she had to deal with what her eyes were showing her.

  Damon wasn’t pinned by his shoulder. He’d been staked, just slightly to the left of center of his torso.

  Exactly where his heart was.

  Words drifted back to her. Words that someone had once said — although she couldn’t remember who right now. “You can’t kill a vampire so easily. We only die if you stake us through the heart….”

  Die? Damon die? This was some kind of mistake…

  “Open your eyes!” “Elena, he can’t!”

  But she knew, without knowing how, that Damon wasn’t dead. She wasn’t surprised that Stefan didn’t know it; it was a hum on a private frequency between her and Damon.

  “Come on, hurry, give me your axe,” she said, so desperately, and with such an air of knowledge that Stefan handed it over wordlessly, and obeyed when she told him to steady the curving spider-leg branch from above and below. Then with a few quick strokes of the axe she cut through the black branch that was thick enough in circumference that she couldn’t have clasped her fingers around it. It was done in a spurt of pure adrenaline, but she knew it awed Stefan and allowed him to let her continue doing it.

  When she was finished, she had a loose spider-leg branch that drooped back to the tree, anchored to nothing — and something that looked more like a proper stake in Damon.

  It wasn’t until she began pulling upward on the stake that a horrified Stefan made her stop.

  “Elena! Elena, I wouldn’t lie to you! This is just what these branches are for. For intruders who are vampires. Look, love — see.” He was showing her another of the spider legs that was anchored in the sand, and the barbs on it. Just like the backward-facing tines of a primitive stone arrowhead.

  “These branches are meant to be like this,” Stefan was saying. “And if you pulled up on it hard enough, you’d just — just end up pulling out chunks of — his heart.”

  Elena froze. She wasn’t sure she really could understand the words — she couldn’t allow herself to, or she might picture it. But it didn’t matter.

  “I’ll destroy it some other way,” she said shortly, looking at Stefan but not able to see the true green of his eyes because of the olive light. “You wait. Just wait and watch. I’ll find a Wings power that will dissolve this — this — damned abomination.”

  She could think of many other words to call the stake, but she had to stay in some sort of control.

  “Elena.” Stefan whispered her name as if he could barely get it out. Even in the twilight she could see the tears on his cheeks. He continued, nonverbally, Elena, look at his closed eyes. This Tree is a vicious killer, with wood like nothing I’ve ever seen, but I’ve heard about it. It’s…it’s spreading. Inside him.

  “Inside him?” Elena repeated stupidly.

  Along his arteries and veins — and his nerves — everything connected to his heart. He’s — oh, God, Elena, just look at his eyes!

  Elena looked. Stefan had knelt and gently pulled up the lids of Damon’s eyes and Elena began screaming.

  Deep in the fathomless pupils that had held endless night skies full of stars, there was a glimmer — not of starlight, but of green. It seemed to glow with its own hellish luminescence.

  Stefan looked at her with agony and compassion. And now, with one gentle pass, Stefan was closing those eyes — forever, she knew he was thinking.

  Everything had become strange and dreamlike. Nothing made sense anymore.

  Stefan was carefully laying Damon’s head down — he was letting Damon go.

  Even in her fuzzy world of nonsense Elena knew she could never do that.

  And then, a miracle happened. Elena heard a voice in her mind that wasn’t hers.

  All this is rather unexpected. I acted, for once, without thinking. And this is my reward. The voice was a hum on their private frequency, Damon’s and hers.

  Elena ripped herself away from Stefan, who was trying to restrain her, and fell, grasping Damon’s shoulders with her hands. I knew it! I knew you couldn’t be dead!

  It was only then that she realized that her face was dripping wet, and she used her soft leather sleeve to wipe it. Oh, Damon, you gave me such a scare! Don’t you ever, ever do that again!

  I think I can give my word on that, Damon sent — in different tones than his usual ones — sober but at the same time whimsical. But you have to give me something in return.

  Yes, of course, Elena said. Just let me get some of my hair off my neck. It worked best like this when Stefan was lying down — when we were carrying him out on his pallet from the prisonNot that, Damon told her. For once, angel, I don’t want your blood. I need you to give me your most solemn word that you will try to be brave. If it helps at all, I know that females are better than males at this sort of thing. They’re less cowardly at facing — what you have to face now.

  Elena didn’t like the tone of these words. The dizziness that was making her lips numb was traveling all over her body. There was nothing to be brave about. Damon could stand pain. She would find a Wings power that would obliterate all that wood that was poisoning him. It might hurt, but it would save his life.

  Don’t talk to me like that! she snapped harshly, before she could remember to be gentle. Everything had begun to float, and she couldn’t even remember why she had to be gentle, but there was a reason. Still, it was difficult, when she was using every ounce of her concentration and strength to search for a Wings power she had never heard of. Purification? Would that take away the wood or would it just leave Damon without his wicked smile? There was no harm in trying it, anyway, and she was getting desperate — because Damon’s face was so pale.

  But even the stance for Wings of Purification eluded her.

  Suddenly, a huge shudder — a convulsion — went through Damon’s entire body.

  Elena heard broken words behind her.

  “Love, love — you really have to let him go. He’s living in — in intolerable pain, just because you’re keeping him here,” the voice said, and it was Stefan’s. Stefan, who would never lie to her.

  For just an instant Elena wavered, but then a blazing rage came rushing up through her body. It gave her the strength to cry hoarsely, “I…won’t! I won’t ever let him go! Damn you, Damon, you have to fight! Let me help you! My blo
od — it’s special. It’ll give you strength. You drink it!”

  She fumbled for her knife. Her blood was magical. Maybe if she gave enough, it would give Damon the strength to fight off the wooden fibers that were still spreading through his body.

  Elena slashed at her throat. Maybe subconsciously she avoided doing more than nicking her carotid artery, but if so it was entirely subconsciously. She simply reached down, found a metal knife, and with one sweep set the blood to gushing out. Bright red arterial blood, that even in the semi-darkness was the color of hope.

  “Here, Damon. Here! Drink this. As much as you want — all you need to heal yourself.” She got into the best position that she could, hearing but not hearing Stefan’s horrified gasp behind her at the recklessness of her slashing, not heeding his grip on her.

  But — Damon didn’t drink. Not even the heady blood of his Princess of Darkness — and how did the phrase go? It was like rocket fuel compared to the gasoline found in other girls’ veins. Now it just ran out of the sides of his mouth. It flowed onto his pale face, soaking his black shirt and pooling in his leather jacket.

  No…

  Damon, Elena sent, please. I’m — begging you. Please. I’m begging you for me, for Elena. Please drink. We can do this — together.

  Damon didn’t move. Blood spilled into the mouth she’d opened and it filled and spilled out again. It was as if Damon were taunting her, saying, “You wanted me to give up human blood? Well, I have — forever.”

  Oh, dear God, please…

  Elena was dizzier than ever now. Outside events passed dimly around her, like an ocean that only slightly bobbed a person out deep in the swells. She was entirely focused on Damon.

  But one thing she did feel. Her bravery — Damon had been wrong about that.

  Huge sobs were rising from somewhere deep inside her. She had made Stefan let go of her and now she couldn’t hold herself up any longer.

  She fell right on top of her blood and Damon’s body. Her cheek fell against his cheek.

  And his cheek was cold. Even under the blood, it was cold.

  Elena never knew when the hysterics began. She simply found herself shrieking and sobbing, beating on Damon’s shoulders, cursing him. She had never properly cursed him before, not directly to his face. As for the shrieking, that wasn’t just a sound. She was once again screaming at him to find some way to fight.

  And finally, she began the promises. Promises that deep in her heart, she now knew were lies. She was going to find a way to fix him in a moment. She already felt a new Wings power coming to save him.

  Anything so as to not face the truth.

  “Damon? Please?” It was an interlude in the shrieking, when she was talking softly in her new husky, hoarse voice. “Damon, just do one thing for me. Just squeeze my hand. I know you can do that. Just squeeze one of my hands.”

  But there was no pressure on either of her hands. Only blood that was turning sticky.

  And then the miracle happened and she once again heard Damon’s voice — very faintly — in her head.

  Elena? Don’t…cry, darling. It’s not…as bad as Stefan said. I don’t feel much of anything, except on my face. I…feel your tears. No more weeping…please, angel.

  Because of the miracle, Elena steadied herself. He’d called Stefan “Stefan” and not “little brother.” But she had other things to think about right now. He could still feel things on his face! This was important information, valuable information. Elena immediately cupped his cheeks with her hands and kissed him on the lips.

  I just kissed you. I’m kissing you again. Can you feel that?

  Forever, Elena, Damon said. I’ll…take that with me. It’s part of me now…do you see?

  Elena didn’t want to see. She kissed his lips — icy cold — again. And again.

  She wanted to give him something else. Something good to think about. Damon, do you remember when we first met? At school, after the lights went out, when I was measuring for the Haunted House decorations. I almost let you kiss me then — before I even knew your name — when you just came drifting out of the darkness.

  Damon surprised her by answering immediately. Yes…and you…you astonished me by being the first girl I couldn’t Influence right away. We had…fun together — didn’t we? Some good times? We went to a party…and we danced together. I’ll take that with me too.

  Through her daze, Elena had one thought. Don’t confuse him anymore. They’d gone to that “party” only to save Stefan’s life. She told him, We had fun. You’re a good dancer. Imagine us waltzing!

  Damon sent slowly, fuzzily, I’m sorry…I’ve been so horrible lately. Tell…her that. Bonnie. Tell her…

  Elena steadied herself. I’ll tell her. I’m kissing you again. Can you feel me kissing you?

  It was a rhetorical question, so she got a shock, when Damon only answered slowly and sleepily. Did I…take a vow to tell you the truth?

  Yes, Elena lied instantly. She needed the truth from him.

  Then…no, to be honest…I can’t. I don’t seem to have…a body now. It’s comfortable and warm, and nothing hurts anymore. And — I almost feel as if I’m not alone. Don’t laugh.

  You’re not alone! Oh, Damon, don’t you know that? I’ll never, ever let you be alone. Elena choked, wondering how to make him believe her. Just for a few more seconds…now.

  Here, she sent in a telepathic whisper, I’ll give you my precious secret. I’ll never tell anyone else. Do you remember the motel we stayed in on our road trip, and how everyone — even you — wondered what happened that night?

  A…motel? A road trip? He was sounding very unsure now. Oh…yes. I remember. And…the next morning — wondering.

  Because Shinichi took your memories, Elena said, hoping that hateful name would revivify Damon. But it didn’t. Like Shinichi, Damon was done with the world now.

  Elena leaned her cheek against his cold and bloody one. I held you, darling, just like this — well, almost like this. All night. That was all you wanted, to not feel alone.

  There was a long pause and Elena began to panic in the few parts of her that were not numb or already hysterical. But then the words came slowly to her.

  Thank you…Elena. Thank you…for telling me your precious secret.

  Yes, and I’ll tell you something even more precious. No one is alone. Not really. No one is ever alone.

  You’re with me…so warm…nothing to worry about anymore…

  Nothing more, Elena promised him. And I’ll always be with you. No one is alone; I promise it.

  Elena…things are beginning to feel strange now. Not pain. But I have to tell you…what I know you already know…. How I fell in love with you…you’ll remember, won’t you? You won’t forget me?

  Forget you? How could I ever forget you?

  But Damon was speaking on and suddenly Elena knew that he couldn’t hear her, not even by telepathy anymore.

  Will you remember? For me? Just that…I loved once — just once, really, in my whole life. Can you remember that I loved you? That makes my life…worth… something… His voice faded.

  Elena was so dizzy now. She knew she was still losing blood fast. Too fast. Her mind was not sharp. And she was suddenly shaken by a fresh storm of sobbing. At least she would never yell again — there was no one to yell at. Damon had gone away. He had run away without her.

  She wanted to follow. Nothing was real. Didn’t he understand? She could not imagine a universe, no matter how many dimensions there were, without a Damon in it. There was no world for her, if there was no Damon.

  He couldn’t do this to her.

  Neither knowing nor caring what she was doing, she plunged deep, deep into Damon’s mind, wielding her telepathy like a sword, slashing at the wooden connections that she found everywhere. And, at last, she found herself plunging into the very deepest part of him…where a little boy, the metaphor for Damon’s unconscious, had once been loaded with chains and set to guard the great stone that Damon kept his fee
lings locked in.

  Oh, God, he must be so frightened, she thought. Whatever the cost, he must not be allowed to go away frightened….

  Now she saw him. The child-Damon. As always, she could see in the sweetly rounded face, the sharp-cheekboned young man that Damon would become, in the wide black eyes, the potential for his look of fathomless darkness.

  But although he was not smiling, the child’s look was open and welcoming, in a way that Damon’s older self had never been. And the chains…the chains were gone. The great stone was gone too.

  “I knew you’d come,” the boy whispered, and Elena took him into her arms.

  Easy, Elena told herself. Easy. He’s not real. He’s what’s left of Damon’s mind, the deepest part of his hindbrain. But still, he’s even younger than Margaret, and he’s just as soft and warm. No matter what, please God, don’t let him know what’s really happening to him.

  But there was knowledge in the wide, dark child eyes that turned up to her face.

  “I’m so glad to see you,” he confided. “I thought that I might never talk to you again.

  And — he — you know — he left some messages with me. I don’t think he could say anything more, so he sent them to me.”

  Elena understood. If there was anywhere the wood had not reached, it was into this last part of the brain, the most primitive part. Damon still could speak to herthrough this infant.

  But before she could speak herself, she saw that there were tears in the child’s eyes and then his body spasmed and he bit his lip very hard — to keep from crying out, she guessed.

  “Does it hurt?” she asked, trying to believe that it didn’t. Desperate to believe it.

  “Not so much.” But he was lying, she realized. Still, he hadn’t shed any tears. He had his pride, this child-Damon.

  “I have a special message for you,” he said. “He told me to tell you that he’ll always be with you. And that you’re never alone. That no one is really alone.”